Nikki.
06-27-2016, 01:07 PM
Yesterday we went to visit family- brother, sister and my folks. My siblings and I are all in our 40's and get along well, but not super close. I think one of the big issues in the way of having a close relationship with both my siblings is that I built a wall around myself out of fear of being read and them discovering my big secret I was ashamed of.
While at my folk's house, I asked my wife if she cared if I told my sister about my other side. She said it was up to me (we've talked about it before). Fast forward about 30 minutes; I walk outside and my sis asks "do you shave your legs?" (I shaved them 13 years ago when I was road cycling- I think I roads 5 centuries that year and I shaved them last week for the first time since then.) My mom said "because of the biking" as she walked inside. My wife looked at me and quickly walked inside; I could see it on her face she was thinking "oh snap, here he goes".
So just me and sis.
me: I'll tell you the real reason if you promise not to tell anyone.
sis: of course, tell me.
me: I've been a crossdresser my entire life, and I'm definitely trans.
sis: [wide eyed, staring me in the eyes]. Are you :edit: with me?
me: [eating a piece of pizza] No, I'm dead serious.
sis: Are you sure you're not :edit: with me?
me: Nope. It's true.
We have always had a sarcastic relationship amongst our family. You need to have thick skin, but we do all love each other. There's never been any bad blood amongst any of us, so I get why she thought I was screwing with her.
We talked for a while. Told her about getting caught by my dad a couple times, and how he never mentioned it. She gave me a heartfelt hug, told me she loved me, and how bad she felt that I had to hide that side of my life forever. She was very sweet, and I told her how I felt like I had to put up the wall between us because of my perceived need to hide, and that prevented me from really getting close to her. She remembered dressing me up for Halloween 20 something years ago and asked why I undressed pretty quickly and told her I was uncomfortable. I told her I loved it but it was subterfuge, and how I snuck that same skirt out of her dresser a bunch of times after. She laughed.
There was some joking too- she laughed and asked me if I wanted her clothes- I said maybe :) I told her one of my regrets about not accepting myself much earlier and a result missed out on time being close to her and opportunities for us to go out together shopping or wherever. She thought that would be cool. She and my bro are closer and she thought he would be fine with it, and he would probably think I was screwing with him too.
So all in all, a very positive experience. I love my sister, and I'm really looking forward to becoming close friends with her. She is my only confidant outside of my wife. Oh, and she said she had NO idea and never would have suspected.
While at my folk's house, I asked my wife if she cared if I told my sister about my other side. She said it was up to me (we've talked about it before). Fast forward about 30 minutes; I walk outside and my sis asks "do you shave your legs?" (I shaved them 13 years ago when I was road cycling- I think I roads 5 centuries that year and I shaved them last week for the first time since then.) My mom said "because of the biking" as she walked inside. My wife looked at me and quickly walked inside; I could see it on her face she was thinking "oh snap, here he goes".
So just me and sis.
me: I'll tell you the real reason if you promise not to tell anyone.
sis: of course, tell me.
me: I've been a crossdresser my entire life, and I'm definitely trans.
sis: [wide eyed, staring me in the eyes]. Are you :edit: with me?
me: [eating a piece of pizza] No, I'm dead serious.
sis: Are you sure you're not :edit: with me?
me: Nope. It's true.
We have always had a sarcastic relationship amongst our family. You need to have thick skin, but we do all love each other. There's never been any bad blood amongst any of us, so I get why she thought I was screwing with her.
We talked for a while. Told her about getting caught by my dad a couple times, and how he never mentioned it. She gave me a heartfelt hug, told me she loved me, and how bad she felt that I had to hide that side of my life forever. She was very sweet, and I told her how I felt like I had to put up the wall between us because of my perceived need to hide, and that prevented me from really getting close to her. She remembered dressing me up for Halloween 20 something years ago and asked why I undressed pretty quickly and told her I was uncomfortable. I told her I loved it but it was subterfuge, and how I snuck that same skirt out of her dresser a bunch of times after. She laughed.
There was some joking too- she laughed and asked me if I wanted her clothes- I said maybe :) I told her one of my regrets about not accepting myself much earlier and a result missed out on time being close to her and opportunities for us to go out together shopping or wherever. She thought that would be cool. She and my bro are closer and she thought he would be fine with it, and he would probably think I was screwing with him too.
So all in all, a very positive experience. I love my sister, and I'm really looking forward to becoming close friends with her. She is my only confidant outside of my wife. Oh, and she said she had NO idea and never would have suspected.