Pics of me

[Abraxas]

Just a few pics. I think the bloke thing is working for me now... Whatcha think?
Just click on the thumbs for the full image. :-D

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/1016/DSCF0025adobe.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=DSCF0025adobe.jpg)

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/1103/IM000690.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=IM000690.jpg)

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/2672/DSCF177.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=DSCF177.jpg)



--Eddie

[Abraxas]

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/6749/DSCF178.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=DSCF178.jpg)

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/3165/handsadobe.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=handsadobe.jpg)

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/5473/sign18.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=sign18.jpg)

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/9792/pics204.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=pics204.jpg)

[Abraxas]

Here's what I wore to the gay club:
http://img57.exs.cx/img57/8928/pics222.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=pics222.jpg)

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/2434/pics229.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=pics229.jpg)

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/3143/pics213.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=pics213.jpg)

http://img57.exs.cx/img57/9159/pics230.th.jpg (http://img57.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img57&image=pics230.jpg)

[Abraxas]

C'mon, someone's gotta have an opinion. :(

[samanthajay]

if your going for the guy look its working. :D

[Abraxas]

Thanks, that's exactly what I'm going for! :D :D :D

[samanthajay]

your welcome :D

[Abraxas]

Yup, peeing on the tree :D
The funny thing is, the tree had a penis. I kid you not... I'll post a picture of it. Very spesh.
Glad you like the pics. I like hats too. When I went out in that, everybody thought I was a girl. Damn. However, it did get me a big fecking snog, so I guess all was not losted. Hehe. It seems I have orbs following me around, though-- in the pee pic there's one behind me, and in the guitar pic there's one near the top right corner. Very odd. I'm quite interested in orbs.
Here's the tree's willie:

http://img96.exs.cx/img96/6382/DSCF100.th.jpg (http://img96.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img96&image=DSCF100.jpg)

http://img96.exs.cx/img96/4436/DSCF101.th.jpg (http://img96.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img96&image=DSCF101.jpg)

[Abraxas]

Yes, I suppose it's tree porn.
Now, THAT is what I call a woody! LOL
They're small orbs... One behind me in the tree pic... If you look about an inch to the left, level with my shoulder blade.
In the guitar pic... It's right next to the Marshall stack, where the head is sitting on the speaker. About a half inch to the right of the Marshall.

[Abraxas]

Okay, you saw them. Very strange. :)
(Not strange you saw them, they're just strange)

[Abraxas]

Which pics?
The ones with the older couple are my stepmum's parents.
With the sign, they're just a couple of friends.
The one with me holding the little kid... The guy is my father's cousin, with his wife and two sons.

[Abraxas]

LOL
No probs, I am, too. It's only, what, 6.40 am here and I've been up all night.
Oh, and the cats are my brothers. Er... Maybe my second cousins. One or the other. Maybe my step- second cousins. :p

[xsideburnsx]

Hah just so that you know, Eddie...I'm kickin' your ass for havin' enough money and for actually knowin' how to use that thing. Just letting you know that. ;)

As for the pics, you are lookin more and more guyish. Keep it up, homie.

[Abraxas]

OUCH! Stop kicking my ass! ****ing hell, that hurts!

Anyway... Thanks :)
Glad you think so, as that's what I was aiming for.

I wish I could spontaneously sprout a dick like the tree did. That would be SUPERDAMN great!

[xsideburnsx]

Alright alright ::takes boot off your head:: There you go. No more fighting.

Hah I know what you mean though. Those pics were still cool. Glad you accomplished what you were aiming for. One of these days, I'll stop bein' a chickenshit and post pics of my own.

[Abraxas]

Hehe
Thanks *rubs head*
Yeah, I'm more or less there. I still would really love to run around shirtless.
C'mon, man, post some pics :)
I bet you're hot. Do it!


DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT
(like an odd chant or something)

[xsideburnsx]

Heh dork. I'd kill to be able to walk around shirtless. That just won't happen for the long time if ever. I might feel uncomfy even with the scars it leaves that I'll stick to a simple wifebeater.

I'm weird about posting pics normally, because everyone can easily browse this board. I guess I'm a bit paranoid. I've sent some to Vicky via yahoo...she might attest to me bein' alright lookin.

[Abraxas]

Yeah, the scars are kind of a giveaway anyhow.
Well, post your pics when you're good and ready. :)
Hehe.

[babe4life]

I'm weird about posting pics normally, because everyone can easily browse this board. I guess I'm a bit paranoid. I've sent some to Vicky via yahoo...she might attest to me bein' alright lookin.
I am attesting to the fact that Jacob is alright lookin ... ;) Actually, more than just alright looking! :D

Eddie, you look great. And I mean that.

Love,
Vicky

[Abraxas]

Thanks very much, girls!

