Strange Feeling

[Sidney]

I had a strange feeling yesterday but before I can explain it I need to give a little background. I'm married and both my wife and I are retired. My wife is very accepting but doesn't participate. The only boundary she has asked of me is during the day to dress in my man cloths as she say. I am what I consider gender fluid, I am happy being he or she and float back and for and be very comfortable. I do not need feminine clothing to feel feminine. I dress out in public with womens shoes, womens jeans, a gender nutral womens blouse, panties, panty hose and bralette. No wig or make up. I do this several time a week.

In the evening if we're not out and about we normally get dressed for bed between 7 and 8. I wear panties, bra 38D with silicone filled padding and a pink silk nightgown that comes a few inches above my knees. My wife is in panties and nightgown. She usually goes to bed around 10 and I around midnight. We get up in the morning around 7 and lounge around talking, watching news until noon in our night cloths if we have nothing going on. So on a normal day I am dressed this way for around for 17 hours a day. I underdress almost every day with panties, bralette and panty hose.

The other night my wife and I were at a friends house for dinner and drinks. I was dressed in male cloths with panties and a brallet. We got home about ten and had a few more drinks, I like my bourbon and water and my wife her wine. My wife goes to bed and I stayed up reading until about 1 in the morning still dressed in what I had worn out that evening. When I did go to bed I was very tired and undressed totally and just slipped into my nightgown minus panties and bra

In the morning I had to change into my man cloths because I had a meeting with my attorney. When I went into my bathroom to take a shower is when I had my shocking strange feeling. I was standing in front of a mirror when I pulled my nightgown over my head. Every morning for the last three years or so what I saw was Yendis standing there in panties and bra. Today I saw a naked man and for a few seconds it was total confusion
Who is that. Where is Yendis. Why doesn't he have on panties and a bra. For a minute I was confused and in a state of shock before I recovered. I had to laugh at myself.

My question is have any of you ever had a confused moment when you saw yourself in the mirror?

Sorry for long thread

[Majella St Gerard]

No, I can't say that I have.

[Pat]

Mirrors and trans folks have a complex history. Many trans folks have the experience of a "shock of recognition" moment when they first see themselves in a mirror -- that moment when the reflection in the glass suddenly is the person you've been expecting to see there your entire life but who had never been there before. It sounds like you just wound it backwards -- you had "normalized" your reflection as your authentic self and then it was a shock to not see you there. Take the lesson -- don't do that again. ;)

[Ozark]

My story is similar to yours.... nice to know I am not alone.

[Shely]

I've had moments in the mirror wondering who is looking back me or Shely. It feels strange when I am all dresser up, sometimes I just gaze in the mirror for several minutes wondering how far I've gone and how far I still have to go. I never thought i'd want to change gender, but sometimes I just wonder. I feel so comfortable all dressed up it's hard to take off the clothes when I have to go back to drab.

[Nikki A.]

Never confused like you Yedis, but there are time I see some of Nikki in the mirror. When I am dressed I think about how different I look and how much better I look.

[NjJamie]

Yendis, I look forward to that day!

Mirrors are a funny thing as the only way that we ever see what others see is when using a "true mirror", an image produced by two mirrors set 90 degrees from each other. Using a flat mirror flips your features left/right as well as other limitations, simply said we do not see ourselves the way others see us, quite a metaphor for so many things in life! They are available on Amazon for $200, way too much for something that can be approximated with two mirror panels, cardboard and tape. It's best done with front reflecting mirrors, usually plastic, as normal glass mirrors are rear reflecting and the depth of glass makes for a less impressive image.

I've been lucky enough to have some Jamie time over the past few weeks and will not look at a full mirror until I'm complete, focusing on small aspects such as lip or eye liner when needed and going out of my way to avoid an overall view until I think every detail is where I want it to be. During the time in between I am not sure how i feel about myself and avoid mirrors which may force that thought process.

PS, I think I smile much more as Jamie than any other time in my life!

[phili]

I look in the mirror and see a mirl- a male girl, with and without clothes. I know no one else sees the mirl, at first, but I do, and that is all that matters. I missed the boat that had a SO on it that would see a mirl, but I go out dressed as a mirl pretty often. I figure that after a while other people will see me too.

How a mirl should look is defined by how mirls do look!

[Beverley Sims]

Very little for me to be confused about dressing.

So no is my answer.

My confusion is if I have struggled into a dress and not put on a bra in the first place.

[donnalee]

I just had to put on a bra - I had a bunch of stuff piled against the dresser where they usually are kept and finally was able to move it. I feel so much better now. The relief is awesome!

[Tracii G]

I never really had a problem like that Yendis.
I look in the mirror and I see me its that simple. I might be female looking and I may not but no confusion on who I am looking at.
Really don't understand why people have such a hard time with it all. I mean you know who you are right, the clothes and the make up don't make you a different person.

[alwayshave]

Yendis, I like the mirror when fully dressed, but in the middle point of dressing I do find it uncomfortable.

[Krisi]

I've never been confused looking in the mirror. I've seen enough of me to be used to a male body. If I'm all dolled up, the mirror reflects a decent looking female face and body but I know it's fake.

[Alice_2014_B]

I'm not the only who likes my bourbon with water!

We're in the same boat, it seems.
My wife is 100% cool with me dressing up, but is indifferent on seeing me as such in person, but we've been out in public several times with me all dolled up.
However, I do not under-dress.
Never worn panties.
Only time I wear a bra is when I dress up.

That, "mirror feeling", as I call it, can be weird at times.

Feel free to message me anytime.
:)