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DianeT

04-22-2020, 07:53 PM

Wow, a Ask-the-CDers thread! With questions meticulously crafted in this mysterious FAB Lab that is the envy of the world... This is poised for success.
Let's roll.

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
Yes (told after 36 years together)

2) What regrets do you have if any?
Not sharing this part of me for so long with my wife.
Taking away her choices.
Not trusting her with this secret.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Not sure what is meant here? No, I always knew what I was doing and where it was headed. Or maybe I didn't get the question?

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
Not concerned, everything is negotiated between my wife and I. But it seems a common tendancy judging by the forums. Euphoria leading to reduced awareness of the surroundings? Maybe lack of empathy for the SO in some instances?

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
Not yet concerned (came out to my wife recently).

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
I seriously reflected on this and the most honest response I can give is that I wouldn't care much, being the opposite of a control freak (and being a CDer, admittedly more tolerant to this, an arrow a wife may not necessarily have in her quiver). I would even be okay with the fake package should anyone ask :) But I would refuse to take it to the bedroom.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
That is a very good question. It depends. I would probably be embarrassed going out together if the destination was a male gay club (but then again I don't go out and therefore don't impose this on my wife). I have been in gay districts before and don't feel at ease being hit on by males (fortunately when I did so it was with gay friends who sheltered me from it mostly). Also could be embarrassed if my wife presenting as a male was asking for demonstrations of affection during this time, let's say if she passes as a male I suspect I could feel uneasy being seen as a gay male. Or maybe not, I have once in the past deliberately refused to correct a lady wondering if was gay, because I considered that denying it would have been like thinking it was a problem.
As for straight ladies going out with your SO presenting as female and showing visible proofs of affection, you have my unconditional admiration for the love you demonstrate there.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
No. Then again, I don't fancy at all taking the CDing to the bedroom, hence my wife doesn't have to cope with this. I also know she would be completely turned off by it, so it would be very stupid of me should I turn around.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Ideal of femininity? In my case I am influenced by women clothing that I find classy and attractive. I also like tight, or moderately tight clothes for the hugging feeling. That may evolve in the future as I started buying a few pullovers.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
I don't. But being males trying to look as women, these things may help distancing from the male self by exaggerating the female cues.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
What distinguishes a female from a male, may it be physical, intellectual or behavioral. It can be different things for every woman, however some are constant, such as the capability of bearing a child.
And, because I may seem like I am missing the point here: no, it's not panties, nylons and girdles.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
No, I am attracted to all kinds of women. Also, I am not attracted to myself when presenting as a female. And I don't want to be attractive to anyone (not going out nor posting pictures). I just want to look like it and experience the trouble of blurring the lines, not be in love with it.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
In the manner other CDers dress, no. In the manner I dress, why not, but it's not my wife's style, so I won't impose it on her. She already dresses often with dresses and nylons so I am a happy hubby, thank you :)

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
In my case, and among other things, I want to blur the lines between me as a male and me as a female. Knowing what I could have looked like if I had been born a girl. It is a very visual thing. This is not an obsession of my image. But what I see in the mirror is the whole point of the exercise. I take pictures and keep the ones where there is some level of success in the endeavor. Pictures are less forgiving than the eye, they allow me to improve my trade and make good souvenirs that I like to watch once in a while to help me wait for the next session (I dress very infrequently).

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
Not concerned. You are speaking of photobombing. There is for some an obvious need for attention (love?), others do it as a playful thing, others for validation, some for sharing their joys and emotions of crossdressing, so many reasons...

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
I can. Some can, some can't, some can but won't. It's clear that some CDers are constantly pushing the boundaries as long as something doesn't break. I think this behavior is largely considered as a lack of respect for the SO and a call for trouble and backlash.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
See previous answer.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
In non-dressing periods, 0 hour.
If wifey is out for a week, most of the evenings.
If wifey is out for an evening, a few hours if I decide to crossdress (in agreement with her).

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
It doesn't, as I crossdress when my wife is out (with very rare exceptions), and in agreement with her.
However it puts some strain on my wife when she decides to go out with her friends as she knows I may ask to crossdress then, and this is still something hard on her.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
Yes. Strategy was to be as open and honest as possible, educate her with this forum and other sources, explain as much as I could by introspecting myself, and discuss her comfort levels to settle on boundaries.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
Certainly not, where is the love in this? But her being not accepting could be a problem. However I had only one GG in my life, and I am still with her (whether she'll stay with me after my coming out is another story).

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
Nothing, I don't feel "feminine". I guess for others it means connecting with feelings and sensations that they consider to be what females experience.

Robertacd

04-22-2020, 08:19 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
I regret not telling her sooner

2) What regrets do you have if any?
That I did not come out when I was young

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Yes, all those years I said I was "just a CD" I was lying to myself most of all.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
Because they didn't say "no" (see #16)

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but then things changed?
My wife's CD acceptance waxed and waned over the years but she is fully accepting of me now that I have come out as TG

6)How would you feel if the situation was reversed?
I think I wound still love my partner and accept them, but that is coming from someone who is TG

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
Again, I like to think I would

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
Probably not, but to be fair my wife never liked it when I had a beard and has asked me to shave before we had sex more than once.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Depends on the person, but I am guessing that since many of us started wearing our mothers clothing. Just like the way the smell of a certain dish cooking can trigger an old memory. Styles from when we first started can trigger old memories of exploration and discovery.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
Trying too hard because they do not get to dress very often. So they go overboard every chance they get. I did the same thing but now that I am pretty much full time I "dress to blend" as we like to say.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
When someone looks or acts like a woman

12) Are you only attracted to the kind of woman you portray?
No, an attractive woman is an attractive woman. I don't portray a women, as I have said before. I am the same person DRAG or DRAB.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress you lean towards?
My wife and I do share a sense of style. (and clothes) But we both have our own individual styles and clothes the other wont wear.

14) Why are so many CD's Obsessed with their image?
Everyone wants to be pretty. Also most CD's want to "totally pass", so they can become obsessed with having the "perfect" female body, hair, makeup and makeup.

15) Why do so many CD' post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
They are just attention seekers, and it's only a few that constantly do that.

16) Can the CD anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
SPELL IT OUT! Communication is the key to any healthy relationship. Being CD or TG does not make us mind readers!

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
Probably?

18) In a typical week how much time do you spend dressing?
I only wear men's clothes to work and that's just a men's shirt, shoes, and maybe socks, the rest is all women's clothing. As soon as I get home from work I change and put on makeup.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
My wife and adult son are fully accepting. Our social life has grown since coming out. (Pre-COVID) We go out dancing almost every weekend, we never did that before. Also we have made a lot of new friends in the local Queer community. We didn't really have much of a social life or a lot of friends before.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O. acceptance? In other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
I didn't have a strategy, it was not all rainbows and unicorns, there was give and take on both sides, she did not "struggle with it".

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
Maybe, but there would have to be more there for it to last.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
Being a GM I probably don't know what that really means, but being TG I think I always "feel feminine" to some extent.

Jodie_Lynn

04-22-2020, 09:04 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? N/A

2) What regrets do you have if any? I regret that my Ex couldn't accept me, and I also regret hiding myself for so long

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Yes, in a sense, because I tried to be something I wasn't, for so long

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Not myself personally, but in general, if no resistance is encountered, people tend to think that their behaviour is accepted

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? No, they were not accepted, and sadly, she decided she could no longer accept me as I am

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I like to think that my feelings for her wouldn't have changed. In a non-CD or Trans situation, people change over time. Does that mean your love changes? In a way, we have become closer, and are really good friends

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Why not? Labels belong on boxes, not people.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? LOL! I have, and it doesn't matter to me

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? N/A. My dressing is appropriate to my age, and the time period.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? IDFK. Maybe they are Drag Queens?

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Compassion, empathy, consideration of others, and the freedom to express their emotions without reproach

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) I don't understand the question. Do you mean 'as a man', or 'as a woman'?

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? N/A, my current partner is a man. And he has no desire to be female.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? UH, because they wish to appear as a woman? DUH!

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? IDFK, do you?

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? This is 'Relationship 101', partners should discuss boundaries, whether they are CD/man, CD/woman, CD/CD, Man/Woman, Man/Man, or Woman/Woman.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? If a CD is in a relationship, they should be aware of the limits and boundaries of their behaviour in the relationship.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Well, since I identify as a woman ( or MtF transgender), I would say 100%

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Socially, I've increased the number of friends and acquaintances in my life. Because of who I am, I've had a divorce, lost contact with ALL of my In-laws, and had a few of my blood relations distance themselves from me. Oddly, ALL of my friends from my old life, have accepted me.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? In other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? My S.O. actually realized my transgender status before I did. It was actually ME that had to accept the reality of the situation.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No, I realized, after my divorce, once I decided that I had to be true to myself, that I am not a lesbian, that I enjoy the company and intimacy of men.

Kelly DeWinter

04-22-2020, 09:35 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
I do regret not telling my ex wife, it would have been a much shorter marriage.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
That I was not born in the current climate of more acceptance of LGBTQ acceptance.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
No, I was so deep in the closet and times were such that it was not something you talked about unless you wanted to end up in a mental institution.
Most GG's don't understand that not telling people becomes en grained in who you are as a person.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
I do not think that they do, I think that a lack of response from your spouse sets up the hope of acceptance then hope turns into belief that then turns into acceptance.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
No

6) How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
Knowing what I do now, it might be hard at first, but then again knowing myself as an empathetic person I would have an easier time of listening and accepting if he wanted to stay in a relationship.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
I would be OK with it.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
It would be different, but if you are going to accept someone, you get warts and in this case facial hair and all.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
I think it's because that's the time our hormones started kicking in and we have not had the years of time to experiment with style or fashion that most GG's do.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
Everyone wants to go to the Prom, be the Bride or just experience Glamour from time to time. We have such little time to Dress that we don't want to waste it on sweats and jeans.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
being able to chat about anything other than work,sports,cigars and booze. To wear what I want without recrimination to wear a bit of makeup or a lot, get my nails done. OMG the list is huge.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
No

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
No, Although my wife raids my closet frequently.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
Because wanting to look ones best is a very feminine quality.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
Occasionally there is a post where we want to share our experience with other like minded people, Like the current French Maid's uniform post. It's fun and it's this type of interaction we don't get to participate in as men.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
Definitely spell them out as we can't read minds. The lack of communication is the root of most issues.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
I've never been the pushy type, but that is a whole other issue

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
2- 4 days.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
My friends tend to be people who are less conservative, My family are way to conservative.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
I never spoke to my ex about it. My wife Jeannie and I discussed things extensively prior to even meeting. It turned out to be the best thing.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
Not the sole reason, but defiantly the top. Having been in a relationship on both end's , I whole hardheartedly support disclosure.

2B Natasha

04-22-2020, 11:28 PM

After a long period of introspection. I have come to the conclusion and the understanding that I am not just a CD'er yet I am not completely transgender, in the classic definition. I am more Genderfluid.

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? I told the current, first day we met in person. So no. Now the starter wife. I regret springing it on her and not Being able to explain myself. The desire to express yourself builds up and builds up. Finally it explodes out in ways that are detrimental to a relationship. Especially when you can't explain it. Would she have understood? Doubt it. But it was't fair to her or me the way's in which it came out..

2) What regrets do you have if any? That I wasn’t able to define who and or what I am at an earlier age. I fought it for so long and wasted so much time.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Not dishonest. Just not truthful. I didn't have the skill set to be truthful. To myself or anybody else. I couldn't be.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? I think it’s do to the belief that there will be a negative reaction. Or a reaction of some sort. So a nothing reaction or a very slight reaction is seen as acceptance because it’s not rejection.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? Same now as it was then. No change.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I would hope I would feel the and act the same as she has. Total acceptance. I pretty sure I would.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Sure why not.Sounds like fun.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? Hm. I don’t like hair for the most part so I’m not sure how I would feel about facial hair. But let’s go with we would do it. I think with no kissing it would work ok. Not sure I would want to feel facial hair on my back though. Well. Maybe.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? No idea why they gravitate to one era and stay there. I myself flew through different styles to land where I am now. As a dress up once in awhile it’s fun. But I don’t think I could do, say the 40’s all the time. I think the need to dress in a certain time period for the most part is a non venturing out CD thing. Sure there are some that go out in period dress. But generally that dress is VERY time period. I believe this question is mostly aimed at the Lolita types.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? No idea

11) What is your definition of Femininity? This is a tough one. It’s like the definition of porn. I’ll know it when I see it. Femininity is different for every person. I honestly don’t think there is one definition that fits everybody. To say that it is one thing as opposed to another is to disregard the core of one person by saying there wrong. There is no wrong. There is just different.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray). No. Am I attracted to them? Yes. but only them? no.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? I suppose yes. But that said. I lean toward popular fashion. Things that are on trend. I am attracted to women that look like they care about how they look.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? As Andre Agassi said once “ image is everything “. I think most cd’ers are like tweens and teens. We are still trying to figure out who we are most of the time. And like a tween all we have to play with is our image. Having had the effects of testosterone hold court over us are whole life. We have " Manly " characteristics. Thin faces, facial hair, five O'clock shadows, big hands, big wrists. broad shoulder that are not synetrical with hips. Hips that are narrow, lack of butts, big feet. Trying to camouflage all of this is an obsession. We that go out just want to go out and be.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I think some just like posting pictures of themselves. Others feel that they’re showing an example of what they’re trying to say. A picture is worth a thousand words sorta thing.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? If the partner knows what their boundaries are. Then spell it out. If you don’t know what your boundaries are, spell it out. Without spelling out your boundaries you need to be prepared for whatever comes down the stairs or what happens. Cd’ers have a real tendency to go overboard really quickly.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? Heck no. Every situation and every person is different. I believe that if you let them go do what they’re going to do. They will find a sweet spot and settle down into it. With open dialogue. Be prepared for them to go all over the place for awhile. But they’ll settle down. New freedom is intoxicating, for a time. Till the shine wears off.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Hard to say.my boy clothes and girl clothes all all mixed up. So I would say everyday, but I could say almost never at the same time. Both would be right.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Family life, not at all. Social life, not at all. I’m free to do as I please with in the agreement that we have. That is this. Don’t do anything that would purposely effect the revenue stream to the household. That’s the same as it is everyday probably for everybody in all walks of life and every situation. Socially. I made the choice to come out to all my friends and most of my family years ago. I gave them the chance to accept or reject. If they rejected me I would have had no ill will. Nobody did.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? I owned it. I met her at the door with flowers. She invited me in. I was looking wrenched honestly from a hard night out the day before. Chipped nail polish and eyeliner I had not gotten all the way off. I told her in the first 20 minutes I was a cd’er. Let her ask questions and then we moved onto other topics.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No

22) something about femininity: I think this is a loaded question born out of fear. I never feel feminine or not feminine. Femininity is state of being. There is no right or wrong. And that I think is the problem. Both sexes think there is a right and a wrong. Both feel that the other is challenging the others personal idea of their being. Fear that some how we believe that we are more fimminine then their wife/GF/SO are. You do you and I will celebrate you. As long as you don't wear PJ's out of the house. Thats just wrong.

There is more to every answer, but I’m not typing it all out. To long. These are the highlights. If anybody wants a more in depth answer to a certain question. DM me. Happy to help.

Cheers!

Stephanie47

04-23-2020, 01:01 AM

1) No, my early teenage years were so far in the past that I thought it was a youthful adventure I had gotten over.

2) When the issue finally did arise in our marriage I regretted trying to tell her something akin to "connecting with my feminine side." She shot that down real fast. "Tell me about your feminine side when you can have a baby!!" Brutally honest.

3) Hard to say because I did not understand why I was doing what I was doing. I felt shame. I had self loathing. All negative feelings.

4) Because they want to justify their actions.

5) Early in our marriage we incorporated negligees and hosiery into sex play with benefits for both of us. This was before my wife and I realized there was more to this than just bedroom play.

6) If you mean strapping down her breast, false beard and getting a buzz cut I'd say she is messed up.

7) No

8) No

9) Not me. I dress tastefully as any modern middle age woman would. Although I am a child of the 1950's and 1960's I do not wear poodle skirts and bullet bras.

10) Maybe that's what they are looking for in GG's in their life.

11) Self assured woman. A woman who knows what she wants and really has no need for a man other than on her terms.

12) As I am now, yes. A middle age woman who is confident.

13) When she wears a dress she does. By sheer coincidence she wears some of the same labels I wear.

14) Good question. Probably looking for something they have fantasies about.

15) Don't know. I don't post pictures

16) My wife and I have been married almost fifty years. I think we know each other fairly well. She wants no part of my CDing so I do not do anything to modify my body.

17) I don't push at all. I see many CD-ers on this site interjecting a lot of creeping under the belief their wives will not notice until it is too late. Then it blows up in their face.
18) Right now zero except for wearing a nylon gown and panty to sleep as my wife and I sleep apart for medical reasons. She has had one operation one after another these past four years. Sad

19) Not at all as I have not brought it out of the closet. Sometimes it is so far hidden in our daily lives I think my wife has forgotten about my cross dressing.

20) My wife was terrified of this unknown. She wanted nothing more than the guy she fell in love with in the army. She was a victim of female sexual assault in the army. Enough said.

21) If I were single again I would not get involved with anyone else. Nobody is ever going to hold a candle to my wife. It's not that some women have not tried. One soul mate per earthly stay.

faltenrock

04-23-2020, 02:04 AM

1) Well, she's blaming me on a regular basis that I didn't tell her right after me came together. At that time, I believed my dressing would stop because of her. I told her after 6 years, prior to our marriage.

2) Not telling her earlier is my greatest regret

3) no

4) I think we carry a lot of shame, which of today is a mistake

5) yes, in the beginning she accepted my once a week dressing at home and when we got intimate, that changed with the kids. She didn't want to see me anymore dressed after they turned 3-4 years of age

6) rejected and beeing some kind of weird guy because of my dressing, she wanted to make me feel like I was sick

7) she won't ever go out with me. When I go out, I don't care how people perceive me, it's all about myself when out dressed. I just want to feel accepted and beautiful.

