Didn't do myself any favors . . .

[TxKimberly]

After a string of thefts from my yard, we installed security cameras all around our house. You might still get away with stealing something from my yard now, but the odds are real good that I am going to get a good look at you when you do. Anyway, it has become my habit to check the cameras when I am away from home, just to make me feel a little better, and to make sure that all is well with my family while I am away. Well, a week or so ago I took a trip to Broken Arrow Oklahoma, and there I am surfing through our camera footage that night when I see yours truly getting into the truck that very morning to leave.
That was a mistake. . .
See, here I am trying to fool myself into thinking that I am somewhat passable, and the video said not only no, but HELL no. I looked like a line backer with pretty hair. Not exactly the look that I was going for.
So, important note to self - do not look at the camera feeds if you're gonna be in it . . .

[audreyinalbany]

yeah, I know...I made a short video of myself en femme once and it pretty much ruined any illusions I may have been harboring about how I looked....

[Tracii G]

Oh I know what you mean Kimberly.LOLOL
When I think I have my walk down pat I watch the video I look like a neanderthal man.

[Shiny]

Yeah, I videoed myself once, just once and shudder at the results. A bit like when Herman Munster was hit by lightening and changed into a woman and ended up working as a waitress in one episode. I rest my case. Gad!

I like the look and feel but seeing myself in the third person, not a good thing.

[Traci H]

I caught myself laughing at this description. Mostly because I am sure that would be me as well!

[IamWren]

I have taken video of myself walking back and forth back and forth.
The result was not fun. However, I chose to think of it as game-tape the way a linebacker might review old film to see where he could improve.

Not sure that it worked really bit that's how I chose to look at it. :D

[BrendaPDX]

Hi Kimberly, I have thought about that too, I have a security system too and take great care to turn it off during my Cding times. It might be fun to see myself, I think if I was sitting or standing, basickly not in motion I might pass but as soon as I start moving the gig would be up. But you know, I might give it a try. Like Sue said, I might learn from it. Did you delete that part of the tape? Do you want to share it?:) Too much fun to even think about. Brenda. Oh you rely do have pretty hair.

[Jaylyn]

Those security cameras wouldn't be too good if a person wasn't out yet.... Think I'll just keep the dog trained to protect the house, at least he doesn't bark at me dressed but the cameras might blow up if they caught this dressing guy on camera... Lol

[suzanne]

Kimberly, I know how you feel. I am in no way passable and I had no such illusions from the very start. So I don't try. My strategy is this: I buy clothes that fit my body well the way it is and that are as tasteful and age appropriate as possible. Then, when I dress, I know that good, bad or indifferent, this IS the best look I can put together. And I go out and own it. It's my hope that, once the initial muggle response of "What in Tarnation is that, a man in a dress?" subsides, the next thought is "Surprisingly, it works on him". And I hope that some deeply closeted CD might see me and realize that "If he can do it so can I"

The reality is that I get lots of compliments from women. Not just from sales staff, but from fellow customers as well. And the ladies at my favorite dress shop tell me they know for a fact that I have played a part in helping closeted CD'S get more comfortable with themselves. I can't verify that and they didn't tell me how they know, I can only hope it's really true.

My apologies. I just wanted to encourage you but I realized I made this about me. I hope you'll forgive me. What I would like for you is that you are happy with yourself just the way you are. I love your avatar photo BTW. I think it projects a lot of joy and I hope it reflects your true self.

[lingerieLiz]

Remember those covers of Caitlyn are photoshopped so we should feel entitled to do ours too. lol

[Nikkilovesdresses]

Just one more thing George Clooney doesn't have to worry about, as if he doesn't have enough not to worry about already. He's prettier than most of us even in man-clothes...

[NancySue]

Hi Kimberly,
I've been looking at and enjoying your web sites and send high kudos for your galleries. There wasn't one picture of you that wasn't fantastic. You are beautiful and totally passable. You have excellent tastes in styles and your legs are to die for. We've visited Indianapolis too.

[MissTee]

Too funny, and all too familiar.

[BrendaPDX]

Hi Kimberly, I just checked out some of your photos, thank you for the link. You my dear are totally passable! Believe me, you have nothing to worry about:) Brenda

[~Joanne~]

Unfortunately, pictures do me more justice than a video ever will lol I learned that a long time ago and hence why I have never done a video ;) still at least you may be able to catch whoever is stealing your things so it's still worth it.

[Ressie]

Well, I got a laugh out of your post Kimberly. You don't look like a linebacker in your avatar, but your hair is pretty!

