Girly Sara
03-04-2006, 11:10 AM
Well girls, I did it! The massive hurdle of doing my very first shopping trip as Sara has been achieved and I’m very proud of myself! Anyway, if you’re interested to read about my day, here goes………
The day started out with an 11.00am makeover with gorgeous Miss Jodie Lynn of Boudoir fame in the company of my girlfriend, Michelle. I was understandably very nervous as this was the first time I was going to be let loose into the real world during the day! lol People who know me will know I’ve been on the TG scene for nearly three years now and have been out enfemme numerous times to transgendered/gay/straight clubs and restaurants. However, this was THE big one as I’m sure you would all agree.
After getting made over and putting on my daytime girly attire it was time to take the daunting step of stepping outside. To say I was nervous was a major understatement. I was shaking like a leaf, my legs felt jellified and I honestly wanted the floor to swallow me up. However, Michelle was there to support me as always and tried to calm me down. Walking out of the building was scary as there were workmen and their lorry blocking the pathway so we had to walk out into the road. Thankfully, not a single comment was made by the men and we got in my car.
Next task was a drive across town to my local salon for a French manicure which I’d been having in ‘Alan’ mode for over a year. Bearing in mind this was only my second drive enfemme and also in daylight, I felt ok. Arrived at the salon just in time for my manicure and the girls were very complimentary and excited to see Sara for the first time. Again I was shaking like a leaf and one of the girls gave me some Rescue Me tonic to calm me down. I soon relaxed and enjoyed the manicure and a few pix were taken as a photo diary of my big day (pix to follow shortly in my pix section)
Now, the major hurdle was upon me. Going shopping! Deep breath Sara! lol Arrived at Bluewater Shopping Centre around 4.30 (quite late I know but 4-5 hours shopping would be enough for my first time) This part of the day was to be the hardest (at first anyway) Michelle went to hold my arm for support but I felt I couldn’t walk properly so she walked alongside me. However, I was so nervous I kept stopping and making out to be looking at clothes I wasn’t really interested in! lol I laugh now but it wasn’t at the time. I felt vulnerable and very scared. First stop was the ladies’ loos in M & S and had no problems with women shouting “pervert!” and chasing me back out! lol Did what I had to do, washed my hands and straight back out again. Took a pic in M & S as discreetly as we could and then after looking at some lingerie, walked out into the main shopping area. Another pic or two was taken there and then the interaction with the general public began.
Walking around at first was very daunting and I wasn’t really taking in the surroundings. It all seemed a blur. Anyway, as we were walking about, yes I was ‘read’ by some people (was under no illusion that I wouldn’t be) but not a single adverse comment from anyone. Looks of curiosity, yes. After about an hour, my confidence was increasing and I soon had my head held high, smiled at people if they looked at me and I was really enjoying my new-found freedom. Brilliant! Went into many shops but strangely didn’t try anything on. This was ironic considering I have as Alan. To be honest I didn’t see anything I wanted to try on so why bother, although it would have been an experience. Even more stranger, I didn’t even buy anything for me! All I bought was some perfume for my Mum as she had asked me to buy her something as a reminder of my first shopping trip enfemme and for Michelle for her support.
Although my feet were starting to kill me near the end, I was wondering what all the fuss had been about. I was loving the experience! I didn’t even care when people looked at me. In a funny sort of way, I was enjoying it! Can people relate to this? And NO, I’m not an exhibitionist! As far as I was concerned I was breaking down social barriers and saying this is me and I’ve got every right to be here. There were a lot of young people at the shopping centre and I didn’t receive a single adverse comment or laughter (not that I heard anyway) Not that I would have cared as this was my big day and nothing or no one was going to spoil it for me!
In summary (and sorry if I’ve rambled on) I was so proud of myself overcoming this very big hurdle as I’ve now gained a lot more confidence (until the next trip anyway! lol) No seriously, I won’t have the same apprehension that I had yesterday.
How do I feel now? To be honest I’m finding it hard to describe. Yes I’m on cloud nine but not as I expected it to be. It all seemed very ordinary and natural. I don’t think the experience has really impacted on me yet as I’m still absorbing it. All I hope is that I won’t start to feel down and emotional as I sometimes do after the thrill of being Sara. This is the part I hate and want to overcome.
