I am a mess!

[JaimeCD]

So Monday was an incredible day with my Sephora makeover and spending the rest of the day fully dressed. My wife told me how happy she was that I stayed dressed (I still struggle with all of this). Confessed to her how much I just love playing with makeup and how I want to spend more time doing that.

Then last night I was wearing my nighty and she asked that I be fully dressed (with makeup) when she got home from volunteering at the food pantry tonight. And then I got a call with really bad news about my grandfather's health, I pulled off the nighty and have been physically sick ever since, I have a huge problem handling certain things.

I emailed her today and said I did not think I could dress today with my grandfather's issues. But then I got an email from Sephora on their rebel eyes (that is what I got on Monday) and it made me smile, first smile of the day and thought maybe. But the only thing I am wearing today is a pair of polka dot panties, my wife commented how much she liked them but asked that I get dressed for her tomorrow. We will see l, I know it would help me mentally but I just keep thinking of my old school grandfather.

My wife wants us to play with makeup on Friday where I do her face and she does mine. Could be a lot of fun if I can get my head under control.

[Tracii G]

Sorry to hear about your Grandfather but worrying about something you have no control over isn't good for you.
Being concerned is one thing and totally normal but pacing and in a constant worry state isn't healthy.
Say a prayer for him and that may ease your mind.

[DaniT]

I'm terribly sorry to hear of your loss.

I've recently lost 2 people close to me in my life one of which was a friend close enough to be a brother. I didn't deal with it well either, to the point of alienating myself from my family and friends. It took me a while to come out of it. My wife was a great comfort to me with these losses.

It really helped me to spend a couple hours seriously remembering the people I lost and crying my eyes out in the shower until long after the hot water ran out. It wasn't until after I did that my feelings of regret and loss, for all the opportunities I had missed with those people and the ones I'd never will get to have, began to subside.

But that's just me. Everybody grieves in their own way.

Wish you all the best.

Dani

[Rachelakld]

Sorry to hear about your grandfather
As a 50 year old, I tend to let my kids do the things that pleases them.
Many will think 14 is to young for them to have relationships, but it's their life and I'm here as advisor only
What I'm trying to say, what pleases us older people is the young ones living the life that they want, free from harm, abuse and other BS that we had to put up with.
Enjoy your life and every day, while you can.