Do you really want to stop dressing ?

[Teresa]

This question is based on a question I posed in the TS section about the use of hormones and the effect on T levels. I also asked this question away from the forum and the answer is inconclusive, it may have an enormous effect on one person and nothing at all in others , the higher percentage still dressed and transitioned to some degree .

In my case I know my high T level has been the major driving force, so I asked if the level faded naturally or thorough hormones and the need faded or disappeared altogether would I appear a fraud ? All the heartache and pain over the years for myself and my family, needn't have been !

I then went onto ask do I really want to stop ? We joke sometimes about the magic pill to cure us , would we take it ?

I hate to say this but I love this side of me, the whole things of putting together outfits, learning the art of makeup, choosing the right wig and then assembling it all to be part of you that has been hidden, buried and denied for so long. When you no longer have the guilt and shame society imposes on you , it just feels good to be comfortable dressed as the female that you were partly born as. I know going out socially has made me feel more this way, but it doesn't feel a lie.
I know I have the added complication of the way my CDing started also started my problems with GD linked to AGP but that isn't for everyone and I have to find ways to deal with it . At least I know what I'm dealing with now so I can move forward with those issues

[Tracii G]

A fraud in what way?
How can you be a fraud when you are being you?
Again I think you are letting your imagination get the better of you and causing you more stress worrying about it.

[Caroline Varg]

Good question!
For me, not yet aware of my normal hormone levels and still a CD, with a potential TS journey not out of the question, it's a clear no. Even without makeup, heels or female manners, I find an inner peace by wearing female clothes. Even as female clothes are more often than not made of softer materials, like polyester or silk, make clothes in the same materials do not have the same effect on me. Relaxing after a hectic day at work is so much easier if I dress when I come home. I would not take the magic pill and miss out of dressing.

[Sandin Meknickers]

Not at the moment. Just how much is based on laziness..

[Teresa]

Tracci,
In my wife's eyes I would expect the question of why I didn't ask years ago if I could be cured. I'm sure she would consider me a fraud for doing something she basically hates when I could have possibly prevented the hiatus years ago.

I know the chances of hormones having that effect are pretty slim, they are more likely to have a feminising effect if my T levels were knocked down, it's something that I will have to decide soon. Rather than my imagination running away with me , it's the unanswered assumptions I'm trying to sort out and that was something my previous counsellor tried to cure me of.

[sometimes_miss]

What I would have liked, was for the feeling that I was supposed to be a girl, dress and behave as one, would go away, leaving me as a typical male without all the female type feelings present. Crossdressing is only a symptom of the problem. So just stopping it, won't cure me of anything. I wasn't born this way, it's more a result of what happened to me when growing up, partially due to someone else, partially due to what I did myself, which reinforced the damage that was already done. Over time, the feeling that I was supposed to dress and behave as a female didn't go away even though the initial suggestion of that was gone. Whether our gender ID becomes finalized at some point during our early life, we don't know, but it appears to have happened to me that way.
For me, crossdressing and behaving more as a girl than as a male, is a way to quiet the conflict that goes on in my mind. I can stop, but then, unable to resolve the, well, argument going on in my head in my subconscious, overwhelms my thoughts, making it difficult for me to concentrate on anything else, leaving me irritable, short tempered, and generally miserable.
So there's a lot more to stop than just crossdressing. The only way I know of that works is electroconvulsive therapy, it's often not permanent, and the patient has to keep going back for more treatments, potentially leaving them unable to function normally. As I have no wish to subject myself to something like that, currently there is no other known treatment for this.
So I continue to crossdress, 'as needed'.

[Francene Lola Dupree]

"You take the blue pill, the story ends. You wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill, you stay in Wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes."
Morpheus, The Matrix.

If i had a choice, i wouldn't take a magic pill to cure my crossdressing. I adore dressing and would massively miss this part of my life if i suddenly lost the desire to do it. i think it also helps me balance out some aspects of my character which i have struggled with in the past, so i worry what type of man i would become if i didn't have a woman within.

[Princess Chantal]

Do I really want to stop dressing? No, however I can't see me doing it the rest of my life. Losing interest or declining physical health may eventually wrap it up with a bow. I don't have the motivation to progress forward from where I stand now.

[Lydianne]

"If i had a choice, i wouldn't take a magic pill to cure my crossdressing. I adore dressing and would massively miss this part of my life if i suddenly lost the desire to do it. "


I think the blue pill thing gets looked at incompletely. Most think about it in terms of what one would miss. In my opinion, it would be more accurate to think about it in terms of what one never had - and that is significantly more difficult to do. After all, the pill would wipe everything that Lexi described.

