somestimeskaren
09-20-2017, 06:07 PM
I've been single now for 16 years and been dressing for 40.When we were togeather my wife was accepting of my desire to dress.It was restricted to bedroom play and I never wore a wig or makeup just sexy lingerie and maybe heels.My crossdressing had nothing to do with our split.When I became single the freedom to dress when and how I wanted was overwhelming.I go all out when I dress now,wig,makeup ,false nails and of course heels.There is no arousal just a sense tranquility.I've gone out for late night drives while dressed , never been out during the day but I wonder If I were still married to an understanding spouse would we have eventually reached a point in time when we would have gone out and done things as girlfriends,gone shopping, sit in a cafe,go to the movies.I like to think it would have happened.Right now I have no one to share this side of me with.I'm not ready to tell my daughter yet .There was a gurl I talked to by e-mail who lives in my city but she hasn't answered any of my latest posts.There was talk of getting togeather in drab for coffee but it went nowhere.It's frustrating not having a support group in my area,I don't want to travel to Toronto for meetings and as far as I know there are no gay bars or gender friendly venues close to home.Wish I could share with another.