randi_789
03-18-2006, 11:23 AM
Friday I was off again, needed to dress, and wanted to get out. No longer is just dressing enough, especially after Wednesday. With that desire present I did my makeup, except for wig and lipstick, dressed similarly to what I wore on Wednesday except this time I wore a loafer type shoe and a semi see through blouse in black and floral. I snuck out of the house, as well as one can sneak in broad daylight, after grabbing my purse and my wife's coat, which I now consider mine. LOL! Then I drove to the rest area as I did for my first outing a couple weeks ago. This time there was no Xanax involved. I was doing this totally on my own. At the rest area I donned my wig, put on my lipstick, slipped on my wife's jacket and off the the post office I went. I went in, checked my mailbox and found that a gaff I had ordered had arrived. It was in the box so no need to go to the counter. Then back on the road to the mall. I was going to go in one of the main entrances, but went in through Lord & Taylor. I parked, got out, made sure I was all in order, sometimes the seatbelt moves my breasts so they don't look normal. Then into the store. I had a confidence I didn't know I possessed. I slowly walked through the aisles, stopping to look at some clothes, and then out into the mall. It wasn't crowded at 10:30 and that was good. I walked along doing some window shopping and then sat on a bench and watched people, seeing if anyone was watching me. Noone paid me any attention. Then I continued my walking and finally got to my favorite store. Yep, Payless Shoes. I walked right in without hesitation, right past the cashier who said hi and I replied hi. Then over to the size 10s and 11s. I must have been there fifteen or twenty minutes trying on shoes. I was in heaven. :-) She even came over one time to see if I needed help finding something but I said no I was fine. Then finally I had to drag myself away and left the store without buying anything. I have way too many shoes now. I can't hide many more. I walked some more, sat some more, and then knew that I would have to leave. No lunch this time because I was alone and the courage and confidence I have doesn't cover that. LOL!! The next time I will definitely buy something from some store so I have to pay. On the way out when I was going up the escalator in Lord & Taylor I looked at myself in the mirrors lining the wall. I saw a woman. Not a man in drag, but a woman. That is the first time that has happened. I really didn't want to leave, but I had to get home because there were some things I had to do. So, back out on the road, reversing the process at the rest area and then home.
What is next? How do i satisfy the desire to do more and more each time?
What is next? How do i satisfy the desire to do more and more each time?