I Am Paula
03-25-2016, 11:02 AM
This morning Facebook reminded me that it was two years ago today that Canada legally recognized me as a woman. I sat in a parking lot and cried pure happiness on my way to my endo's office to show them my new health card. The whole staff applauded. I cried again.
Two years. Wow. So much has happened. I got boobs. My hair grew to the point I had a bunch cut off. Most important- I am me now. I don't think about gender much, unless I'm with my trans friends. Every single aspect of my life is just me. Paula. Woman.
I don't remember crossing a bridge. There wasn't a day that I said 'I'm no longer playing the part of a woman'. I just am.
Funny. I have one little part of my regimen every night. As I take off my make-up, and get ready for bed, I look in the mirror, and say 'You won'.
Two years. Wow. So much has happened. I got boobs. My hair grew to the point I had a bunch cut off. Most important- I am me now. I don't think about gender much, unless I'm with my trans friends. Every single aspect of my life is just me. Paula. Woman.
I don't remember crossing a bridge. There wasn't a day that I said 'I'm no longer playing the part of a woman'. I just am.
Funny. I have one little part of my regimen every night. As I take off my make-up, and get ready for bed, I look in the mirror, and say 'You won'.