I gotta admit i’m a little scared

[TolerantCD]

That my cross dressing hobby will become a problem. I’m heterosexual but if I keep cross dressing will my sexual interest in women disappear? Will only cross dressing turn me on? And can it one day make me want to become a woman?

[Fran in skirts]

NO! It will not make you anything you are not now.
How ever it becomes us we do not become gay, transgender or anything else. I dress in a skirt or a dress everyday and I am heterosexual still chase women. ( However at my age I am not sure what to do with them if I actually catch one):lol2:

Fran

[Tracy Irving]

I have been a crossdresser my whole life and I have not lost any interest in women nor have I discovered any desire to become one.

[Tracii G]

Think what you are saying first off and how crazy that sounds.
If you are straight and like women how are clothes going to change that?
Crossdressing won't cause you to all of a sudden be gay.
You are confusing sexual preference with gender and those are two different things.

[RADER]

Like Tracy, I also enjoy cross dressing, and I enjoy being with a woman.
Now as far as chasing them, well a snail could out run this old person.
Rader

[Joanne Curl]

It’s a problem for me. I can’t stop cross dressing. It would be better for my marriage if I did but it’s part of who I am. Even though it’s a hidden part that only my wife and the people here know about I can’t seem to ignore it. I love this part of me but I know it’s driving a wedge that may break my masticate of 22 years apart.

[Micki_Finn]

Crossdressing won’t MAKE you do anything. If you have those sorts of feelings, then that’s just you. Your insinuation that sexuality is changeable is actually rather offensive to the LGB community.

[Queen Bridget]

Crossdressing made me bi.

[Micki_Finn]

No it didn’t

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Tolerant :hugs:, I have been this program for over 70yrs. now and it hasn't turned me off from women.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Orchid .oo:daydreaming:oo.

[Robertacd]

Well I have been a crossdresser since I was 10, I am in my 50's now and still heterosexual.

But as they say, your mileage may vary...

[Teresa]

TolerantCD,
Normally it doesn't affect your normal feelings . No one can say where your road will lead it's entirely up to you .

[kimdl93]

There is probably no reason for me to add my two cents worth, but what the heck. Wearing women’s clothes will not make you anything that aren’t already. If you are heterosexual, so you shall remain. If you’re a deeply repressed gay or bi person, then so you shall remain, regardless of the clothing you wear.

Those who who profess otherwise were without a doubt practicing denial...something human beings are remarkably talented at doing.

[Tahoegurl]

TolerantCD - Coming to grips with one inner feelings and beliefs can be scary - especially if they are topics that have been avoided or repressed for a long time. Unfortunately they are topics that are for you to decipher as no one else can decide for you. It is good that you are bringing up these thoughts and expressing them in a group forum as it is a first step in the personal discovery process. It might be prudent for you to meet with a therapist and have this discussion. It also might be helpful to have a discussion with your spouse if your goal is to preserve your marriage. I wish you all the best on your Journey. Cheers.

[RachelPortugal]

I’m heterosexual but if I keep cross dressing will my sexual interest in women disappear? Probably not. **
Will only cross dressing turn me on? No.
And can it one day make me want to become a woman? No, crossdressing won't cause you to want to become a woman.

**The lesser probability is that your upbringing and conditioning by the society around you may have caused you to suppress other feelings, maybe you are bi-sexual and maybe you are transsexual.

[NancySue]

Who knows ? Que sera, que sera..stop worrying...go with the flow. Cross each bridge as it comes. I, too am heterosexual and have never had a problem. Enjoy your dressing.

[Shayla]

You are what you are. The dressing itself won't change that. If you are still concerned I suggest a qualified gender therapist to help you figure it out.

[Fran-K]

Hi
Current thought, as I understand, is that one is innately gay/bi/trans-sexual from birth or before.
That is, if you “turn” gay, you really always were but for various reasons didn’t realize/admit/act-on it.
That said, Cross Dressing is an activity that can make us think about these issues and be introspective and be honest with ourselves more than we might otherwise have. That might, I imagine, increase the probability of asking, and eventually honestly answering questions like you asked.

I expect that this wasn’t as helpful as you’d hoped?

But nothing is certain, your mileage may vary, and this offer is void where prohibited by law ;-)

Fran

[ellbee]

That my cross dressing hobby will become a problem. I’m heterosexual but if I keep cross dressing will my sexual interest in women disappear? Will only cross dressing turn me on? And can it one day make me want to become a woman?

