Devi SM
11-12-2019, 12:44 PM
Please, it's a long one so read just what you're interest or just skip it.
I wrote this post days ago on November 1st but it wasn't published.
As I said other times, for me, emotional changes had been greater than the physical because they have more value for me.
Treatment or therapy:
6 first months on skin therapy patches, almost a year on pills that were increased 2 times so I was at the end of pills in a double dose than the beginning (remember is not aloud to mention doses) now, last 3 weeks on injections of estrogen.
Tblocker, spirolactone was increased in steps of to weeks
a quarter of dose, then half, three quarters and reached to actual level full dose.
Physical: skipping the initial symptoms on sore and higher sensitivity on nipples and breast some discomfort on the breast growth, every time the method of administration has changed produced again same symptoms.
Of course bigger boobs, B cup now hard to hide and painful to keep binded in male mode. Curiously, I got used to the size and live with that extra mass in the chest that now I ca
sleep.in my stomach as well I don't accidentally hit the breast, that was very painful at the beginning.
Sexuality:
It's a know fact the death of libido as men experience it, so less sexual activity and the way we use to make it but not exempt of sexual desire. For me, the motivation for sex is now more emotional, no exempt of erections but not needed it so we are seriously thinking on orchiectomy.
Eating habits:
because of the side effects of spiro, as craving for salty food that at the beginning, for several months made me eat in an uncontrolled way lemons which juice ended ruining the enamel of my two front upper teeth. Dentist refilled it and now look better but not the same it was.
My preferences for food had changed. I was a sweet guy, chocolates, pastries and candies as sweet fruit was an important case in my nurture. now, I am a salad girl and a lot less sweet fruits.
Manyadues here mention a change of the urine color and smell. Yeah, I experience that and they report an uneqsent change when they have to stop HRT for a surgery or doctor prescription. that's not a "femenine" feature but just the normal waste of the extra chemicals in your blood and the absence when stop taking medicines.
Fat relocation: in my case I slowly notice after the first year a smaller waist, thicker hips (remember wider hips in women is the result of a diferece on pelvis and wider birth channel) but there are some fat relocated there too.
I don't know if because I was trying to lose weight I didn't see this changes before but since 6 months ago I stop diet and star gaining weight and of course fat tissues it ot a growth on the man typical belly. So far I weight 6 extra pounds, 5' 8" current weight 172 lbs (naked, further time in the morning before breakfast).
Hair: this is been a big and important change because I was loosing a lot of hair on the crown of the head and a lot or new hair just as an effect from hormones.
I had been using different method to remove hair from legs and arms throughout last 15 years but when I hormones it was ot longer needed. As an interesting thing, in the lower belly and chest no more hair but it persist in the genital area as any woman but the bikini are is now very marked.
I don't longer need to shave legs or any part of my body except genitals.
Face hair; I'm so far on the 4th month of electrolysis. hair is abundant but mostly white so easy to conceal but in the upperlip and chin is abundant too but dark so the electrologist has focused on workt this area first. So now is more easy to use some conceal just in that area and my make up is very light whis has given me an increased co fide ce that many people, I a daily basis do recognize me as a man. I dont notice a decrease on the thickness or frequency of growth.
Genitals: I'd been tucking 24/7 for around 10 years but in HRT.testicles size decrease enormously to the point that is very easy hide and keep the boys inside the body.
EMOTIONAL:
As I said at the beginning these had been the bigger or more important changes for me.
For long time I thought I was bisexual but under hormones there was a big shift on it to the point to feel remorse for the things done and dont want to go back to that. My therapist, trasgender as well but ftm, says I'm lesbian.
Sleeping...for years infused to wake up always around 3 am with some fear, afraid of something. As a religious person, I thought it was god trying to talk with me, I used to pray, read the bible.
For reasons that is not of this thread to talk, I stop that religious relationship but sleep interruptions continue. It was just from the very first night on hormones I could sleep a whole night. I had had some issues related with the sleep but after therapy were resolved.
My view of the world change making me a more sensitive, tolerant and considered person . I can see the man I was for more than 50 years.
Honestly, I don't like men. I'm not sexually talking but generally are weird creatures, even the good ones but that is a topic for another thread.
Today, even thought my journey is not fully done yet, and several things are waiting, I feel happy and fulfilled. As I said I sleep very well, o regrets, lame, shame or guilt, I'm free...