[irene9999]

Posture when walking can make someone look really manly, even when wearing a dress. There's lots of videos on youtube about how to walk like a woman. The gist of it is that men walk swinging their shoulders and chest and women mostly move their hips when walking, so by adjusting how you walk you don't have to look like a linebacker ;)

[jackie_p]

Kim, I've followed your traveling exploits for quite a while and has always felt you were eminently passable. I know we are always hardest on ourselves but try to give yourself a break.

[Patty's panties]

I've know from the very beginning that i'd never be passable.
But I FEEL pretty. For me that's enough.


Peace....

[sometimes_miss]

The gist of it is that men walk swinging their shoulders and chest and women mostly move their hips when walking, so by adjusting how you walk you don't have to look like a linebacker ;)
Nah, I'm sure that lots of us will just look like linebackers trying to walk like women. We simply don't have the bodies that lend themselves to being perceived as female, because we really are built differently. It's not impossible, there are a few who can pull it off, just not most of us.
Much easier to stick to the static two dimensional pictures that we can carefully pose for and adjust until we get it juuuuuust right. And keep that picture in our head. Remember, most women don't even like the way they look on video. Something like, 'the camera adds ten pounds' or something like that. In my case it adds about 50 pounds, in all the wrong places, and makes me look like Tracii's neanderthal man.

[Sarah Doepner]

I sat at a table for our support group during the grand reopening of the local pride center last year. The event was well covered by local media and I thought I'd managed to escape the glare of the lights. The reason I didn't notice the glare was the camera was focused on me as I lumbered down a hallway back to the area where our table was. Lordy Jebus! What a nice outfit on a big clumsy guy! I do need to work on that one of these days but I'll keep my expectations too high, evidently I've been walking like that for many, many years and it's going to take more than one video to break all those habits.

[Angie G]

Oh like you could ever look bad. Your drop dead gorgeous Kimberly. I wish I had 10% of your girl look hun.:hugs:
Angie

[Brenda456]

Sorry to hear about the thefts, but the post was great. You look amazing. I look like a guy in a dress and that is unfortunate. . .

[TxKimberly]

Yeah, this was me just loading my bag into the truck and leaving. Not much walking, so it wouldn't have mattered if I swayed or how I swaggered; it was all about having a large rib cage (for a woman).

[Lana Mae]

You look good, Kimberly. Have been noting that a lot of genetic females have a rectangular shape not hour glass, not all but some! There is not one shape for females! Also noted one that had shoulders wider than hips(but shorter and smaller) . Quess what I am saying is do not obsess! Just go with it and enjoy! Oh and if you do obsess there are courses/info on how to walk like a women! And they do not walk with one foot directly behind the other that is for fashion models!! Have seen some walk as bad as I do! LOL Hugs Lana Mae

[DonnaP]

Cute story but sure don't look like a linebacker. I would say you are very pretty and should be proud of how great you look.

[S. Lisa Smith]

Kim, We are our own worst critics. Viewed objectively, you look fabulous!!!

[CarlaWestin]

I've actually used footage from my security cameras in some of my Carla videos. My neighbors all have security cameras. Across the street put them up to watch the house and make sure the landscapers are doing a good job while he's away on a one year adventure. His cams are full 1080p so I wonder if he's noticed and wondered who that buxom woman is driving my car. Y'all can tell that I really don't care anymore!

[Lorileah]

Not a linebacker, Kim. A corner or free safety maybe:hiding:

[Cheryl T]

Kimberly, more line backers should look as good as you. I'd watch a lot more football if they did.

[PretzelGirl]

Um, after standing next to you I can say with certainty, you would be the smallest linebacker ever. Just keep smiling pretty lady. Security cameras aren't meant to be flattering.

[Stephanie47]

Hi Kimberly, I just checked out some of your photos, thank you for the link. You my dear are totally passable! Believe me, you have nothing to worry about:) Brenda

Exactly, Brenda. I've checked her photos on this site and noticed her on a bridal site also. Kimberly is very attractive. I also missed her absence from this site. Welcome home.

I haven't taken video of myself. Taking pictures, whether en femme or en drab, told me a long time ago that my eye sees what my mind wants to see. Pictures do not hide my 195 pound male body with all the effects aging. I think many of us with larger size frames view ourselves as passable when we are not standing next to a person who is smaller than ourselves. Even en drab the only person in the entire family and extended family larger than me is my son at six foot four and 230+ pounds. Why we married five foot two women I don't know?

[gokatiegirl]

I go to a lot of t-girl events where everybody is taking pictures and posting them on facebook. I look at pictures I wasn't posing for and see things I don't like but learn from them.

[tall sam]

Hi Kimberly

think of it as a training video. Very common in sport to video the movements and then analyse them and improve on the little things that make the biggest difference.

enjoy getting even better at what you are already very good at being - a lady