You know what they say about what one never had...

A bit like, for example, a nice party going on that you are not aware of. As it's happening, you are not missing it. Your brain is probably not even thinking about parties in general. That's the blue pill. Most people think of it in terms of the nice party you were at and then left early. That's incomplete.

[Lacey86]

I've often thought I might like to stop. I am in the closet and wife is semi supportive, not quite DADT. Things would be easier if I weren't trying to spend money on things I will probably wear some for short periods of time. My spouse certainly wouldn't object if I were magically "cured". I don't love having to hide a huge part of my personality from the world either.
But I can't help that I love to dress. I have tried to repress it but it always comes back, it was never gone, it just got more pent up. When I do indulge I find myself more at ease, less angry, I'm a nicer person afterwards. So no, I don't want to stop. And I think for me that's a big step forward and it left me with a smile to type it out.

[Lana Mae]

The feelings started at 4-6 and have returned off and on my whole life! I have finally discovered what it is all about(thanks to this forum-thanks girls!)! And you want me to take this pill to make it all go away? I don't think so!!! Hugs Lana Mae My journey has really only begun and I will ride it out!

[Fiona123]

Stop dressing? Nope. Not at all. I have worked hard to accept myself as transgender. Why deny what i truly am? What I want is to dress more.

[Stacy Darling]

This as a Question for you?

Have you ever tried such medications, have you ever been right next to a person on such medication?
I need no answer!

Now I'll be nice and let you know that there is a "pill to cure us" (F@#$%OFF) being trialled. Someone I'm close to is trialling it, she is looking prettier than ever but has some serious mood swings. Hasn't turned into a boy yet!

I'd like to finish with an acronym

Stacy!

[Teresa]

Lacey,
I'm glad being honest with yourself made you smile, your little comment made my day, thanks for that .

Stacy,
The answer is yes, my social group is a mixture of mainly CDers but there are some TSs, I have been surprised at the number on hormones , some of the conversations have been very interesting, and some of the stories very sad but the great thing is we all treat each other as equals .

[Michelle marie Smith]

I have purge of all my lady items more than once! Than also more than once I feel VERY sorry for the dumpster full of not only the items but, a part of me! To hijack a term from Popeye,"I AM WHAT I AM!

[Kellitgdet]

I don't want to stop dressing, I love this part of myself. It would be like psychosugery, taking a part of me away. This is a special gift we all have. We just need to find balance. Oh wouldn't it be wonderful if we were totally socially acceptable, everyone else would be wishing they could feel the way we do when we dress up. They are actually the ones who are missing out, it feels wonderful to be like us when we get our fem-self on.

[ronda]

as you t levels go down as you get older the desire to dress gets stronger that's how its been for me anyway I'm 68 and dress more now then ever due to chemo I have lost my long silver hair but still have my forms bra panties and lipstick skirt and top so not much keeps me from dressing

[DIANEF]

Stop dressing? Unthinkable, I've been doing it for so long it is a completely normal part of my life. The only real problem I have with it is the lack of time to do it as much as I want to.

[Giselle(Oshawa)]

if there were such a thing as the blue pill i would take it in a heartbeat as i have many other aspects of my life to keep me content and busy.
dressing for me is the elephant in the room it consumes me and dominates most of my inner thoughts, thankfully my wife is tolerant of Giselle.
but if i didn't have the constant urge to dress my life would be much simplier and less stressful.

[ginapoodle]

Really a good thought experiment, and I have conducted it many times.

Then there is the reality: I have been a CD with gender dysphoria since at least age 11, probably before that.

I love the sensuality.

The bad news is the DADT from my wife and cultural non-acceptance. Then there is my own concern of being outed.

Self acceptance has been my journey, and I integrate my femininity in many ways other than dressing up.

[Francene Lola Dupree]

for example, a nice party going on that you are not aware of. As it's happening, you are not missing it. Your brain is probably not even thinking about parties in general. That's the blue pill.

I think that's a very fair point, although my brain is often thinking about parties :P
You can miss what you never had, but even if the blue pill cured my desire and took away all memories of it, i still wouldn't take it, i like it down the rabbit hole.

[Rhonda Jean]

No. I don't want to stop. I'm assuming this question comes about from what you've been told in therapy. That going on hormones would likely give you mental clarity and would reduce the obsessive need to crossdress to satisfy your gender dysphoria. I can't remember exactly how she put it, but that's the crux of it. I didn't do it, but that was mostly because I knew that my employer would eventually find out I was on hormones.