As much as it may oftentimes appear that CD'ers only love to have fun with all this "playing dress-up," an outsider looking in should realize that for many of us, it can be a serious internal struggle that we wrestle with -- perhaps for a short time, or for an extended time, or for multiple phases in our life -- or even for a lifetime. And on all sorts of levels, mind you. (And yes, some of us may sometimes try to hide that fact from others, and pretend to the outside world that everything is just hunky-dory, when it reality, sometimes it's not.)

The OP is just one example of that serious internal struggle. Yeah, it's definitely real.


And I'll reply, by saying that each & every one of us, while perhaps sharing some commonalities, are also unique & different. No one here is exactly alike -- and nor will their individual stories & journeys be, either.

Furthermore, what complicates this even *more*, is that one person may go thru various "stages" throughout their life, as well. Today might very well be different than how CD'ing played a role in their lives 5 years ago -- and the same goes for 5 years from now. Personally, I know for a fact that I fit that bill... As do many (but not necessarily all) of us here, as well. IOW, just because you do something or think/feel something in one way at some point, doesn't mean you'll *always* do/think/feel that same exact thing or way for the rest of your life. Sometimes things change -- or not. :p


So, there are no definite answers to the OP's questions. Only time will tell? :strugglin

Though I do believe that deep down, ultimately one cannot truly deny their "core" self... That it will, at some point, revert to its default (whatever that may be). Perhaps in the meantime, they may wander down this path, or that path, etc., as they try to figure this all out & how it pertains uniquely to *them*. And even at the time, in the midst of it all, they'll be like, "Oh, okay... So *this* is who I am!" And they'll genuinely feel/believe that. They won't be "wrong," per se. But fast-forward a bit, and they may possibly end up like, "Ugh, what was I thinking/doing?? That wasn't really me back then!" And they won't be "wrong" again, either. :)


Anyway, it *can* all be very complicated, especially at times. And it also can get very real. We struggle, we wrestle, we hurt & feel, sometimes.

We're only human, after all. ;)

[Nikki A.]

A life long cross dresser here. I am still attracted to women. The more I dress though, the less of a turn on it is, it becomes more of a natural part of me though. Does it make me want to become a woman? The dressing does not, but I think it lets me know that there is a female side of me that I let the world see when I dress. I don't think I would do anything to transition, but if I was to wake up one morning as a female, I don't think I would have a problem with it either.

[biancabellelover]

Personally, I think that the answers from Fran-K and elbee sum it up pretty well.

Michelle

[Kas]

As others have said, the act of wearing womens clothing will not make you gay or make you a woman, but the fact you asked this question shows that maybe there is some stuff buried deep down which maybe be starting to bubble to the surface.

When i started CDing, i told myself i would NEVER want to become a woman and here i am a year later starting HRT, so yeah...

[Micki_Finn]

I always laugh when I see people worried about “what if I don’t like X anymore?” Well then you won’t like it and won’t miss it. When I was a kid I loved Tang. Tried drinking it a few years ago and it was DISGUSTING (like seriously did they change the formula or something?). I no longer like Tang. Have I lost anything by not being interested in Tang anymore? No because I no longer like it! I can derive just as much pleasure if not more from other beverages.

[docrobbysherry]

I'm one of them! AGP is a condition where CD's can become sexually addicted to their female character. The result is they may lose interest in female partners. Past, present, or future.:straightface:

It happened to me, in fact. Since I began dressing 20 years ago, self sex has been involved in my dressing. Up until 10 years ago I was dating women. But, after a few unfortunate happenings, I gave that up. Along with other issues, the older women I was dating couldn't compete with Sherry in bed!:battingeyelashes:

Many didn't even realize they were in a competition. But, I did!:brolleyes:

[Crissy 107]

Personally, I think that the answers from Fran-K and elbee sum it up pretty well.

Michelle
A lot of very good posts on the thread but I have to agree with Michelle.
Crissy

[Beverley Sims]

Well I wish I could see into the future also.

Whatever will be will be, as Doris Day sang.....

You are not likely to lose an interest in women and maybe one day you will want to be one.

Don't worry, be happy.

[t-girlxsophie]

There isnt some kind of league table you have to climb.Crossdressers aren't in the relegation spot,you won't move up the table and become something else,unless you want to.Just enjoy being you.