I don't golf anyway ;)

I still find it a bit difficult to pass at times, as I want to look like a girlish boy and if I go in that direction, I end up being considered just a girl. I can't wear any eyeliner for a heay- metal look, or I turn into 'rock chick'.
But maybe if I establish myself as male and hang out with more people, I can head in that direction more.
I think it's the hair that's helping. My face hasn't really changed that much since I was ten or so, and then people always thought I was a guy-- but I had short hair. Of course, it was odd when I got older and my hair grew out, they still kept calling me a guy till I was 15. Now that I actually realise what I am (a TV) and want to pass as a bloke, I find it hard. Talk about your lousy irony.
The other thing I find hard is, I'm a gay boy, but if I look at or talk about guys in public, it screams 'girl!' again. I don't act like the stereotypical gay dude, with a flick of the wrist and a lisp. I act much like... I don't know. Not like any guys I know. I listen to rock and metal music, play it as well, am goofy sometimes, serious sometimes. I've definitely got a unique personality and am not a cookie cutter kid.
I don't want to conform in order to pass. I just want to be me. And doing both is really hard. But... I'm managing. Anyway...
I will knock you on your noodles-- gently, of course-- next time I'd like feedback. Hehe.

[Abraxas]

Thanks :)
Yes, myself and everybody else thinks I look much more comfortable in my normal clothes. My father's seen me (in pictures and in person) in girlie and thinks I look extremely uncomfortable.

Glad you like the pics of the tree :) I thought it was so cool and unique when I saw it, that I just had to take pictures!

Thanks again,
--Eddie

[Abraxas]

Hehehe
Thanks!
:)
Well, I suppose if you like both, then why not have the best of both worlds ;)

[Abraxas]

Hehe. Did he give you an extremely confused look? :confused:
Nope, I'm not a man, unfortunately. Well, yes, I am but my body seems to disagree with my brain.

[Abraxas]

Or, were you telling him to back up from the transvestite ;)

[Gabriel]

! ...no comment... ;)


One of these days, I'll stop bein' a chickenshit and post pics of my own.Just send some pics to Eddie (by PM I assume) like you did with Vicky. Easy.

[Abraxas]

Thanks, Tristen. Glad you think so!
My mum isn't happy about the short hair. I do feel bad, as I knew she always wanted a girl, but instead ended up with two boys. She dressed me girlie and gave me dolls when I was younger, but I outgrew that. I think it was too much, too young. I never wanted to be a princess; I wanted to be a rock star or a baseball player, perhaps a professional stargazer. I wanted to be Michael Jackson (that was before he got quite so odd) or George Harrison.
I do feel bad, but this is who I am. I'm the same as I've always been... And I hope she can come to accept that a little better, and maybe even understand it.
Actually, I didn't mind my hair long and stuff, but as I said, anything remotely girlie gives me away. So I felt I needed short hair, even though I'd prefer a more 'metalhead' look. I wanna look like Yngwie. Or perhaps David Bowie.

Yngwie:

http://img96.exs.cx/img96/2970/2early-7.th.jpg (http://img96.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img96&image=2early-7.jpg)

http://img96.exs.cx/img96/3041/2early-13.th.jpg (http://img96.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img96&image=2early-13.jpg)

http://img96.exs.cx/img96/5304/criteria4.th.gif (http://img96.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img96&image=criteria4.gif)

http://img96.exs.cx/img96/7269/2early-1.th.jpg (http://img96.exs.cx/my.php?loc=img96&image=2early-1.jpg)

[samanthajay]

yngwie rock*sings*you'll never remember. i'll never forget. :D

[Abraxas]

Samanthajay!
Excellent! The lightning strikes, cracking the night... I'm not the same anymore. Thunder and spark in the heart of the dark. I feel a Rising Force!

Tristen: Glad you like the site! :)
No probs re the name: you can call me absolutely anything you want, really.
Abraxas or any shortening thereof, Eddie, Freddie, Ben, Benny, Benjamin, Alex, Demian, Demmy, Courtney (my given name), Court, Courts, Cor, Corbyn, Cor, Jaxon, RC, Ringo, Montruex, MJ...

Anything. Those have all been nicknames for me at one time or another. I'm not picky. ;)

[samanthajay]

Samanthajay!
Excellent! The lightning strikes, cracking the night... I'm not the same anymore. Thunder and spark in the heart of the dark. I feel a Rising Force!

Tristen: Glad you like the site! :)
No probs re the name: you can call me absolutely anything you want, really.
Abraxas or any shortening thereof, Eddie, Freddie, Ben, Benny, Benjamin, Alex, Demian, Demmy, Courtney (my given name), Court, Courts, Cor, Corbyn, Cor, Jaxon, RC, Ringo, Montruex, MJ...

Anything. Those have all been nicknames for me at one time or another. I'm not picky. ;)
the moon is bright on a vodoo night
your love is poison it feels so right
vodoo
vodoo
:D

[Abraxas]

World at War
Rich and poor
Burn in Hell
Hear doomsday's bells
Ringing loud
I see black clouds.
We are making Lucifer so proud!
Blind leading the blind; no- one sees the seventh sign.
We're left behind.

