Little private thoughts

[Becky Blue]

I am on a board of a volunteer organisation, at a recent AGM the CEO's presentation spoke about diversity and said he is very happy to report that the board is now 6 males 4 females, from 9 and 1 just 2 years ago. I had a little smile to myself thinking in a way its actually a bit better than that its 4.5 to 5.5, they should only know :battingeyelashes:

What are some of the little moments when you think "well actually..."

[Cassandra Lynn]

I've always (well no, more like since I came to acceptance of my transness) had that little inkling thought...……

You see, i'm the youngest of 4 males, and my mother was forever saddened she never got to have a daughter. She passed away 13 years ago on thanksgiving day and I always tell myself that she came closer than she thought.
Yes, I was born male and am male but I still hold on to that little thought; it comes up in casual conversation amongst various family members from time to time, and there it is.

I came out to my dad 4 years ago, but due to dementia he has I think forgotten about it; I told him that day that mom in some ways, had a small bit of femininity in her offspring but it was more than he could understand.


It was 5 yrs after her passing that I stood at her graveside and spoke it out loud and it was an emotionally rewarding experience for me.

Thanx for the thread Becky, this week is always a bit rough for me (I was very close, more so than the other sons, to her).
Cass

[Tracii G]

I am the youngest of 4 male sons and remember my Mom saying they were hoping I was a girl. There were no ultra sound equipment in 1952 so hope was all she could do.
I was very close to my Mother and still have graveside chats with her even tho' she passed in 1972.

[Leslie Mary S]

I find I get and have burst of those "little Privates thoughts", but forget them when I get on here and/or realize mine are so petty.

[Beverley Sims]

I've always (well no, more like since I came to acceptance of my transness) had that little inkling thought...……

You see, i'm the youngest of 4 males, and my mother was forever saddened she never got to have a daughter. She passed away 13 years ago on thanksgiving day and I always tell myself that she came closer than she thought.

Cass
Cassandra, on Thursday, do remember the good times, may you have a good Thanksgiving.

I get a lot of instant recall as I read posts here, some things I have forgotten over the years come flooding back to me.

[Hell on Heels]

Hell-o Becky,
I have these all the time, and normally I tell people they don’t really wanna know what’s going on in my head.
I’ve had many of those thoughts while at work. There are a total 7 people (all male) where I work. I had walked into our lab where my boss happened to be working on something (possibly a margarita???). As he sees me walk in, he immediately comments on my “feminine” looking shirt. Right after the words came out of his mouth, he began appllogizing, he’s not supposed to be making such comments, and hoping he didn’t offend me. I assured him it was a men’s shirt, and I wasn’t offended.
My private thought was why do you think I bought it? It’s purple and sparkley!

On another work occaision we were in need of another pair of hands. A coworker had a girlfriend that was more than qualified for the job, and this coworker commented to me “they would never hire a girl here”.
Yeah... you know what I was thinkin’.
Much Love,
Kristyn

[Becky Blue]

A woman at my office said recently, if you guys knew what it was like wearing high heels, you would be much more sympathetic to us. Thought bubble "I do! I am sister!, but oh its so worth it"

[Sandra_Dodds]

I encountered a similar conversation a few months back when a couple of women I work with were complaining about wearing tights and inside my head I so wanted to say "I actually find them comfortable, check these out". But silence was the smartest option.

[kimdl93]

Yesterday in conversation with our nurse practitioners I mentioned that my life seemed to be divided up into 20 year intervals. She asked if I was a woman in any of my earlier lives. Yep, thought bubble....

i neglected to mention that the NP sitting next to her knows about me....I didn’t even dare make eye contact with her for fear that we might both burst out laughing!

[Gillian Gigs]

I have listened to women lament over having to wear pantyhose and heels many times. I have wished I could just say, "well I like to wear pantyhose", or "yes, I find that heels bother me after wearing them for a long while", but that would end it all right there. When listening to a discussion about shopping and what they purchased, and you wanting to join in on the discussion about your resent purchase. I can only imagine the looks that I would get. A smart CD'er has patience for their wife knowing how much time it takes to get ready when going out. Even needing to pee can be a chore while dressed, and most guys wonder why they take so long in the washroom!

[Jean 103]

Yesterday I returned to a customer’s house to finish a repair. She mentioned she use to have this person (I think he rented a room from her as I do where I live) that was like a house boy. She was saying how it was nice to have someone to help. She is having a dinner for 18 tomorrow. She said her gardener didn’t have any plans and is going to help.

I thought I could be your house girl.

I love where I live now. I’ll be going out with my landlady, her boyfriend and sister. I made a reservation at a restaurant close by. Yes I think I have my outfit picked out, but I have all day to get ready so?

Really Kristen, there are lots of women in your industry. Ok not a lot that do what you do but they are out there. I was thinking of you as this lady flew up there to attend a run in her sons honor last weekend. When I asked how it went, she said it has canceled because of the smoke, she said she still had a nice visit with her sister and friends.

Wish you all a great thanksgiving.

[Jenny22]

In a conversation with my sister about her daughter's divorce many years ago, she said, ".... and he was a crossdresser." I replied, "yes, there are a lot of them out there." She didn't bat an eye!
I will be telling her about me come January.

[Cassandra Lynn]

That was a great one Kim.

