redtea
07-29-2018, 01:10 AM
2016- First time wearing anything exterior in public.
Wearing womens skinny jeans in public was really really scary. Even in the dead of night i felt scared because my legs were so feminine.
The idea of short shorts in public seemed impossible
2017- Jeans in public barely phases me anymore, In fact there were times when i boldly walked past my sisters room which was shut to go to the store wearing girl jeans and pink shoes.
During this year going out in short shorts was the new exciting scary thing. Jeans just sort of became "as long as nobody that knows me sees me i'm ok"
It was also this year i got myself a pair of pink converse shoes and went to Victoria secret 2 days in a row, each day wearing girl jeans. The same girl jeans that made my skin crawl in 2016
By the end of this year i had gotten myself mens skinny jeans and started wearing them in my every day life around people who know me. I was never spoken to by anyone for my sudden change in jeans. Not even my mom would say anything about the jump from straight cut to slim to skinny.
2018- tops have always been the most scary part of dressing in public. I'm more comfortable showing off leg than wearing a string camisole. For a couple walks i would wear a sweater and take the sweater off to expose my camisole. This caused a huge rush of anxiety and i'd only last about 5-10 seconds before putting it back on. Then one night i did a quick step outside in short shorts and camisole with a bra under the camisole. What a massive rush it was, and what amazing comfort it is having both my arms and legs exposed to fresh air. it makes me so envious of girls who can wear this outfit and not experience any anxiety because they have done it so many times and it's not a social taboo. But then again, the Anxiety of it all makes the act of doing it so much more exciting.
And now tonight i went for a mini walk around the block wearing a white camisole, white heels, short jean shorts.
It makes me wonder if this year will be the year i finally tell my mom I enjoy crossdressing so i don't have to wait for those special days to go out. Tell her so I can reduce the anxiety level to the point where I can do even scarier things that make 2018 look like childs play. But no matter how i slice it, i can't think of a way that i can sheepishly tell her i'm a CDer. I'm getting really tired of all the "undress out of these clothes and wear male clothes to go downstairs to get some food, then go back upstairs and redress" Sometimes it's one pair of skinny jeans for another. I feel so crazy for worrying over something so small yet so big. I wish i could find the courage to tell her but....
I worry about a few things.
But i can't get into these things due to the guidelines of these delicate PC forums.
Wearing womens skinny jeans in public was really really scary. Even in the dead of night i felt scared because my legs were so feminine.
The idea of short shorts in public seemed impossible
2017- Jeans in public barely phases me anymore, In fact there were times when i boldly walked past my sisters room which was shut to go to the store wearing girl jeans and pink shoes.
During this year going out in short shorts was the new exciting scary thing. Jeans just sort of became "as long as nobody that knows me sees me i'm ok"
It was also this year i got myself a pair of pink converse shoes and went to Victoria secret 2 days in a row, each day wearing girl jeans. The same girl jeans that made my skin crawl in 2016
By the end of this year i had gotten myself mens skinny jeans and started wearing them in my every day life around people who know me. I was never spoken to by anyone for my sudden change in jeans. Not even my mom would say anything about the jump from straight cut to slim to skinny.
2018- tops have always been the most scary part of dressing in public. I'm more comfortable showing off leg than wearing a string camisole. For a couple walks i would wear a sweater and take the sweater off to expose my camisole. This caused a huge rush of anxiety and i'd only last about 5-10 seconds before putting it back on. Then one night i did a quick step outside in short shorts and camisole with a bra under the camisole. What a massive rush it was, and what amazing comfort it is having both my arms and legs exposed to fresh air. it makes me so envious of girls who can wear this outfit and not experience any anxiety because they have done it so many times and it's not a social taboo. But then again, the Anxiety of it all makes the act of doing it so much more exciting.
And now tonight i went for a mini walk around the block wearing a white camisole, white heels, short jean shorts.
It makes me wonder if this year will be the year i finally tell my mom I enjoy crossdressing so i don't have to wait for those special days to go out. Tell her so I can reduce the anxiety level to the point where I can do even scarier things that make 2018 look like childs play. But no matter how i slice it, i can't think of a way that i can sheepishly tell her i'm a CDer. I'm getting really tired of all the "undress out of these clothes and wear male clothes to go downstairs to get some food, then go back upstairs and redress" Sometimes it's one pair of skinny jeans for another. I feel so crazy for worrying over something so small yet so big. I wish i could find the courage to tell her but....
I worry about a few things.
But i can't get into these things due to the guidelines of these delicate PC forums.