Emma Beth
11-24-2017, 07:48 AM
Yeah, it's been quite a while since I was on here last.
I have a LOT going on now.
First, I will be moving in with my GF in New York at the beginning of December this year. I flew up there the last week of September and spent the best week of my life there. My GF noticed the big difference in me between there and here. She has told me that she was amazed at how relaxed into my Transition I was when I was up there with her and how bad things are for me down here.
At the same time I move, I will be going full time. I will also begin my Legal name change in January after I have settled in.
When I move, I will be meeting my Ex for the first time since she left. I will be delivering the rest of her stuff when I move. That means that I will be traveling a little over 30 hours to get to New York. The extra time will be due to the stop in Oklahoma and having my Dog next to me for company. He will need extra stops.
In the process of getting ready to move, I've been able to take care of my medical transfer from the VA Facility here to the one I will be going to up there remotely. I'm looking so forward to working with the Women's clinic there.
When I spoke with the Program Manager at the Clinic in New York, she told me that they had a lot more programs than what was available for me here. She said that even though all of the VA Facilities are part of the same 'Company"; every one of them had their own separate programs and policies.
Life here almost reached a critical mass for me. I noticed, just after Halloween, the very subtle discrimination at work. Unfortunately, due to the subtle nature of it I can do NOTHING legal about it. Neither can I do anything about it within the Company Policies or grievance procedures.
The only thing I can do is let them think they won. When in reality I will be the winner. My prize will be no longer hiding the real me any more. Which will be so nice, considering I hid from myself for so much of my life.
I won't lie. My head is totally spinning right now, and I'm nervous as hell. It seams like for the past few weeks, I have those WTF moments with amazing regularity. However, thanks to the hormones, I remain focused on what I need to do. I notice my own strength more and more every day with every step I take in my Transition.
I have a LOT going on now.
First, I will be moving in with my GF in New York at the beginning of December this year. I flew up there the last week of September and spent the best week of my life there. My GF noticed the big difference in me between there and here. She has told me that she was amazed at how relaxed into my Transition I was when I was up there with her and how bad things are for me down here.
At the same time I move, I will be going full time. I will also begin my Legal name change in January after I have settled in.
When I move, I will be meeting my Ex for the first time since she left. I will be delivering the rest of her stuff when I move. That means that I will be traveling a little over 30 hours to get to New York. The extra time will be due to the stop in Oklahoma and having my Dog next to me for company. He will need extra stops.
In the process of getting ready to move, I've been able to take care of my medical transfer from the VA Facility here to the one I will be going to up there remotely. I'm looking so forward to working with the Women's clinic there.
When I spoke with the Program Manager at the Clinic in New York, she told me that they had a lot more programs than what was available for me here. She said that even though all of the VA Facilities are part of the same 'Company"; every one of them had their own separate programs and policies.
Life here almost reached a critical mass for me. I noticed, just after Halloween, the very subtle discrimination at work. Unfortunately, due to the subtle nature of it I can do NOTHING legal about it. Neither can I do anything about it within the Company Policies or grievance procedures.
The only thing I can do is let them think they won. When in reality I will be the winner. My prize will be no longer hiding the real me any more. Which will be so nice, considering I hid from myself for so much of my life.
I won't lie. My head is totally spinning right now, and I'm nervous as hell. It seams like for the past few weeks, I have those WTF moments with amazing regularity. However, thanks to the hormones, I remain focused on what I need to do. I notice my own strength more and more every day with every step I take in my Transition.