8) No

9) I don't

10) I don't think that way

11) too much to write

12) No

13) Yes that would be nice, but I need to accept any other style of dressing of my wife

14) we like what we see in the mirror, perhaps it is some kind of ideal that we try tp portray

15) They want to be recognized and look for some attention that they can't receive in the real world when dressing up

16) Bounderies have to be discussed as a couple

17) yes

18) a few hours at home, every 4 -6 weeks dressing in public, depending on the possibilities when getting away from home for business

19) not really, no one knows, except my wife and my sond

20) No strategy

21) not for any sexual or intimate reason, but yes I would make friendship if they are accepting. I found that quite a number of women I met while beeing dressed have some kind of personality problem. Those who are nice and seem to be accepting for the one occasion after having met and started a conversation usually don't want to make friendship.

04-23-2020, 04:33 AM

We are loving all the answers and we thank you.

We have a late question What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
If you feel like editing your post to include the answer ...do so.

We are having a discussion what feeling feminine means to us and thought we would ask you all as well.
Thanks again for everyones time and effort.

Alice K

04-23-2020, 05:42 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? If I had known myself, yes. But I had buried it so deep and repressed that it ?didn?t exist? when we met dated and married. Repressed for 20 years by that point. If I had been aware and active then I would say I would have regrets.

2) What regrets do you have if any? That I was born when I was and as I was. I would be so much more free today.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Completely and totally. Even when repressed or in denial there were little signs that would pop-up that we?re telling but I was never free to explore fully.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Unaware or insensitive to the spouses feelings

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? No never accepted

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I would hope I would be loving and accepting. I truly believe I would. In many ways for the past 100 years women have been able to dress and act more free and masculine if they choose

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? It wouldn?t matter to me as long as the person I love was happy and comfortable.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? Uncertain. Although fake beards do have a comedic air about them that I would be difficult overlook. Just as having sex wearing a wig would be silly or awkward.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? Not this CD?r. It seems offensive to me.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? Don?t know. Subtlety in dress and make-up to me is classy and graceful, not comedic. Possibly they may have watch too much Ru Paul?

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Grace, sensitivity, caring, and nurturance.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray). I don?t believe so.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? It would be nice, she used to before it became jeans. But not my place to say what she should wear or what she feels comfortable in.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? It gives me a chance to see what I feel like. A reflection of the internal me

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I don?t know, since I too paranoid to do that. Possibly they are looking for validation.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? I know the boundaries - DON?T

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? I wish we could at least talk about it. But feel I am giving harm if I do try to talk about it. She didn?t sign on for this change in me

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Before this event about twice a week for a couple hours each time. Since then none. But referring back to question 14 having those images allows me to refresh my image of myself in my mind during these constrained times.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? I don?t believe it does because of being so far in the closet. But my whole life, not just my relationship is built around another me.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? I believe I have tried but it is a taboo subject. Denial if you would, don?t talk about it and it will go away.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? If I had it to do over again and I was aware and accepting of my own nature yes that would be a key driver in our relationship

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
Natural, comfortable, and at ease with myself within the constraints of my current life. Free to be al those things in question 11 above.

Lydianne

04-23-2020, 05:54 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?

N/A.

When I resigned myself to my incapability of defeating my dressing, I knew my family-life prospects were finished. It was around age 16. If I were going to try, though, it would have to be done early before getting "serious".

2) What regrets do you have if any?

[-]The day of my birth?[/-] Pursuit of progression without being ready for the emotion that I was unaware it would set off. When I first saw the "her", it planted the seeds for a darker side that came with it. I had blissful ignorance,.. and now I'm too aware.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?

Dishonest, no.

I have fought hard against it and lost, but I always knew I was dealing with something decisive. There are some Pandora's boxes of self exploration I do not want to open because I'm not equipped do deal with all potential outcomes, and it could leave me in a void. I have opened such boxes in the past, and in the long run, it hasn't made me happier.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?

I can't answer that for everyone. Perception differs by each individual. For me personally, the decisions I made that I described in #1 demonstrate that I wouldn't.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?

N/A.

Biggest fear of commencing an accepting relationship.

6)How would you feel if the situation was reversed ?

Legit question! With the mind of a CDer and the decisions I have made,.. if I were cis, I would hope to be informed beforehand. I could imagine a cis guy being uncomfortable with a dressed spouse wanting to assume the male role in intimacy.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?

I'd be OK with this. I deal with a lot of perceptions.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?

Again, I have to consider it from the PoV of a cis-guy because with the mind of a CDer and the relationships that I would be OK with making an attempt at, I'd be OK with it. From the unfortunate way I've heard lots of cis guys talk, I can imagine objections.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?

Some CDers do this as an art form, in which case, we know the answer. I think in some cases, there could be progression starting from what has been seen in childhood. I think it could be similar to how some young women evolve their presentations over time. Some try and look older when they are in school, then to when they are of going-out age, then when they become family women. Many CDers' presentations will evolve from what it starts as.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?

Maybe some of it goes back to childhood. Male/female presentation differences are easily seen, but the upbringing differences and societal treatment from others are less seen. So the appreciation of the internal could trail behind a bit.

Then you add puberty, and one might try to erroneous extremities to accentuate what one knows one isn't, and suppress what one knows one is.. using physical attraction as the initial template and then putting it into overdrive hoping to get more effective results. Physical attraction and external differences are probably the only gauges most would have at this point of development of their dressing.

Then later on when one starts getting treated by others in-line with the presentation they give, then a more refined understanding develops because the dressing then becomes a two-way thing, which was lacking before.

For example, female tennis players are strong and muscular. They are still unmistakably feminine, and I'd easily trade places with them ( riches aside, just the person ). However, in the gallery here, you'd get told to cover that up and smile all the time. You attempt compliance to fit in. Then you go out, and nobody raises those as issues. So that's some revised knowledge about presentation there.

..Or a beginner body-builder might be tempted to take double the supplements to get the mass up quicker to the image they saw first to spark their interest,.. and then they gain more knowledge from the body-building world around them and realise that's not the way to get real results.

That's my guess, but seriously, I don't know :idontknow:.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?

An inclination to have: depth, sensitivity, emotional enlightenment, strength, to be nurturing, to be measured, .. ( in my opinion.. or delusion :strugglin ).

Some males possess those virtues too, but it's difficult to tell in modern masculinity because other stuff gets in the way.. like, for example, other males. But with most guys, if you get them alone, it will come out eventually. Some females can be missing some too. I'm not suggesting I have them either, but it has always been a more attractive aspiration for me than the expectations of males by other males.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)

Attraction is N/A, but trading of place isn't. As my situation has increased its grip on me, I've found myself wishing I could trade with any female I see on a typical day.

The only effective dissuasion is the knowledge of the person to have a character I distance myself from. Strangely, that makes me hesitate whether I would trade for just the external in isolation of the character . . of a genetic female, no less!!!! 😲.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?

N/A.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?

In my case, it's because I feel uncomfortable as male. Internally, I aspire to what I wrote in #11. Externally, I'm highly invested in the attempt to escape looking male, hopefully not to the point of error as described in #10. I know from past experiences that the consequences of failure are extreme unhappiness. I don't want to be unhappy. Got a blue pill? 😐.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others' posts?

I don't know that I do that personally. To the best of my knowledge, I only post in my own threads and sharing threads. I think there's an etiquette issue regarding putting a picture of oneself in somebody else's thread if they haven't asked for it. Nevertheless, the "why" is probably either to seek validation of one's presentation or to show off pride therein.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?

Progression can happen to the CDer, and regression can happen to the comfort boundaries of the partner. Therefore extents and boundaries on either side need to be communicated to the other and updated over time. Not anticipated. So yes, spelled out.. in my humble and unmarried opinion :whistling:.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?

What has been requested and agreed upon should not be exceeded without further discussions.. in my humble and unmarried opinion.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?

Uff! To my preferred presentation, typically once. The rest of the time is consumed thinking about it. Never during the working week. I need to get rid of the male, otherwise there is little placation. Doing that takes a lot of time.

However, I use some female items as male: Leggings, for example, or a sweater dress. That mostly flies under the radar. I'm considering switching to female underwear and underdressing as well - just plain black, solid edge briefs. Again, to look at them, they look like regular male briefs. This doesn't pacify me. So why do I do it?.. I don't know 😐. It sounds good.. The knowledge of it takes an edge off.. :strugglin.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?

My mother is the most religious person I know and the most anti-gay person I know. I haven't heard her state her position on trans, but I can take a pretty good guess. I love her, and it would destroy me if anything were to happen to her, but I find it difficult to talk to her about anything,.. even the weather. I have avoided family gatherings because of this.

I find it difficult to integrate myself into groups of guys' guys. It's as though there's a barrier there, and the interaction always stutters. It's difficult to explain. I can integrate myself into a group of moderate guys though.. eventually.

I do not attempt to integrate myself into groups of women, but sometimes it happens organically over time when it's realised that I lack bravado and so forth... but it's often mistaken for me being a gentleman regardless of how much I protest it. Usually with women around my age (42) and older.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?

N/A.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?

With a GG, no.

Acceptance can change.. and they have every right to change.

Let me just add real quick. For any crossdresser, if you consider what is risked to go out wearing womenswear: community respectability, job, family, marriage, verbal abuse, physical attack, etc,.. if you were to ask any other person what they would be willing to risk those kinds of repercussions for, they would most likely say their kids and not much else 😐.

So this isn't an idea conceived that morning in the shower. By the time some get to the point of going out, they are mentally exhausted from years of suppression. But on the other hand, some do consider it a blessing :strugglin.

WOO! :w00t:. Marathon! :whew!:. I hope this helps. Probably unlikely from a relationships standpoint though 😐.

Addendum:

Oh, what are you doing to me?!?? :cry:. OK, one more. I can do this,.. finish strong!!! ✊.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.

I can't say that I do "feel" feminine, although I probably have been loose with this term if I have ever used it. Probably just usage by elimination because I know I am male, and I'm not feeling what most around me feel. In addition to what I aspire to as described in what I think femininity is, what I do feel when I'm dressed is I feel as myself.

When I feel like myself, I feel unburdened, correct, normal... It feels as though a 30 year struggle is on timeout, and I can exhale. But I also wish I could crawl out of bed with this feeling instead of going through a 2 hour makeover process to get it. That's an uninteresting answer for you though, but it's all I've got 😐.

Regards & stay healthy,

- L.

alwayshave

04-23-2020, 06:12 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? No. She is very accepting. Glad I didn't tell my ex-wide, she would have weaponized the information.

2) What regrets do you have if any? Not fully dressing earlier in my life.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Yes. Thought my need to dress would go away.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Don't know.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? Still the same as when I first told her.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I'd be OK with it.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Would not bother me.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? No.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? More a picture of femininity imprinted when I was a child.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? See above.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Dresses, foundation garments and stockings.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) Yes.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? No. I accept my wife just as she is.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Because I want to look as feminine as possible.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? Couldn't say why other do this.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? The partner should spell them out.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? Yes.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Underdress every day. Can't fully dress at home right now because of step children in my home.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Not at all.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? I told her knowing if she went negative, I'd end the relationship.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. Can't define it, but know it when I feel it.

Elizabeth G

04-23-2020, 06:32 AM

Wow! Thanks for there opportunity to open up here a bit:)

Our GGs have some questions that we hope you might give some insight .
Thanks for any help.
Please put. N/A for anything that does not apply.

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?

Without getting into too much detail I was agonizing daily over when and how to tell her when I was caught several years ago. As a result every single aspect of my dressing has been much more difficult for me than it might have been otherwise so yes, I 100% regret not telling her. It cost me her trust and I'm so sorry that I hurt her. I also took the decision process away from her by not telling.

2) What regrets do you have if any?

Aside from not telling my wife I regret that I didn't better understand and accept this part of myself much sooner in life.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?

I feel I was as honest with myself as I could have been given my lack of understanding of the nature of crossdressing. Crossdressing would go dormant for me for sometimes years at a time so I never really realized until about 5 years ago that this thing never really goes away.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
N/A!!

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?

Quite the opposite really. In the years since my wife found out I have slowly expanded my presentation around her within boundaries. She still doesn't want to see me fully dressed (no wigs makeup or forms) but everything else is ok (within reason). This was not the case in the beginning. There are things I wear now that she's ok with that a couple of years ago were not acceptable.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?

I would like to think I would be ok with it and not be a hypocrite but I can't say for sure.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?

I don't think I would have a problem with it but it's all hypothetical so I'm not sure.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?

No. There's no sexual aspect to my crossdressing so I don't bring it into the bedroom (we agree on this point) so I would not want her to do so either.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?

N/A

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?

N/A

11) What is your definition of Femininity?

A potential minefield here lol! I'm trying to differentiate in my head what I consider feminine as opposed to what I consider sexy. For instance I consider poise, grace, expressiveness and a lack of hard edges feminine. I consider confidence sexy.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)

I'm attracted to many different kinds of women. I see guys I know who aren't exactly prizes themselves nitpick a womans appearance for the tiniest thing and I wonder if we're even looking at the same woman.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?

My wife dresses up for work and more casually at home so I see her presenting in a multitude of ways and I like all of them. In the end my wife's choices are up to her.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?

Human nature and societal pressures? Crossdressing for me is more than just the clothes. I want to be able to look in the mirror and see to the extent possible a woman looking back.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?

A very good question - I have no idea!

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?

I have done a reasonable job of learning and respecting my wife's boundaries but the process in an ongoing evolution and I have had instances where I have had to have things spelled out for me.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?

I try to be careful and mindful of my wife's needs. I'm grateful that she didn't just leave me when she found out. I have learned over the last few years that being careful not to overreach is better in the long run.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?

I usually spend a few hours twice a week "casually dressing" (clothes, accessories, no wig, makeup or forms) around the house and about a half day once a month fully dressed but out of sight of my wife (with her knowledge and cooperation).

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?

It has almost no impact on my social life except for if my wife goes out by herself for the purpose of giving me dressing time. As for family time we are empty nesters (the kids know) so it has little impact on that either. On my casual dressing nights we do the same thing we would otherwise be doing.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?

Without getting into the whole story of it I didn't come out (which I deeply regret) but when she found out I tried to make sure I gave her the support she needed. After all, I had just thrown open the closet door just enough to pull her in and slam it shut behind her. I felt I owed her as much support as I could give. We have been seeing a counselor ever since which had been very good for both of us.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?

Date, maybe but that would not be the basis of any long term relationship for me. There has to be more.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.

It means so much more but if I had to put it in one sentence for me it means casting off all of those things I consider to be boorish or brutish behaviors and getting rid of those hard edges and not be thought of as a wimp in the process.

.

Connie D50

04-23-2020, 06:41 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? Yes (told her in the first year:( after married. (That was 41 years ago)

2) What regrets do you have if any? Yes however everyone has regrets in life why would i be any different.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Short answer yes I'm 64 years old back then you didn't have the same information.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Can't speak to that that is bad communication on both sides.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? My wife and I seam to go on a roller-coaster on the topic.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? Very hard to say I would be a hypocrite if I didn't say no problem.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Again so hard to say with my mind no problem.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? yes

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? It's the fantasy every era has it most feminist look.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? I don't want I can only assume (should never do) that they feel better that way.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Women in general the way they move talk to each other and dress, It can be so subtle a lace trim on her blouse, the way they walk in heels.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) No but I'm sure I look for those traits.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? No I want to dress in the manner my wife does. :)

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? The fantasy the desire to pass and be accepted as a women.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I like to take pictures when you feel good about you self, I wish the picture would look as good as I feel.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? Communicate we try not to take more and more when you give. But I think it always happens.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? I think we all try but in my case, more times then not take it to far and we have the talk lol.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? once a week (however I dress for bed every night and wear panties 24/7)

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Of course it affects it I have to find time where it doesn't get in the way. Sometimes I have a planed outing and a family or friend thing comes up I 7 out of 10 times chance my plans. She is a little more afraid of people stopping by.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? I owned it 100% and still do. I did not have a strategy (I didn't understand it 100% my self).

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? If I was ever looking again for her sake and Mine yes I would. I would date women however If i was taking it to a new level I would look for that.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. Of course I would love to look the part in a great outfit for the event I'm attending. Sit down and carry on conversations with people in attendance, move with the grace and style that I adore in women.

April Rose

04-23-2020, 07:23 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? n/a

2) What regrets do you have if any? When I have been kept awake at night it has been from remembering times when I was selfish or cruel. a few pink fog moments maybe, but I have few regrets about dealing with a socialization that I did not ask for.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? In the main, No.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Beats me. I hate it when my wife goes silent.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? Things with us can change in both directions.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? My wife was never a girly girl. I love the person she is. I believe I could cope.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? see 6.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? probably not. I never pushed her to have sex with me dressed.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? It's their image of the feminine from childhood. I have to work to overcome it.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? If I don't work very hard at it I don't look feminine. I'm ok without a wig and makeup, but I have to avoid mirrors. As much as I acknowledge that I am not a woman, there is the almost physical longing to feel like a lady.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? See my signature line. I have done it up as a cross-stitch.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) My wife is an independent minded, outspoken, very non-stereotypical woman.
If anyone is the fashion minded conformist its me. I love her independence and I believe it's why she can tolerate the way I am.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? No.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? The image is all we have. Take it away and all we have is the dreary narrow colorless shell of modern maleness.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I don't know.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? I'm very careful about boundaries.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? I am.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? 35-40

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Over time has made me a more reserved individual. My wife has been very helpful in getting me to deal with that. Everyone who is important to me knows about my gender issues. My son who is camping with us in the Covid crisis, recently told me he was glad I had found this way to express myself.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
Long before we were married, when I knew she was the one, I gathered my courage and told her. I knew I couldn't live a whole life hiding my true self.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? How would that even work? Who lays all their cards on the table on the first date?

SaraLin

04-23-2020, 07:43 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? N/A I told her while we were still dating and we agreed on boundaries.

2) What regrets do you have if any? Not negotiating for more?

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Absolutely. I've tried so hard to be "normal" that I've believed a lot of my own nonsense.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Because we want so desperately to be accepted that any not-negative response is taken as a positive?

