Boobs

[GinnyG]

Ive not posted here before, the fact is I stopped cross dressing around 10 years ago now. I don't know why but the desire just disappeared and I simply wasn't interested anymore. “Hooray” I said to myself, “after all these years Im cured”…That was until last springtime when things all changed.

Around May of this year I noticed my boobs had grown a bit and after some online research I realised I possibly had gynecomastia. Ive had blood tests which showed my hormone levels are completely normal so my doctor put it all down to idiopathic gynecomastia meaning they don't know what the cause is or how to treat it.

My boobs have now grown from nothing at all (compared to last years holiday photos) to a feminine looking 36A cup in about 7 or 8 months and I can constantly feel strange sensations as they continue to grow more and more. Ive always been quite slim, I have a BMI of just 22 so this makes 36A boobs quite noticeable (to me anyway) and its anyones guess how much bigger I will eventually get.

Anyway, since these things have been growing, so too has the desire to dress again. As I had thrown out all my clothes years ago I went shopping and bought a few bits and pieces of underwear to dress at home in including a well fitting 36A bra and control knickers. I realise that Ive defiantly put on a little weight since I used to dress 10 years ago, and my bum and hips are a good few inches bigger now too, but when I looked at myself in the mirror dressed OMG honestly what I saw was a very female body shape indeed. This was so exiting but then really very scary at the same time. Hormone levels normal? Im not so sure about that now.

A couple of days later I paid a visit to a lady I used to go to years ago who runs a dressing service and had a full make over with her. I have to say it felt better than ever. It feels amazing to fill a bra for real without the need for any padding or breast forms, but to have a feminine shaped bum too was so lovely. The funny thing is though, even my face now (at 60) looks softer and more feminine than it did 10 years ago. I would say for the first time in my life I really did feel like a woman. Ive only been out dressed in public a couple of time in the past but really enjoyed it so now we are planning a shopping trip when I visit my friend again and I cant wait.

You might now be thinking “this all sounds great” but heres the thing…The reality is that somehow Ive got to live with this body and these boobs full time for the rest of my life as a man and Im not sure how Im going to cope with that. I love dressing up again and im sure I will continue to do so, but thats as far as it goes, because I also enjoy being a regular guy for the vast majority of the time. I guess I have the option to pay a surgeon five or six grand to cut them out but I don't know if I would really want that either. It's all very confusing and worrying and I dont know what the hell to do now.

[Laura912]

Well, Ginny, many here would say you have won the CD lottery or should at least get a lottery ticket. But you will need to live with your body and your chosen daily gender. Proceed with surgical options gradually. You really should see how much growth is going to occur. Lastly, do nothing till evaluated by an endocrinologist. There are a lot of other things that can cause gynecomastia that will not occur to the generalist.

With all due respect, I am assuming that you have not created a phishing story.

[biancabellelover]

Hi Ginny,

Have you visited the gynecomastia.org website?

It’s very comprehensive. It has plenty of information about gynecomastia, its causes, treatments, etc. It also has a user forum that includes many threads that talk about situations like yours and what people have done next.

Michelle

[deebra]

As a CD by all means keep them and hope they continue to grow. Lesbians tie them down with an Ace bandage. You could wear a tight T shirt and loose outer shirt.

[Andrea2656]

Ginny

I agree a second opinion is in order. There are subtle hormone changes that an internist may miss. Also, some medications have this side effect, notable spironolactone.

However, it is interesting that this led you back to crossdressering since you do not seem to be happy with the gynecomastia.

It seems to be true that crossdressing is just in some of us.

[Maid_Marion]

You may want to discuss this with a therapist.

I also happen to have A cup boobs. Though I wouldn't mind if they were a cup larger.

[Georgia K]

I've never heard of this before it really is a catch 22 .

[Mermaiden]

I see the dilemma of whether to embrace the boobs or find a way to remove. One thing you might consider is a short course of Tamoxifen. But if you give it a try then sooner is better.

[biancabellelover]

Gynecomastia is very common; affecting around a third of men at some time in their lives. Mostly the effects are minor, but in more severe cases can be D-cup or larger.

Typically happens during puberty or from age fifty. Causes can include hormone imbalances and medications. In around a quarter of cases the cause is not identified.

Michelle

[GinnyG]

Thanks for the replies they are really appreciated.
Yes I am aware of gynecomastia.org but I was reluctant to post on there because there are a few members who dislike any reference to cross dressing and make it quite clear that this is “not a cross dressers forum”. Funny thing is though there are a quite a few others members who have not only accepted their condition but enjoy having it and showing their boobs off in lacy bras etc and they don't get appear to get criticised so I guess if its just boobs and bras its OK then.

To clarify I do like my boobs and thats what got me back into dressing again, they look and feel amazing and sometimes I want them bigger BUT if they get much bigger I don't think I could live with the embarrassment in male mode.

