Finally the truth comes out!

[EmilyJade]

hello all I hope this is appropriate 4 this section everything was a setup for me from my wife. She's leaving me and I am lost right now driving into Chicago right now, don't know where else to go have no one else to talk to if anyone here is from Chicago and would like 2 Meetup and talk I'm on the verge of doing something stupid maybe I'll find answers tonight I don't know I wish you all the best there has to be a happy place for everybody thank you to everybody sharing your stories make a positive kind words again I'm very sorry this isn't in the right place not really straight right now

[Micki_Finn]

I know it can feel like the whole world has been pulled out from under your feet and you are in perpetual free fall, but things do get better. Please don’t do anything drastic. The first thing you need to do is find yourself a place to crash for the night so you can sleep off some of the emotion. If you don’t have friends or family around, just find yourself a motel for the night. I promise you things won’t seem so bleak once you’ve had a chance to sleep it off a bit.

[KimberlyJean]

I am not in Chicago, but I hope you don't do anything rash. It may seem like the end of the world but 10 years from now it could turn out to be a pivotal moment in your life. Stick around to find out.

[Robinsinclair]

I am 2000 miles away physically. But I can say that I've been there - lost - no where to turn. It feels terrible, but it's the first step on a path towards happiness. When I got totally down, I lived "one minute at a time". Then "5 minutes at a time". Then an hour... It does get better...

R

[EmilyJade]

Thank you, I just really think I need to talk to someone that understands what I'm thinking? Omw to find people that can or at least try to help me understand what's happening with me? Because I thought my wife was helping me figure things out but it feels like I'm more confused then ever...

[NancyJ]

Emily, So sorry. Sucks! Trans Lifeline: 877-565-8860. Nancy

[Tracii G]

You will be fine trust me you are probably better off with out her.
I have been thru' that twice so I do know what you are going thru.
Now that I look back it was what was best for me to be on my own.
All the hassle and mean words and hateful looks from my ex was ruining my life so time for her to go.

[Amelie]

Things look bad right now, things will get better. Try and find a place to stay and keep cool. Take time to work things out., everything won't be solved in one night.

[JulesLynne]

Please keep us updated - lots of people on this site can relate to what you’re going through, even if we’re not there with you right now.

[JenniferMBlack]

Not any where near Chicago but have been where you are now. The thing is when you feel like your at rock bottom the only way to go is up. It will get better maybe not today or tomarrow but hang in there.

[Alice Torn]

I used to live 80 miles from Chicago, and was in similar desperation you feel a number of times, and almost ended my life, but told it all on here, too. I am alone in the world too, and sometimes feel no one cares. I agree, to fined a place to sack out for the night. A lot of CDs have been through hells similar to yours right now. One day at a timel.. I found AA meeting, though i am not alcoholic. They were compassionate mostly. WE, on here care about you, and the Higher merciful Power cares, too.

[Joni T]

Been in your shoes twice. Wanted to end it all but every thing eventually worked out for the (much) better. I am now married to the most beautiful, accepting and encouraging woman. It will work out for you in the long run, just give it some time and don't do any thing to hurt yourself. It WILL get better. Trust me.
Jon

[Helena]

Emily, as the others have said, this is the lowest point but take heart that it is also a turning point and things will get better. You know there is a lot of support to be found here and although there are more knowledgeable and experienced members here I am available to listen if you wish to PM me.

[Victoria_Winters]

I fee your pain. My Wife just left me too. Within the last month. It?s not the end of the world. There are some bright sides. You can now dress how ever you want! If you need to talk, shoot me a message. I?m happy to share in the woes.

[Bobbi46]

Emily I feel very sorry for and know how you are feeling right now I have been down this road twice now and twice nearly did the inevitable but stopped before it was too late, yes you are hurting right now but you will get over this and in time find hapiness again. I have been on my own since my ex dumped me, I have adjusted to life alone and and now I have good friends close by who laso understand my dressing and my need to be feminine.
Above all else be STRONG think not of the now and how it is all doom and gloom. Think of the future tell yourself things will get better, try to believe in yourself and try and be positive.
But most importantly talk to us here because here you will find the help and understanding that is needed right now.

[Teresa]

Emily,
I can understand your mixed emotions , I've lived them myself . Please hang in there and don't do something stupid life really is too short , again I've been there and lived through that . You don't mention family or how it might affect them but at times like this think of them and consider their lives without you , believe me you will mean something to them even if they don't tell you .

I can only suggest keep reading the stories we post , mine aren't BS they are written partly to show we can get through these tough times . Separation and divorce isn't the end of the World , there is wonderful life to be found after if you believe in yourself , be honest with yourself and just try and live it .

I'm sure I'm speaking for many when I tell you the day the removal truck sets off for your new home to possibly live alone it's full of mixed emotions , my marriage at that point had ended , I knew there was no going back , big challenges lay ahead . The big plus point for you is you are twenty years younger than me , you've no idea what that means , another new life ahead and time to live it .

[Lara A]

Thru bereavements, separations, divorce, falling skies, all of these, I have learned that nothing is ever put in front of us that we cannot handle, and we can learn and grow from anything. Hang in there Em, and it will come good later on.

[Jean 103]

I have been there, I am so sorry. I know the pain. It's been about five years now.

Yes I was homeless, nowhere to go and little money. I ended up renting a room. I made new friends, their friendship save me.