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? "the rules" haven't changed over the years - but she's more relaxed within these boundaries.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? Not sure. I think I'd say "OK, you be the husband, I'll be the wife"

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Perceived as? Whatever. I'd know the truth, and that's what would count. If we went out as two guys, I think it would be just a couple friends hanging out. I'm not much of a PDA sort anyways.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? with me in my frilly things? sure. Ok, To be serious here. I think I know what you're asking here, and the answer would probably be "um - no thanks." As a male, I'd have no interest in being with another male (real or pretend), but I can imagine her in male mode loving me in female mode.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? Maybe we're trying for our image of the "ideal" girl - an image we usually formed in our earlier days.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? Can't say. Not my thing.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? That's kind of like defining art. For me, it's a kinder, gentler, more compassionate and loving way of being. Oh - and beauty is part of your life, not just something to be owned.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) Pretty much N/A. My presentation is limited. I've also been in relationships with all types of ladies throughout the years. I'm attracted to the PERSON inside. The outer packaging never meant that much.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?It's really diffudlut to answer this one. CD'ers dress in all kinds of ways. I just want my partner to look/feel good in their own eyes. If she's happy, I'm happy.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? and GG's aren't? Everyone wants to look good. CD'ers just have to work harder at it.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I don't, so I can't answer this one.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? Spell it out, please! Mind reading doesn't exist in the real world, and if we try to guess what's going on in your minds, were' almost sure to get it wrong.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? I don't push. Maybe I could have gained a little ground over the years, but I haven't tried. My wife is too important to me to risk losing.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? That depends on how you look at it. Panties? 24/7. Nighties? Daily. Anything more than that? Rarely, bordering on almost-never. The rules still rule. (nothing more around her - and we're always together, since we're both retired)

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Not much really. Her health issues are more of a limiting factor than my wardrobe.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? I informed her when we were still dating, and I let her decide if she wanted to move forward. We set up ground rules, and 20 years later, we're still going...

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? Um, no. There has to be more than JUST that. In fact, I broke up with the girl who was very accepting but wasn't OK in other ways.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. I'm not sure I have the words for that. For me, its just that a "feeling." I feel -um- softer? I don't have to act like I'm strong, unfeeling, or competitive. I can enjoy life as it comes. I can chat about things besides cars, guns, or the "hot chick" at the corner store. I can watch the sand cranes and their babies in the back yard. Etc. Etc. Etc.

OH - and I sometimes get to wear something pretty.

Lana Mae

04-23-2020, 08:05 AM

1. I told my future bride before we got married! I asked her if I could wear woman's clothes. She said there will be only one woman in this marriage! I repressed for 34 years and 5 months!
2. Concerning #1, none as we had two wonderful children and I loved her very much!
3. No but I was naive through most of this! I was positive after I found this site!
4. I can not speak for others so N/A!
5. N/A
6. I think if I truly loved the person it would not matter!
7. OK, corny but love conquers all!
8. I do not think it would matter but I do not know for sure!
9. You speak of others and not me!
10. I do not, so I do not know!
11. I think it is more a feeling! I have felt it throwing trash in the trash can! Sometimes a certain movement! I can not pin it down or actually describe it but I know it is there!
12. No, actually there is no dating/sexual attraction to Lana Mae as it is who I am!
13. I wear what I see FAB women wear! Mostly jeans and a top, but I also have skirts and dresses that they would wear as well! I am in flats most of the time!
14. I am not sure about others! I want to blend in for the most part!
15. Opinion only, they are looking for acceptance!
16. I would spell it out! Good communication helps any relationship!
17. As I said, communication is key!
18. I am a pre-op transwoman and wear woman's clothes 24/7!
19. Everyone I have encountered except 2 or 3, have been nothing but accepting! They have said that you have to be you!
20. I just asked one question and let it go!
21. No!
22. See #11
Even though I am not a CD, I hope my answers are a help to someone!
Hugs Lana Mae

jacques

04-23-2020, 08:27 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? No

2) What regrets do you have if any? being scared to tell my wife

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? I was confused (and still am a bit)

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? because it is a BIG THING for us

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? n/a

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I would try to be accepting and encouraging

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? - there is nothing wrong with being gay

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? no problem

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? - someone explained that our dressing is often immature because we did not grow to be female until later in life
10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? because it is new to us (see above answer)

11) What is your definition of Femininity? not masculine

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) no

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? I want my wife to dress how she prefers

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? because it is new to us

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? don't understand

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? I know the boundaries without discussing them

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? - every night in bed, one or two days under-dressed, two or three evenings dressed

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? I am not out for friends and family (but I am sure that some know). My dressing is private (just me and wife) but not a secret

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? - no strategy; I just had to be honest

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? n/a

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. - I feel whole

ellbee

04-23-2020, 09:15 AM

Yay! Another one of these!! :yippee:

Plenty of questions that are either N/A for me... And/or, I just don't have the energy to answer. So, I'll be skipping those.

But, I'll try to do what I can! :battingeyelashes:

6) How were you feel if the situation was reversed?

For the record, I'm single & unattached. But to answer the question: To some degree? I would welcome it! For one, it would show that she's not afraid or feels bound to certain closed-mindedness/conformity/group-think which can be so pervasive throughout our society. That she's an independent, free-spirited woman who marches to the beat of her own drum -- which can be sexy as all heck, mind you. However, I feel the duration/frequency/intensity of hers would have to roughly match my own... For example, if she wanted/needed to transition? Well, I don't. And for that reason, I'm out! Of course, if you're asking if she crossdressed (more than the average GG, that is), but *I* didn't? Can't help you there, sorry. :p

7) Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?

Around Halloween or some other kind of event where it would be viewed as "normal" or even just acceptable? What would I care, LOL. But again, it comes down to degree. If she wanted to seriously attempt to "pass" as a dude *all* the time to *everyone*, with a men's haircut, binding her boobs, trying to act like a guy, deep gruff voice, etc.? Well, ya gotta draw the line somewhere, obviously. While I am attracted to "femmy tomboys," I am not particularly attracted to F2M TS's, so...

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?

Facial hair -- on *anyone* -- turns me off. Long ago I had my one-&-only (former) male lover with stubble nuzzling me... TBH, it was scratchy & kinda gross, LOL. However, if a GG wore make-up to imitate realistic facial hair? Hey, why not! As long as she didn't do it all day, every day, everywhere... That it was simply "playing dress-up" for whatever reason(s) -- even just for the heck of it!

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?

Everyone reading this, CD'ers & GG's, alike, should watch this. It's an excellent video on this -- which also could be applied to CD'ing, as well. And there's plenty more out there than just these three, who, being GG's, could perhaps help be a bit more relatable in the way they discuss why they do what they do. Give it a watch...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7BdnsB4RTcU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7BdnsB4RTcU

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?

I don't.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?

I refer you to Wikipedia, LOL...

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Femininity

And here's the thing: If the "experts" can't even agree on what it is, according to the link, then how are we supposed to?? :strugglin Because however we may answer on a personal level, there's bound to be some who don't agree -- and subsequently think we're "wrong" & simply "full of it."

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
No. It would be like dating my (non-existent) sister! :confused2:

(BTW, it may have been innocent-enough, I don't necessarily appreciate the word "portray" in there.)

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?

We are all, in part, visual creatures. We see with our eyes... Which are connected to our brain.
(Again, this time the word "obsessed"... :brolleyes: )

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
I've posted very few pics of myself, thanks! :wave2:

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?

What is typical, LOL? The more I work, the less often I wear stuff from the women's side of the aisle... And I've been working a *lot* lately, with no let-up in sight. However, I was once self-employed -- non-customer-facing, at that. And I *lived* in women's stuff. It really depends on what's going on in my life at the time. Wearing at least something pretty much every day, usually in guy-mode, for at least part of the day, is typical, I suppose. If not a full outfit, I mix-&-match men's & women's clothing often enough, which I enjoy, too. :)

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?

I'm an introvert. I'm also a workaholic. Enough said. :roflmao:

That being said, all this does hold me back a bit. Better yet? It's more like I use it as a crutch, and *I* hold myself back.

A counterpoint? During one era of my life, dressing actually opened up a whole world out there for me, socially speaking. In fact, this mixed & varied social circle actually *preferred* that I presented en-femme when with them! :thumbsup:

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?

Hardly. Though it's probably at least one (of many!) "requirements." :heehee:

Otherwise, it just ain't gonna work. If I can't be myself, then fluff it.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.

Simply put? Not masculine. A cop-out, I know. :D

Samm

04-23-2020, 09:31 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
N/A

2) What regrets do you have if any?
Only that I didn't accept this part of me, or take it more seriously, sooner.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
I think so, yes

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
Not sure. Wishful thinking, perhaps.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
N/A

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
This is an interesting and fair question. But difficult to answer. I'd like to think I would at least be understanding.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
Probably not, but my wife isn't required to be my "wing girl" in order for me to go out.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
I highly doubt it. But in my defense, I don't force anything girly on my part, in the bedroom. But often get requests
On wearing something "fun" to add to the experience. Sometimes I surprise her too. I don't think of our relationship as unique, though.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Isn't that a stereotypical question? It's really simple. Example... I recently posted a pic of me wearing a little plaid school girl skirt. Do I dress like that all the time? No, hardly ever. So why did I? Because it's fun sometimes. Plain and simple.
Kind of like when gg's wear something fun, or playful on Halloween.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
I can't answer for anyone else. To each their own. But there are probably many reasons. I prefer "less is more", or blendy. But maybe stand out just a little bit. Just not over the top.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
This one is really hard lol. But you're asking How Each of us perceive femininity.... it's definitely not the clothes. It's not something tangible. Ether you are, or you aren't. It's inside. I don't need a dress, or forms to make me feel feminine. Do you?

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
For the most part, I don't consider myself "portraying" anything. Yes, I do like fun outfits and costumes every so often. But I'm still me. I'm attracted to my different types of women... then again, so is my wife lol.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
What manner of dress is that? Again, kind of stereotypical. She has her style, I have mine.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
So many who? Cd'rs? I think we all just want to do our best in whatever look we're trying to accomplish. I've seen way more gg's obsessed with their image, than cd/tg IRL

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
Don't know. If I want to post a pic, I start my own thread. Unless asked, like the "red thread" a while back.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
We are not mind readers. But I'm sure we've all pushed a little to see where those boundaries are.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
I try to by mindful of the boundaries she has. But she has been very open and honest with me. And has also has let me explore and experiment. We're on this ride together.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
Pre-Covid.... maybe a couple hours on a Sunday night. Now... three or four hours, a few times per week. When the lockdowns are over, it'll go back to what ever our schedules will allow.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
I'm not out to family/friends. Not counting the circle of friends I've made in the cd/tg/ts world.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
As much as she didn't understand it, she accepted it, and me, for who I was. And I, her. Like I said, we're on this ride together. We have both learned a lot in the past few years.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
At first, well yeah. But I'm not saying forever. I knew my wife had an open mind, and was very accepting to pretty much anyone/anything. She just had that vibe. It turned out, she identified as bi.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
I just feel like me. Pretty simple.
I've never been the masculine-burly-man-dude-hold my beer-type lol.

So, this was way more difficult than the "20 questions" thread. But for me, all of this feels like it's not really that complicated. I am who I am.

Paulie Birmingham

04-23-2020, 09:54 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
not really. she kind of helped me along by buying me panties and yoga pants and giving me pantyhose nd jeans to wear and little stuff before she found my stash of more advanced stuff. i have been cding for over 40 years, 15 years longer than we dated. she was kind of shocked to the extent of the stuff i had. she didn't understand the heels. lol. either do i but i like to wear them. we did have some discussions at that point and her big question was "you aren't going bruce jenner on me, are you?" for people like me (miad), bruce/kaitlyn made things a lot harder. bruce/kaitlyn transition was probably the most famous transition and it went farther then most of us would go. but she realized i was not interested in that and things have been ok.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
with as much fun as we (or at least me and she doesn't mind??) have been having the last several years with some clothing, i guess it would have been nice to do this our whole relationship

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
no

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
i watch a lot of reality tv. its amazing what some people are able to convince themselves of whether its cding, eating, drinking, hoarding, exercising, hobbying, etc. and some people are selfish and just get caught up in their own world. and some people just don't care. i know i have done that with some hobbies - spending more time, money, effort and getting carried away. my wife didn't complain but she didn't necessarily accept either. she didn't like how much time and resources it took away from other things and let me continue until she reached a point and said its too much. she was right.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
no

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
i am just a miad who doesn't usually wear dresses. it is just clothes and fetish for me. my wife already wears "men's" clothes as have most women for years. i don't want to be a woman and don't think i am a women. so the situation being reversed doesn't really mean anything. however, if a started wearing a wig and breast plate, she would not be happy with that. and if she started growing/wearing facial hair and packing a rubber dong i would definitely not go along with that. i like women, however, an occasional strap is ok.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
no

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
absolutely not

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
in the 50s/60s, there was more distinction between the sexes. easier to separate the sexes by their appearance. a dress/skirt was feminine and pants were not. maybe its just to remind them of that time when women were more feminine.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
its not just a cd problem. maybe bad style sense. maybe delusional. there are women out there who wear too heavy makeup and think they look good. or extrapolating that if a little is good, a lot must be better; more makeup equals more femininity in their mind. more is better is a common thought pattern and works in some things, but not in others - including makeup.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? the opposite of me. lol pretty, soft, petite, gentleness, empathy, humility, and sensitivity .

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
i am not attracted to the kind of "woman i portray". i am a miad. 250 lbs with facial hair and lots of muscle and some belly. i am attracted to feminine women who can also express masculine qualities when the time calls for it. but then return to their femininity. i think too many women are too masculine too much of the time. they don't know how to turn it off.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
yes. but i am more a fetish/sexual dresser who likes dressing sexy. i wish my wife would wear sexier clothes like i wear. we have laughed about how i wear sexier clothes to bed than she does. some of my clothes i wear were gifts to her she didn't like or want and i kept them rather than return them.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
i could write a paper on this and this answer may relate to more than just cders. because people (not just cd's) can't or don't want to change the inside. covey had a great explanation on this as it relates to the business world in his 7 habits books.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
didn't know people did that.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
i can anticipate if i started wearing a wig, makeup and breasts my wife would not be happy. but i have no desire so not an issue. even as limited as i am, i go slow. but generally, you can't anticipate their acceptance.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
definitely go slow. i wouldnt wear yoga pants, pantyhose, jeans, camis every day. my wife still likes and wants the masculine me. and if i did it all the time, maybe it wouldn't be fun anymore.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
i underdress all the time and wear yoga pants, womens jeans and t shirts and little things so i don't count that. pre covid lockdown when i would get the house to myself, maybe i would wear more and that was only for about an hour a week. i rarely wear a dress or skirt. i would walk around in heels.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
doesnt effect social life as only wife and some gf's know. we have teenage boys so i can no longer walk around in my underwear (boxer briefs) like i used to . i do have to be careful which underwear pants and shirt i wear so i dont expose myself. we usually lock the bedroom door when we are playing or sleeping.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
she knew i was a mild cd as she bought or gave me panties, pantyhose, yoga pants etc. but she did find my stash of more advanced things and was very shocked. she eventually told me she found my stash and we had a couple of talks and hot playtime. in her words, "you are not going bruce jenner on me, are you?" once she was convinced i am not and do not want to go that way, it was good. though she doesn't understand the bra and heels. lol. either do i.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
no

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
i am on test replacement therapy. balancing estrogen and test is a fine art and many internal and external factors can upset that balance. when my estrogen is higher, i feel moody, emotional, less logical, more sensitive, etc. I don't like that feeling of being estrogen dominant. i don't like feeling feminine. i can be sensitive but when i am sensitive, i am a masculine sensitive and i approach things differently than my wife, sisters, sisters in law, etc.

Cheryl T

04-23-2020, 10:31 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? N/A

2) What regrets do you have if any? That I didn't tell her sooner

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? No, I was being dishonest with her

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Don't know

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? No

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? Fine, I'm very open to others and it would be hypocritical to deny her when I desire her acceptance

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? We don't go out as a lesbian couple, we go out as girl friends

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? No, we don't have sex as lesbians now so nothing would change

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? It depends on your image of femininity. Some see certain styles of attire as more feminine than others

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? Again it depends on your perception of what is feminine. When I began with makeup many decades ago I too thought that over done makeup and also revealing or very sexy attire was the epitome of femininity. Those images came from magazine and movies and it took some time to understand that is not the case.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? I don't know that I can define it. It's not appearance in my eyes it's emotional and mental. A female body builder to some is masculine but she can still be very feminine and not because of her attire but her personality and her carriage. Conversely a woman can be delicate, dress in very feminine attire and makeup and yet not present herself in a feminine manner.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) I'm attracted to the person, not the presentation. Also I don't "portray" a particular woman or "type" of woman. I am myself. I wear the styles of clothes that I find make me feel good about myself and present me in the best light. My desire is to be accepted as A woman, not one particular woman.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? No, she is her own person. She wears what she enjoys and feels comfortable in. I don't "lean" towards any particular style of dress other than perhaps what would be called casual. Today I may be in a skirt and blouse while yesterday I was in jeans and a t-shirt. Ultimately I dress for myself and so does she. We critique each other and discuss how our clothes or outfits look on each other but we are always doing so in a way that will aid and not discourage.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Many have limited opportunity to dress and therefore go "over board" when they do. I did that before I came out to my wife. I had only one or two outfits so they were decidedly ultra feminine. We all wish to look our best.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? My wife asked about all the pictures I took. My answer was that it was for critique. I can dress and look in the mirror and go "honey, you look fabulous" or "you look so good in that dress" or whatever. But when you take a picture and look at it you can see it as others do. You can more honestly critique your image and say, "you look fat in that dress" or "what were you thinking with all that eye makeup". Also when someone posts say a new dress or outfit and asks for opinions we all sort of want to be part of that and have others tell us what they see. Unfortunately, we tend to be all too generous and far to honest when we do and that's not really helpful.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? That is a topic for discussion, not speculation.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? Some most definitely are cautious. Remember that for many of us this has been a lifelong taboo. Society does not accept us even today. Drag Queens, gays, lesbians are far more widely accepted than CD's. Also we crave the acceptance of the ones we love and we fear rejection. I know first hand as I was rejected for this long ago by someone I loved deeply as was about to marry. We want to express ourselves as much as we can and it's thin ice trying to do that and still have the ones you love the most at our side.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? When I was still working it was about 50/50. I would dress after dinner and wear my nightgowns to bed. Now that we are retired it's about 70/30 up until this virus hit and at this time it's been full time for about 3 weeks and will continue that way until this is over and then we will see what happens.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Close friends and family are still unaware. Just as I was reluctant to open up to my wife for fear of losing her and her love we are reluctant to tell the relatives and close friends. Things may change in the future but that remains to be seen.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? She first discovered me 35 years ago. We talked and cried and eventually gave it a trial run but I saw it wasn't working and I returned to that dark closet. She thought it was over, but of course it wasn't. 20 years ago I couldn't take the hiding and sneaking and lying and just told her "WE have a problem". Again we cried and talked and cried and talked. I showed her all the pictures, all the clothes, all the websites and I brought her here. She became a member of the GG section and we read all the posts in the CD areas together and she read the GG sections by herself. Eventually I dressed fully for her. Then we talked and I suggested a support group and we joined Tri-Ess. The CD's and the wives that were there helped her to understand that we are not freaks, perverts and weirdos. She became more accepting and comfortable with my dressing and we have even gone on a "girls only" vacation together. Now I dress whenever I desire and she knows that it's not a limitation. The home never suffers, she always has my full attention and she knows that should I be dressed and she wishes to go somewhere or do something I will just change without question, hesitation or regret as I can dress at any time.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? Never. I would only be attracted to someone for who they are.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. I don't know that I can describe it. I've always felt "different" and never felt I was "one of the boys". I think it was summed up by a woman I dated in college when she said that I was "the most gentle, understanding, considerate and loving person" she had ever met. To me that sums up how I feel feminine. It's just my nature not something I try to do. As for how I feel when I feel feminine, I feel relaxed and I feel like me.