I do intend to see an endocrinologist but Im not on any medication at all so can rule that possible cause out. My doctor told me drugs that might help such as Tamoxifen need to be taken in the early stages to be most effective but have serious side effects and advised me not to take the risk. Surgery is an option but expensive and doesn't always turn out to well either. As I understand it, if I waited until I got much bigger before surgery the operation then may involve removing excess skin too and the end result might not be good. So the way I see it, I need to make a decision quickly before they get much bigger, to get rid or keep them.

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You may want to discuss this with a therapist.

I also happen to have A cup boobs. Though I wouldn't mind if they were a cup larger.

How long is it since you noticed your boobs started growing?

[Vickie_CDTV]

Such sudden breast growth is not normal and should be medically investigated. It could be a symptom of something serious.

[GinnyG]

Hi Vickie. I have been tested for all sorts of things and thankfully nothing serious found. The only problem is we don't know what the cause is.

[Maid_Marion]

I was way underweight and they started growing when I began a medically supervised weight gain. Interestingly enough, over the past decade or so my belly fat has relocated to my butt and thighs, so I now have a 32-26-32 figure. With the quick weight gain my waist was up to 29inches.

[Aunt Kelly]

Hi, Ginny.
Though some may believe that you've "won the lottery", it seems to me that you are a bit conflicted about this new... development. Perhaps more than a bit. Free boobs might be a gift to some here, but I sense that you're not so sure.
You're taking all the right steps, medically, but may I suggest considering gender counselling? Your gender identity seems to factor into your thinking, so why not get that sorted out as well? Whichever medical course of treatment you choose, if any, your choice will have been as informed and considered as can be.

[Rochal Tukque]

Hi Ginny, I have been living with a set of full C cup breasts all my adult life. When I was young I loved and hated them now at 63 I have turned down many breast reduction recommendations and very glad I didn't fall victim to someone else's programming. Maybe its time to give you girl a chance or least so time to make well thought out decision. Hugs Rochal

[Mermaiden]

Ginny, this is a completely personal call, but I think if it were me, I’d go with the boobs and let everyone else deal with the adjustment.

Also, I’m interested that your interest in CD evaporated for so long. I think this is unusual. My impression is once the first pair of panties goes on there’s no going back.

[macada10]

My girls have always been big, about big B, small C.
No gender issues, I like the man I am....just a bit chesty on male mode.

[Krisi]

If you want a breast reduction, insurance should pay for it. As for keeping the boobs, gynecomastia is a legitimate medical condition and you shouldn't be ashamed of it. If anyone asks or comments, tell them the truth. That should be the end of it. And just because you have boobs doesn't mean you have to crossdress. You can if you want to, of course.

The downside of having natural boobs is, they are probably not as big as you might like but they get in the way of breast forms fitting correctly.

BTW: One of my boobs started growing a few years back. My (female, at the time) doctor gave me a breast exam in front of my wife and then sent me for a mammogram. Nothing was found and eventually it returned to normal.

[Beverley Sims]

I feel that more doctors examinations are in order, you may find it is easier to live with the problem than lose them to the knife of a surgeon.

They will advise you of the most practical course.

[Danielle_cder]

Keep your boobs! Don’t over think them, literally millions of men have gyno I wish mine would grow...oh well thank god for breastforms!

[Jenny22]

If you are worried about your breasts (what others see and wonder) when in drab, visit this website, or similar:
https://www.amazon.com/RoC-Compression-Undershirt-Shapewear-Undershirts/dp/B07LFLLQG3

[jking90]

Ginny, you might want to check out Men Wear Bras site - if you google hellotaxi you will see the website. Good luck.

[docrobbysherry]

My only comment is on your weight gain, Ginny. I'm pretty sure that is what has softened your face.

But, u also mention a larger butt? Normally, when males put on pounds, they form a spare tire at our waists first. They do on me. Which is why I can't put on any weight if I want to present Sherry's classic fem figure!:battingeyelashes:

If your "fem shape" includes a slim waist AND nature boobs? U r the luckiest of the lucky Trans unicorns!:heehee:

[GinnyG]

My only comment is on your weight gain, Ginny. I'm pretty sure that is what has softened your face.

But, u also mention a larger butt? Normally, when males put on pounds, they form a spare tire at our waists first. They do on me. Which is why I can't put on any weight if I want to present Sherry's classic fem figure!:battingeyelashes:

If your "fem shape" includes a slim waist AND nature boobs? U r the luckiest of the lucky Trans unicorns!:heehee:
I think you are quite right, I have put on some weight and a good proportion is now around my waist. I get a nice shape though from shareware that slims my waist, make my bum and boobs looks bigger. I was actually thinking of dietting (for the first time in my life) to slim the waist a little but that (if successful) would then make my gynecomastia problem look ever worse in male mode. Cant win...