Although I'd never want to stop I would like to live in the middle ground, and not have those peaks when the intense desire/need to dress is so frantic and overwhelming. There have been long periods of time when I've done that. Thing is, my "middle ground", from a physical appearance standpoint, looks like I'm full time with a male façade for work and family. Minus the required male façade, this is a comfortable place for me. It is balance, for me. To practically everyone else it does not look like balance, and I get that.

There have been times when I've lost the desire. I don't like it, I always worry that it won't return, and I always force myself to do "something", even if the desire is just not there. It's been such an integral part of me for so long that I'd be lost without it. I could do without the peaks and valleys. I've always felt like I'm seeking an average. That's the benefit/utility of doing things that are publicly unnoticeable like keeping my toes polished, wearing panties all the time, and shaving. I think (for me) those little things make those peak times less frequent and less intense. Keeps me closer to the average.

Most of us are prone to over analyzing ourselves. That's a small part of my self analysis. I've certainly recognized and accepted that the peaks are unsustainable. Strictly from an appearance standpoint (ignoring the ancillary details), the peak for me is what I described in an earlier thread. Minidress, heels, big hair, too much makeup... you get the ideal. Fun, unsustainable, and probably brought on by a frantic need to bring up my average. I have no idea if any of this makes sense to anybody but me.

I know that's a long answer to a simple question, Teresa. Seems like nothing is ever simple to me.

[alwayshave]

I have been dressing my whole life, on and off, from age 4 or 5. Yes for many years I wanted my desire to go away and just wanted to be a guy. I'm at the point in my life where I am comfortable with who I am. I love and need to wear women's clothes, apply makeup, slip into heels. Who cares, it hurts no one. At this point, mid 50s, I would not take the blue pill. I'm happy and I'm going to stay that way.

[Bobbi46]

No most definitely not! its within me, deeply embedded and let no one take this away from me, it now being a part of my life to be enjoyed and treasured.

[Dana44]

No as and older person, dressing all my life. A resounding no. since both sides of my brain are open. I see far differently than a male and am creative. Why would I ever give that up?

[SometimesKairi]

That's interesting. How does one test ones testosterone?
I imagine mine is average levels, I don't have male pattern baldness, and I have a higher male voice and I have hairy legs, arms, back, chest and a monobrow haha

I'm probably about average

[Sandin Meknickers]

Your doctor can sort out a t test for you. Lots of roid heads go through issues in therpay post cycle. The worst (for them) is gyno - developing breast tissue.

[AlissaMurray]

I think maybe in my younger years, say 13-25 if I could have taken a pill to make this all go away I likely would have. As many of you remember that was before the internet and the social outlets that we have now. Back in those days I was alone, completely alone. Except for my wife knowing I liked to buy her lingerie and I would some times wear her things (as we were about the same size.) She never gave it much thought because it never left the bedroom. It was difficult for me back in those days, I did not understand anything and truly thought I was alone. I thought I was a weirdo so how in the world could I ever expect anyone else to understand or accept me? I know I am not the only one who felt that way back in those days. It was all very confusing and I was completely closeted so I carried the burden by myself.

But now that I am 52 and my children are grown and out plus I have a wife who loves me and will go with just about anything I can dream up I would "NOT" take that pill. I love feeling pretty, love it, love it, love it. I don't do it to attract my wife because to put it bluntly "She don't give two shits one way or the other". And I certainly have no interest in attracting a man. I do it for myself. I do it for ME. I enjoy the Alissa side of me I truly do. I can honestly say I would rather wear a bra than not wear one during the day, panties all most all the time. I have some silky and really soft cotton tops that I will wear under my "man shirt" while at work. In fact I have nylon/silky/soft stuff next to my skin most of the time, why wouldn't I? It's comfortable and I feel even a bit sexy so why the hell not.

For those who have read me in the past, my stash and goatee are gone. I've been clean shaven for a week now and I love it. My wife made the comment that she "noticed" but other than that she hasn't said much this time. I got my first wig recently and I told her flat out it just don't work with facial hair, I'm a dude in a skirt and that is not what I'm going for. Little by little Alissa will continue to bloom and I wouldn't trade her for the world at this point. I am having fun with this part of my life, I enjoy it more than anything else. I will never give Alissa or her stuff up again.

[Tracii G]

Roid heads ?
What in the world is that?

