If she gave me green light

[Maria 60]

We were leaving the house to get dinner and food shopping, I was wearing panties, black pantyhose under my jeans and a white bra under my white t-shirt. Before walking out the door I asked my wife if she can see the bra from my back. She said she didn't and if she did it's only because she knew I was wearing one. We were eating in a small fast food restaurant and it was very busy and a lot of people were walking in and out, she went to the restroom and when she sat down she was upset and told me that the way I'm sitting the bra is very visible and a big amount of pantyhose are exposed because I wasn't wearing socks and my jeans must of rode up when I sat down. I don't like her to get upset about my dressing, without a word I got up and went to the restroom removed the bra and shoved it down my pants. When I sat down she said to me that she understands my needs to express this side of me, and this little underdressing has a big meaning for me and that I should be more careful and it's like I don't care who sees me. I told her the underdressing is all I have, I love my kids but I can't believe that they are home bodies, I'm flattered that they want to hang out with us but I can't believe I can't put a few hours together to just relax or do things dressed, it gets frustrating. She then asked me if she was to give me the green light what would I do? I told her that I know with all the makeup in the world and with my masculine body, I can never pass, but I would join a social club, and maybe try to find a CD friendly bar that I could get out once in a while to express myself and I wish I had more freedom at home, instead of dressing and then locking the doors and closing the blinds like a prisoner. I would like to do home chores dressed, cleaning, gardening. I then went on teller her that she must wonder what's the big deal of wearing pantyhose and a bra under my male cloths, but to me I love feeling fem and really it's all I have, and maybe on a night like tonight it feels so good to be wearing these items that I really don't care who sees, but in my fareness I did ask her if my bra was showing. I then told her I was sorry for upsetting her and I will be more careful in the future and that she enjoys me taking little risks as much as I do. I really felt bad upsetting her with this, it was a Friday night the work week was over, the last thing I wanted to do was upset her about my underdressing. When it come my dressing there really is no winning.

[Mykaa]

The green light, a good question, I live alone, dont see my kids, I have only what my friends would think to deal with and possibly my Boss at my new job. Im working a new haircut which will definitely raise some eyebrows as to what Is he doing. I crave to be me, I have many ideas of how to express me in public, I dont wear a bra out of the house lately ( I have in the past ) , but Maria I do understand the want to relax at times. I sleep in satin boxer pajama sets since its gotten warmer, very relaxing, I find it hard to want to remove the lounge wear its so comfortable. Maria I enjoy reading about what you post, you have had a few adventures, ya I do notice what people have to say and I do remember, sometimes I feel just anonymous even here. So I wonder as to what youve posted here as sometimes your wife is ok with it & other times not? Is it circumstantial? like what you just said, Was she embarrassed?

[Helen_Highwater]

Your SO's reaction to your bra being visible demonstrates what we all know and that it's very difficult for nearest and dearest not to fear the stigma associated with CD'ing.

If you're able to find a group to attend can I suggest that you encourage your SO to go with you. This will enable her to see there's nothing to fear, that you're not suddenly likely to come home talking about taking the next step and HRT etc. What she'll see is fairly typical social interactions of a bunch of people sharing a common interest. Conversations don't always revolve around CD'ing issues, sport, politics, the did you see so and so on TV last night sort of stuff.

I'm sure it will help calm any fears she has and doubly it means you share this part of your life. There's not a separate you that walks out the door dressed. You're still the same person and she needs to see that.

[NancySue]

I'll never forget the day she gave me the green light....several years ago. Even though neither of us understand my need to dress, we've grown to accept it and even have fun. She is a great help, especially with makeup. I, not bragging, am passable and almost always dress completely. I love Hanes Thigh Highs, which few women now wear hose. I tell her she doesn't know what she's missing...lol. She just smiles. I would love to go out, but we live in a small town. Getting caught or seen would be a disaster. We will go for drives out of town.