End of summer update

[Tina Davis]

Warning - longish post below. When I get going, it's hard to stop writing. :D

I haven't posted in a while, although I am still reading and occasionally commenting. It's been difficult for me to be positive when I haven't been able to dress for months. Being a closeted CD can be very draining, as many of you know. I have also known that it is not currently possible to talk with my wife about it, she is vehemently opposed to it, and (rightly so) argues about the lack of trust and honesty from me.

When I realized that I would have two long afternoons alone in the house due to her helping to run a seminar (that my college-age daughter was also attending), I was happy to dig out my clothes, shoes, and makeup. What surprised me was that I put on makeup even though I wasn't going to go out either day. The first day was spent working on my actual job, so I just dressed as a woman on a casual Friday, jeans and a light blue cold shoulder top with black heels.

On Saturday, when I got home after driving them to the seminar, I put on a purple sleeveless top and a black-and-silver skater skirt with black flats. No pantyhose either day, another surprise for me. I used my control mini slip to hold my hip and butt pads. I did work a little bit on my makeup. However, I didn't take any pictures of these outfits as I felt that I had been lax in shaving.

Both days were uneventful otherwise, but I did have to cut Saturday short in order to run a couple of errands (in male mode) that my wife texted me about while she was at the seminar. I cleaned up everything easily and was back to pick them up each day with no problems.

Now with my daughter back at school (senior year?!) and my wife trying her hardest to find a job, I may have more time to post and be involved with this site. Whether I can dress or not, I do enjoy reading about others like me (and not like me) who are on their own journey.

Toodles, Tina

[Leslie Langford]

I feel your pain, Tina!

Here's hoping that your wife finds that new job she is seeking without any undue delays - and for more reasons than one...;) :D :doh:

[Nicole11]

Hi Tina. I totally understand. That is how my wife is too. She just doesn't accept my crossdressing. So hard. Just do the best that you can. Hopefully over time it will get better. Hugs...

[alwayshave]

Tina, until recently I had an adult child in my house so I could not dress. She left 8 days ago, but unfortunately I went to Cape Cod, so I could not dress. I'm going to be dressed all fall though.

[Lana Mae]

Tina, glad you got some time to dress! What is your daughter doing after school? Will it affect your dressing? Best wishes Hugs Lana Mae

[Stephanie47]

I share your inability to be en femme as often as I want or need. My wife, who is a semi retired teacher, had been off for the entire last school year due to recovering from breast cancer. Just before that diagnosis she had back surgery. Except for a couple of times she went overnight to assist our daughter with a new baby I have had no time for Stephanie. Yes, I have been able to contribute my thoughts on this site and purchase clothing, but, little time for Stephanie. It has not had me climbing the walls, but, it would have been nice to be en femme on occasion. Another negative thing in my femme desires has been the clearing out of the laurel bushes by a new neighbor to the south. Those bushes offered a high degree of privacy when I took my breakfast and lunch on our swing set. My wife is not accepting, but, she has not said one word about my cross dressing for years and years. No barbs thrown my way. Just a plain ostrich effect...head in the sand. She has full day jobs scheduled for later in the month, so there will be some Stephanie time.

[Alice Torn]

I undrstand about stress from being closeted. I did not go out in public yet this year, due to bad weather, car problems, and fear.