I still rent rooms, I could afford my own place now, but it is better for me. I'm on my third roommate situation, my landlord and I have become best friends.

I know it looks bad right now, and the pain.

You can PM me if you like.
Love Jean

[nvlady]

Been there, done that. For me, the best revenge was showing her how much happier I was without her.

[Jenny22]

Trans Lifeline: 877-565-8860.

This (Nancy's) is just to remind you to call this number ASAP.

[docrobbysherry]

Emily, I was divorced about 15 years ago. After our separation it was all gloom and doom! I was sure we'd get back together.:sad:
But, after a few years I saw what a blessing it was. For me and our young kids, too! I was free to live my life as I wished again.:)

When we separated I lost all interest in sex and women. But then, I was suddenly free to explore my fem side. In a couple of years, Sherry came into my life and I was reborn with her. My interest in sex and women revived, too!:battingeyelashes:

Of course u must grieve your loss. But I promise u, the time will come when u will discover all the possibilities your new life has to offer!:D

And, in time u may look back on this as a blessing rather than a curse!:thumbsup:

[Sherrii]

I was devastated when going through my divorce some yeas ago too. I know how you feel. Don't do anything stupid. You will get through this. I know it probably isn't what you wanted but sometimes $hit just happens and you have to deal/go on. You can and things will get better. The sooner you accept what has happened and deal with it the sooner you will find out there is life after divorce. There really is. Sherrii

[Palaina Nocturnus]

My exwife used to encourage me dressing up then would condemn me for doing it. She had the nerve to tell me I'd never find someone like her that accepts me being a CD.

She could not have been more incorrect. She let the cat out of the bag. Now I was able to dress when and how I want. As a direct result, I am open right from the beginning that I'm a CD and will not stop EVER. It took a few partners but I found someone that accepts me completely. It happened because I stopped looking and just started living life how I wanted. No restraints, no one to answer to, and no one judging my every move and its motive (though usually nonexistent lol)

Find healthy positive things to pass the time while you heal. Take one moment at a time and know you can't change yesterday and you cannot control the future. But you can take the reins for your life and find new adventures and experiences. Revisit old favorites BEFORE she entered your world.

Think of every memory like a picture. You can cut out anyone from any picture and still enjoy it. I really hope this helps. Reach out to any of us if you feel comfortable enough. There is so much love here you just need to reach out hun

I hope you have a better day!

[Veronica4me]

Emily, check out Chicago House's TransLife Care and TransSafe at https://www.chicagohouse.org/transsafe-4/

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I've been checking out resources near me in San diego, as I'm on the verge of being homeless just because my business is about to fail. I'm doing my best to keep my faith in the Lord. I'm hoping that something good will come out of my adversity, and I hope the same for you!

[Jenny22]

So sad to hear this bad news, Veronica.

[Veronica4me]

Thank you, Jenny. It's been a terrible struggle. Prayers and good wishes will help!

[Dana3]

You stated yours on the verge of losing your business and being homeless.

Although not exactly the same, identical situation, about a year ago I was in dire need to make a move, and changes.

I'm not going to lie, and say it's all been easy, fun and a bed of roses. But at 61 at the time, in a small rural Southern town without a lot of economic opportunities? My prospects were very limited to low paying ($9 to $10 per hour) no paying dead 💀 end jobs going no where fast.

I had thought about getting my CDL's and driving a truck over the road. Soooooo, out of desperation I took the plunge and just got on the damned bus 🚌

There are not a lot of companies that offer CDL training? But there are more than just a few.

The one I went with paid for my bus 🚌 ticket to get there. Put me up in a decent but nice hotel that they own. Had a cafeteria at the same location. Gave me a meal ticket 🎫, and fed me three times a day. Nothing fancy, but adequate.

The training is broken down into two ✌️ parts. Two weeks with a trainer BEFORE you get your license; and your driving with a permit. And then after you test 💯 out and get your license.

The first two weeks they'll advance you $200 a week for food 🍕 on the road. After you get your license you'll get $700 a week until you complete your training. ($200 per week is an advance you have to pay back at $25 per week)

I could go into more detail. But if your interested PM me for more information.

In closing, I will add the company doesn't care about your gender identity. There were three trans women when I was there. Part of the companies nondiscrimination policy states they don't discriminate based on sexual or gender identity.

It got included when another driver made some remarks to one of the trans women I mentioned. She spoke to the owner, and the other driver got fired.

[Jenny22]

Veronica, You'll get a ton of both from me. We can talk, if you wish. Venting might be helpful.

[docrobbysherry]

Dana, I'm glad to hear of your success.:thumbsup:
But, must admit I'm clueless as to what u do. What is "CDL training" anyway?:brolleyes:

[April Rose]

doc; from the interwebs;
All drivers of Commercial Motor Vehicles (CMV's) are required to obtain a Commercial Driver License (CDL). In order to get a CDL, you must first take and pass required knowledge and skills test. The CDL Test consists of a general test, one or more endorsement tests, and an air brakes test.

[Marianne S]

Emily, if you're out there, I hope you'll let us know how you're doing. No posts in nearly a week? If you were feeling "on the verge of doing something stupid," people here are going to be worried about you. We'd like to be reassured that you didn't! It's a painful situation, so I hope you're finding help and support somewhere, wherever you are. Good luck!