Sophie

[OCCarly]

I’ve been on hormones for 2.5 years, and high doses of estrogen for 18 months and I’m still interested in women.

[alwayshave]

My interest in women has not changed over the years. While dressed it even increases.

[Roxanne Lanyon]

Oh my! Sometimes I want to say "I am normal". But then, what is normal, especially to gurls like us? There are times, (too many, I suppose) where I am caught wondering about the lay of the land on the other side of the river. Maybe I should take swimming lessons?

Roxanne, a bit of Sweet Philosophy

[Patience]

Crossdressing will not turn you gay any more than swimming will turn you into a fish.

Maybe dressing is opening your mind to possibilities you hadn’t considered before. Whether you choose to act on them, that’s another story.

[Shely]

Well you never know for sure I guess. But as far as losing interest in woman, NO it won't as far as I can see. Will you want to make a sexual change, probably not, I sure as hell don't, but who knows.

[Aunt Kelly]

Most of the crossdressers here will tell you that crossdressing won't do any of those things. They are, to one extent or another, happy with their sexuality. Note first that sexual preference is something quite apart from gender. Then note that there are gay and bisexual crossdressers here. I can't speak for them, but I had considered myself a crossdresser for most of my life (just recently completed six decades worth) and have never felt any sexual interest in men. That has not changed, despite a serious change in my gender identity.

I recently realized (with professional help) that I am TS. I also realized that crossdressing did not "make me want to become a woman". I am a woman, have always been a woman. No, not outwardly, most of the time, but with guidance and no small amount of reflection, I realized that the signs were there all along. The dressing was just a way to cope with what I now understand as gender dysphoria. Oh, don't get me wrong. When I was younger, ok... much younger there was often (though not always) an erotic component to crossdressing, but then a lot of things are erotic at that age. Whether or not that is so for you is nothing to worry about. Again, lots of straight crossdressers here whose drive is primarily fetishistic.

The best advice I can give is to accept who you are, now and always. It is unlikely in the extreme that you could stop crossdressing, even if you wanted to, so make peace with that. In the most unlikely event that other changes come, accept those as well. They will be as much a part of your nature as the color of your hair or eyes. Love yourself enough to accept and embrace them.

Hugs,


Kelly

[Ressie]

That my cross dressing hobby will become a problem. I’m heterosexual but if I keep cross dressing will my sexual interest in women disappear? Will only cross dressing turn me on? And can it one day make me want to become a woman?

What no one seems to have touched on is that you're implying crossdressing turns you on. DocRobbySherry admits that it turns him/her on too. And it's turned me on ever since I can remember. Women also turn me on the same as they always did and men turn me on somewhat in other ways.

Of course the answer is don't be afraid of whatever happens, because it's you. Which I believe has already been brought up by others. We all have been afraid of all kinds of things. But unreasonable fear tends to hold us back. Life is a journey right?

[Becky Blue]

I know this has been said 10 million times before, so I will make it 10 million and 1 gender and sex are unrelated. Your crossdressing may MAY develop further and you may become somewhat more on the Transgender spectrum. BUT putting on woman's clothing no matter how often you do will not change your underlying sexuality. If you find yourself attracted to guys when wearing a dress I cant see how changing that dress into guys pants and shirt would remove the attraction... if the act of dressing up turns you on, then its the fact that your turned on is the relevance... being turned on itself has zero impact on sexuality

[5150 Girl]

As you become more comfortable admitting to yourself that you're a CDer, you may begin to accept things about your personality that you always knew were there, but you repressed.
So will it "make you" do something else? No. However, it could be a key to unlock the gate to some repressed feelings.
If you talk to people who have transitioned, they will most likely tell you they have always known that there was "something not right" you know?

[Fran-K]

Crossdressing will not turn you gay any more than swimming will turn you into a fish.

I think that sums it up in a nutshell
Thanks Patience!

Fran

[Gillian Gigs]

Wearing women’s clothes will not make you anything that aren’t already. If you are heterosexual, so you shall remain. If you’re a deeply repressed gay or bi person, then so you shall remain, regardless of the clothing you wear.

Those who who profess otherwise were without a doubt practicing denial...something human beings are remarkably talented at doing.

