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TracyT
04-01-2017, 11:10 AM
Well, okay, not exactly full-time (I still wear pants and button-downs to work, most days), but to a large degree, I have finally stopped wearing men’s clothes.
Usually at work I have on women’s slacks, a woman’s button-down, and pumps or flats. On Fridays I often wear a skirt to the office. Outside of work I almost always wear knee-length skirts, with tights underneath if it’s chilly, with clogs or Keds or Dr Scholls sandals or pumps, and a woman’s pullover. I now have 3 casual dresses (from J. Jill and Athleta), and while I’m still self-conscious about wearing a dress, I’m starting to wear them more often. Otherwise I wear capris. I wear a (padded) bra and panties every day. At the gym I work out in an athletic skirt, sports bra, and woman’s tank top (I love the many cute styles of women’s athletic wear these days!!). I sleep in a nightie, picked out by my wife. I wear light makeup every day (foundation, lipstick, eye shadow, and mascara), and heavier when we go out in the evenings. My hair is just growing out to a chin-length bob, and I curl it 2 or 3 times a week. (I’ve been out in public in rollers twice this month!) I keep my toenails polished all the time, and get a couple of manicures a month with polish. If my nails aren’t painted I wear clear polish.
This didn’t come about with some big decision; I just gradually got into these habits and, obviously, stopped caring how people respond. My wife, who has known I’m a crossdresser since our 2nd date, 22 years ago, said about a year ago, basically, “If you’re gonna be a crossdresser you ought to crossdress,” and while she’s not totally enthusiastic, she has been gracious and accepting (I’ll still put on men’s clothes to go out with her, if she asks). Our friends have been terrific and, with a couple of exceptions, completely accepting, even matter of fact. (The wives have given me some wonderful compliments.) The only people I don’t crossdress around are my elderly parents, whom we see 2 or 3 times a year.
I don’t pass as a woman, and I don’t really even try, although I have been “ma’amed” a couple of times. We’ve talked about hormones, and I’ve been to a therapist who specializes in gender issues and she wrote me a letter of referral, so that I can get a prescription any time, but I have no plans to do so. I enjoy being gender-fluid, and the acceptance and love I’ve received have confirmed that, for me, it’s OK to simply be a man in a skirt. Androgyny is my preferred mode, and I’m so happy and fulfilled that, at age 49, I’ve finally arrived here.
I’m writing this in celebration and to let everyone know that “You can do it too!” Society really has shifted on this. I’m aware that not everyone has the freedom that I have, and I feel very fortunate. But I can also guarantee that, for nearly everyone who posts on this forum, the barriers to expressing your true self in your daily appearance are much larger in your mind than they are in real life.
Thanks so much for reading and have a great weekend!

Dana44
04-01-2017, 11:20 AM
Tracy as gender fluid one myself. I agree that if we dress well, there is more acceptance. Yet there still are some bigots out there and we all know about a pack of teenagers. Yet all in all it is so nice to be feminine and be out and about. I am fifteen years older than you and have seen a lot of change. My Accepting girlfriend wants me to be male at least fifty percent of the time. So it is the best I can do. Yet so nice to express my feminine side.

Jenny22
04-01-2017, 01:03 PM
I'm happy for you, Tracy! A suggestion .. update your profile to include the essential info given above, and your location, if possible. The profile info stays, but this post will be old news, soon, and 'lost.'

Beverley Sims
04-01-2017, 01:45 PM
Tracy,
I will watch out for your progression with interest.

kimdl93
04-01-2017, 02:24 PM
It seems this works for you and your wife, your life is good professionally and socially, so, I would say you have a great success story. Keep sharing!

gina shiney
04-01-2017, 03:11 PM
What a beautiful post
I love reading about successful journeys through life in regards to acceptance. Your wife is in the minority in this and hopefully you appreciate this with as much love as she shows you.
I would like to read her journey through your life together and how she has reached this level of understanding, tolerance and love. If she ever does do so many people could benefit from her insight. I for one would keenly read such a blog as it would give me insight and hopefully my wife courage.
Long may you be together to inspire others within the community.
Love gina shiny

Gabriella111
04-01-2017, 03:23 PM
How wonderful, Tracy! I'm so happy for you that you've reached a point in your dressing where you are truly comfortable. I hope my bf reaches that point soon. He still dresses pretty much all drab when he has to meet with his business partners. (He normally works remotely.) He does leave his nail polish on, though.

Thank you for being openly you. That's inspirational.

Lana Mae
04-01-2017, 06:18 PM
Glad you are where you are comfortable! Great loving wife! Be specially good to her! Keep us updated from time to time! Hugs Lana Mae

Karen RHT
04-01-2017, 09:24 PM
Encouraged by your post Tracy, thanks so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences.


Karen

Lauren Richards
04-01-2017, 09:38 PM
Traci,
This is a wonderful and inspiring post on so many levels. A true celebration. Thank you for sharing details and nuance which are really the mortar between the bricks of our lives; so essential for understanding and often missed. A true life.

You have summed it up beautifully: "But I can also guarantee that, for nearly everyone who posts on this forum, the barriers to expressing your true self in your daily appearance are much larger in your mind than they are in real life."

Congratulations, celebrations, and wishes for continued happiness in your relationship with your wife, and with that inner essence you are able to express so well.

Lauren

IleneD
04-01-2017, 09:53 PM
Blessings, and peace be with you, Tracy.
It is so good to hear from a soul, even at a mature age in life, who comes to an understanding with themselves and the world about them.
Be you.
Great story.

Jolyn
04-02-2017, 12:28 AM
thank you so much Tracy , something to look froward to ,love the story keep sharing

bridget thronton
04-02-2017, 04:24 AM
Thanks for sharing your story - you have a wonderful wife

Lauri K
04-02-2017, 08:49 AM
What a great story, looks like you are very happy where you are at.

I had a friend ask me if I am dressed femme all the time, I answered her and said pretty much so and said at least 75 percent of the time for sure with only exceptions being certain tasks at work. She responded and said you are dressing full time then, because after all even gg's do not dress femme all the time if you really examine it.

It was after that conversation when I had one of those Ahaa moment's and it hit me like a ton of bricks.............