I’m hoping to do my next trip as soon as possible and will try Lakeside next time. For anyone who’s wishing to go shopping for the first time, go for it as it’s so rewarding!!!
The day started out with an 11.00am makeover with gorgeous Miss Jodie Lynn of Boudoir fame in the company of my girlfriend, Michelle. I was understandably very nervous as this was the first time I was going to be let loose into the real world during the day! lol People who know me will know I’ve been on the TG scene for nearly three years now and have been out enfemme numerous times to transgendered/gay/straight clubs and restaurants. However, this was THE big one as I’m sure you would all agree.
After getting made over and putting on my daytime girly attire it was time to take the daunting step of stepping outside. To say I was nervous was a major understatement. I was shaking like a leaf, my legs felt jellified and I honestly wanted the floor to swallow me up. However, Michelle was there to support me as always and tried to calm me down. Walking out of the building was scary as there were workmen and their lorry blocking the pathway so we had to walk out into the road. Thankfully, not a single comment was made by the men and we got in my car.
Next task was a drive across town to my local salon for a French manicure which I’d been having in ‘Alan’ mode for over a year. Bearing in mind this was only my second drive enfemme and also in daylight, I felt ok. Arrived at the salon just in time for my manicure and the girls were very complimentary and excited to see Sara for the first time. Again I was shaking like a leaf and one of the girls gave me some Rescue Me tonic to calm me down. I soon relaxed and enjoyed the manicure and a few pix were taken as a photo diary of my big day (pix to follow shortly in my pix section)
Now, the major hurdle was upon me. Going shopping! Deep breath Sara! lol Arrived at Bluewater Shopping Centre around 4.30 (quite late I know but 4-5 hours shopping would be enough for my first time) This part of the day was to be the hardest (at first anyway) Michelle went to hold my arm for support but I felt I couldn’t walk properly so she walked alongside me. However, I was so nervous I kept stopping and making out to be looking at clothes I wasn’t really interested in! lol I laugh now but it wasn’t at the time. I felt vulnerable and very scared. First stop was the ladies’ loos in M & S and had no problems with women shouting “pervert!” and chasing me back out! lol Did what I had to do, washed my hands and straight back out again. Took a pic in M & S as discreetly as we could and then after looking at some lingerie, walked out into the main shopping area. Another pic or two was taken there and then the interaction with the general public began.
Walking around at first was very daunting and I wasn’t really taking in the surroundings. It all seemed a blur. Anyway, as we were walking about, yes I was ‘read’ by some people (was under no illusion that I wouldn’t be) but not a single adverse comment from anyone. Looks of curiosity, yes. After about an hour, my confidence was increasing and I soon had my head held high, smiled at people if they looked at me and I was really enjoying my new-found freedom. Brilliant! Went into many shops but strangely didn’t try anything on. This was ironic considering I have as Alan. To be honest I didn’t see anything I wanted to try on so why bother, although it would have been an experience. Even more stranger, I didn’t even buy anything for me! All I bought was some perfume for my Mum as she had asked me to buy her something as a reminder of my first shopping trip enfemme and for Michelle for her support.
Although my feet were starting to kill me near the end, I was wondering what all the fuss had been about. I was loving the experience! I didn’t even care when people looked at me. In a funny sort of way, I was enjoying it! Can people relate to this? And NO, I’m not an exhibitionist! As far as I was concerned I was breaking down social barriers and saying this is me and I’ve got every right to be here. There were a lot of young people at the shopping centre and I didn’t receive a single adverse comment or laughter (not that I heard anyway) Not that I would have cared as this was my big day and nothing or no one was going to spoil it for me!
In summary (and sorry if I’ve rambled on) I was so proud of myself overcoming this very big hurdle as I’ve now gained a lot more confidence (until the next trip anyway! lol) No seriously, I won’t have the same apprehension that I had yesterday.
How do I feel now? To be honest I’m finding it hard to describe. Yes I’m on cloud nine but not as I expected it to be. It all seemed very ordinary and natural. I don’t think the experience has really impacted on me yet as I’m still absorbing it. All I hope is that I won’t start to feel down and emotional as I sometimes do after the thrill of being Sara. This is the part I hate and want to overcome.
I’m hoping to do my next trip as soon as possible and will try Lakeside next time. For anyone who’s wishing to go shopping for the first time, go for it as it’s so rewarding!!!