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ShelbyDawn

04-23-2020, 10:34 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
I told my spouse as soon as I understood the nature of what I was doing. I hadn't dressed for close to twenty years when our marriage started to go bad. She caught me and confronted me, I admitted it openly and told her I couldn't explain something I didn't understand myself. From that point, we both handled it very badly and it was not the main factor, but was a factor in our divorce.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
Honestly, I regret not exploring this part of myself, not coming to terms with it much sooner than I did.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
For a very long time, yes. I was in denial, letting shame and fear rule the day, it took several years of counseling before I cams to grips with the fact that this is OK, just a part of who I am.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
I joke sometimes that a man will do anything to keep the woman in their life from complaining... to him. I think there is some truth in that, we tend to think lack of conflict is acceptance not realizing that maybe our partners just don't want to fight about it and would rather just live with it than create another issue.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
When my ex found out, it was just panties and she accepted that, as we talked about it and I told her that it was much more, things changes in a big way, so yes.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
The situation is reversed, in our society, women are allowed to dress in as much traditionally masculine clothing as they want. There are no boundaries on that end and rightfully so.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
I wouldn't have a problem with that, in fact, it would be kind of fun.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
OK, two answers here:
1.) with my ex, when things were good, I wouldn't have cared how she looked, I wanted to be with her all the time.
2.) in exploring this part of myself, I have also discovered a slight Bisexual tendency, so been there done that.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Some do and some don't, I tend to dress for comfort, others are trying to recreate a certain style or a certain fantasy, perhaps they want to be Donna Reed, a housewife in a simpler time.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
I don't understand that one either, but to each his/her own.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
Wow, what a great question...
I had to stop and think about this for a few minutes and for the sake of this discussion, I think femininity embodies all the physical traits our society attributes to women, breasts, hips , small waist, soft features, makeup, frilly dresses, etc.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
Nope, Women are amazing in their diversity, God's best work in my opinion and I admire them all, tall, short, thin, and robust.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
I want my partner to dress in a way that makes her comfortable and lets her express who she wants to be in the moment.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
I can't answer that one, for me dressing is not visual it is tactile, I love the way I feel when I am dressed, The flow of a dress around my legs, the tight fit across my bodice, the weight of my breast forms, and to touch of my wig around my neck and shoulders.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
Again, I don;t do this, so I can't answer.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
Communication is so important, I think the more clearly it is spelled out, the better.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
For me, now, 100% in some form, I have found women's clothes that will pass in any situation and I wear them almost exclusively, of course with the shelter at home thing, my choices have widened considerably.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
It doesn't, just like anything else, I just choose and outfit appropriate for the occasion and go with it, of course, since I am not trying to pass, there are a lot of things that fall off the table, like makeup.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
Nope, maybe I should have, I just told her htat her suspicions were true and hoped for the best.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
I never really thought about it, I date a lot of different types of women for a lot of different reasons, finding one that would accept this part of my would be huge but other things like a sense of humor, intelligence, and liking Willie Nelson are so much more important.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
Feeling feminine means feeling like a woman, i guess, and for me, it means feeling warm and comfortable, perhaps a little soft and maybe tender. Mostly it just feel right.

DanielleLee

04-23-2020, 11:50 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? It's hard to have regret about not disclosing something about yourself you don't understand. (Non-Binary member) That being said, I do regret at least not offering any type of explanation about it sooner than I did.

2) What regrets do you have if any? Not accepting and loving myself for who I am sooner... I spent too much time with guilt and shame over something I can't control.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? No. I always knew and admitted to myself I wasn't "normal"

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Selfishness? Possibly because the partner has changed their mind and hasn't communicated that to the CD? People change over time. Conversations need to take place... hopefully before the partner blows up at the CD, like mine did.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? Yes.

6) How were you feel if the situation was reversed? Honestly... I don't know. Being NB, I honestly wouldn't care. If I were "normal"... then yes, I would likely be of the same mindset as many of the FAB members here. (I'm assuming that maybe 80-90% of y'all always struggle with it???)

7) Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Jesus, it's 2020... nobody cares if people are gay.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? Since I love my spouse... I'd try anything once

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? My best guess is because we didn't get to experience playing dress up; and were't able to dress the fashions of the time, when we were that age. But yeah agree, there is definitely some age inappropriate dressing to be found here. BUT... to each their own and to each their own happiness. Also... same reason as women decide on their outfits. They wear what they want, which is going to make them feel good... whether its feeling good for comfort, to feel cute, feel sexy, or just well put together and smart looking...

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? I don't get it.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Although appearance does play a role... I think femininity is better represented by characteristics such as empathy, sensitivity, and being a good listener.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? (like you portray)? I'm attracted to women based on their intelligence, self confidence, sense of humor and how they treat others... (especially other women) not how they dress.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the CDrs leans towards? That's a big generalization, and a bit unfair, of all CDrs... to answer the question, maybe sometimes... not always or even often.. but it could be fun date night role play.

14) Why are so many obsessed with their image? Validation of self

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? idk... arguing over who's prettier?

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? You serious? We can't figure out where to go out to eat, when you tell us "I don't care, anywhere is fine"... but we're gonna mind read this one? :D

17) In other words, are they careful not to push too much? hmmm.... if they're smart, they don't push. I think unless it's a Pink Fog situation... most CDs have a pretty firm grasp of respecting boundaries.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Me? I average 2-3 times a year if I'm lucky.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? I interact differently with the friends & family who are in the know about Danielle. I don't hide any of my feminine characteristics or interests from them if they come up.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? I did not. I honestly didn't know what to do; and this was way before this site was around with the support/advise it has.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? N/A. If I were single again, possibly

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. Stronger, more content, at peace, better...

AmandaM

04-23-2020, 12:00 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
N/A
2) What regrets do you have if any?
I regret not seriously considering transition at an early age.
3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Yes, fear is the greatest enemy.
4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
Hopeful wishing?
5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
N/A
6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
I would not like it.
7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
No.
8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
No.
9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Either a fetish component or an attempt to reach the inner female by being as feminine as possible.
10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
Same as above. Trying to emotionally connect with the inner female.
11) What is your definition of Femininity?
Femininity is a social construct.
12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
No.
13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
It would be nice if the current trend of casual clothes was different.
14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
Same as above. Trying to emotionally connect with the inner female.
15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
N/A
16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
Best if it is spelled out.
17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
N/A
18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
One hour. Kids at home.
19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
It doesn't.
20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
No strategy. Just see what happens.
21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
No. There has to be a real relationship.
22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
Relaxed, peaceful, feeling good.

Teresa

04-23-2020, 12:37 PM

FAB Mods,
It's always good to fill in the gaps if we can .
1) I assume this question suggests before marriage but I came out in my forties after twenty years of marriage .
2) There is never a right time , it still can turn the marriage upside down .
3) Not so much dishonest as struggling to accept the truth .
4) The lack of response can be often read as acceptance .
5) The lack of response can also signal a mutual understanding .
6) I hope if I faced a role reversal I would attempt find out why rather than go down the DADT road .
7) Being gay is thankfully not a crime anymore , if there is mutual feelings of love would it really matter ? In the majority of cases those feelings aren't mutual .
8) I have a thing about facial hair ( personally I hate it ) so I would never have had facial hair in male mode anyway and expect my wife to accept it so in that context I wouldn't be happy .
9) A very good GG friend who ran a bridal shop suggested Cders revert to girls in puberty , I felt she had a point because many CDers like to feel girly and cute .
10) Being a woman and femininity don't always go together , CDers tend to place women on that pedestal , going full time meant I had to play it down , it took me a while .
11) The trap we fall into is assuming perfect makeup and stylish clothes are the hallmarks of feminity , again another lesson I've had to learn , it still feels it even when wearing workclothes .
12) It was something my age group were more accustomed to , sometimes I feel women today do themselves a disservice but at times going with flow is now the best option .
13) It's something some of us pass through but now I've found my own identity , I wish to integrate so try and dress approriately I also choose to wear makeup all the time .
14) I remember when I first got it all together with clothes, makeup and wig , the guy had disappeared , I feel we can become obsessed with that thought or image . That obsession has faded now I'm just very comfortable and content as Teresa .
15) Validation , I used pictures in the past to come out to people , we all like a genuine " WOW " at times . I don't need to rely on pictures anymore as most people have met me .
16) Boundaries are tough to live with , most Cders will try to push them they also mean someone is making all the compromises in the relationship , the problem I had was the goal posts moved from day to day , I never knew where I stood .
17) To most Cders pushing is inevetable , it also depends on the level of dysphoria we do evolve in an attempt to find ourselves and achieve a balance .
18) I'm TG so I'm now full time , everyone knows that .
19) My social life is possibly better now because I'm much happier , my family are OK and getting better .
20) I had ceased to function , I had to run my business , educate the kids and pay the mortgage so it had to happen and then the problems could be dealt with .
21) I'm not looking for a new relationship at the moment but now I'm full time it's the sensible thing to do , there is no point hiding what I really am .
22) I keep saying now all the labels are back in their boxes so I'm just being Teresa , there's bound to be a mix of some feminity with a little masculinity but then women also have that mix at times . It's like asking what does masculinity mean , there are aspects I truly hate now so you could say in feeling feminine I don't any part of it , I guess I could say it makes me totally happy .

I hope my answers prove of some help , and many thanks Di .

LilSissyStevie

04-23-2020, 01:36 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? No, compared to the stuff she already knew about me, CDing was a trivial detail. I never dressed in our marriage until after I told her I wanted to and had her blessing.

2) What regrets do you have if any? That I fought it for so long.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Mistaken, deluded? Yes. Dishonest? No.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? I couldn't tell you.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? Marriage is always a matter of give and take and change is the only constant.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? Sometimes it is.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Cool! Then when we're shopping in the Coachella Valley we would get all the secret discounts and learn the secret handshake.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? No, and neither does she.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? Because they are iconic.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? I don't think of what I do as femininity anymore. I think of it as emasculation as that is really what I'm trying to achieve. So, in that sense, OTT "femininity" equals maximum emasculation. If anyone can think of a way to achieve maximum emasculation without resorting to feminine symbolism, I'm open to suggestions.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? The short answer is I can't define it but I know it when I see it. The boring answer is that femininity and masculinity are the roles assigned to females and males respectively by the sexual division of labor. The material basis for those roles changes over time but culture lags. Nobody signs up for the role that culture assigns to them so there will always be a certain portion of the population that feels a disconnect between the role they are assigned and their own innate characteristics and desires.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) I don't portray women so, no.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? No.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? I don't know.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I haven't taken a picture of myself in years. When I did, I suppose it was to have a trophy of sorts so I could remember all the work I did to achieve a certain look.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? My wife is pretty much incapable of holding back whatever it is she is thinking. She has no filter. It hurts sometimes but that's what I like about her. No BS. No guessing games.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? My motto is that anything worth doing is worth doing to excess. Her lot in life is to reign me in when necessary.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Close to zero the last couple of years.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? It doesn't.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? No, I just told her. It wasn't that big of a deal for either of us.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No, it's more important that they accept my banjo playing.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. What I used to call "feeling feminine" is just the feeling of emasculation (and liking it.) I realize that women don't feel this way nor can they even understand it. I feel free from the anxiety of "being a man."

ClosetED

04-23-2020, 01:49 PM

1) I do regret telling her, but she learned after 2 years and that was 29 years ago. But falling in love is one of the strongest suppressors of the desire to act on it, so I thought I was cured. Back then I did not have access to groups like this to tell me it was temporary.
2) Regrets - would have liked to have someone more open minded. I am a good person and what I do does not physically harm anyone nor use up financial resources or excessive time, such as golf or season tickets or boat
3) I was honest based on what I knew then.
4) lack of response is not acceptance, but it is not rejection either. Is 0 positive or negative?
5) For 20 years, it was acceptable at low level of hose and/or shoes at bedtime. I desired a bit more but held off. When kids began leaving home and needing us less, I focused more on my needs. She refused to allow, so went DADT
6) She tried wearing mustache - it did not bother me as I could see past that to the person
7) I am not asking to go out in public as a romantic couple. Fine being accepted at home, or if willing, as 2 female friends
8) She tried - didn't bother me
9) I did some retro ones - we love femininity and that older looks may fit that more than androgynous ones now
10) A woman in sweats may be a woman, but femininity in the media we are exposed to shows us those are more admired than without
11) Each of us may vary of how to express femininity. Some think it lingerie, panties, pregnancy, large breasts. I prefer clothes catalog models as my aim-admired by men and women for looks
12) I am attracted visually to feminine appearing women, so yes. But romantically it is deeper
13) She has tried on my clothes and likes most. Some too short for public wear and I agree
14) Why are women's magazine and men's magazines portraying people obsessed with their looks?
15) I don't
16) I would say spell it out. But it changes
17) We have been hidden so long, that any acceptance can lead to pushing boundaries
18) 1 hour
19) I keep it from all but wife. That puts strain on her as rest of family assume I am a perfect husband.
20) I let her struggle with it. She has never tried to learn about it or talk much about it
21) Yes-date. But marry is another level
22) feeling feminine - many senses. Smell of perfume. taste of lipstick. tug of earrings or long hair tickling back. feel of legs in hosiery. Look like a model. Even my wife admits I do

Hugs, ELlen

Lea

04-23-2020, 01:50 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
I told my wife before we were married.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
That I did not accept myself and listened to society who thought that cross-dressing was wrong.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Yes in not accepting this part of me at an earlier age. I was not true to who I am.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
Partially because they are wishing to be accepted. If a spouse does not respond negatively you grab onto that lack of response as a positive.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
We set boundaries in the beginning and those overall have not changed.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
I think I would be ok. I feel that I am open to others and their views.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
I have only gone out dressed on Halloween. It would probably be the same if my wife cross-dressed.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
I do not know. We do not have sex now when I am dressed.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
I dress in conservative current fashion. But some may wish to dress in the era they started dressing. Also with out dressing a lot when we were younger maybe making up for it.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
Everyone dresses for different reasons. Maybe the are seeking to be the center of attention.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
I believe it is certain behavior and attributes assigned to women. It may be cultural or biological based. In general I think of women being more nurturing, having empathy, having a deep inner strength and versatility.
12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
Yes

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
I want my wife to dress in what she is comfortable with. She likes blue jeans and shorts. I like dresses, hoses and heels.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
I do everything I can to look female when I dress and I want to experience as much as I can that women do. So that means plucking the eyebrows, shaving, forms etc. I feel anything I an do to look more like a lady the better I feel. It is a validation of this part of me.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
Partly everyone is posting more pictures because of the ease of posting with social media. Also validation.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
On some issues after you work out the boundaries you can anticipate. Other areas spell it out.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
I try not to push any issue very much.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
I am retired and usually dress one day a week. In the summer my wife visits her family for three months. I dress every day. Three days a week in the summer I have obligations so I don't change till mid morning. With the Covid lockdown I dress till we need food, which is usually every two weeks.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
I have always been a hermit and we live away far away from family. So very little.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
I researched information beforehand. I printed some thing off for to read. We talked aboutit and I encouraged questions.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
No but I don't think I could have a long term relationship with a GG who was not accepting. So if they accepted it but we had nothing else in common that is a no go.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
I feel complete, I feel happy and I feel it allows me to be a better person. I look admire women and to be able to express that part of me is great.

Meghan4now

04-23-2020, 02:13 PM

First off, thanks for asking.

