It's just me!

[natalie edwards]

I guess it's part of the evolution. While searching through my pictures for one to post in the sexy thread I've come to realize these pictures are just pictures of me. Years ago I'd be a bit aroused or think of them as me as a woman, always seeing the male features first. Now however when I browse through my latest pictures, I just see me! I don't see a guy dressed up or an awkward out of place person, just me.

[alwayshave]

Natalie, we all go through an evolution. I starting dress when I was 4/5 so certainly prior to puberty, at puberty my dressing became highly sexual, but know it is just part of me, without the sexual component.

[Rhonda Darling]

I don't see a guy in your photo either. What a great place to be in, where what is natural to you has undergone a phase-shift.

Very happy for you.

Best,
Rhonda

[Allisa]

Sounds like you've reached acceptance of "yourself". It feels great to see what we feel on the inside looking back at us.

[Jaylyn]

I understand your thread. I wear my panties around 99% of the time. I'm not out so I underdress when I am out sometimes hose but always panties. This has become me and in my world no one but my wife knows. I feel like I own that much. We all I think have a small, medium, or large part of us that become just us. My mom started me on this path almost seventy years ago. I do see in the mirror a prettier person when I'm dressed totally but due to my circumstances the mirror, my wife, and I are the only ones that know. (Except for the members on here). This s who I am and fit in to this dressing thing on my own terms. I think we all have gone thru the sexual excitement part. A secret is I still get a tingle when dressed. Not strong but a feel good about myself urge to keep dressing.

[Beverley Sims]

I see me and think how can I stay looking attractive.

I rarely consider the man these days.

[sweetdreams]

Evolution yes.

I remember the experience as a child was just more being girly. This was before I knew about sex. I remember when I was 9 or 10. I had a stash. One morning I got up at the crack of dawn and dressed up in panties, stockings, and a garter belt. Threw on my jeans and a tee shirt and headed out the door. Hopped on my bike and rode for hours. The streets were deserted. It was mostly me and my girly stuff for most of the day. It was very special. No sexual side to it, just me having that warm fuzzy feeling inside. It felt so right.

Then when I was about 13 I discovered the sexual side to it. I had the house to myself and discovered step mom's lingerie drawer. I got dolled up in a panty girdle, panties, and stockings. They had a satin bedspread. I was rolling around on their bed and enjoying the feeling of everything. All of a sudden I had an orgasm. I was like "what was that?" Didn't know what happened but it felt good. Who knew the equipment could do that?

After that it became a very sexual thing. Nothing could get me aroused faster than dressing up. It was much more a matter of getting dressed up for the "event." Once done it was put away until maybe the next sexual encounter. This lasted through much of my life.

As I got older (mid life) it became more important to just dress up. It evolved into more just being who I am. It is still very arousing sexually, but it's also just being at one with it all. It feels so right to just be dressed up and feeling feminine. I remember once thinking wouldn't it be nice to just get up in the morning, pick out a dress and underwear and spending the day all dolled up like it was a normal everyday thing. It's becoming much more that. I'm still evolving after all these years. I wish I had evolved faster and at a younger age but circumstances and decisions I made didn't allow for me to explore as much as I would have liked. If I knew what I know now when I was around twenty, what would that have been like. Hmmm....

[Territx]

Natalie -- thanks for this insight. I just realized that I am having the same reaction, though I had not become conscious of it until I read your post. Amazing mental transformation for me -- I never thought that would be my approach to "Terri".

[Karen RHT]

I agree that we evolve in a number of ways. When I look at my pics, I know they're just me, but I also know I don't look as feminine as I would like to...I still see the guy me. Doesn't upset me, it just encourages me to keep practicing my makeup skills.


Karen

[Lana Mae]

Only Lana Mae maybe 40% of the time but she is me also! Dressed or drab it is still me! Dressed is better but I have accepted both halves regardless of the ratio!! Hugs Lana Mae

[Kandi Robbins]

That is the natural evolution of what we become when we allow ourselves to BE ourselves. As I struggled with this my entire life, something like this was simply not even a thought because there was no possibility. Then I accepted who I am and began to build a life for my female half. Once I figured what made me happy, how I wished to be seen by the world, what I liked to do, where I liked to go, who I liked to be with, there was no longer two halves of me. Just me, this really cool person that I have become very proud of, the me that has so many friends, the me that goes wherever I want and (mostly) does what ever I want, the me that smiles constantly because this me is very happy to be who I am.

[Becky Blue]

Natalie, very interesting, you have switched over at some stage. The first picture I saw of myself was at my first makeover in 2005, I saw a picture and I knew it was me.

About 2 years ago i was looking at some pictures taken at a family event and I realised that when i see a picture of myself in drab, my natural reaction is that is not me. I hate pictures of myself in drab. The funny thing is a don't look natural or relaxed in any of my male pictures.

The second interesting thing regarding picture of me, is how feminine I look in them until i was about 20. My posture, positioning, placement of hands, arms etc I look so different to any other guys in the pictures. At that stage of my life I did not have any idea that Becky was going to emerge 20 years later.

[Teresa]

Natalie,
It may be be my imagination but when I look at my pictures taken at my social group venue I feel they look better than the ones taken at home. I see more of the guy coming through , I know going out makes me feel so comfortable as Teresa perhaps that does come through more in the pictures.

[DIANEF]

It was relatively recently that I began taking photos of myself dressed, and in a short time have amassed about 200 or so (MANY more deleted,,). Browsing through them I just see Diane, not (my real name) in a dress and make up. I rarely look at any 'male' pictures of myself, and going through photo albums I was struck by just how few I have.

[Tracii G]

I'm happy you are starting to see that other side of you, its a very important part of self acceptance.
When I first came to that point it was like a switch was tripped I finally said wow now I get it.

[phili]

Lovely post, Natalie
I use pictures to see if I am getting to the state of just being me- and when I see myself I am so thrilled. Sometimes my outfits don't work the way I hope they would, and I look like a misfit with my clothing, but when everything aligns, I am perfectly happy and it is something I can't turn away from. I think your post points out that being ourselves puts us in the state of not actually thinking male or female anymore- just good and desirable person.

To the other point made- I too found to my delight that the sexual component is independent of the underlying satisfaction of seeing and feeling myself whole, and my feeling about myself in a nice dress is deeply good before, during, after, or without any sexual activity.

[natalie edwards]

"I think your post points out that being ourselves puts us in the state of not actually thinking male or female"
phili
That's exactly how it feels!

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Natalie::hugs:, It really sounds like you are at one with yourself...:daydreaming:...