[samanthajay]

razor eater
he"ll never ever die
razor eater
he'll never ever die. :D

[Abraxas]

Now it's so clear
What I always feared
To walk the lonely road without you
And though I'm afraid
It's never too late
Now's the time to make my dream come true...


*du du dun dundundundun du du dun dundundundun*

[samanthajay]

ahhh im getting confused because i listen to so much stuff i ran out of yngwie stuff. i listen to to much metal. :D

[Abraxas]

Hehe
Um... Okay, how about some Queen? Not metal, but... Ya know...

Lessee
Something real romantic:

On such a breathless night as this
Upon my brow the lightest kiss
I walked alone.
And all around the air did say
My lady soon will stir this way
In sorrow known.

The White Queen walks and the night grows pale.
Stars of lovingness in her hair.
Needing-- unheard
Pleading-- one word
So sad my eyes
She cannot see.

[samanthajay]

im just a boy boy nobody likes me.
hes just a poor boy from a poor family
spared in his life from his monstrosity.
easy come easy go will you let me go
miss mila no we will not let him go
let him go
miss mila we will not let him go
let him go
:D

[Abraxas]

Are you gonna take me home tonight?
Oh, down beside that red firelight?
Are you gonna let it all hang out?
Fat- bottomed girls, you make the rockin' world go 'round
I was just a skinny lad
Never knew no good from bad
But I knew life before I left my nursery.
Left alone with big fat Fanny,
She was such a naughty nanny
Heap big woman, you made a bad boy outta me!
Hey hey!

[samanthajay]

i am immortal
i have inside me blood of kings
i have no rival
no one man is my equle

ther shall be only one :D

[Abraxas]

There's no time for us
There's no place for us
What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away from us?
Who wants to live forever?

There's no chance for us
It's all decided for us
This world has only one sweet moment set aside for us.
Who wants to live forever?

Who dares to love forever
When love must die?

But touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips.

And we can have forever
And we can love forever
Forever is our today

Who wants to live forever?
Who wants to live forever
Forever is our today
Who waits forever, anyway?




My God, Brian May is brilliant.

[samanthajay]

that he is :D

[Abraxas]

Absolutely! :D

[Renecd]

One of my favorite's! And Freddie...Wow what a singer we lost when we lost him :(

[Abraxas]

Yeah. :(
Has anyone seen the Queen musical 'We WIll Rock You'?
I saw it in London, and it was AMAZING!!!

[Renecd]

I have heard of it but not sure when it will get to Broadway. Isn't it in Las Vegas?

[Abraxas]

Yeah, it's in Las Vegas.
Not sure about broadway, but it'll soon do a tour of the US.
Next year, I think, it'll be in more cities. :)
I wanted to audition for the Vegas show but only found out about the auditions 3 days before the show.
Tickets are bloody expensive ($80- $113 range) but well worth it.
Of course, in Moscow, the tickets cost $1000 US. Brian's looking into why they cost so much. Pointless if no- one's gonna be able to afford to see it, right?

[Renecd]

I am looking forward to a US tour. Just hope they'll come near NY or NJ. Maybe you should try to audition when they do the touring company.
I can not see how anyone could afford such an outrageous ticket price, especialy in Russia. Sounds like Capialism has really come to the New Russia!

[Abraxas]

I might audition, if I can find out in enough time.
The problem is, I'm not experienced in theatre. I've only been in one musical, and that was in the 9th grade.
I'm an experienced singer, and a good enough actor, but I'm just not sure I'd make the cut. I could probably make the chorus, though.
And, if I auditioned, I'd get to meet Brian. If I made it in, I'd get to hang out with him all the time! Grooooooovy!

Hopefully they'll start the tour soon. I'm pretty sure it starts sometime next year. I'm sure they'll go to NY. I think they might be on Broadway in a couple of years :-D

[Renecd]

What do you have to lose?? If you try and get it then its a gain :) AND get to meet Brian! FANTASTIC If you try and didn't get it, atleast you said you tried!!
Go for it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs,
Rene

[Abraxas]

Alright. If I find out about the auditions early enough and can afford to get to the place where auditions are being held.

People have been trying to convince me to try out for American Idol. Ha!

[Renecd]

Good for you :)
If I see anything about auditions I will forward them to you. My ex girlfriend was on the stage (only community theater) but I was always looking at websites for her to audition and I have a few of those sites saved. She even auditioned for Radio City Music hall Christmas show. She didn't get it but she was thrilled that she did try out on the "great stage".
I'm not too sure about Idol though. Seems they just want a certain type rather than someone with talent. Just one person's thoughts :rolleyes:

[Maddie Knight]

You look great, definatly pass as male actualy you look more male than me in drab.

[Abraxas]

Thanks very much, Maddie! :D