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
I have told her. What I regret is not knowing myself well enough to tell her fully before we got married. But the again I didn't realize and things have developed over time anyway.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
See number 1

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Yes, but to be fair I was also unaware, there was a lot of societal pressure, and my own experience over the years have informed me.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
That's a case by case basis. Some do actually believe that some are just wishing or playing a game. But some may be reading that correctly. Could a wife's silence be tacit acceptance? Unlikely but possible.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
Before kids, the wife was more adventurous in many areas. But also not as informed or experienced. So it's hard saying.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
Guess it would depend. How serious, what are the parameters, how she would see our relationship, and frankly a little bit of how good she tried to look. I might be ok with it if it came from the heart and she still loved me.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
That could be tough, but you never know. I have my doubts but I might be willing to try.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
Not my preference, but if it meant that much to her I would try

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Some do, some don't. For some, it's an image of an idealized time. Also people like fashions for lots of reasons. Maybe it's fun. Remember Zoe in New Girl. She dug that kind of thing.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
Again, individual, and some fantasy. But also consider that by pushing to the far boundary may make one feel that they are removing doubt about their presentation. Heavy beard cover helps hide that Fred Flintstone shadow

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
It wildly varies, as I really like all kinds of women, but particularly like strong, smart confident women. One of the most important markers of femininity to me is empathy and kindness. I tend to stress that over agressiveness when dressed.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
No, but it is a preference.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
I try to dress appropriately, and yes like my partner to as well.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
Same reason cis women are. Vanity is not confined to any gender or orientation.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
Some people feel a great need for validation. This is normal, but may seem like it's excessive. However remember, you don't see pictures of those that don't post.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
Some yes and some no. It is helpful if they do, but again this could be said for any behavior, golfing, shopping, etc. And this is not regulated to a single gender.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
Again, individual situations.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
I am dressed typically 23 hours in a day, not when showering. Oh, you mean cross dressed? I get dolled up about once a month. I do underdress about 2 times a week, and always have my earnings in. Plus mascara.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
She doesn't want to go out with Meghan, bit that's only a small portion of time. We don't discuss it with mutual friends and relations. Kids don't care, but I don't make it a point to over share.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
That's not an either or situation. I didn't have an MPP witha Gant chart milestones and task delegation. We are still working through it.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
Not if she didn't share other interests too, but that would be a big consideration

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
See 11, also clean, pretty and happy.

Phoebe Reece

04-23-2020, 02:45 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? My spouse knew before we were married.

2) What regrets do you have if any? None

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? N/A

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Most crossdressers crave acceptance. Anything other than clear rejection can mean acceptance is possible. We believe what we want to believe.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? Circumstances change over time and so do many attitudes. Some things become more important as time goes on while other things become less important. This applies to many things not involving crossdressing.

6) How were you feel if the situation was reversed? If this question means how would I feel if my wife was a crossdresser and I was not, I believe I would offer my help and love even if I didn?t understand it. Marriage is a partnership and you can?t have things your own way all the time if the marriage is going to survive.

7) Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? I would find it to be very amusing. It would be a big private joke.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? If my wife had me sufficiently aroused otherwise? perhaps. I am not a fan of facial hair on a man or a woman. I have always been clean shaven. My wife does not care for facial hair on me either.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? It?s a bit of escapism. Those outfits from another time represent something that we found very attractive when living in that time. It?s a way of going back to those days.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? I assume this refers to the presentation that drag queens make. That is a gross exaggeration of the things we find attractive in a woman. Part of this is due to most crossdressers not having the opportunity to grow up as women. They are still working on their self-image and just can?t make the leap from being a teenage girl to a mature woman.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? I think it is presenting yourself to the world with the attributes most commonly held by women. Those attributes can be physical appearance, mode of dress, language, and how you interact with other people.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) I am attracted to many kinds of women. Some of them are more feminine than others. I try to portray a classic styled, confident, friendly, and empathetic woman.

13) Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? It would be nice once in a while, but certainly is not necessary all the time. I like to admire my wife when she looks her best.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Crossdressers generally want validation of their presentation. We are striving to create that ideal image of a woman that exists only in our minds.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I can only speculate that they are seeking approval from others.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? Some boundaries can be anticipated and some have to be spelled out. We can?t read our partners minds most of the time. What?s important to one may be very trivial to another.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? If something is important to you, that needs to be communicated to your partner. Pushing the boundaries can have a bad outcome. Both sides need to choose what?s worth fighting over carefully or the relationship can fall apart.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Before the virus lockdown, I would dress about one full day every week (around 12 to 16 hours) and be out and about for anything from 2 to 12 hours each time. I generally do not dress just to sit around at home, so I have not dressed much lately. I did that for many years when working overseas. I resolved that if I go to the trouble of dressing it will be to spend some time out and about interacting with people. Once dressed though, I stay that way for the entire day, whether I am at home or out and about.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? No affect on my social life. Most of my friends are crossdressers. Family life is affected only in that my wife will not accompany me to most places in our hometown when I am dressed. She will go out with me if we are in a different city. So I end up going a lot of places with my friends instead of with my wife.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? In other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? My wife and I married at a very young age. She accepted it while we were dating. There was no strategy.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? I am still very happily married, so the question would not apply to me unless something happened to my wife. The answer is no. That would not be the sole reason for dating someone. However, non-acceptance would be a reason to not pursue the relationship further.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. It means looking in a mirror and seeing a facsimile of my own ideal image of a real woman looking back. If I look good, I have a sense of accomplishment. If those I interact with treat me as if I was ?the real thing? I am very content ? even if I know that they know I am not female.

AngelaYVR

04-23-2020, 05:05 PM

I want to preface my answers with that I feel these questions just reeked of animosity and inadequacy. If people are unhappy with their spouses (or themselves) they need to address it directly.

1) N/a

2) My regret is for too long allowing myself to be influenced by society that what I was doing was shameful

3) Not dishonest with myself

4) A lack of response is immature. No mind readers here

5) N/a

6) A reversed situation is not directly equitable due to how men and women differ in their perceptions of attraction to the same sex.

7) I have gay friends. I do not give a hoot if people think we are a couple when we meet up for a drink

8) If facial hair meant she would be more assertive in bed then bring it on!

9) A perusal of Instagram and Pinterest would show that women love to dress in clothes from other periods. Therefore seems straightforward that some of us would like to do the same

10) A perusal of Instagram and Pinterest would show that women love to dress in over the top ways. The difference for CDs is that we generally require more makeup to achieve a look we are happy with.

11) My definition of femininity is irrelevant to others.

12) Is it really a newsflash that people who take more care with their presentation appear to be attractive? I am not going to fib, I think the women I see who are dressed nicely in ways similar to how I do are very alluring. Sweatpants and a general lack of love for one?s own body are not going to get a second look.

13) My wife is from Moscow. Dressing nicely is in her DNA, I do not need to ask.

14) Why are so many women on Instagram obsessed with their image? And are we going to pretend that the women?s fashion, makeup and beauty industry is not a multi billion dollar business?

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? The male brain is very competitive

16) Yes, the partner should speak her mind about boundaries.

17) This sounds like question that needs to be addressed directly to the offending party

18) My dressing is done, for the vast majority of the time, when my wife is not home. Sometimes she is but she knows ahead of time and occasionally she will join me going out. Either way, I am not taking anything from her.

19) My social life improved when I started going out dressed. A lot.

20) My strategy was to take it slooow and allow her to ask any and all questions.

21) An accepting GG is a wondrous thing but hardly encapsulates everything that a person needs.

22) Feeling feminine is not something that I have ever thought about too much. Being masculine is showing strength, being decisive, leading, etc. Being feminine is traditionally nurturing, supporting, being nice to look at. I am probably a melange of the the two and I do not know another way. We also have very un-masculine men and un-feminine women.

Rachelakld

04-23-2020, 05:49 PM

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?

Wasn't an issue at first, but eventually she wore the work pants, top and safety boots from 5am until 11.30pm - I didn't like that.
When I left her, she had worn the work pants and top, 7 days a week, with probably only 2 exceptions in an 8 month period.
Shame really, she had a body that looked really good in women's clothes.

While I was upset she went from very glam to drab over 3 years, I didn't leave her because of that, she became so manly, she thought it was okay to hit me whenever she was upset.

GaleWarning

04-23-2020, 06:49 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? How can I? Back then I was ignorant.

2) What regrets do you have if any? That I did not have the internet to inform me.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? No. just completely unaware.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? No idea!

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? No. Complete lack of acceptance. Still the case today.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I'm a lot more open-minded and flexible than she. Besides, she wears anything she likes and it's OK.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? No. I'm heterosexual.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? I'll try anything at least once.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? I think that the feminine fashions of the 50s and 60s were/are still the most alluring things!

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? No idea. Not me thing.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Indefinable. Some women have it. Most don't.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) No. I look at the inner being (Honest!). I look for intelligence, not superficial veneer.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? It would be nice. But I'm for freedom of expression - I will not insist on anything.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Narcissistic? Not sure.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I don't get it either.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? Communication is key. Talk, don't leave your partner to try to second-guess how you feel.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? I pushed the boundaries out of frustration and ignorance. These days, I am more considerate. But the ex-is not interested in giving it another go.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Right now - zero. Covid-19 shutdown issues. A few months ago, anything from 2-12 hours a day.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? It doesn't.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? No. I was totally ignorant, as I said above. The result was, I suppose, inevitable.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No. But I would ask her for a second date if it turned out shat she was!

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. I am me, regardless of what I am wearing.

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Hope this helps.
Gale

Aunt Kelly

04-23-2020, 07:11 PM

I should qualify my answers as coming from a TS point of view...

1) I did tell her, both times (That I was a CD, when we first got serious, and when I finally learned that I was not that).

2) N/A

3) No, but the question assumes that the deception was a conscious, willful act. Nothing could be further from the truth.

4) I got nothin'. Wishful thinking? Why do so many partners find it impossible to engage on the matter?

5) I changed (duh...), so it has been a challenge for her.

6) Quite the same, I expect.

7) Yes. If I were a hetero-normal male and my wife transitioned, I believe I would still love the same person.

8) Beards turn me off, regardless, so no.

9) Based on observation, two reasons. One, it's purely a style thing. I've had GG friends whose entire wardrobe was "kitschy retro", so why should CD's be any different? Two, fetish, pure and simple.

10) Again, fetish.

11) I'll fall back on Webster; " the quality or nature of the female sex". That sorta feels like a cop out, but it really covers a lot of ground, so I consider it appropriate. Anything less is stereotyping.

12) Oh hell no!

13) I want her to dress in the way that makes her feel good, i.e. comfortable, pretty, whatever.

14) Again, fetish, and narcissism.

15) Narcissism

16) Some do. Most don't (again, based on observations here). All would be better served by open and honest communication.

17) Some are. Some are not.

18) I get dressed every day. I crossdress (boy clothes) as little as possible.

19) We don't have much of a social life, but all of our close friends know.

20) Great question. I had come to the realization that I am what I am, and I would not hide from a partner ever again.

21) Probably not. I've seen a few to many stories of abuse on the part of the "accepting" partner. I need to know that I am seen as something more than "accepted".

22) Aargh! That one drives me crazy every time I read it here. I am familiar with the rush that fetish dressers get (though it has been decades since I felt it). Sorry, but I don't know a single woman who "feels so girly" when she puts on her underwear.

Jenny22

04-23-2020, 08:06 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
No, not before our marriage. I thought marriage and my going into the Navy would cure me of wanting to CD.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
None, really. My dear wife was very Victorian .. old fashioned, really, and I knew she'd never accept my CDing.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Yes, a bit.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? NA

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
No, still negative once she found out.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
I really don't know.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
It wouldn't bother me.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
No. Leg hair, OK. When a CDer changes faces, it's with makeup.. not the same as a hairy face.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Because the styles of dress were pretty and very feminine. 50s: chiffon underskirts and flowing dresses. I have several, and LOVE them.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
Each to his (her) own, but I think he would soon realize his errors .. OK in private, though.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
A person who exhibits the beauty of being who and what you are without any masculine feelings.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
I could be. Right now, I consider my TG self to be bi-sexual, and would enjoy pleasing a man as a woman.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
NA. My wife died 6 years ago

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
It's how each feels they should present when dressed as they want to to be dressed.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
I haven't posted a photo any where, but would like to .

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
I would guess, spell it out (and take anything you can get!)

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
The wise ones are.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
24/7 except when I have to go out in drab.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
Positive to social, not so with family life. Only my sister knows of my CDing, and she is 1000% supportive.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? In other words, did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
I did not come out. She found out. I told her I felt very feminine and needed to do it, but don't know why. She never tried to understand or talk about it. "Now my husband wishes he was born a female!!" Silence for weeks!

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
NO

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.

Confucius

04-23-2020, 08:14 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
I told her and got no response. She never saw me in women's clothes until after we were married.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
I had several great opportunities to crossdress in my youth, never took advantage of them. I kept my crossdressing a secret because I believed it was humiliating.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
I believed it would go away by itself. I believed it would go away when I got married. I believed if I prayed hard enough it would go away. I believed I could make it go away with enough willpower.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
I find my wife gives me very little response. She just thinks its a fetish she tries to tolerate it best she can.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
Things have slightly improved as my wife comes to realize that it is under control.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
I wouldn't want my wife to be more masculine. I think feminine things are wonderful.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
No, and I wouldn't want to go out as a lesbian couple either. I have never gone out crossdressed. I keep it private, and only my wife as seen me crossdressed.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
No, and my wife wouldn't have sex with me crossdressed either. When we have sex we are naked.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
I have always thought that the feminine outfits of my early youth were much more feminine. Women wore girdles, slips, petticoats and dresses with big skirts. They also wore tight pencil skirts. Vintage lingerie was also very sexy.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
I don't do it. Every crossdresser is different. For me crossdressing how my brain is hardwired. When I crossdress my brain releases a host of feel-good neurotransmitters (dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin, etc.). The feminine clothes are just the tool to release the neurotransmitters that make me happy.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
Femininity is a very broad term. Feminine clothing is about soft, smooth fabrics, long dresses, long hair, shiny jewels, patent leather shoes, slips with lace and girdles and hose. Just of thought of it is wonderful.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
Beauty and femininity is a big broad and I can appreciate a woman who enjoys being feminine in her own way.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
It would be nice but certainly isn't necessary. I would just as well love to dress in her manner.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
I am not obsessed with mine. I don't make a good looking woman, and I find that very few crossdressers every look passable. I don't know why they are obsessed with their image either.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
This is done to authenticate themselves and to receive some positive feedback. They want to feel they aren't doing anything weird and when people give them positive responses, it helps them cope with themselves.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
I really appreciate it my wife discusses it. My wife is more important than anything in my life and I do want to please her. So I do want to understand when I go outside her comfort boundaries.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
Certainly. I don't want to push too much. However I do want my wife to understand that crossdressing is something that makes me happy. I really don't think I can make it go away.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
Not much. I wish I did more, but I am able to keep it limited and under control. My wife does allow me to wear a nightgown to bed sometimes. I like that.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
It doesn't. I keep it private and limited to the safety of the home. No one knows about my crossdressing except my wife, and she wants to keep it that way.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
I took it slowly. At first I would just wear a single piece under my pajamas. Later she allowed for a silky nightgown with a slip. It was just one step at a time based on her tolerance.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
If I was single (which I am not) and a GG would encourage or accept unlimited crossdressing that would be a big plus, but it isn't the most important thing in establishing a loving relationship. I have been married for almost 40 years. My wife is more important than anything, including my crossdressing.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
I feel feminine when I am wearing women's clothing which is soft, smooth, pretty. I can feel the rush of feel-good neurotransmitters. It feels like I just accomplished something amazing. I am happy, and I feel loved.

mbmeen12

04-24-2020, 05:15 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? N/A I was upfront with her

2) What regrets do you have if any? N/A I was upfront with her

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? I question myself as my GID

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? no news is good news analogy?

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? N/A

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I did just that and was very supportive but she left me for another woman.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? When I retire from my job until then "NO"

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? Yes

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? Fetish

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done makeup or over the top dressing? It is programing of the generation/perception of the decade. Today is yoga pants, 1960s it was mini skirts.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? A woman's body

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) yes

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? Yes

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Theater of the mind

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? Unacceptable!!!

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? Spell it out

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? Yes

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Right under pandemic my work trumps dressing

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? N/A still in the closet but I go to social events

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? No the third date I just ripped the perferbal bandaid...to ensure she can decide.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? Yes

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. Starts with the clothing, I feel calmer, the feeling of being true to my inner self.

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BrendaPDX

04-24-2020, 02:43 PM

OK, here you go,

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? Yes

2) What regrets do you have if any? That I wasn't born twenty years later.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? I believe I was ignorant of what I was experiencing.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? I think this is a personality trait, not a CDing trait.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? No

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I would ask if she still loved me, if yes, we would work things out.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? It?s 2020, really!

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? It wouldn?t matter.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? Mental connections relative to hormonal stages. Oddly I seem to have grown out of this.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? I know GGs that do this, even to work. I don?t know why.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Nurturing, empathy, and caring for the mental aspects, the physical would be physically softer, smaller frame, graceful.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) No, I appreciate most women who care and respect themselves and others.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? No, she never has, and I married her.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? It?s all they have to portray.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? Being a closet case I really have no idea.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? It?s a trait of the relationship.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? It?s a trait of the relationship or the person.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Lately (COVID-19) none, before one day (6-8 hours) every couple of months.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? My wife and I are DADT, our extended family doesn?t know.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? I left too many clues, she just asked; I didn?t lie.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No, there would have to be more.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. At ease, relaxed, and peaceful.

Aka_Donna

04-24-2020, 03:06 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
Late in life onset so joint discovery.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
Much of life is choices between two or more paths. We can play the what-if games forever, but biggest regret was
not daily discussing internal self-talk during first marriage.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Bogus question. It's not honest/dishonest but self awareness. Some are more self aware than others, and the take care
of yourself and go by feelings is a long long rat hole from which there is often no escape.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
Too much is clouded by emotions and many times the hunger to explore overwhelms logical thinking

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
Life is constantly changing and each day is a discovery.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
Feeling: ok, as long as good emotional connections. Logically, it would mean taking a different view of human interactions.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
Why is it an either-or choice? For example is a twosome of a butch lesbian and redneck hillybilly a gay couple? Sometimes standard
labels don't apply. Isn't this question more of "how would I be able to adjust if someone assumes we are a gay couple"?

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
Is this supposed to be a no-go? Question is too vague. Is it neat and attractive or a scratch haystack? Is costume play always bad?

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Why do people dress in just a few outfits during halloween? It's an escape and play acting.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
It's a learning curve, first start with bold and then get artistic.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
Huh, so who cares? This is not transitioning.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
No, but this type feels pretty, i.e., attractive

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
Only occassionally and never forced.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
It's like being a teenager all over again. What if this and what if that.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
Don't know. Too private, only use icons and never pictures on a forever web site.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
Spell it out. After decades SO still assumes I will love the type of food she does.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
See #4, it's emotional.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
Varies: from 0 to 4 hrs to 8 hrs.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
All is within home borders. Girls know but we never discuss and have not discussed with boys.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
More both struggle with this discovery.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
Never, would anyone reduce life to a one issue question?

