lynda jane hamilton
03-21-2006, 08:38 PM
I am junior member and log on regularly. I haven't contributed much but read all the advice given particularly about going out,opening up to your SO and so on.
Through all of this I have at last and finally accepted me for what and who I am. I can now appreciate my feminine side and do not feel guilty, pereverted or dirty any more.
I am so sad that I cannot share Lynda with anyone other than you girls and through this site I have made a really good email friend.
I am still in the closet but coming around to thinking that there is a way forward with my dear wife. I have devised a "slowly slowly" way to bring the two girls in my life together sort of a drip feed really.
I have started by asking if I could go to her beauty salon for a facial and a manicure (they do a male package there). She thought it a super idea and said how much I would enjoy it and has promised to buy me salon gift vouchers for my birthday and has suggested I have my back waxed too while I am there. Apparently she is turned off a little by hairy backs. She knows I shave my chest and pluck my eyebrows. The eye brows again at her request and I am her best friend when shopping for her clothes and always asks my opinion. (It is funny that I can choose girl things but actually hopeless with male gear!)
So being here and listening to you all has given me confidence to go forward which is a realisation which has escaped me all of previous life.
Finally public acceptance has increased over the years. In my youth to admit to being a Cross Dresser would have seen you as a butt for ridicule, violence and police harassment.
I have ventured out dressed twice now (ok in the dark and around a small town window shoppping but a least a giant step for me) and today I plucked up courage to phone our local Estee Lauder counter in Milton Keynes to see if they had any problem serving me, a middle aged cross dressing guy. No problem, an appointment was made and I am looking forward to going in later this week to get some sound advice on foundation, powder and blusher which I have never got right since a teenager! No embarrasment and no hassle and she promised to be very discreet and would help me in every way she can also saying that she is used to guys buying makeup for themselves. I told her I would be in drab (a suit and the works) and she said that didn't make any difference. She appreciated my direct approach and said it helps them to help us if we don't pretend to be buying makeup for our wives.
Another thing I bought a new black bra today. A gorgous liquid filled one which is not usually the thing you would buy for your wife! The girls (yes there were two!) in Debenhams asked if it was for me? Wheras before I would have coughed a little and made mumbling noises and excuses, I said yes it was. Again not a blink. They asked what I was wearing with it and made comments on the choice and hoped it was lowcut for the cleavage the bra was going to give me. All very natural and relaxed.
I am sorry this is so long but wow my confidence levels are growing and I would just finish by saying a really big thank you to all of you for holding my hand and leading me out of the closet if only just a little.
Hugs
Lynda
Through all of this I have at last and finally accepted me for what and who I am. I can now appreciate my feminine side and do not feel guilty, pereverted or dirty any more.
I am so sad that I cannot share Lynda with anyone other than you girls and through this site I have made a really good email friend.
I am still in the closet but coming around to thinking that there is a way forward with my dear wife. I have devised a "slowly slowly" way to bring the two girls in my life together sort of a drip feed really.
I have started by asking if I could go to her beauty salon for a facial and a manicure (they do a male package there). She thought it a super idea and said how much I would enjoy it and has promised to buy me salon gift vouchers for my birthday and has suggested I have my back waxed too while I am there. Apparently she is turned off a little by hairy backs. She knows I shave my chest and pluck my eyebrows. The eye brows again at her request and I am her best friend when shopping for her clothes and always asks my opinion. (It is funny that I can choose girl things but actually hopeless with male gear!)
So being here and listening to you all has given me confidence to go forward which is a realisation which has escaped me all of previous life.
Finally public acceptance has increased over the years. In my youth to admit to being a Cross Dresser would have seen you as a butt for ridicule, violence and police harassment.
I have ventured out dressed twice now (ok in the dark and around a small town window shoppping but a least a giant step for me) and today I plucked up courage to phone our local Estee Lauder counter in Milton Keynes to see if they had any problem serving me, a middle aged cross dressing guy. No problem, an appointment was made and I am looking forward to going in later this week to get some sound advice on foundation, powder and blusher which I have never got right since a teenager! No embarrasment and no hassle and she promised to be very discreet and would help me in every way she can also saying that she is used to guys buying makeup for themselves. I told her I would be in drab (a suit and the works) and she said that didn't make any difference. She appreciated my direct approach and said it helps them to help us if we don't pretend to be buying makeup for our wives.
Another thing I bought a new black bra today. A gorgous liquid filled one which is not usually the thing you would buy for your wife! The girls (yes there were two!) in Debenhams asked if it was for me? Wheras before I would have coughed a little and made mumbling noises and excuses, I said yes it was. Again not a blink. They asked what I was wearing with it and made comments on the choice and hoped it was lowcut for the cleavage the bra was going to give me. All very natural and relaxed.
I am sorry this is so long but wow my confidence levels are growing and I would just finish by saying a really big thank you to all of you for holding my hand and leading me out of the closet if only just a little.
Hugs
Lynda