[AllieSF]

Traci, I think that is a reference to those that take steroids to enhance their body strength like many professional athletes do.

[Salina]

I definitely would not take the blue pill at this point in my life. After years of inner turmoil and struggle, I have reached a point of acceptance of who I really am. I want to dress more often!

[Lacey86]

yes roid heads I assume means users of steroids. a famous fighter named jon jones in the UFC was banned for use of a prohibited substance... later came out it was an estrogen inhibitor. If you use steroids and then come off of them athletes will use the estrogen inhibitors to minimize the side effects of losing the steroid effects.

[Teresa]

Kairi,
Even without an official test you know when it' s high . I know when it kicked in when I was 8-9 , it peaked early and hasn't decided to give up yet . What will happen when it finally fades away is something that does concern me, I feel my female side will totally take over when the conflict is finally over.

[BettyMorgan]

This is something that is in me - maybe in my DNA. From my experience, it is not a learned behaviour. No one taught me to be feminine, no one taught me to wear dresses; in fact quite the opposite. My first experience was when I was five and the guilt and self-loathing were strong with this one. Despite the guilt, the hiding and purging, I still wouldn't change my transness. I have accepted who I am, I just wish society could do the same.

[Jenny22]

Never! I love my pink fog that at times becomes a bright, neon pink flood!

[carhill2mn]

"I hate to say this but I love this side of me, the whole things of putting together outfits, learning the art of makeup, choosing the right wig and then assembling it all to be part of you that has been hidden, buried and denied for so long. When you no longer have the guilt and shame society imposes on you , it just feels good to be comfortable dressed as the female that you were partly born as. I know going out socially has made me feel more this way, but it doesn't feel a lie."

I wonder why you "hate to say this but I love this side of me". It sounds as if you really enjoy the whole experience (as do I).

[ShelbyDawn]

I don't believe you have to worry about being called out as a fraud for something you didn't know about. There is little to no research into the 'real' cause of our shared proclivity that I am aware of. From this forum and other sources, it seems to me that the main belief is that we are born this way and while I may dye my hair, what's left of it will really always be brown, for a few more years anyway. :) (we will be whom we are)

Even if it is curable, that is not the case now nor has it been the case before now so how could you have done anything about it?


<"When you no longer have the guilt and shame society imposes on you , it just feels good to be comfortable dressed as the female that you were partly born as.">

This has been key for me. I did it through several years of therapy. I am now at a place where I really like who I am and don't feel I need society's approval. My urge/need/desire to dress is where I am comfortable with it. I no longer really even see it as crossdressing; it is more of me wearing what makes me comfortable.

FWIW, I under-dress in panties and bra every day, wear camisoles as T- shirts and wear women's jeans. I wear my forms and skirts around my house when I want to and sleep in an assortment of nightgowns - I found what works for me.

Hang in there...
Take joy in doing what you love and don't worry about how it will change over time.

[sometimes_miss]

as you t levels go down as you get older the desire to dress gets stronger
There are other things going on, as well. There are fewer things that could help us stop. I've had long stretches where I didn't crossdress for many years; those were when I was in stable relationships. As we get older, it's progressively harder to link up with a mate. For those who have it linked to sexual desire, it's also harder to find a partner, and as other health problems interfere (blood pressure as well as the medicines taken for it can both adversely effect the ability to get an erection), the frustration level escalates, and with no other outlet, the desire to crossdress is harder and harder to suppress. Also, at some point a lot probably just get tired of trying to stop, because all hope is lost for any chance at a normal life, and we reluctantly accept that it's not going away, ever. Some proverb about changing the things we can, and accepting those which we cannot.

[Steph_CD_62]

I have my days I would like to quit dressing, but deep down inside I know that I probably never quit dressing. It is a part of me and since I have an accepting wife I don't ever expect to stop.

[Becky Blue]

Great question Teresa, my answer is a definitive NO, I most definitely do not want to stop dressing ever. When the need to dress left me for 3 years, I actually hoped it would return one day and of course it did!!

[Teresa]

Carole,
I guess I used that phrase as if my wife was reading it, almost a final confession . I have actually told my wife this during a lengthy conversation, it was one of those small gaps when she allowed me to be truthful and open with but her she didn't say much .

Shelby,
Tracii queried that comment , I used it in he context of hormones possibly reducing my T level and with it most of the need to dress, I've told her that I really can't help how I feel but to her I might appear a fraud because those feelings could have been taken away . As I also pointed out they could have the totally opposite effect and induce a more feminine appearance , which is something she won't be happy about.