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
What if that is not important at all? More feeling out of body experience and relaxed than male- female.

ShirleyN

04-24-2020, 06:37 PM

Okay ladies, here's my two cents worth. Have tried to answer the questions that I can answer.

09 Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? Depends very much

10) Why do some think Femininity is overdone makeup or over the top dressing? Honestly, no idea.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Being able to dress and act like a GG.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) No I like all women.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? Becaue most CD's are generally straight thought it can vary from person to person. In my case, I'm completely straight though I do occassionally love to dress em femme.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? It varies depending on what kind of mood I'm in at the time.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? It can be fairly awkward at times. When I was a teenager I also used to get caught by my mother and that was awkward to say the least. Not many people socially know about this hobby of mine. I tend to keep it quiet soically so still very much in the closet, so to speak.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? Possibly but her personality would also be an important factor in this decision and not solely based on only one thing.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
"feeling feminine" to me means being able to dress and act like a GG (as stated above). Whenever I dress, being dressed en femme makes me feel good and like a full complete person. I've also been told by a former GG who I used to dress up with every so often, that my eye contact improves when I'm dressed en femme. In short, being dressed en femme make me feel relaxed, happy and comfortable.

Nastasha

04-24-2020, 07:28 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? - Told her right after we got engaged so I guess, NA.

2) What regrets do you have if any? NA

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? No

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? I guess some folks just can't see the forest for the trees. Lack of response is the whistling kettle in too many cases.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? No? Not sure I understand.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I love her, so I would be fine with it. It's a discussion we've actually had.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Sure, it wouldn't bother me.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? Sure.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? For me, it's because it seems that some women have become more masculine over time. The outfits and hairstyles form the past just to me seem more feminine,

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? Everybody has an opinion or view. Not everyone is going to have the same view or idea.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Hmmm ... my wife and by extension her mother. Grace, poise, warmth and compassion.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) No

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? Cder? ... that's too broad a net cast.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? That's true in all aspects of society, not just folks who cd.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I don't so no idea.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? If you listen and observe, you'll know them.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? If they are smart.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? 100% in some aspects, as much as possible in others.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? It doesn't.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? Strategy, no, I was just honest with her and let her ask questions and was honest in the replies.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. No idea, I'm just me.

donnalee

04-25-2020, 01:57 AM

Frankly, I find these questions hostile, both in their inferences and their assumptions.

mbmeen12

04-25-2020, 02:36 AM

Donnalee you may be right but I support every GG trying to explore and understand their SO.

Shelly Preston

04-25-2020, 03:18 AM

Frankly, I find these questions hostile, both in their inferences and their assumptions.

The questions are being ask from the point of view of some GG's.

I would be very way of assumptions as the questions are coming from a group and are not specific to an individual.

If you don't ask the question how is anyone supposed to learn.

I am sure everyone here has at some point asked "why me ? "

This has always been a place where we encourage everyone to learn as much as we can from each other.

All the women who contributed to the question have a specific reason for asking.

They should all be applauded for trying to learn where others don't.

Tammy P.

04-25-2020, 05:35 AM

Before we get started I would like to say I did not find the questions hostile or offending. We all have a need to gather information, or opinions to help us understand ourselves and others. I say for the GG's you have proposed the questions, Thank you for participating and trying to understand us and help us understand our selves.

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? Yes, My dressing started pre-internet and I had no idea that I would not be able/want to stop when I got married.

2) What regrets do you have if any? Knowing what I know now I would have explored transition at a very early age. Thankfully my wife is more important to me than the need to change.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? No, I just did not have the information to make informed choices in the early years

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? In the absence of a definite answer (No), I hear what I want to hear (Yes).

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? I think her acceptance has increased over time.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I would like to think the love we share would not be dependent on the package it was carried in.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Not a problem

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? If the question refers to wearing an actual beard, I do not know although I support a full beard and the wife loves it, I have not kissed a harry face before. If the question is more generic and refers to presenting as male when having sex, then why not, I would at least give it a try and see if I was OK with it.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? Who knows, maybe this spot in time has some pleasant memory attached

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? Could be lack of knowledge, experience or someone to say let me help you present in an appropriate manner

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Sorry, much like art, I do not have a definition for what I like but I know it when I see it. Compassion, empathy, grace and a host of other traits wrapped in the female form would be on the list

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) No, I think the women that attract me tend to have self confidence and an acceptance of themselves. No so concerned with how they present themselves

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? Not necessarily, I want my partner to feel comfortable with themselves and I think how they dress should express this. But I do like to see my wife all dressed up she has such a great sense of style.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? I think it may have to do with how hard we try to look female and the validation we need to see it.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? Sorry I would say ego (look at me, see how good I look)

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? No, ultimately I am a guy and need to be hit with a 2x4 for it to get through. Spell it out for me so I understand and do not need to read between the lines.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? I work from home so I always wear female undies, jeans, tops. I do not present as female with wig and makeup.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Because of what I wear every day sometimes I have to think about where I am going and how I am going to be perceived (mostly concerned if the wife is going with me)

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? Sorry I do not remember how she found out. I suspect she found some panties in the laundry and I told her from there. She did struggle with the whole concept and sough out information for several years before at least accepting it.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No, This would hardly be a reason to form a relationship but knowing what I know now I would let her early on because no acceptance would be a deal killer

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. This would be hard to explain, the feeling has more to do with accepting who I am verses putting on the male macho presentation.

Asew

04-26-2020, 09:13 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
N/A.
2) What regrets do you have if any?
I regret not telling her sooner though I was in denial myself.
3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
I was totally in denial for most of my life about it.
4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
I think they hope that but don't think it means acceptance.
5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
My wife seems to get more accepting with time.
6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
I would be ok with it.
7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
Hmmm, maybe not.
8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
I don't mind her leg hair, so I probably would get used to facial hair too.
9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
To quote Icona Pop: "but I'm a 90's bitch". For me I love 90s fashion and that is when I started CDing, so I see those as being related. I think others might fall in the same boat. But I also feel cispeople get stuck in a particular fashion they grew up with and stick with it (look at all the old women wearing hoisery when most younger women don't).
10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
Well I don't do makeup but sometimes like over the top dressing. For me it is simple clean fun to do that, but my daily CDing is more regular.
11) What is your definition of Femininity?
A part is the sexist qualities of gentle, soft, caring, and loving. A part of it is the clothes, the curves, the colors, the patterns. A part is the body, the curves, the hairstyles.
12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
I am attracted to many women, but in particular the more what I see as feminine typically the more i like them.
13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
Yes.
14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
It's how I am wired. I love the shape of a woman, and the clothes made for that shape. So much so I want to enjoy those clothes on my non-feminine body.
15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
I don't post so I don't know for sure. I think some aren't out so this is way of being seen. Some love positive attention fellow CDers can give instead harsh ones strangers might give.
16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
Communication is the key to a healthy relationship.
17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
I know I like to push the boundary since I want more than what my wife wants.
18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
90% of the time. Though I am non-binary, so my dressing is mostly t-shirts and skirts.
19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
It hasn't affected it much besides my relationship with my wife.
20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
I had no plan. It was a need, and I was willing to give up our marriage if it came to that (we were in a rocky place at the time). But with her acceptance, I have pushed boundaries at times, and other times eased off and held back (though I doubt she even saw that thinking about it now).
21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
Sole reason, no, but it would be easier to overlook issues if she was accepting.
22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
For me it is about the clothes and jewelry. But it just feels partially feminine. I still feel like a man in a dress.

DTelia

04-26-2020, 11:38 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? - I told her before we were married. She didn?t think it was a big deal...that was more than two decades ago. At that time I hadn?t cross dressed...only knew I had these feelings and had had them since I was a young child...it was all about having long hair for me. She was confused at times...as was I. She was patient, as I have been too. Lots of respect in our marriage, and I was crazy careful, only entertaining the idea of dressing when she brought it up.

2) What regrets do you have if any? Not relaxing more...letting my hair grow, and just not overthinking it. She would say the same...?Stop beating yourself up about it.? Other than that, no other regrets.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? No

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Because men do not understand women by and large....don?t know how to listen, don?t know how to communicate, etc.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? N/A

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I admit, it would be a struggle, however, I think that had she gone about it in a similar way, my response would be similar to hers...I can hope.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? N/A - We don?t go out...even though she thinks it would be fun.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? N/A

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? No idea...doesn?t apply to me

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? Because I think a lot of men (I know I should be careful stereotyping) don?t have a lot of experience or have paid close enough attention to these details...some dress for the feel, as opposed to looking age appropriate, subtle, or classy. My wife used to wonder in the early days, if I wanted to wear a lot of eye makeup, etc...then she learned this was never the case. She helped me look classy..and NOT over the top. If I couldn?t pull it off, don?t do it.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Tricky. I personally think femininity is greater than any TGer or CDer. Even though, I know some people have legitimate sexual identity issues, I?m conflicted and even doubt what they think ?femininity? means or is. How do they know when they aren?t a bio woman. I know this will offend some. I place my wife and her femininity above anything I do...that isn?t tied to my issues.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) - When I dress, and it?s not common (there are some photos on here), it?s an attempt to always remain age appropriate and acceptance of approval from the Mrs. I?m not attracted to myself...only to my wife...but I do enjoy the process of trying to make myself more attractive...ironically, I look a bit like her (according to her, not me)...we just have similar features.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? Not really...however, she has become more feminine over the years (isn?t that term funny?)...but she started out as an attractive, even hot looking tomboy (hair in ponytail, but crazy cute), but much more an attractive woman. I?m a very very lucky husband

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Isn?t society as whole...not all, but a lot. Thank you social media, internet, magazines, etc. I?m sorry woman, you have it the worst...but I think men are getting hammered by it now too. See the movies, etc.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? N/a) - Don?t understand this question

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? My wife respects me, I respect her...we don?t have boundaries...she tries to push me...encourages me...and I remain boring :-)

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Zero...think about it all of the time....but dress rarely...the most in a single year was probably a few times a month, over several months...usually only a couple times a year. Even though she knew of the dressing before marriage and was ok w/it...it didn?t happen a single time (other than just maybe playing w/my hair during a movie or something)...it was 10 years into our marriage, before she told me to get going...she bought the clothes, even made me some...the wigs, etc. Special surprise..that?s for sure. She loved it. Even then...I have been nothing, but careful, not to abuse it...I think a lot of men and CDers get so crazy about this, they lose balance and focus on what matters most...their wife and family.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? It?s made me a better husband. I have more sympathy to my children?s needs because of it....they of course have no idea. I?m more helpful for my wife. I help her, I compliment her, I serve her.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? She?s accepted me, but I think also in a sense I may have been manipulating at times, to try get see what she would do...it worked and she and I have sense laughed about it.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? Don?t know. I?m not sure what my response would?ve been had my then girlfriend, not accepted. I may have eventually stopped the relationship before marriage, but NOT because of the CD stuff...I wasn?t even doing it then, only that I would have wanted someone to be accepting of something I didn?t understand. I was of her. It?s that marriage is suppose to be? It was such a big revelation for me to share...I had never vocalized it before...she could tell it was huge for me...just wasn?t a big deal to her, because she knew me. She kinda thought I liked girly stuff...as she watched me closely and listened to my interesting comments...that I could braid hair, etc...she was curious and smart :-)

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.

I don?t know. I love and respect women so much. We underestimate them. I do wish this could be more open in society, but understand why it isn?t. I wish that all of the CDers here would try to understand their wife?s much more than trying to understand themselves...

Serve and love your spouse...lose yourself thru serving her...and I think by and large, you?ll find yourself and have peace with yourself, by doing so.

Good luck.

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giuseppina

05-01-2020, 06:42 PM

1-5 don't apply: no girlfriends or spouse for reasons unrelated to crossdressing.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?

Fine. It's harmless. I draw the line when someone is genuinely harmed or legal issues rear their head.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?

Yes, as long as we are safe.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?

It's fine. There are a few women that have facial hair due to hormonal or other issues. I do my best to accept people as they are, as long as they are not anything close to abusive or create legal issues.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?

This isn't my style, which is blending. You'll have to ask them.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?

Unknown. Please ask the person involved.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?

Never really thought about it beyond knowing what an attractive lady looks like when I see her.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)

No. I'm primarily interested in a nice, accepting personality and a good intellect. A little harmless mischief doesn't hurt.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?

It's her prerogative to dress as she sees fit. I won't complain unless her costume is blatantly inappropriate for the occasion, for example, wearing a skimpy 2 piece swimsuit to a funeral.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?

Unknown. Vanity isn't one of my strong points.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?

Unknown. I don't post pictures anywhere or anytime unless in an email to a licensed medical practitioner.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?

Assumptions can be dangerous. To be blunt, we aren't mind readers. Please spell it out.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?

No spouse or GF.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?

Maybe one day every week or two.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?

It doesn't.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?

I plan to disclose when I see evidence of a serious relationship and do my best to help her through it. If that means both of us seeing a licensed mental health professional, so be it.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?

Absolutely not. That would be a one-dimensional relationship that will fail when one partner loses interest. I'm looking for something with more a lot more depth.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.

For me, dressing is primarily about stress management.

BTWimRobin

05-03-2020, 01:31 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? I came out to my spouse before I started dressing. I wanted to be completely up front with her before I stared dressing.

2) What regrets do you have if any? Suppressing my desire to dress my whole life. I wish I was upfront with myself earlier in life

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Dishonest

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? I don?t know

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? Not much has changed

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed? It sort of is. My wife is far from a girly girl

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Don?t reall care what others perceive.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? Doesn?t matter.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? IDK

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? It?s how they perceive femininity.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? For me it?s the clothes, hair and makeup. I know there is an emotional aspect which I can?t relate to because I?m not a cis-woman. I over compensate with the visual aspect.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) Sometimes.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? Sometimes

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? IDK

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? Vanity. It?s all about me.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? She needs to spell it out. What is acceptable, what is not.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? I walk on eggshells.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Mornings when my wife is not home. Some evenings when she?s around but just jeans.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? It doesn?t

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? I came out to her and she needed time to process it. I was always open to questions or conversation. She wasn?t willing to talk about it.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. I can?t truly feel feminine since I am not a real girl. I have this inner peace with myself when I am dressed. I feel good about myself.

Michelle Crossfire

05-04-2020, 01:41 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? I never really did. I actually don't remember how i broke it to her.

2) What regrets do you have if any? Marrying my first ex wife. Absolute disaster. CD'ing, maybe doing it more when i was younger

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? This question is too vague to answer.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? I can't answer that

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? N/A

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? We did this once for Halloween. It was fun, but not her cup of tea. When women CD, it is not really CDing, as they can wear almost anything.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? How is that possible?

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? I know it is my partner so probably

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? Personal preference, i suppose

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? I can't speak for anyone else.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray). I don't believe so.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? I don't understand this question

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Aren't most women somewhat consumed by their image. If they weren't, they wouldn't dress the way they do.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? N/A

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? I guess that would be up to the individual CDer and partner

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? Again, that would be between the CDer and the partner

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Me, maybe 2-3 times a month

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? I only have my wife, and she is supportive. My social life as a CDer is limited to people i know who also do it. I have another social life that consists of people who do not know and more than likely, never will.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? no strategy, just gradual understanding over time.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? I am married, so no dating at my age, but it would not be the sole reason if i were. It would help though

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. That is a tough one to answer.
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Tomi

05-05-2020, 03:07 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
My CDing started two yeras into our marriage and I told her right away.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
No but I'm not the regretting type of guy anyway.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Yeah, there were a year when I thought it was only a passing fetish thing and I that can stop it for good. After I realized it's not I came clean to my wife and we set up some boundaries so we both get what we want.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
Lack of response could mean two things i believe. Either it's because of unacceptance and frustration or that she is accpeting/tolerating but not comfortable with the topic so she rather not talk about it. All I can do is ask which one and believe whatever the answere is. I hate mindgames so I ask 2 or 3 times at most (if I'm suspicious) but if the answere is the same I leave it at that.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
It's mutually accapteble always. If not we communicate and figure out how can it be acceptable again.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
Probably the same as my wife. That's why I'm not pushing her to be more accepting than she can

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
Of course not, but I wouldn't wnt to be presented as a lesbain couple either.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
Probably not but maybe I gave it a try if it would be a really burning desire of her to act out with me.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
I don't get the "other time" part but I think CD is a little bit like cosplay, at least for me. Of course I want it to be fun and sexy, and not boring.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
I never thought that any dress or make up defines "Feminity", they are just symboles of feminity and I dress up to nurture my feminine side with theese symbols.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
My definition of Feminity has nothing to do with my dressing (see 10.) so I think it's irrelevant.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
No, I'm attracted to the woman, not her dress. But surely I like to dress the way which I find attracted on women, but I think it's evident

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
No.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
Beacuse CDing is largely a visual experience, you want to LOOK like a woman. For me it's just as much about the feeling of the fabric and the psychological aspect of it (feeling realxed, stress free etc.), so I'm nat particularry obsessed but I get it.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
Because in the real life most of the CDers have to hide and do this alone or with their SO at best. Here on the forum they can be themselves and that means they can talk freely and dress freely without feeling embarrased or ashamed, but in a forum dressing freely means posting pictures.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
It's not a CDing issue it's a general communication issue. For a CDer you don't have to spell out boundaries more then any other subject. If you talked about this and he still steps over the line then maybe you haven't talked it through enough or the pink fog got the better of him then maybe it's time for therapy or more talking. Or he doesn't care about boundaries, in that case you have bigger problems in your marriage then CDing.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
"Pushing too much" means he is in a situation which is not comfortable to him. He represses this side of him more then he can handle it. It doesn't mean you have to be more accepting or tolerating so he can live comfortably. It means you have to talk about it so he can understand your point of view. If he loves and respects you then the things you say puts things into another perspective which maybe alters his point of view (or he says something which alters yours). I think this is the only way to work out a balanced relationship. Otherwise it only ends up someone repressing feelings and frustration.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
30 minutes to 1 hour.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
It doesn't affect it, I dress alone.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
I never have strategy. I honestly tell how I feel and hope she understands me at the end which she always does (regardless of it is about CDing or any other subject), and it's the same way with her. It's a relationship I don't think I have to "own" anything. Everything based on mutual love and respect. I tell her everything and I trust her she tells me everythihng too. Of course if I think she is in pain (regarding CDing or anything) I ask her.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
No but since I would tell her in the beginning it would be a starting point for sure.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
In my daily life I feel I have to be 100% man (strong and responsible father, husband) which is stressful for me at times. I believe the reason for my stress is that I'm just about 80-90% of man and I can't get in touch with my feminine side that often and I'm balancing it with CDing which is about putting on feminine symbols to feel feminine. So my feeling of feminine is coming from the psychological effect of the symbol. I don't think I can feel feminine the way women feel feminine because I'm not a woman. On the other hand my CDing is partly fetishistic so sometimes I dress to feel submassive, sexy and confident which I know is fetishized feminity (hence the fetish) which comes from porn but I don't think I'm hurting anyone with it since it doesn't change my respect towards women.