If you wore a pair of cowboy boots would that give you the desire to ride a rank bull for 8 seconds? This would only happen if you wanted to become a rodeo cowboy! That being said, watch yourself next time you are wearing a big a$$ belt buckle! lol

[SabrinaEmily]

Tolerant, you will not become anything you weren't already, as others have said. Only you can find out for yourself, but I doubt your need to wear feminine clothes is a "hobby". It usually isn't.


AGP is a condition where CD's can become sexually addicted to their female character. The result is they may lose interest in female partners. Past, present, or future.:straightface:

"Autogynephilia" is a myth invented by creepy old men* to claim that transwomen are either creepy old men or supergays trying to trap unknowing straight men. It's a pseudo-scientific gloss on hateful stereotypes, nothing more. :brolleyes:

And guess what? Despite being attracted to women, I have no interest in being the partner of anyone who expects male sexuality from me. That's not addiction, that's knowing what I want and need from a relationship and having standards. Others' needs will be different; act accordingly. And yes, I've had what I'm after before and will have it again.

*This is not an attack on anyone who, though wrongly in my view, identifies with AGP. It absolutely is an attack on Blanchard, Bailey, useful idiot Lawrence, and the rest of that coterie. And because someone is practically guaranteed to try to rip my words out of context, I didn't call Lawrence a "creepy old man" -- she didn't invent the myth, just tagged along for some reason.

[Carolina]

Well I certainly believe that sexulaity and gender are different and may explain some of our confusion, at least mine. I’m attracted to women. I don’t think I’m attracted to men, but if Carolina is more and more present and some attraction does take place I would think it would be a suppressed part of me that is coming out, not that any dress or makeup would turn me bisexual.

On the gender issue, I have to figure out where I am on the spectrum. I believe to be finding out I’m closer to the female side, suppressed for the longest time, but I still need to figure it out.

So my 2 cents is that sexuality is defined probably at birth but in some cases it may be suppressed. Similarly gender is there at birth, most have it clear from the beginning, for others we start questioning where we are in the gender spectrum.

[docrobbysherry]

Talk about "taking things out of context", Sabrina? I mention AGP, which if it's an imaginary disorder or not, I have it! I mentioned nothing else to do with Blanchard's discarded thesis. And, thank u for calling all of us T's who enjoy sex when dressed, "dirty old men"!:straightface:


Tolerant, you will not become anything you weren't already, as others have said. Only you can find out for yourself, but I doubt your need to wear feminine clothes is a "hobby". It usually isn't.



"Autogynephilia" is a myth invented by creepy old men* to claim that transwomen are either creepy old men or supergays trying to trap unknowing straight men. It's a pseudo-scientific gloss on hateful stereotypes, nothing more. :brolleyes:

And guess what? Despite being attracted to women, I have no interest in being the partner of anyone who expects male sexuality from me. That's not addiction, that's knowing what I want and need from a relationship and having standards. Others' needs will be different; act accordingly. And yes, I've had what I'm after before and will have it again.

*This is not an attack on anyone who, though wrongly in my view, identifies with AGP. It absolutely is an attack on Blanchard, Bailey, useful idiot Lawrence, and the rest of that coterie. And because someone is practically guaranteed to try to rip my words out of context, I didn't call Lawrence a "creepy old man" -- she didn't invent the myth, just tagged along for some reason.

[Rachel05]

I have been cross dressing now for 50 years, I am totally at peace with my cross dressing and love to dress, I still very much adore my female partner and women in general and I have never felt the urge to be a woman full time

As I say, I absolutely love to cross dress and I am lucky enough to be able to indulge my passion way more nowadays than I used to when I was young, cross dressing does not turn me on sexually, it makes me feel very happy and content but there is not a hint on sexual need comes from dressing

We are all very different people with very different needs and my need is to dress in and enjoy lovely female clothes, the rest of my life goes on around that need, cross dressing is as much a part of me as breathing, I embrace that part of who I am

Hope that helps

[Helen_Highwater]

There are members of the forum who dress full time and it can be argued that they're not crossdressing, they're wearing their clothes of choice. They've chosen to live life presenting in a way which suits them.

In my early days CD'ing yes there was the turn on element to it. Dressing was new, risque, a taste of forbidden fruit. As years passed I grew ever more comfortable with being dressed. It became second nature. Now it just feels the natural thing to do. It hasn't made me gay and I don't see it doing so anytime soon.