[Kas]

May I ask your age?

[GinnyG]

Im 60 Kas

[deebra]

Rochal do you wear a C bra even in male mode, pretty big and eye catching. Isn't the bra noticed through a shirt? Women with C's wear a bra, should it be any different for you?

[abbiedrake]

I can't speak from experience but I'd make my peace with them, if I was in your cups. 😄 Many men with gyno do.
Any benefit to your crossdressing is auxillary.

[sometimes_miss]

Mixed emotions about having gynecomastia. I've had at the very least a bit of man boob most of my life, starting when my weight started to fluctuate a great deal. Seems that fat cells secrete a tiny bit of estrogen (or so I've been told). Just how much that has to do with it, I'll never know, but none of the older generation of males in my family had boobs like mine. Currently about a 'B' cup, with some bras, a 'C' cup.
I live with it. As I have very fair skin, I have always used that excuse for wearing a T shirt when going swimming or indeed, whenever going out into the sunshine.

It's a benefit for a crossdresser, and a cross to bear when trying to pass as a normal guy.

If you're worried about what anyone thinks of you, you can just pass it off as being caused by medication or maybe smoking pot. Google 'medications that may cause gynecomastia' and take your choice. I've been on beta blockers, steroids, antidepressants, etc. at some point in my life, so I have a ready excuse. Anyone asks, I just say the boobs came with the meds, and I chose to stay alive with the side effects instead of die. I've had a couple of guys say, 'Well, I'd rather be dead than grow boobs', I respond with 'Gee, you're dead from the neck up anyway, so you'd have nothing to lose'.

[Rochal Tukque]

Hi Deebra, I have keep them hidden by heavy loose fitting button up shits. Now I wear shelf bra CAMIs under my shirt that keep them tied down. I do wear a bra doing bouncy things like bike riding. Fortunately mine are somewhere between pointers and hangers. Now much older I don't care as much what people think. I am who I am. So things like swimming I don't even try to hide them. Let them stare and they do. Most the the time their all smiles. LOL. I guess on thing of old age you can really enjoy your girl got no more personas to portray.

[Rileyaz]

Now much older I don't care as much what people think. I am who I am. So things like swimming I don't even try to hide them. Let them stare and they do. Most the the time their all smiles. LOL. I guess on thing of old age you can really enjoy your girl got no more personas to portray.

I like your attitude. It reminds me of this video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eh2PjkzW20w

[Krisi]

"Man boobs" and gynecomastia are two different things. Man boobs are just fat and not shaped exactly like female breasts. Many males get man boobs to some degree as they age or become overweight. Gynecomastia results in female shaped breasts that contain breast tissue, not just fat. You can find information on gynecomastia by doing a web search.

[GinnyG]

"Man boobs" and gynecomastia are two different things. Man boobs are just fat and not shaped exactly like female breasts. Many males get man boobs to some degree as they age or become overweight. Gynecomastia results in female shaped breasts that contain breast tissue, not just fat. You can find information on gynecomastia by doing a web search.
Hi Krissi
Thanks for your comments, I wonder are you speaking from some personal experience? Im not over weight in fact quite slim but these boobs not only look feminine but (dare I say it) feel very feminine too. I am aware of pseudo gynecomastia which is basically fat but I don't think thats what I have. The sensations that I experience are difficult to describe but like nothing I've ever felt before. We have a holiday booked for this summer and I think I'm already at the stage when Im too embarrassed to take off my shirt in public. On the plus side though they do look great in a bra especially with a little help from a pair or silicon chicken fillets to push things up a bit more. Oh god ,what to do…

[Macey]

Keep the boobs, Ginny! You do seem to like them, so why not? :)

[Maid_Marion]

I wasn't until this thread that I realized that mine are really obvious with some of the clothes that I wear. So I went to Forever 21 today and bought a tight fitting knit shirt.

[Leslie Langford]

Ginny, you don't mention if you have (or have ever had) prostate cancer.

Prostate cancer needs testosterone to grow, and is sometimes treated via chemotherapy. Hormonal treatments applied in this way aim to stop the testicles from making testosterone and/or stop testosterone from reaching the cancer cells. A common side effect with such treatments is pronounced breast growth in male patients, and this requires careful monitoring (and adjustments to) the dosages or combinations of therapies used in this manner to minimize this occurrence.

Would any of this possibly apply to you, and perhaps explain why you are experiencing these unexpected feminization phenomena?

[giuseppina]

Hello Ginny

I'm highly inclined to follow Laura's (#2) advice and request a referral to an endocrinologist if you haven't already done so. Her advice suggests this sort of thing is well outside the scope of practice for a general practitioner or family medicine specialist.