Kitty Sue

05-05-2020, 12:54 PM

1) Yes, I wish I had told her before we married. I did not tell her until the start of this year. 6 years after we married.
2) not telling her before we married and that I was definitely bi and more sexually adventurous than what she is(I think.)
3)Yes
4)I don't think lack of response means acceptance. I think it can mean they are trying to process their feelings and concerns. However, some CDs, like anybody else make assumptions which are often wrong.
5)So far seems acceptable. However, I realize things could change. I am letting my wife take this out her speed not mine. In saying that I think at the moment she is moving faster in this area than I maybe.
6)Great question. I would accept it. However, I would not find it sexy or exciting. I think man clothes suck, so the idea of her going to bed in my PJs or my boxer shorts, would do nothing for me at all. Would find it a turn off. I think it is important for me as a CDer to ALWAYS remember that. She married a man first, I need to remember that. Just like a married a woman first.
7)If went out and were perceived as a male gay couple I would that find that a turn on probably. I am bi.
8)Nope. But I am not into men with facial hair either.
9)I think some of it maybe fetishism. The outfits I like depend i find exciting. However, for me that is usually contemporary clothing. As a CD I like being submissive. Perhaps other eras are seen as more submissive by some CDs IDK. Different strokes for differetn folks.
10) Again different CDers find different things exciting. The woman I imagine myself to be maybe quite different from the GG working at the office.
11) For me it's what I imagine. I will never know what it's like to be a GG. So outside of my dressing and makeup I don't even try to be a GG. I am very visual, so for me CDing is all about how I look.
12) I am absolutely attracted to the woman I dress as. However, these woman I dress as do change. They have been small, breasted, large breasted, brunette, long haired blonde,short black hair, heavy makeup or light make up, military, office workers, clubbing, bikini on the beach, call girl etc. However, when I dress no matter what it is a very sexual thing for me.
13)Sometimes. Just like she wants me to wear certain clothes sometimes. However, I don't pressure her. I wish she would not pressure me to dress like a yuppy :)
14)For me I like to look as much like a woman as I can sometimes.
15)I don't. Can't speak for others.
16)Partner will have to spell out their needs, desires, concerns. The CDer will have to do the same. Removes ambiguity that way. Nobody is a mind reader.
17) See above. Patience with all parties is vital. All need to also understand that their are always boundaries that the other may never want to cross.
18) Hardly ever anymore. I will dress more if I lose some weight.
19)Not much at the moment I would say. Still, there are lots of things I used to do that I no longer do. Same with my wife. That is just part of life. People change.
20)I owned it and have let her know we can talk about anything she wants whenever she wants.
21)No I would not. CDing is just a part of my life. Not all of it.
22)I don't really say I feel feminine as to me that implies I know what its like to be a woman. I don't. When dressed I feel aroused. It is a sexual experience for me. Lastly, for me, no matter what, I will always just see myself as a man in a dress and I am okay with that :)

Genni

05-06-2020, 12:52 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
N/A. I told her before we were engaged to be married.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
I don't have any.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
I don't think I was dishonest with myself, although I didn't always know myself very well.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
It's probably some wishful thinking.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
Yes. When I told her about my interest in feminine clothes she said it "didn't matter" and appeared to accept me as I was. That changed shortly after we married.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
I would think that I would encourage and support her no matter how she chose to present.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
I would want to be perceived as a supportive, encouraging partner.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
That would be a difficult adjustment.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Perhaps nostalgia?

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
I can't speak to over-done makeup. I seldom wear any makeup at all. I admit that some of my lingerie is over the top - a lacy teddy for example. I find such lingerie sexy on women and somehow project that sexy feeling onto myself when wearing it - despite knowing that few women would find that sexy on their male lover. Perhaps it is similar to people that like to wear their sports hero's jersey to identify with their success?

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
Strength, softness, caring, nurturing

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
I don't know that I try to portray any particular "kind" of woman. I'm just trying to be me, but dressed in women's clothing. I'm not very limited in the type of women that I'm attracted to.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
I want my partner to dress as she wishes.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
This probably doesn't apply to me. I don't think I'm obsessed with my image. I know I'm not pretty when dressed.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
I can't speak to this. I don't remember ever posting my picture there.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
I cannot read her mind. Indeed, I have learned that I cannot trust that spelled-out acceptance can be retracted.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
It is important to honor commitments - on both sides.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
A few hours, I would guess.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
Very little, if any.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
My strategy was simple. Tell her.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
That would be a big factor - but that cannot be the full basis for the relationship.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
It means feeling like I think a woman would feel. When I feel feminine, I feel happy :-)

BrittanyB

05-17-2020, 01:16 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
Yes

2) What regrets do you have if any?
Not trusting her about this part of me and the stress I put her through when she discovered a small bag of clothes I had forgotten to hide. For 3 days she kept that to herself, thinking I had been having an affair, before confronting me,. I regret the pain that caused and the pain of my revelation that the clothes were really mine. Was I gay? Do I want to be a woman full time? All the doubts, insecurities, and unknowns this unplanned revelation created.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Yes, and ashamed and disgusted and scared.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
Not sure why that is. Perhaps it?s another delusion?wanting/needing acceptance that is not there. God knows delusion is certainly a hazard in this ?hobby? or this condition.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
N/A

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
It would be challenging for me, but I *hope* that I would also seek to understand and maybe that allows us to find some balance of needs.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
No, I would not. If I came to understand the need, it?s possible that I would be ok going out with them, but strictly presenting as friends, not a couple.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
No.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
I?m assuming you mean, for example, from say the 1950?s or 1980?s? I suspect that the era/style has a deeper rooted connection, perhaps a relative dressed that way in a period where they first experimented with female clothes/items. Perhaps as a result of what was in their heads during early periods, it got reinforced and is now a trigger? I know I love the look of wool skirtsuits from the early 60?s (think JackieO) and my mother had a similar outfit that I vaguely remembered her wearing and ultimately tried on when digging through old stored clothes much later. Is the link? Maybe.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
Not sure?might have something to do with poor skills and not getting/having the feedback that would tell them that it looks gaudy. It may sound strange, but in many ways CD?s are not bound by ego and social pressures that would otherwise have them ?lock in? to ?acceptable? makeup and clothes.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
Hmm?softer, caring, empathetic, strength (more like water and less like Iron if that makes sense).

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
Not any moreso than other ?kinds?.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
Not really?I think she looks best in styles that I wouldn?t look as good as.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
I?m not sure?for me it is very much like a hobby and I?m a little OCD with most of my hobbies. I want to get better at finding clothes that hide my masculine shape and give the illusion of a more feminine shape. Same is true with makeup. Yes, I want to look as convincing/passable/blendable as possible sometimes. I also want to feel pretty?I don?t know why that is, but I do. Those two certainly fall more into the ?image? bucket than say wanting to ?feel good about myself? which may or may not involve ?image?.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
Not sure?I suppose it could be searching for affirmation? It could also be titillating or exciting to share a pic when they?ve spent their lives not telling anyone or sharing this with anyone. Finally, I guess it could also be fetishistic in some ways.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
This is a strange enough ?hobby? or condition for most spouses that it is very risky trying to anticipate the spouses? boundaries. I think that must be an ongoing dialogue.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
There needs to be some understanding of why a boundary exists to know whether pushing the boundary (through dialogue) is ok. If an explicit boundary is set as ?you can wear skirts but not dresses?, with the absence of why it is more likely to be pushed (without dialogue). If it appears arbitrary, it?s more likely to be pushed. That?s not saying it is correct?far better to communicate and understand and respect the boundary.
18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
Varies over time?lately 1-2 hours per week if there is a window of time alone (wife doesn?t want to see, but is accepting of this need of mine).

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
The one way I think it affects our social and family life is that in the absence of some time to dress, I will opt toward not joining her on say a hike or grocery shopping, etc so that I can squeeze in a little time to dress. Otherwise it hasn?t affected our lives really.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
As stated earlier she found some items?it was very difficult for a period of time. Other than the very initial moment she confronted me, I have always answered her questions honestly. My very initial response was ?I like the feel of the fabric??that obviously isn?t honest even though it is true. I also shared much more as the conversation went on, but she latched on to that first half truth and I didn?t realize that until a few weeks later.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
N/A since married, but hypothetically, no, I would not. So much more to what makes a successful relationship that should come first.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
For me, I guess it would involve a combination of things together: a certain confidence in how I look, the feeling of softer fabrics against my skin, smelling nice (a dab of perfume) and the state where my responsibilities and stresses recede into the background while the aforementioned are in place. I fully understand those may have nothing at all to do with femininity, but it is how I ?feel feminine?. It is in that state where my mind feels softer, more caring, more empathetic, and stronger, like water, rather than Iron.

shellybme

05-17-2020, 06:14 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? Yes initially but now knows

2) What regrets do you have if any? Purging. Loss a lot of good things

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Yes most definitely

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Idk, I guess we all want some type of validation in our society

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? NA

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I think it would be difficult to accept something out of the norm but if you love that person then you love that person no matter what.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? Would not bother me

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? I think that would be interesting

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? NA

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? Because it is the extreme of those qualities and for me as a CD i definitely lack it in normal everyday life.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? NA

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) NO

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? I wish my spouse would wear some of my lingerie she has a great body and as men we are visual.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Isn't everyone?

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? NA

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? Can anticipate from a mile away

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? I would be if I wanted the arrangement to stick.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? 0 very rarely maybe a couple of times a month or two

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? 0

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? No strategy just was sick and tired of hiding who i was.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? No

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. Being pretty and girly.

JuliaGirl

05-17-2020, 07:45 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
Yes. Absolutely yes.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
well, not telling my wife. Feeling shame/guilt for too long. Not exploring my sexuality earlier in life.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Not dishonest .... I misunderstood what this feeling and need was.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
No clue. Lack of response if I ever told my SO is one of my fears, actually. There'd be no way it meant acceptance, far from it.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
N/A

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
My wife dressing as a man? Fine. I have no problem.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
I don't care what people would think at this stage in my life.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
Sure. My SO is who she is regardless of appearance.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Do we?

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
It's an aspect of yourself you are trying to bring out ir explore, but not really sure. It's like asking why someone CDs in the first place to me.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
Oh, good one. Less toxic, more intuitive, more engaged with one's feelings.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
I am attracted to the person's intelligence and curiosity first and foremost. How they present is of only secondary consideration.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
Yes and no, I guess. Can't really explain. More no. I don't want to impose my style on anyone else.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
No sure.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
N/A

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
Depends on the person. Mine would need to be spelled out firmly.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
N/A

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
0 hours these days. Wife and university-aged son home all the time. Closeted. Equal 0 time. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
Dressing? Except for the fact that this is hidden, it doesn't. I can't add to my wardrobe due to space considerations. Since no one knows, they are not affected by it.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
N/A

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
That would be a factor in the decision to date someone, but far from the only one.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
less tense, less angry, less stressed, less wound up. Calmer. Happier. Simpler.

Bea_

05-18-2020, 10:15 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
>>> We talked within a couple of months of the new development. We were in our mid 50?s and had been married 35 years or so. So, no.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
>>> remains to be seen

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
>>> Not really. I have had to be very introspective since the inclination first developed, but not dishonest.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
>>> No idea. I think I?m more the opposite in that I feel hyper-vigilant to her acceptance or non-acceptance. I?m always leery of hitting a ?gag reflex? point and having her back away.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
>>> acceptance has grown.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
>>> I?ve been fairly adaptable in our marriage. More so than her. I?m sure it would depend on the exact point of reversal.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
>>> No, but being a man-in-a-dress type I don?t want to go out as a lesbian couple.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
>>> I don?t think so, but this particular question has the equivalent of ?Would you (a GG) want to have sex with a man who shaves his facial hair?? There are other/better comparative questions, in my opinion. Armpit hair might be a better comparison. And, if it made her feel good about herself, I think I could get used to her with armpit hair and maybe even find it to be sexy. My thought is that, the sexier she felt, the sexier I?d find it to be.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
>>> That one has to be as varied as crossdressers are and even as women are.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
>>> I?m not in this group but my guess would be that ?typical? understated makeup would not push the individual to the point that overcomes the masculine that has to be overcome to ?feel? like the person desired.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
>>> from the standpoint of clothing/style, to me Femininity=Indulgence

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
>>> I think that most heterosexual men find all sorts of women to be attractive. And, as a man ages, the more generous his scale of attractiveness becomes. But, finding a woman to be attractive and being ?attracted? to (as in wanting to be in an intimate relationship) are two different things. Being heterosexual and intrinsically monogamous, I am only attracted to my wife in that respect.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
>>> My wife has always been both stylish and varied in her wardrobe. I will point out favorites, but other than that she has never changed her style to suit me.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
>>> Everyone wants to be seen and appreciated for who they perceive themselves to be.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
>>> Selfies of any kind are statement of identity as well as an ask for affirmation. Photos here may be the only point of affirmation many will get. If photos are injected into another?s post, that post becomes more of a dialog than a monologue. There is obviously a point where it could cross a line, but back-and-forth is how humans relate.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
>>> Whether CD or not, boundaries are an issue in any relationship.
>>> My wife seems to have a sort of ?gag reflex? to certain things that are well within my range of taste. I try to respect that. That?s her unwritten boundary. But...
>>> If her boundaries fall too far short of my range of taste, I have sort of a ?resentment reflex? that often comes out as passive-aggressive behavior that neither of us likes. That?s my unwritten boundary.
>>> We?ve been pretty good at staying in between the ?gag reflex? and ?resentment reflex?...

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
>>> See 16

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
>>> Most of the time if we?re not out or having company. I never present as a woman. I wear a beard. But, I find the comfortable indulgence of wearing a simple dress or skirt around the house to be totally logical. If I?m working in my back yard, I tend to wear jeans or shorts.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
>>> We?re both homebodies and I?m private about my tastes so I dress appropriately to go out or if we?re expecting company. I have some strategically placed cover up clothes around the house for any surprise visitors.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
>>> I had no preconceived idea of what was ahead so we both struggled through it together. It wasn?t one-sided.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
>>> If I were single and wanting to date anyone, I definitely might go out on A DATE with an obviously accepting GG. But, to continue to date ?solely? on the basis of her acceptance despite other lack of compatibilities seems extremely unlikely.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
>>> I actually never feel feminine. I am jealous of the clothes that women get to freely choose, but not otherwise jealous of women. I appreciate the differences between my wife and myself as well as the common things.

23) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.

>>> I wouldn?t know. See above.

Natalie5004

05-18-2020, 11:04 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? I told her. She is not thrilled.

2) What regrets do you have if any? I should have been bolder younger.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Not really. I always knew I liked this stuff.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? What? Cold shoulder means yes in whose world.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? NA

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? What, she wears men's clothes? What women does not?

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? not really no. I always said I was a lesbian because I love women.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? What kind of sex?

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? I give up, why?

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? It is mostly a fun thing to do. Remember I am in this for the fun, not a statement like I am woman hear me roar.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Soft, sweet, cute and sexy.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) I could be but also I like all types of women, sorry for being vague.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? No, but she does dress cute all the time.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Good question, ask a Psychologist.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? I did not notice. But it is fun to go back and see how you have improved the look.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? I am dumb as a rock, spell it out. Afterall I am still a guy underneath all this stuff. I need help.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? The wise is very careful not to push it.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? 4 hours.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Don't

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? Come out as what? Gay? I am not gay, I am a lesbian remember. A crossdresser does not mean trans in my book. My plan was to tell her the truth. She kind of knew that I liked womens clothes, she has seen me in bra and panties for 20 years. I am just pushing the envelope now. Too fast? 20 years later...

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? I she really nice, fun, good looking, rich, lets me share in her wardrobe, live on the beach? Yes.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.

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Maria_mtf

06-18-2020, 06:14 AM

Late to the party but I will join in:

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
I told her before marriage, but I regret it took me 5 years.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
Never living on my own and being free to understand myself through experimentation.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
Yes, if i was I might have understood what I wanted earlier.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
I treat it as the opposite.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
Yes when it was only underwear in the bedroom, as long as it wasnt too oftrn

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
I would hope given my situation I would be very supportive.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
I wouldnt want to, doesnt mean I wouldnt.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
Try anything once but no wouldnt want to.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Because they look fun to wear

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
Over compensating because male features show through, or because they want to.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
Na

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
I am attracted to many kind of woman, as long as they are gorgeous and dress well.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
I want her to dress how she pleases, that is all anyone wants on here.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
Because we are shallow and want to be accepted for who we are. I love it when people say I am attractive, who wouldnt?

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
NA

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
100% need them spelled out, a written list would be ideal.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
Yes of course

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
2-3 hours :-(

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
I would chose a day out shopping on my own than spending a day with family, but only because I would have already spent more days out with my family. Its a balance.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
I refused to prepose until I told her but I didnt plan how tell her until she cornered me and I broke down in tears and told her.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
No

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
Cant describe it

Helen_Highwater

06-18-2020, 11:56 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
We were both in our teens when we started dating. At one point I told her I liked the feel of hose. Young girls being young girls (16?ish) she told her best friend and of course, little remarks and giggles followed. So that sort of put me off coming out and expanding my desires further.