Fornthe sake of time I'll continue it later.in
I wrote this post days ago on November 1st but it wasn't published.
As I said other times, for me, emotional changes had been greater than the physical because they have more value for me.
Treatment or therapy:
6 first months on skin therapy patches, almost a year on pills that were increased 2 times so I was at the end of pills in a double dose than the beginning (remember is not aloud to mention doses) now, last 3 weeks on injections of estrogen.
Tblocker, spirolactone was increased in steps of to weeks
a quarter of dose, then half, three quarters and reached to actual level full dose.
Physical: skipping the initial symptoms on sore and higher sensitivity on nipples and breast some discomfort on the breast growth, every time the method of administration has changed produced again same symptoms.
Of course bigger boobs, B cup now hard to hide and painful to keep binded in male mode. Curiously, I got used to the size and live with that extra mass in the chest that now I ca
sleep.in my stomach as well I don't accidentally hit the breast, that was very painful at the beginning.
Sexuality:
It's a know fact the death of libido as men experience it, so less sexual activity and the way we use to make it but not exempt of sexual desire. For me, the motivation for sex is now more emotional, no exempt of erections but not needed it so we are seriously thinking on orchiectomy.
Eating habits:
because of the side effects of spiro, as craving for salty food that at the beginning, for several months made me eat in an uncontrolled way lemons which juice ended ruining the enamel of my two front upper teeth. Dentist refilled it and now look better but not the same it was.
My preferences for food had changed. I was a sweet guy, chocolates, pastries and candies as sweet fruit was an important case in my nurture. now, I am a salad girl and a lot less sweet fruits.
Manyadues here mention a change of the urine color and smell. Yeah, I experience that and they report an uneqsent change when they have to stop HRT for a surgery or doctor prescription. that's not a "femenine" feature but just the normal waste of the extra chemicals in your blood and the absence when stop taking medicines.
Fat relocation: in my case I slowly notice after the first year a smaller waist, thicker hips (remember wider hips in women is the result of a diferece on pelvis and wider birth channel) but there are some fat relocated there too.
I don't know if because I was trying to lose weight I didn't see this changes before but since 6 months ago I stop diet and star gaining weight and of course fat tissues it ot a growth on the man typical belly. So far I weight 6 extra pounds, 5' 8" current weight 172 lbs (naked, further time in the morning before breakfast).
Hair: this is been a big and important change because I was loosing a lot of hair on the crown of the head and a lot or new hair just as an effect from hormones.
I had been using different method to remove hair from legs and arms throughout last 15 years but when I hormones it was ot longer needed. As an interesting thing, in the lower belly and chest no more hair but it persist in the genital area as any woman but the bikini are is now very marked.
I don't longer need to shave legs or any part of my body except genitals.
Face hair; I'm so far on the 4th month of electrolysis. hair is abundant but mostly white so easy to conceal but in the upperlip and chin is abundant too but dark so the electrologist has focused on workt this area first. So now is more easy to use some conceal just in that area and my make up is very light whis has given me an increased co fide ce that many people, I a daily basis do recognize me as a man. I dont notice a decrease on the thickness or frequency of growth.
Genitals: I'd been tucking 24/7 for around 10 years but in HRT.testicles size decrease enormously to the point that is very easy hide and keep the boys inside the body.
EMOTIONAL:
As I said at the beginning these had been the bigger or more important changes for me.
For long time I thought I was bisexual but under hormones there was a big shift on it to the point to feel remorse for the things done and dont want to go back to that. My therapist, trasgender as well but ftm, says I'm lesbian.
Sleeping...for years infused to wake up always around 3 am with some fear, afraid of something. As a religious person, I thought it was god trying to talk with me, I used to pray, read the bible.
For reasons that is not of this thread to talk, I stop that religious relationship but sleep interruptions continue. It was just from the very first night on hormones I could sleep a whole night. I had had some issues related with the sleep but after therapy were resolved.
My view of the world change making me a more sensitive, tolerant and considered person . I can see the man I was for more than 50 years.
Honestly, I don't like men. I'm not sexually talking but generally are weird creatures, even the good ones but that is a topic for another thread.
Today, even thought my journey is not fully done yet, and several things are waiting, I feel happy and fulfilled. As I said I sleep very well, o regrets, lame, shame or guilt, I'm free...
Fornthe sake of time I'll continue it later.in