A popular member here had prolactinoma (cancer) which caused her gyno. While I'm not a MD, it's important to get the problematic if not life threatening causes ruled out.

[Sherri_Christopher]

Ginny,

I'm a life long CD and have been since I was 4 years old. As I matured into an adult, I always had larger breasts than normal for a male and used to get made fun of in the locker room in school. On one hand it was a source of shame for me, but as far as my femme self goes, I liked having them. Now that I've gotten older at 63, my breasts have gotten larger and are an A cup size and I have large nipples. I love wearing vintage slips and when I wear them, my breasts fill out the cups of my slips pretty well. Nowadays, I like having my breasts!

As with you, I went through a period of time where I lost my desire to crossdress and it was for about 5 years. For the last 3 1/2 years of that period, my wife was fighting cancer and I was taking care of her. She finally lost her battle with cancer 1 1/2 years ago and I was devastated. A few months after she died though, I started wearing my slips and female underthings again and I found that crossdressing was a big comfort for me! I recently retired and I can crossdress whenever I want now and I love it how my breasts fill out my slips! BTW, I have no plans in transitioning to becoming a woman full time as there's aspects of being a male that I like, which includes being a grandfather, that I truly cherish.

It sounds like we're in similar circumstances. As long as it's not a negative medical problem, go with the flow and enjoy your boobs! :) I'm enjoying mine! There's things that I don't do anymore, such as going around shirtless. When in male mode, I wear loose fitting shirts and I don't tuck them in, so my breasts aren't as noticeable.

[Oldlvb]

I can certainly understand your dilemma whether or not to live with breast or have surgery to remove them. I personally would rather live with them even in male mode, than have surgery because of the cost and safety. Good luck with whatever you decide.

[Tracii G]

After about 30 years old mine seemed to get bigger but it was never an issue because they didn't get any bigger so
I just lived with it. Was it gyno? No I don't think so.

[AshleyT]

I have man boobs that just about fit an a cup but would like to shape them into proper breasts naturally without using hormones

[Jemma clarke]

I like mine now, in my late 40s, so I have slight manboobs over good pecs & I found out by "accident" that my wife's 36 to 38b bras fit me perfectly & look great, especially underwired ones from Marks & Spencer! !

[lingerieLiz]

I have 36C cup boobs. I ware a 38B to minimize my projection. If you want to smooth your chest get some women's tank tops that have elastic in them and look much like men's undershirt. I wear them under polo shirts when I don't want people noticing my girls.

[robbieatbest]

I did have a double mastectomy 29 years ago when I was forty. I don't necessarily regret it but given the choice again I would keep my breasts. No idea if it was gynecomastia - first I have heard of that condition. It is possible to wear clothes which minimise and those that maximise.

[Michelle1955]

I am all most a natural a cup, I would never go for reduction if they get bigger. Other people adjust it is their issue about man breasts. Again I would keep them and own up.

[MsEva]

I hear you. I noticed that I have a nice A cup as well, and I guess it is tied to a lowering of T values. I was never able to simulate cleavage as I had nothing to prop up. I can now fill an underwire bra or shelf bra in a cami that is quite satisfactory. Guess age has a few bennies.

[suzanne]

Gynecomastia is a real thing and no one should be ashamed of it. Breasts, in both men and women, grow with age because everyone has male AND female hormones coursing through their systems, albeit in different proportions. You may feel self conscious about it, but it's my guess that no one notices when you're in guy mode. And when you're dressed, they notice what you're wearing more than your breast size. My suggestion is to just own it and don't worry about it, although I know it's easier said than done. I hope you find your own way yo make peace with your condition. Maybe by wearing looser shirts?

BTW, I have a 48B chest and I like them, although I would LOVE them if they got to a C cup size.

[Debs]

I have a healthy 36b cup, no need for padding

[Angie G]

Your situation wouldn't bother me a bit it's what I've wished for years.(I'm wishing for a C cup size boobs) :thumbsup: :hugs:
Angie

[valerie anne]

I've grown to a 38 C cup bra.

This is a lovely size to be. I can go braless (just about), but still wear a sexy bra without attracting attention, unless I want to!

When underdressed, I am now choosing tops which expose my boobs if I press forwards, and my bra straps and clasps if I fold my arms.

I love to parade about the mall with my assets just on the point of exposure. I am dying to be outed!

[Devi SM]

Wow! Al kind of opinions and advice in this thread.
I always say that there's so much wisdom in this web, especially between the transexual girls for the ow
experiences.
I'm not going to add more than to say that's ok to share your doubts, feelings and apprehensions here but whatever decision must be done after professional guidance.
As you express problems with your gender start for a Gender Therapist. I wrote with capitals because is important he or she be a gender, not family therapist.
My humble opinion....