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Sarah Doepner
11-03-2016, 11:41 AM
I've been kind of shuffled back into the closet recently since one of my sons and his first grade daughter moved in with me. I let him know and he may or may not be okay with it, but he knows and we agree it's not something we will share with his daughter for the time being. That being said, he goes to work and she goes to school and he has a new girlfriend where they have spent more than a few nights together.

Now I was looking at the whole being "back in the closet" thing as an opportunity to get a few things done, and I have. Finished construction of a yard project, did a lot of cleaning and organizing around the house, things like that. But the other day I did just a little bit of shopping, found a couple of tops at a thrift store that I just had to get. So this morning I'm looking at a to-do list that will require my attention but I just needed to see how those tops fit and what they could go well with. So this happened, I've been fully dressed, makeup, hair, nails and even a spritz of perfume for several hours now and watching the amount of work I need to do slowly decrease. For the record, I don't regret a moment of it and I'm having a wonderful time getting to know myself again.

It's obvious that this is who I am. I've said it before and my therapist has said it as well. My son will be moving out, one way or another, by springtime and I'll have either this house or a different one to myself.

So this happened: I am so looking forward to discover how much of my life will be Sarah once that happens.

Curiouser&Curiouser
11-03-2016, 11:52 AM
Sarah, it's always nice to get that bit of confirmation of our internal truth, and sometimes a break can actually help us understand the importance of those things in our lives. I'm glad you were able to find that, and that you are able to persevere knowing that your sacrifice is temporary. Keep it up!

- Sandra

Lana Mae
11-03-2016, 07:39 PM
Sarah, you can do this! Hang in there! Hugs Lana Mae

Jaylyn
11-03-2016, 07:51 PM
At least you can see an end to the present and the beginning of a new life on your own. Hang on for a bit longer.

Rachelakld
11-04-2016, 04:28 AM
Hope you can be you again soon.
If you find you can't have the house back to yourself at spring time, just start wearing leggings and slowly over a few months dress more the way you want, if your son gets uncomfortable, he will leave.