As for what the future holds for you, no-one knows and the only way you'll find out is to go with the flow and see where it takes you. Further down the line you may discover you're one of those for whom going full time is what you want. It's just as likely you'll be one of us who dress either as the opportunity arises or anytime you feel like it depending upon your personal circumstance at the time.

Don't fret it. Go along for the ride. Look at all the fun we have.

[SabrinaEmily]

And, thank u for calling all of us T's who enjoy sex when dressed, "dirty old men"!:straightface:

That would be awfully hateful and self-hating of me, if I had said that. But I didn't. I said it was what Bailey et al believe, and that it was wrong.

[CynthiaD]

It really depends on how long you crossdress. If you crossdress into your 90's, your interest in women probably won't diminish, but your ability to do anything about it probably will.

[ReineD]

When my oldest son was a young teenager, I saw evidence that he was looking at porn online. This wasn't just regular playboy type stuff, but I saw that he had quite a browsing history of orgy-type situations, BDSM, other fetish-type sex. I didn't mind his curiosity about sex (he was 14), but I explained to him that if he began to form a sexual preference or attraction, if you will, to situations that he was unlikely to encounter when he would eventually start having sex with teenage girls, he might be setting himself up to be disappointed. The porn would set him up to have unrealistic expectations of women if he got used to gratifying himself over situations he was unlikely to encounter in real life.

Likewise, there was a massive study done in Italy some years back. The study was done to try to explain why there were so many young men who had difficulty performing with women during sex, when in the past men didn't begin experiencing erectile dysfunction until at least middle age. The study had about 2,000 subjects. The cause was the proliferation of porn since the advent of high speed streaming sites. There were tons of guys who had wired themselves to enjoy levels of sheer variety and artificial stimulation that no single female can replicate.

You need to understand that sexual habits can and do form. Not orientation, but habits that can make it difficult for you to perform well with your wife in the future. When you experience pleasurable sensations, your brain releases dopamine which functions as the motivation or reward for the behavior. The more you engage in the behavior, the more your brain wires itself to respond to that specific behavior.

I'm not saying anything against porn or crossdressing for self-gratification. But, I do suggest always maintaining a balance - be sure to continue having mutually enjoyable sex with your partner, to prevent the other things from embedding themselves too deeply in your psyche. I've read far too many stories here over the years from members who ultimately did prefer self-gratification with their fantasies over having sex with their wives.

EDIT -
You also mention the possibility of wanting to become a woman in the future (if you're not a woman now, then you won't "become" one in the future). If, however, you mean a possibility of wanting to have sex with men, yes it can happen. You may come to think this is what you want.

If you are wondering about the possibility now, I'll venture to guess that some of your current fantasies involve you as an attractive woman to men? This is quite common here. But, there's a difference between having the man-in-your-fantasies enhance your sexual fantasy of being a woman, and an actual sexual attraction to the man. It might be something you'll want to experiment with. If the thought of having sex with a man is a turn-off right now though, it's an indication that you're not into men sexually, other than perhaps using them to enhance your fantasies.

Sorry for so many "ifs". I don't know any of your details.

[Rachelakld]

While I've fantasised about being a sexy sl*t for 40 years, the thought of touching another mans private part is still a total turn off.
Maybe one day I will feel differently or maybe not.

[Majella St Gerard]

You know what makes you gay? Being gay.

[CONSUELO]

There are some very good replies to this post. All I can say is that indeed your cross dressing may become a problem but with friends family and lovers but not so much with yourself.
Dressing will not change your sexual orientation but if you don't have a balanced sexual life and make a strong link between cross dressing and sexual pleasure then perhaps it will become the major sexual motivator.
If you decide you want to undergo a sex change it is unlikely that cross dressing is the root cause. Deeper, stronger and more complex feelings need to be there first and you should be feeling those now.

Don't worry. You will probably be like most people here and just cross dress for the shear enjoyment.

[Judy-Somthing]

I have been cross-dressing for over 50 years and I still go GAGA over women and have no desire to become one.
I've had at least four times when guys who knew I dressed who wanted to do me but I passed.

[Leslie Langford]

I consider myself to be heterosexual, but to be honest, if I see an attractive woman these days, I'm more interested in what she is wearing and how, potentially her outfit might look on me. In other words, I would probably rather "be" her than "do" her.

