rachel1985
06-10-2016, 01:01 PM
Hey all,
I thought I'd post this, since it's been such an emotional week.
I've been talking to this girl, lovely, beautiful, open minded and everything, but she started asking never-before-asked questions, so as part of that, I answered them honestly, but hid my real identity, until she told me a few things which forced my hand. Telling her of my infertility and my true identity.
Needless to say I've gone from prospective partner, to friend within the night.
Anyway, on Tuesday, I sat at my desk, burst into tears (fortunately I'm in my own office). Once I dried my eyes, I sat and thought with "clarity" about my next steps.
Too ashamed and incredibly protective (and proud) of my boss and the company I work for, I begun writing my notice of resignation which once again made me cry.
Getting so far into it, the tears were too much, so I focused at my job, saved and closed the letter and cracked on with what I needed to.
Moving forward, I finished writing the notice, and handed it in today.
Within a few hours my boss called me into a meeting, making me cry again.
However, this time, I explained what happened some time ago (when I first came out as TG), and then explained why I was handing in my notice.
Needless to say, spending an incredibly emotional hour with my manager, they are supporting me 100%, refused the resignation, told me that they'd rather someone else leave than me.
So leaving the meeting, I am still employed, feeling empowered & supported, even prouder of my employer and close friend.
I must admit, I'm feeling so liberated now, I've been dragging / carrying this weight of denial for over ten years.
Now, onwards and upwards. Some of my closest friends know, my Mum knows, my workplace know. That's part of the hard part over with, now I have to go through the rest of the journey surrounded by those who I love feeling supported and proud of who I am.
Now after that week, I wish I could drink!
I thought I'd post this, since it's been such an emotional week.
I've been talking to this girl, lovely, beautiful, open minded and everything, but she started asking never-before-asked questions, so as part of that, I answered them honestly, but hid my real identity, until she told me a few things which forced my hand. Telling her of my infertility and my true identity.
Needless to say I've gone from prospective partner, to friend within the night.
Anyway, on Tuesday, I sat at my desk, burst into tears (fortunately I'm in my own office). Once I dried my eyes, I sat and thought with "clarity" about my next steps.
Too ashamed and incredibly protective (and proud) of my boss and the company I work for, I begun writing my notice of resignation which once again made me cry.
Getting so far into it, the tears were too much, so I focused at my job, saved and closed the letter and cracked on with what I needed to.
Moving forward, I finished writing the notice, and handed it in today.
Within a few hours my boss called me into a meeting, making me cry again.
However, this time, I explained what happened some time ago (when I first came out as TG), and then explained why I was handing in my notice.
Needless to say, spending an incredibly emotional hour with my manager, they are supporting me 100%, refused the resignation, told me that they'd rather someone else leave than me.
So leaving the meeting, I am still employed, feeling empowered & supported, even prouder of my employer and close friend.
I must admit, I'm feeling so liberated now, I've been dragging / carrying this weight of denial for over ten years.
Now, onwards and upwards. Some of my closest friends know, my Mum knows, my workplace know. That's part of the hard part over with, now I have to go through the rest of the journey surrounded by those who I love feeling supported and proud of who I am.
Now after that week, I wish I could drink!