Charlotte7
11-21-2018, 10:26 AM
This will be the last of these updates that I post in this vein because, as the title says, this is now the new normal.
The other evening me (drab) and the wife were out for an evening meal in a town an hour or so away and as we walked from where we parked the car to the restaurant, we passed a small, independent craft studio. In the window was the perfect thing for the wife's Yule present.
So, today, I took a long lunch, headed up hill, down dale, through snow (ok only a smattering, but the first snow of winter).
Yes I had this planned as I was able to park around the corner and pop in. This was to be my first time out in a town centre in daylight and my first interaction with someone outside while dressed. But, I thought a small craft studio in a small town with a bohemian reputation was as safe a place to start as anywhere.
I drove there, I couldn't park where I had in mind as there weren't any spaces. I had to park on a main road with cars passing both ways, but I didn't flinch, I got out the car and confidently walked to and entered the shop.
The thing was still there and only cost half as much as I thought it would be (I couildn't see the price the other night), so it was a bargain as well. But most importantly, the owner, and, as it happens, the lady who made the thing I was buying (who happened to come in while I was there) were great too. We were just three people having a convestion about things, not a bother, not a care in the world. Of course they knew I am trans, as I've always said, I wouldn't pass at 100 yards, but that didn't matter. They just accepted me as me, a trans person, and you know, I've decided that's what I want, I want to be a trans person. I don't have to pass, I have to blend, but there are degrees of blending. This is where the scales have fallen from my eyes, accpeting that to myself. To take a recent analogy of a river with a male bank, a female bank and a non binary bridge linking the two, well, I'm not on either bank but I'm happy to be anywhere on the bridge, sometimes it'll be nearer the left bank, sometimes, the right bank. but mostly, I'm going to be in the middle, and live life midstream. And knowing that it what has changed, knowing that has made me the complete person.
So, that's that then. I think that I can now consder myself to be free, my fears are vanquished (I realise that it won't all be plain sailing) but each time I go out, it get's easier and as I say, just normal. A short while ago I said that I had a plan of how I would change from being closeted and to get out and about and I've more or less stuck to it. The thing is though, I didn't think that it would all be done in just over a week. But that's great.
I'm now able to go out and about fully dressed more or less as and when I want (within the realms of logical safety), I'm able to go out and about dressed all in female (carefully selected jeans/trousers, tops and the like) but with an androgynous presentation just about anywhere.
I'm a happy girl :)
Thanls you crossdressers.com - in just over a year, you really have changed my life :)
The other evening me (drab) and the wife were out for an evening meal in a town an hour or so away and as we walked from where we parked the car to the restaurant, we passed a small, independent craft studio. In the window was the perfect thing for the wife's Yule present.
So, today, I took a long lunch, headed up hill, down dale, through snow (ok only a smattering, but the first snow of winter).
Yes I had this planned as I was able to park around the corner and pop in. This was to be my first time out in a town centre in daylight and my first interaction with someone outside while dressed. But, I thought a small craft studio in a small town with a bohemian reputation was as safe a place to start as anywhere.
I drove there, I couldn't park where I had in mind as there weren't any spaces. I had to park on a main road with cars passing both ways, but I didn't flinch, I got out the car and confidently walked to and entered the shop.
The thing was still there and only cost half as much as I thought it would be (I couildn't see the price the other night), so it was a bargain as well. But most importantly, the owner, and, as it happens, the lady who made the thing I was buying (who happened to come in while I was there) were great too. We were just three people having a convestion about things, not a bother, not a care in the world. Of course they knew I am trans, as I've always said, I wouldn't pass at 100 yards, but that didn't matter. They just accepted me as me, a trans person, and you know, I've decided that's what I want, I want to be a trans person. I don't have to pass, I have to blend, but there are degrees of blending. This is where the scales have fallen from my eyes, accpeting that to myself. To take a recent analogy of a river with a male bank, a female bank and a non binary bridge linking the two, well, I'm not on either bank but I'm happy to be anywhere on the bridge, sometimes it'll be nearer the left bank, sometimes, the right bank. but mostly, I'm going to be in the middle, and live life midstream. And knowing that it what has changed, knowing that has made me the complete person.
So, that's that then. I think that I can now consder myself to be free, my fears are vanquished (I realise that it won't all be plain sailing) but each time I go out, it get's easier and as I say, just normal. A short while ago I said that I had a plan of how I would change from being closeted and to get out and about and I've more or less stuck to it. The thing is though, I didn't think that it would all be done in just over a week. But that's great.
I'm now able to go out and about fully dressed more or less as and when I want (within the realms of logical safety), I'm able to go out and about dressed all in female (carefully selected jeans/trousers, tops and the like) but with an androgynous presentation just about anywhere.
I'm a happy girl :)
Thanls you crossdressers.com - in just over a year, you really have changed my life :)