Jennifer-GWN
03-13-2016, 08:30 PM
I'll start this post with a bit of tongue and cheek...
I've been traveling for the past 10days on the west coast with a wide variety of highlights which I'll touch on later but the pivotal moment came on Friday evening at dinner.
Friday evening after a considerably long day on the job had the pleasure to have dinner in San Francisco with Melissa*2. Translation Melissa (aka Zooey) and the special invited guest Melissa (aka BadTranny).
I'd been looking forward to meeting BT for some time as I've been quite sensitive to the notion of seeing is believing given a few past experiences on this site which has made many very cautious.
Can say I came away with I think the stamp of approval...
258732
So I've been certified... seemingly trivial but at the same time means a great deal in profound ways beyond the associated laugh we had at dinner.
This week and just concluded weekend was pretty special for me beyond the seemingly levity of being certificated.
I met Karen (aka karenpayneoregon) while in Oregon last weekend and her Cis friend (everyone needs a solid Cis friend) who help relieve some apprehensions around SRS. We had a chance just to hang out for a bit and just chat; girls at the mall chat.
I met Jennifer (aka jenniferathome) after a long day in the office in Portland and a flight to San Jose (I wont say how I got there but will say yes I'm spoiled). Jennifer and I had a very nice dinner out; again just 2 women out for dinner talking about family, kids, interests, and whatever else with no concerns about those around us (as it should be). She posted an introspective view here... http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?237914-A-noticeable-change-in-being-out-now
Friday evening after a considerably long day on the job had the pleasure to have dinner in San Francisco with Melissa*2. Translation Melissa (aka Zooey) and the special invited guest Melissa (aka Bad Tranny). This dinner was what sparked my side trip to San Francisco / San Jose to begin with. I'd been looking forward to meeting BT for some time since I'd skyped with her in the past but she appeared to remain cautiously optimistic regarding "true" status. I think we put that question to rest.
We had a lovely evening, ate considerably more than 3 ladies should in the end. There was no end of thought provoking conversation that spanned a wide spectrum which always results for me in much thought and introspection later.
The icing on the cake; which surprisingly came with a cherry on the top as well, was a Saturday afternoon and evening with Suzanne (the icing ... aka Suzanne F) and Ally (the cherry on top... aka AllySF). This was meetup just reinforced the fact that this forum is full of really solid GOOD MEANING PEOPLE who like to go out and enjoy the company of others and meet new people.
We all have interesting backgrounds and experiences, we are all trying to figure out ourselves and our place in society, we have our struggles, and our triumphs. In the end we are just trying to live our lives authentically irrespective of the paths we've taken and the choices we've made.
This week for me brought to the forefront the realization, with or without certification {grin} I've made it and solidly landed on my feet. I get up every morning and go about my day the way it should have been for so many years.
I continue to have struggles and hangups; everyone has these. Putting them aside; at the end of the day, the way I feel in who I've become makes these minuscule in the grand scheme of things.
I've said it before be true to yourself; whichever path you take. Life is far to short to squander on worries and fear, or doubt.
For me this week solidified the profound changes in my life over the past 12 months since coming out and going full time. It wasn't until this weekend that I realized the significance and gravity of that statement. I know categorically; that I'll not take what I feel for granted ever. The changes and differences are far too profound and its taken me the year to have this really truly sink it. Looking back yes going full time was big, getting my name change was equally big albeit drawn out, however, stability in authenticity is by far the best and most satisfying feeling.
My signature line stands firm (surprises me knowing when I wrote it initially) ... I am who I am... I'm happy...I mean truly to the bone happy...and at peace with myself. I'm confident and content as the woman I am.
I've had a fabulous week and weekend. Established new friendships, taken existing friendships to new levels, and in the process also learned more about myself.
I love my life now, I love who I've grown to become, and I cherish the moments that I get to spend with friend as I travel.
Cheers... Jennifer
I've been traveling for the past 10days on the west coast with a wide variety of highlights which I'll touch on later but the pivotal moment came on Friday evening at dinner.
Friday evening after a considerably long day on the job had the pleasure to have dinner in San Francisco with Melissa*2. Translation Melissa (aka Zooey) and the special invited guest Melissa (aka BadTranny).
I'd been looking forward to meeting BT for some time as I've been quite sensitive to the notion of seeing is believing given a few past experiences on this site which has made many very cautious.
Can say I came away with I think the stamp of approval...
258732
So I've been certified... seemingly trivial but at the same time means a great deal in profound ways beyond the associated laugh we had at dinner.
This week and just concluded weekend was pretty special for me beyond the seemingly levity of being certificated.
I met Karen (aka karenpayneoregon) while in Oregon last weekend and her Cis friend (everyone needs a solid Cis friend) who help relieve some apprehensions around SRS. We had a chance just to hang out for a bit and just chat; girls at the mall chat.
I met Jennifer (aka jenniferathome) after a long day in the office in Portland and a flight to San Jose (I wont say how I got there but will say yes I'm spoiled). Jennifer and I had a very nice dinner out; again just 2 women out for dinner talking about family, kids, interests, and whatever else with no concerns about those around us (as it should be). She posted an introspective view here... http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?237914-A-noticeable-change-in-being-out-now
Friday evening after a considerably long day on the job had the pleasure to have dinner in San Francisco with Melissa*2. Translation Melissa (aka Zooey) and the special invited guest Melissa (aka Bad Tranny). This dinner was what sparked my side trip to San Francisco / San Jose to begin with. I'd been looking forward to meeting BT for some time since I'd skyped with her in the past but she appeared to remain cautiously optimistic regarding "true" status. I think we put that question to rest.
We had a lovely evening, ate considerably more than 3 ladies should in the end. There was no end of thought provoking conversation that spanned a wide spectrum which always results for me in much thought and introspection later.
The icing on the cake; which surprisingly came with a cherry on the top as well, was a Saturday afternoon and evening with Suzanne (the icing ... aka Suzanne F) and Ally (the cherry on top... aka AllySF). This was meetup just reinforced the fact that this forum is full of really solid GOOD MEANING PEOPLE who like to go out and enjoy the company of others and meet new people.
We all have interesting backgrounds and experiences, we are all trying to figure out ourselves and our place in society, we have our struggles, and our triumphs. In the end we are just trying to live our lives authentically irrespective of the paths we've taken and the choices we've made.
This week for me brought to the forefront the realization, with or without certification {grin} I've made it and solidly landed on my feet. I get up every morning and go about my day the way it should have been for so many years.
I continue to have struggles and hangups; everyone has these. Putting them aside; at the end of the day, the way I feel in who I've become makes these minuscule in the grand scheme of things.
I've said it before be true to yourself; whichever path you take. Life is far to short to squander on worries and fear, or doubt.
For me this week solidified the profound changes in my life over the past 12 months since coming out and going full time. It wasn't until this weekend that I realized the significance and gravity of that statement. I know categorically; that I'll not take what I feel for granted ever. The changes and differences are far too profound and its taken me the year to have this really truly sink it. Looking back yes going full time was big, getting my name change was equally big albeit drawn out, however, stability in authenticity is by far the best and most satisfying feeling.
My signature line stands firm (surprises me knowing when I wrote it initially) ... I am who I am... I'm happy...I mean truly to the bone happy...and at peace with myself. I'm confident and content as the woman I am.
I've had a fabulous week and weekend. Established new friendships, taken existing friendships to new levels, and in the process also learned more about myself.
I love my life now, I love who I've grown to become, and I cherish the moments that I get to spend with friend as I travel.
Cheers... Jennifer