Lexi,
At the moment I don't have any of those health problems, I'm still a fully functioning male , the point you are correct about is not having a partner to share it with. As I've said before my wife knows my CDng ( and AGP ) are a substitute for her, I don't know she deals with that but I know I'm not happy having to admit and accept it, but that's how it is .

Becky,
As you know I've never encountered a break from 8-9 when it started , but I will admit sometimes in the past I have shaken my head in desperation and asked , "Why me ?". I know that's from a time before the internet when you feel you're the only one , that's when I began to use the term solitary confinement for being in the closet, I couldn't return to that situation . That's why I feel DADT is so destructive, because to me it's like a prison sentence in a solitary cell.

[Susan Smith]

I started at such a young age I don't remember exactly when. I like that I wear feminine clothes occassionally. No pill for me! Just leave me alone. Susan

[Territx]

Who knows, my feelings may also just reflect the rain outside! I guess I fit in the "sometimes" category. I know that things would be easier, financially and from a time standpoint, but emotionally there would be a loss. I have not reached the point of walking away from it . . . and may never reach that point. But, I suspect that I may be coming to a crossroads, where a decision gets made and then I just move forward -- whichever way the road leads. Maybe I will just "cross-dress vicariously" through the Internet and my friendships with all of you.

[Lilly Diadem]

I know that the desire to dress has been with me for as long as I can remember, it will always a part of me, regardless of how I feel about it at any given time.

Whilst this is a part of me that I know is a part of me, it is a part of me that I don't want and although getting rid of it may leave me not actually being me as I am it will leave me being how I imagine I want to be.

If there was a magic pill that removed not only the desire to dress but also the interest in all the other things that we do which 'feed' the desire to dress so that it was a permanently altered state that wouldn't be reversed or allow old habits to return then I'd have to take it.

The short term joy or even elation that I've had from dressing has possibly moved past the guilt it once was and now turned into sadness and regret as I get older.

Sadness as to why I need to do it, sadness at the joy it brings whilst I do it and sadness when the time to end the dressing comes.

Regret that I need to do it, that I still need to do it, regret that it makes me sad, regret that I could have spent the countless thousands of hours I've been dressed doing something else, regret that I could have spent the countless hours of thinking about dressing or even resisting dressing doing something else.

Sadness and regret that I still feel this way about my feelings.

At times it becomes overwhelming, suffocating or even incapacitating.

Sick of feeling sad.
Sick of regret.

I'm not a girl, I don't look like a girl although I could once upon a time with time and effort and I enjoyed that even though the pretty face that looked back from the mirror seemed sad.
I like girls but I like girls things too. I feel sad about that.
I own girls things. I feel sad about that too.

A magic pill to take all this away, change me to the me that I imagine I want to be, prayed to be even though I don't know any different?
Lose the sadness and regret.
Yes, I'd take it.

A magic pill to make it all seem normal, make me feel normal being me who and what I am; lose the sadness and regret as I don't know any different. Be happy being the me I am free from the guilt, the sadness, the regret.
Yes I'd take it.

[sweetdreams]

My Testosterone level have been dropping as I've aged. Doctor has brought it up a couple of times. He's asked if I want shots. He also asks if I can get it up. Yes I can thank you. I think it might be because I have special motivation and maybe powers (the kind Muggles don't have). I've said it before, I don't need Viagra, I need Victoria's Secret.

I'm not sure how the T levels affect my desire to dress. Lately I have been pushing hard to take it to the next level. So far it has only been from the neck down, now I'm working on the neck up (makeup and wig). Maybe the dropping T levels have encouraged this. Who knows.

[Traci H]

This question tears me up. Crossdressing has taken a toll on me and my wife and some days the ability to put it behind me and be "normal" might be tempting. I have however come to accept myself and what the Good Lord has given me. I just need to try to keep a balance, again for my wife and family.

Crossdressing has also brought me great satisfaction. I consider myself to be a creative person. I despise the limitations of the male wardrobe. As I stand at my panty drawer each morning making a selection of color, texture, and shape, I think, yes, this is the way it should be for me. I am not a white on white person. I enjoy the world, and life is way too short.

I'll make my decision when someone brings the plate with the pill on it.