Then again, age and stage of life might have something to do with this as well. I grew up in an era when women still routinely wore skirts, dresses, heels, and pantyhose etc., took pride in their appearance, and seemed to revel in their femininity. I see nothing remotely appealing in the sloppy, grungy manner in which most women dress these days and in their trying to emulate "the boys" in their often promiscuous, hard-drinking, pick-up truck driving, body-piercing, and tattoo-enhanced behavior and presentations.

Maybe mine is an out-dated notion of femininity and maybe in some ways I am objectifying women in saying this. If so, guilty as charged, but it's the way I am both wired and was socialized as, and I make no apologies for that.

All of us have a "type" that we look for when it comes to being attracted to the opposite sex - especially from a visual standpoint, which is generally the first point of contact/awareness. Some people have a preference for blondes, some would not consider as a love interest a short person or one who has a prominent nose, and others are turned off by people who are excessively heavy etc., etc. My type happens to be the traditionally feminine woman, which is a species that is rapidly disappearing.

All that said, if a label needs to be attached to me aside from "crossdresser" it would likely be "asexual" at this point in my life (I am a card-carrying "Boomer"). Wasn't always that way, but as my awareness (and comfort level) with my non-conventional gender identity/orientation evolved over the years, my purely carnal interest in today's women declined proportionally.

[Stephanie47]

Based upon my own personal experience your desire to wear women's clothing will not change you from being a heterosexual to a homosexual. I do agree there may be some degree of fantasy, but, fantasy is not reality. I think there are transgender women who have not yet realized who they are and may wear women's clothing before making the realization of who they need to be.

I do think it is possible to find oneself totally consumed by cross dressing to the exclusion of social interaction. But, that is no different than a guy sitting on a couch 24/7 playing some video game. How many wives and girlfriends complain about their men ignoring them because they are consumed with their hobbies and toys? If you become totally absorbed in anything it can lead to lack of interest in other things.

My personal experience with cross dressing is the opposite. It stroked my desire to engage with a wonderful woman, even though she is not a fan of my desire to wear women's clothing.

[Confucius]

Good question. I wish we all knew what the future holds for us.

Currently you crossdress because crossdressing makes you happy. It doesn't mean you will transform your sexual orientation to gay. It doesn't mean your crossdressing will transform your gender identification to transsexual. It doesn't mean that you won't be able to continue to enjoy sexual intimacy with females without crossdressing. However any of that is possible. If it happened once, it doesn't mean it will happen to you.

Life is a journey and no one goes through life without ever changing. Your life will experience changes, but you will always be you. Accept yourself as a wonderful and beautiful person, and always be true to yourself.

[Leslie Mary S]

I have yet to desire to be a woman. I have wonderd what sex feels like as a woman but I know that there can NEVER be a way that I can totally feel what that is like just like I can never feel child birth like a born woman woman dose. So I am happy to just wear the clothes etc.

[WandaRae2009]

Been crossdressing for over 40 years. Still only interested sexually in women and no desire to transition to a woman full time. I do crossdress a lot more now than years ago.

[Pixie_94]

First: No, it doesn't have anything to do with your sexual orientation.
Second: Do you do it just with "those" purposes and if then, compulsively?
Lastly: Not exactly, even though, some people here say otherwise, I know their backgrounds were different.

[ElianaFrozenflame]

I think the best advice I can offer to you, is to begin treating your desire to crossdress separately from your sexual turn on. If you only crossdress for the sexual turn on, and are concerned about how frequently you do it, then it is completely valid to consider you may be suffering from sex addiction. As Reine and docrobbysherry have pointed out, sexual "self-attraction" can lead to other things, that may inhibit your ability to be intimate with a SO. It might be worth seeking out a therapist who specializes in sex addiction.

This is something I have wrestled with a lot in the past. And to be perfectly honest, something I still wrestle with, today ("Hello, my name is Eliana, I am a recovering sex addict"). But by separating crossdressing from my "sexual-addiction", I have found other joys in crossdressing that don't involve being turned on at all. This has actually enhanced my ability to crossdress. Feminine grooming, for instance, had not been something I spent much time on in the past, because crossdressing was all about the sexual turn on. Go to the other room, get all dolled up, rub one out, and the desire to crossdress diminishes, go back to drab mode, try and deal with feelings of guilt and addiction afterward. This had always made crossdressing to me something to be loathed. Don't get into self-loathing, deal with the addiction. Then Crossdressing, if you still have the desire for it, will become something more enjoyable, because you will feel more in control.

-Eliana