Helen_Highwater
10-04-2018, 12:19 PM
Well I've been away for a few weeks which meant I've been totally in drab. In truth I didn't find myself lusting after lingerie, desiring dresses or hankering after heels. I did keep on GG watching, keeping the "what's appropriate" register up to date.
All that said now once back at home thoughts are turning to getting into a skirt and top and slipping on heels. Getting back into my dressing rhythm.
So does absence make the heart grow fonder. In this sense not really. I like to think I control my dressing and not the other way around. Sure there is the desire to dress but by being in control when it happens I feel I enjoy it and gain more from it that letting the urge dictate what and when. It's also true however that domestic circumstances also play their part in the what/when. It's managing the two that's the tricky part.
What did help my enforced absence was the knowledge that in about 6 weeks Helen will go on her annual holiday. A week of 24/7 dressing. So I've been mulling over outfits, what to wear and where to go. How I can best make use of the time to interact with the muggles, getting Helen out and about with a real purpose. New thing to add to the experiences list.
So what I can draw from this is is that having that control in some way says that having Helen in my life has become normal. Just part of daily existence that requires a balance to be struck, a balance that I control. That for me is a huge positive.
As for the almost back to normal well the domestic routine is temporarily altered so those previously regular opportunities to dress may not be there. No big deal. I'll manage my mindset, plan for future days and enjoy those days when the stars once more align.
All that said now once back at home thoughts are turning to getting into a skirt and top and slipping on heels. Getting back into my dressing rhythm.
So does absence make the heart grow fonder. In this sense not really. I like to think I control my dressing and not the other way around. Sure there is the desire to dress but by being in control when it happens I feel I enjoy it and gain more from it that letting the urge dictate what and when. It's also true however that domestic circumstances also play their part in the what/when. It's managing the two that's the tricky part.
What did help my enforced absence was the knowledge that in about 6 weeks Helen will go on her annual holiday. A week of 24/7 dressing. So I've been mulling over outfits, what to wear and where to go. How I can best make use of the time to interact with the muggles, getting Helen out and about with a real purpose. New thing to add to the experiences list.
So what I can draw from this is is that having that control in some way says that having Helen in my life has become normal. Just part of daily existence that requires a balance to be struck, a balance that I control. That for me is a huge positive.
As for the almost back to normal well the domestic routine is temporarily altered so those previously regular opportunities to dress may not be there. No big deal. I'll manage my mindset, plan for future days and enjoy those days when the stars once more align.