[Gillian Gigs]

This issue has and will get chased around for as long as the sun still comes up in the east.
I tend to look at it like this. A wagon goes down a trail and the trail starts to get ruts. In the beginning it can be easy to get out of the ruts, but the more rutted the trial gets, the deeper the ruts get. It is not easy getting out of those deep ruts. One only need ask themselves, how many times have I purged? Then one falls back into the rut. After time it gets easier just staying in the rut. I am talking about me here, some may feel the same way, but others not.
For me, dressing is so intermixed with sex and sensuality I honestly don't think I could separate them any more. If I could untangle all of this, then maybe I could look at everything in a different light. There is a sexual side, a sensual side, a stress reducing side, and a just plain fun side. The threads (sides) are very closely woven together, 50 plus years worth. It is easier to accept and move on, than to attempt to unravel all of this.

[Scarlett398]

No way! I just love cute, sexy, classy Scarlett too much. It's so much fun getting the outfits together the makeup on and the hair just right. Putting the accessories and props together is a blast as well. The photo sessions, which I have been doing for at least two years now are so much fun as well!

I have given it up and purged completely before. Last time led me to put about $5,000 worth of clothing, accessories, footwear, makeup, etc. in the bottom of a landfill. I miss all of that stuff and wore everything in that wardrobe. I still miss a lot of the mini skirts, tops of all kinds, and boots, booties, wedges, and heels! There was some really nice stuff in that purge.

No more purges again ever! Scarlett is so much a part of me and I love to express the feminine side of me and that desire has been there since I was a young boy and won't ever go away! And purges cost so much money!

That's it for now. Love all you girls out there! XOXOXO Scarlett :love:

[Georgina]

I made myself a promise years ago that I would never stop, and I am not going to break it.

[paulaprimo]

the more i dress, the more i want to dress and stay dressed.
i don't think i could ever stop even if i wanted to.
i'm pretty sure that paula is here to stay and becomes a bigger
part of me each and every day. :)

[Karen RHT]

I've stopped wanting things several things over the years. I stopped wanting to run cross country races while at college. I stopped wanting to take martial arts lessons shortly after that. I stopped wanting to play hockey shortly after the doctors told me how bad my left knee really is. On the other hand, there's several things I've never stopped wanting to do. Riding motorcycles is one of them, crossdressing is another.


Karen

[Swish]

Hi Karen, I'm from Niagara too. Never want to stop either. Been dressing most of my life and have derived too much bliss from it. Haven't felt any guilt or confusion since I was an adolescent - other than after blowing out the credit card at Shapings for a tights order. Riding motorcycles while wearing tights underneath? Heaven!

[jennifer0918]

Absolutely not

[SometimesKairi]

I want to dress more if anything, all the time if I could

[Tracii G]

Lilly's rabbit hole post is a good example of thinking too much of why you like to dress up.
Its not that deep of a subject Lilly and its you that has placed all that guilt on yourself.
Almost like imagining a monster under your bed like kids do.
Dressing is part of you but it seems you haven't accepted it yet.
I have seen this in people I know they have a guilty conscience for actually enjoying something.

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Teresa :hugs:, I am totally happy having the best of both worlds...:daydreaming:...

[wantstocrossdress]

my urges to be femme and dress up come and go... i can dress up for 5 nights straight then take the next 2 weeks purely as a guy. the longest i've been without dressing up must be a month. i've come to terms that its a come and go feeling so i'm just ready when i feel like it again and keeping my femme stuff locked hidden from others when not in use.

[Sami Brown]

I would dress in the privacy of my home every day if I could, but having teenagers out and about limits my time. Whenever we move from this small Kansas town, I can easily envision being in public at least once a week.

[faltenrock]

No, I've done it soooo long, I don't want to stop or quit. After years I accept myself and Doreen as an important part of me. Male side could not exist without her, she couldn't exist without him. I just love going out and having fun dancing and shopping. I need my female side every 3-6 weeks, otherwise I get unhappy and nervous.

[Stephanie47]

Life would have been a lot less complicated and expensive if I was not a cross dresser. No friction with a wife along the way of this journey. I think most husbands will agree with that premises. Now? After almost seven decades on the earth and no prospect of the magic pill to change my sexual identity I really cannot stop doing what nature has wrought on me.

Teresa, if you're (the general and not particular you) a peace with yourself than you should enjoy yourself. If anyone out there hates what they are doing it is time to seek out a therapist.

[Alice B]

I enjoy dressing far too much to totaly quit. There is a freedom associated with dressing and afeeling That can not be duplicated any other way for me.

[XemmaX]

there was a point when i did want to stop or i felt i should stop but as time goes it has been better for me more than anything to just accept it and try and incorporate it into my life.

[Joanne108]

No! I love dressing as a woman. It is cool to see that I can to some extent look like a woman.