I'm out to 5 women at the recovery center where I volunteer, 2 who run the place and 3 other volunteers. They are extremely accepting, even the one who is 2nd in command (so to speak) who was initially very intolerant, and the director who is my bestie has a gay son and she had me put on the board as the LBGTQ coordinator with the community.
Anyways, there have been numerous 'thought bubble' moments and we are always exchanging little knowing smiles with each other.

2 weeks ago someone had brought in some clothing donations, and when I walked into the building there was 4 pairs pf high heels siting on a table, I of course, made a beeline towards them and the other 2 said "sorry darlin, way to small for you!", I just laughed.

A minute or 2 later an unknowing lady walks in from the back room and looks at me with this funny look on her face, as she was trying to put what she heard together in her head. She was looking all around trying to find someone else in the building who they coulda said that to.

My thought bubble was 'you should try them on if you are a 7'. :) One of the pair was leopard print, 4 inch stilettos, not something I would be seen in, and not something the center would prolly find someone to take.
The woman went back into the back room and I looked at my 2 friends and said "besides they're not my style" as I left. They told me later the woman heard that too, and came back in quickly like she was gonna ask what's going on.

Cass

[Stephanie47]

Decades ago when my wife and I had "The Talk" about my desires to wear women's clothing on occasion, she asked me "Why" I had not told her of this development. I asked her if remembered the time she and her close female cousin sat at the kitchen table and filleted the guy down the block because he was a cross dresser? It was a married couple without children who were just starting out. They had planned to buy a larger lot in our neighborhood and build their dream home. The woman worked with my wife's cousin. We knew of them on the street, but, were not friends with them. Well, the woman found out about her husband's cross dressing and immediately divorced him. So, when my asked me why I did not tell her sooner I replied if she remember the conversation she had with her cousin. No, she didn't. I told her that I remembered. So, why would I risk telling you?

On the lighter side my co workers and I on the occasions when the downtown business district had its "Walk in Her Shoes" fund raising event we'd all go down and watch the guy parade along the street. Most guys wore flip flop female adorned shoes, while some were really expert at walking in heels. Some were really very high heels. The women would conjecture whether that guy or that guy was a cross dresser. Yep, the thought bubble filled in "If you only knew!"

[DIANEF]

I have such thoughts literally every day Becky. Every time my wife mentions anything about her clothes, at work where the women talk about shoes or hoisery or any other of a dozen things. I suppose with some of us it is just inbuilt. Like your avatar by the way!

[Teresa]

Becky,
Just the other day we helped a shepherd free his 4X4 from a sawn down tree trunk , after he said, "thankyou gentleman so much " . The guy I walk my dog with knows all about me so he replied , He's no gentleman ! " The sheperd looked over to me so I held my fingers up to show him my painted nails , by some coincdence he replied , " Did you have a good night out last night ?" I had actually been out to a Hotel the previous night , so I thanked him and told him I'd had a great night !

I must admit those little gems you mention keep coming up all the time , mostly in shops with other customers and SAs .

[DanielleDubois]

A friend of ours was over and she and my wife were talking about bras and how the bra straps and underwire could dig in and be uncomfortable. She turned to me and said " but that's not something you would know about". My wife gave me a hidden from our guest slightly devious smirk as if to say "yes he does!"

BTW, your new avatar looks fantastic. Looking forward to seeing more photos from your makeover.

[Michaelasfun]

It was nearly quitting time at my office which is comprised mostly of women, and my boss walks down our row of cubes and says "Good night, ladies"..I thought to myself "Thanks you too" LOL

[Lana Mae]

Hi, Becky! Love your new avatar!
I have a few "well, actually ..." moments but one of my favorites is : One of the first times that I wore my finger nail polish to work, I was confronted by the lady from the business office! She said, "Well, you got your nails polished! Are you going to start wearing dresses now?" I verbally responded "No!" but under my breath I said, "because I already do!"
She sees my nails all of the time and has not made any other comments!
Hugs Lana Mae

[Becky Blue]

Thanks for the Avatar compliments ladies, i was trialling the intelligent look :battingeyelashes:

[t-girlxsophie]

Girls in my work know and talk about me being Sophie.But in my last job I worked in a company where for a few hours my only workmates were 2 young girls (early 20s) many a time I had to keep my little private thoughts as just that.Many a time I wanted to join in with the clothes,makeup chat

Sophie

[Petra1]

So, last summer, while my wife was out of the country visiting family, I took the opportunity to underdress to my full-time job. That Friday night, I went to hang out with my DJ buddy who was working a small bar. I noticed the CD when I walked in but didn't say anything. At one point, my buddy pointed her out to me, kinda laughing about it. I told my buddy that she could dress however she wanted as long as she wasn't hurting anyone and respecting people's boundaries. The funny thing was, I was wearing a Victoria's Secret thong the entire time I was there. If he only knew.

[Hell on Heels]

Hell-o again Becky,
Another work tail here...
I was sitting with a couple of my coworkers and had shown them the nasty scrape I had just applied to my forearm.
One of them had enough balls to ask if I had cut myself shaving! Never before had anyone ever made a comment about my shaven arms, so I just let it slide. But I did let him know how it had happened...Carrying left behind equipment up a metal spiral staircase. What I was thinking though...”if you had been thorough cleaning up your last project, I wouldn’t need to wear anything but long sleeved outfits for the next few weeks ya jerk!”.
Much Love,
Kristyn