Nicole Erin
03-21-2018, 10:42 AM
I don't label myself but I do live as Erin full time. That started officially I think Dec 2010 when i legally changed my name.
Anyways, I was thinking about when I was in the CD stages and working at some warehouse from 2006 to 2008. Very boring place, packaging customer orders.
I remember every little feminine thing I did, wore, or said was this huge deal. It got to the point where it was just weird.
If i had walked in one day dressed as some over-the-top gawdy drag queen while singing some drag queen type song, Ok fine, that would have been hilarious but no, it was mundane stuff like -
I would wear a solid color tee shirt that happen to come out of the women's section. Even red or blue
"Oh NO, did you see Erin is wearing a blouse?"
Or i would be smoking Virginia Slims or Eve 120's
"Oh NO, Erin is smoking a woman's cigarette!"
I could paint ONE damn nail with clear coat...
"Oh NO, Erin had a full manicure!"
So sometimes I would play it up in some real discrete way just to see if anyone would notice. Like draw a tiny pink dot on my arm or something.
Sure enough, it would become the daily gossip.
Most of the time it was just people asking about my shaved legs or eyebrows.
The weird point though was one day i go in with jeans and a sweater and of course that got noticed. Like they were staring every day just to see what I would look like.
We did have a few other LGBT working there. One gay guy who was REAL swishy and a few lesbians. Of course seldom did anyone say anything about them.
I don't think anyone had a problem with it. Weird thing is once one goes full time or is completely "out", like no one cares. At my present job, I live like this each day and almost no comments or questions.
Anyways, I was thinking about when I was in the CD stages and working at some warehouse from 2006 to 2008. Very boring place, packaging customer orders.
I remember every little feminine thing I did, wore, or said was this huge deal. It got to the point where it was just weird.
If i had walked in one day dressed as some over-the-top gawdy drag queen while singing some drag queen type song, Ok fine, that would have been hilarious but no, it was mundane stuff like -
I would wear a solid color tee shirt that happen to come out of the women's section. Even red or blue
"Oh NO, did you see Erin is wearing a blouse?"
Or i would be smoking Virginia Slims or Eve 120's
"Oh NO, Erin is smoking a woman's cigarette!"
I could paint ONE damn nail with clear coat...
"Oh NO, Erin had a full manicure!"
So sometimes I would play it up in some real discrete way just to see if anyone would notice. Like draw a tiny pink dot on my arm or something.
Sure enough, it would become the daily gossip.
Most of the time it was just people asking about my shaved legs or eyebrows.
The weird point though was one day i go in with jeans and a sweater and of course that got noticed. Like they were staring every day just to see what I would look like.
We did have a few other LGBT working there. One gay guy who was REAL swishy and a few lesbians. Of course seldom did anyone say anything about them.
I don't think anyone had a problem with it. Weird thing is once one goes full time or is completely "out", like no one cares. At my present job, I live like this each day and almost no comments or questions.