Aprilrain
09-16-2018, 05:05 PM
Hello there, I wanted to take a moment to say hi to my TS forum sisters! There are many new people here since the last time I posted. I started this journey about seven years ago and it has been the most painful and affirming thing I have ever done for myself…so far. If I’ve learned anything in the last 43 years its to never say never (or more aptly, never say that it can’t happen to you!) I’ve been schooled on this point so many times as to be in danger of being stupid! Anyway..
So much has happened I wouldn’t know where to begin. Well, thats a bit disingenuous, I did find a place to begin, it was here, as you can see, more than 7 years ago. To think! In my 20s I thought I was too old to transition!
Ok, maybe I am stupid. In either case here I am, older, a little wiser, and pretty tired, I have to say.
Everyday I get up and do it again. I do not regret transitioning for a second. I do often wish the world were a different place with more love and less angst but somehow I’ve managed to maintain a 51% hope to hopelessness ratio in all of this madness. My own and the worlds.
I’m not going to lay a “bio” on you here but I plan on being around more. I miss you guys! Ask me anything, If I have experience with it I will share, if you want it, I might even give you my opinion. I’m going try to steer away from specific advice though. I’m happy to share what has or hasn’t worked for me but if I’ve learned nothing, at least I have (mostly) figured out its better to sit back and be amazed by the beauty that unfolds around us than to try to manipulate a particular outcome. Turns out that crystal ball I saved up for in grade school is a fake! Darn gypsies!
I would like to take this opportunity to make one happy announcement though! My Husband and I married in May! I never thought I’d want to BE married (again) let alone find SOMEONE to make the question more than just academic. Somehow he even managed to surprise me with “popping the question” in spite of us talking about it in pragmatic terms for weeks! He’s such a cutie : )
I’d like to offer you this song I was inspired to create recently as a symbol of my love for everyone in the Trans community. Sometimes it seems we get so caught up in our petty squabbles with each other over our differences that we fail to see that for the most part, WE are all WE got! We should treat each other better.
https://soundcloud.com/greybirdrain/lost-highway2
So much has happened I wouldn’t know where to begin. Well, thats a bit disingenuous, I did find a place to begin, it was here, as you can see, more than 7 years ago. To think! In my 20s I thought I was too old to transition!
Ok, maybe I am stupid. In either case here I am, older, a little wiser, and pretty tired, I have to say.
Everyday I get up and do it again. I do not regret transitioning for a second. I do often wish the world were a different place with more love and less angst but somehow I’ve managed to maintain a 51% hope to hopelessness ratio in all of this madness. My own and the worlds.
I’m not going to lay a “bio” on you here but I plan on being around more. I miss you guys! Ask me anything, If I have experience with it I will share, if you want it, I might even give you my opinion. I’m going try to steer away from specific advice though. I’m happy to share what has or hasn’t worked for me but if I’ve learned nothing, at least I have (mostly) figured out its better to sit back and be amazed by the beauty that unfolds around us than to try to manipulate a particular outcome. Turns out that crystal ball I saved up for in grade school is a fake! Darn gypsies!
I would like to take this opportunity to make one happy announcement though! My Husband and I married in May! I never thought I’d want to BE married (again) let alone find SOMEONE to make the question more than just academic. Somehow he even managed to surprise me with “popping the question” in spite of us talking about it in pragmatic terms for weeks! He’s such a cutie : )
I’d like to offer you this song I was inspired to create recently as a symbol of my love for everyone in the Trans community. Sometimes it seems we get so caught up in our petty squabbles with each other over our differences that we fail to see that for the most part, WE are all WE got! We should treat each other better.
https://soundcloud.com/greybirdrain/lost-highway2