2) What regrets do you have if any?
That it took me so long to find the confidence to go out in public. The early years were however devoid of internet access so it was a lonely existence. Only as the web expanded did my knowledge and access to clothing expand.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
No.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
Can?t answer other that I suppose that if your SO doesn?t explode like a firework there has to be at least tolerance if not true acceptance.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
N/A

6) How would you feel if the situation was reversed?
If going out and the situation was my SO was looking for relationships then that puts a strain on the trust side of the relationship. As when I go out looking for a relationship is off the table entirely if she were to be only meeting similar people for social encounters then I hope I could live with that.

7) Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
No, that would be disturbing for my SO to be thought of as male.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
No but in the same way my SO doesn?t like men with facial hair.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
Not sure what is meant by this.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
We weren?t taught from an early age how to dress and no-one critiques those who often dress in isolation. The mirror is a fickle friend.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
Femininity for me often manifests itself as the ability to empathise and to communicate, a caring persona. Of course there are times when ?glamour? plays it?s part. The ability to maximise their looks and to show off those attribute nature gives both sexes as a way of attracting a mate to put it bluntly. It?s a self-awareness linked to self-confidence.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
Mainly but not exclusively. I can?t see me being attracted to a hard drinking, foul mouthed, unkempt female but I wouldn?t want a male like that as a friend either.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
No, she has to have her style.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
To be able to look as feminine as they can and not like a man in a dress. If I?m obsessed with my image when going out it?s so I can look like women of my age so as to not stand out. I want to be Mrs Average. Not overdressed but as someone who dresses for that time and place. Denim for the supermarket, tailored skirt of going clothes shopping.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
N/A

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
That I feel will vary from couple to couple.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
If they?ve got any sense!

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
20 hours

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
It doesn?t, it?s worked into the time left available.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
N/A

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
No

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
Relaxed, comfortable in my own skin. Dressing is part of who I am and not a sexual thing. I can stop playing the manly role, put the testosterone back in it?s bottle. A GG isn?t going to put on heels and their best dress and then go and wash the car. Do you (GG?s) not act somewhat differently when you dress for an occasion? Well for us just putting on a plain skirt and tee along with forms and a wig is an occasion. It signals a change one where something in our DNA is allowed to show itself and we get to feel that release.

DTelia

06-18-2020, 06:43 PM

GretchenM

06-19-2020, 10:09 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? I was asymptomatic for 8 years before we got married and 5 years after. This was 1968-69. What was there to tell? I figured it had gone away. Back then you didn't tell people about such things if you knew what was good for you. My wife kept some secrets from me as well. People do that.

2) What regrets do you have if any? I somewhat regret telling her after the behavior came back, but I left plenty of behavioral patterns about that she could have noticed but apparently didn't. I take this as evidence for the power of the gender binary - when gender is thought to be defined by sex hints are ignored because the sex remains the same.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? In retrospect I obviously thought that because I was riddled with shame and self disgust over this inexplicable behavior. That also kept me from revealing the truth until I was 67 (2012) when the tension over a powerful return of the pattern forced me to divulge the truth. Fortunately, the world had changed "a bit" since 1968 and it was much safer to come out from the point of view of backlash which so often results in trans people committing suicide (I thought about it several times in the past).

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? Because they desire acceptance - everybody desires acceptance of whoever they are. Any signs of acceptance are often exaggerated because of the mind set of the person who desires acceptance. It is the way humans are; we tend to cherry pick from the total that which fits our expectation. Perfectly normal, but nevertheless wrong. It persists because it works.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? N/A

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? That is always an excellent exercise to perform no matter what the issue. Turn the tables. It is also honestly impossible to answer because you can't know what it would be like. So any "empathic" feelings are nothing more than suppositions based on expectations. But I would hope that I would be at least somewhat understanding and accepting. Psychologically, this also goes to the issue of whether the love you have for your mate is unconditional or conditional. Most people work in a conditional framework but think they operate in an unconditional framework.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? That would not bother me. I accept and know a lot of gay, lesbian, and bi people because I live in a neighborhood where there are a lot present. It's no big deal. And it is obviously not a big deal for my wife.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? That is another one of those suppositional matters that cannot be truthfully answered until you have experienced that. So any answer without experience is little more than a supposition. Whether you adhere to the ancient gender binary that has no real foundation or one of the more modern concepts of gender where sex is disconnected from gender, the answer depends upon the mind set of the person answering. If the person is attracted to people with facial hair then it is OK. For example, if a female is attracted to masculinity and she associates masculinity with facial hair, facial hair might well be a turn on. But if that female is attracted to masculinity but does not associate facial hair with masculinity then facial hair might well be a turn off. You can't generalize this stuff. Everybody is different. That is the problem with the gender binary concept. It is based upon generalized assumptions that have never been verified because they can't be verified. Our brains, gender behaviors, and sex do not work the way the gender binary thinks they do. Generalization leads to stereotyping which leads to gender hierarchies which has produced the mind set of men being dominant and women being subordinate. Unfortunately, all of that is caused by cherry picking the differences between males and females and ignoring the vast number of similarities which leads to a more accurate view of the differences and a realization that, when it comes to gender behaviors, there really is only a fraction of the difference that we think there is. That leads to everyone being different which leads to difficulty forming hierarchical social structures which leads to a conclusion that males and females are equal. Mind set and gender concept and model should be based on how those processes actually work in our bodies and minds. That way, we keep the relationships true to the biological functions rather than impose artificial classifications and structures based on ideologies, wishful thinking, and power structures. So concepts like the gender spectrum, continuum, or mosaic naturally tend to align with the neurological functioning of the brain from which all behavior originates.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? Basically because that is the stereotype we have been taught. The structure of the question kind of answers itself. But why does that exist? If you examine the long history of the development of the gender binary concept which goes back to about the time agriculture was invented and we moved away from the more egalitarian hunter-gatherer cultures, the social structure of the agricultural life style became implanted into the thinking about male and female differences and started the cherry picking of the rather few traits and characteristics that are more or less unique to males and females while ignoring the vast array of traits and characteristics that are the same in both sexes. That lead to hierarchical thinking which permeated other social elements such as religious beliefs and eventually psychology, psychiatry and medicine. Attempts were made to verify these assumptions but until fMRI technology came along in the last 20 years or so there was no way to verify the accuracy of the old gender concepts. Now we know the brain doesn't work that way and yet we still cling to the ancient and erroneous gender binary concepts. Tradition is strong in social animals.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? See the answer to question 9 and think about it. It is the stereotype.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? As a gender mosaican I reject the concepts of femininity and masculinity because the truth is there really isn't much difference between males and females when the whole package is considered. Yet feminine and masculine expression in form of clothing and self decoration is an industry to goes back to long before Homo sapiens came into existence - it is the oldest industry we humans have. Males and females decorated themselves differently because of fundamental beliefs. It is custom based in our high consciousness which leads to producing concepts of a sense of self or what neuroscience calls Theory of Mind which forms our personal identities. The pattern of decoration, although usually different, may not be depending upon the individualized sense of self each person has. Thus, if a male identifies more with the female roles then it was proper for him to include female decorations. In many hunter-gatherer cultures today that is still a way members of the culture tell each other what their orientation is. It represents an acceptance in those cultures that a person's sex is not necessarily parallel with their sense of self.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) Like I portray? Yes. Like the stereotype? Not really, but I do admire such women much as I admire Monet paintings or Ansel Adams photographs. They are beautiful but they tell you few of the intimate details of the artist's life. Just their concept of beauty.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? Absolutely not. They should express who they are rather than some synthetic, stereotypical expression based on the configuration of their genitals. I can tell the difference between a male and a female without high fashion being used, but if high fashion is their style then go for it.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? Because that is the focus of the gender binary rules that most people adhere to. The social pressure to conform to stereotypical beliefs is incredibly strong because we are social animals and we need to feel like we are a part of the social community.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? Because that is the way they express themselves as an individual with a Theory of Mind and a self identity that is unique to them. That is the biologically based diversity in sense of self that we all have. It is the rigidity of social standards that results in frowning on certain forms of expression thereby denying some people's sense of self in order to force compliance with an ideology that has no verifiable basis for existing within the workings of our brains.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? It is both. It is a function of communication between creatures that are unbelievably complex and, presumably, intelligent.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? Expressing yourself and your Theory of Mind is one thing that is completely proper because we are all different and therefore we are all equal and we need to be ourselves, warts and all. But forcing another to comply with standards that are not a part of that person's Theory of Mind, no matter which direction that forcing goes, is contrary to the biological reality in contrast to a more contrived social ideology that demands compliance with a core belief that males and females are different. It even leads to the false belief that men and women have different brains. They aren't. They are certainly not interchangeable, but at birth they are amazingly similar and it is the exposure to the environment that generates some differences in a few structures and that happens because our brains are always rewiring themselves to produce the best fit with experience. It is called Brain Plasticity is a core concept in neuroscience. You are not born hardwired for being anything other than a human provided with some fundamental tools. You don't even form a gender identity until you are about three years old, sometimes about two. Prior to that the brain is just gathering information and does not have the ability to recognize gender differences and turn them into a Theory of Mind that includes gender differences. So, what ever is fed to a child regarding gender becomes expressed later when the gender identity forms. The brain requires the information before it can do anything with that information when more rationality develops as the brain matures over roughly the first 16 years of life.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? Very little if any. For me, dressing is an enjoyable behavior where I single out a particular portion of my Theory of Mind (sense of self) and express that all the while knowing that the expression is only a small part of who I am in total. I accept that I am a blend of male-like, female-like, and intermediate brain structures and configurations that create a similarly structured sense of self that I can work with in any way that is appropriate for the moment. (Studies show that 94% of us are built that way.) That is why in the presence of females I can relate to them on a similar level - I turn to my more female-like brain configurations to engage in that association. But if I then turn to a group of men my brain senses the difference and reduces the activity of female-like parts and raises the volume on the male-like configurations. Not special. We all do it. It is the way the brain functions. But, in me, I believe I have a preponderance of female-like configurations which allows me to be more performatively proficient with females than males. Why? Because after 75 years that is the way my brain is configured as a result of lifetime of experiences that have all had an influence on my personal Theory of Mind as produced through brain plasticity. In other words my gender identity is almost totally internalized and therefore, for me, expression in dress is not important.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? It really doesn't, but my internal sense of gender affects it a lot. I tend to be a little strange but very likable to many people, unless they are so fixated on stereotypical behaviors that it creates conceptual conflicts. That is their problem; not mine.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? We both struggled with it and both went to therapy. She is very traditional about gender and she revolves around concepts of gender stereotype. As you can tell, I am the opposite. Yet it still works - we recently had our 51st anniversary and we still love and support each other very much. It is just configured a little differently when it comes to fundamental concepts of what should be and what should maybe not be the case. That is actually healthy because it leaves room for growth.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? That would be a benefit, but is not a requirement.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. As I said before, I don't accept the concepts of feminine and masculine. But when I am in a state where my female-like traits are active I feel more emotionally connected to people in the way of stronger empathy, sympathy, and compassion. Those traits also create a greater appreciation for beauty, design, and pattern which are all emotion based concepts with a high degree of expression in females irrespective of the cultural environment. It is a sense of more connection to the environment as it is rather than as it could be with modification which tends to be a stronger force in male behaviors. But none of those are unique to either sex because our brains are configured as a blend of male-like, female-like, and intermediate configurations that produce the associated behaviors that form gender identity and functional expression. The blend may vary, but the fundamental fact that there is a blend remains a constant in all but about 6% of humans who tend to be more purely configured in one way and only one way, at least until their brain plasticity decides some other pattern will work better.

Sorry about this being so long, but they were good questions. Hope you learned something.

Crissy 107

06-20-2020, 07:12 AM

Gretchen, What an absolutely wonderful post, Thanks!

Pixie_94

06-20-2020, 12:24 PM

I don't know how I didn't notice this one before.

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?

I have no spouse, I'm single.

2) What regrets do you have if any?

No spouse, so I guess this one doesn't apply.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?

Same as before.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?

Either a strong lack of communication or I don't know what it is, but that's surely fuel for a mess.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?

I have no partner and I'm afraid of having one.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?

If you meant "How would you feel...", no idea, it still doesn't doesn't apply to me.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?

No, simply not.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?

No. Why did this take the gay way?

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?

Apparently there's usually an impact related to a TV show, a theatre play or even something they saw in magazines, deeply imprinted, if that's the correct word.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?

Apparently too much content of what I mentioned in the previous answer or that they want to do a bit as drag queens do.

11) What is your definition of Femininity?

I don't know how, but this almost gave me a headache. I don't know how to define it with words.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)

What? Did I miss anything?

13) Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?

Not if that means always over the top and not exactly in a graceful way.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?

The pink fog, I guess.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?

I don't know. I use this website on my phone. It doesn't show pics, do I don't know what you mean.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?

Not exactly. There's been some real disasters of a case.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?

Most of the time they aren't.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?

None, since months ago.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?

Stress in general.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?

I have no S.O.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?

I don't understand dating

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.

You want me to get a migraine, right?

Kandi Robbins

06-20-2020, 01:50 PM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse? I regret having taken so long to do so.

2) What regrets do you have if any? I took so long (almost 50 years) to accept who I am.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself? Of course, we all are for at least some period of time.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance? It's not what they think, it's what they hope for.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change? NA

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ? I am ashamed to say, I would be completely unaccepting.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple? NA

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair? No.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time? I have no earthly idea.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing? Dressing appropriately is, shall we say, lacking in our community.

11) What is your definition of Femininity? Wish I knew.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray) Yes, and I don't "portray", it's who I am.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards? No.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image? I am not obsessed, but given how long it took me to be me, I am pleased and always interested.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts? It's the easiest way for us to gain some level of acceptance.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out? Spell them out, but you should know your partner on some level.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much? NA

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing? At least a good portion of three days each week.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life? Given that I waited for the nest to be empty and that my wife is completely accepting, it has zero affect.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it? It took a while, but I 100% owned it.

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting? NA

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine. Don't really have an ability to articulate my feeling feminine, but when completely dressed, I feel completely feminine.

JulesLynne

06-21-2020, 05:46 AM

1) Do you regret not telling your spouse?
- Yes, I waited 20 years too long, but refer to Question #3

2) What regrets do you have if any?
- Not coming out as a CD sooner.

3) Do you think you were dishonest with yourself?
- YES, but not intentionally. I was always attracted to stereotypical feminine women - dresses, skirts, hose, heels. I thought it was more of a kink and that I?d grow out of it when I got a girlfriend... when I graduated college... when I got married... but it never went away. Suppressing it took a huge toll on me.

4) Why do some CDs think lack of response from their partners mean acceptance?
- No idea, for me getting a lack of response means stern disapproval. When she?s quiet and not talking, it?s because she?s angry. My CD side is very insecure so not getting a response from her is horrible.

5) Were things mutually acceptable in the past but things change?
- Kinda... she once went out with me and we had a great time (Vegas), but now she?s not into it. She hasn?t seen me dressed in over a year.

6)How were you feel if the situation was reversed ?
- I ask myself that and honestly think I could understand. I?d try to have fun with it.

7)Would you want to go out and be perceived as a male gay couple?
- No, my sexual identity is straight/attracted to women.

8) Would you want to have sex if your partner were wearing facial hair?
- No, not attracted to masculine things.

9) Why do CDs tend to want to dress in stereo typical outfits from another time?
- My theory is that we have a warped sense of femininity! I don?t know - this could be a long discussion. When I was young, women wanted to be feminine and pretty. Now, all the TV ads are abut women being powerful, strong, decisive, and taking on male characteristics. I worked in a macho man career for most of my adult life, and I grew to resent that environment and CDing was an escape for me.

10) Why do some think Femininity is over done make up or over the top dressing?
- I don?t like the drag queen look, but I do like makeup and pretty clothing. In that sense, I?m ?over the top? compared to most Americans who wear yoga pants, t shirts, or PJs in public. But I?m not full glam Ru Paul?s Drag Race ?over the top.?

11) What is your definition of Femininity?
- Reserved/hidden power. Dresses, heels, and pantyhose are somewhat fragile and delicate, but they contain a certain magical power hidden within.

12) Are you only attracted to this kind of woman? ( like you portray)
- I wouldn?t say ?only,? but I do find this type of woman attractive. Definitely attracted to feminine women.

13)Do you want your partner to dress in the manner of dress the cder leans towards?
- Not really - I have my style and my wife has hers.

14) Why are so many Obsessed with their image?
- Not sure that I?m obsessed with my image, but I have experienced the ?pink fog? and understand how emotionally powerfull CDing can be.

15) Why do so many post their pictures in the m2f section injecting more pictures of themselves in others posts?
- No clue, I don?t post many pictures.

16) Can the cd anticipate the partners boundaries or does the partner have to spell it out?
- Spell it out - PLEASE! And I also realize that much like my own gender identity that SO acceptance is also on a spectrum. Some days she might be willing to see me dressed, other days she might not want to even think about the idea. I understand all of that, but it would help for me to know where she stands. It?s funny because the male side of me really doesn?t like to talk much about what?s on my mind, but the female part of me needs constant communication. I think it drives my wife nuts some times, so the male side of me just wins out and stops talking about the female side of me. Ugh.

17) In other words are they careful not to push too much?
- YES, always worried about pushing too much.

18) In a typical week how much time is spent dressing?
- There?s no such thing as a typical week. In all honesty it?s always on my mind to some degree. But with kids at home, opportunities to dress are hard to find. I?d absolutely LOVE to spend 2-3 days per month dressed but that?ll never happen.

19) In what way does it affect your social and family life?
- Outwardly it doesn?t because it?s well hidden. Inwardly I?m a mess because hiding this part of me takes an emotional toll.

20) When you came out to your S.O. did you have a strategy to gain your S.O acceptance? I other words did you own the process or let your S.O. struggle with it?
- I read a lot of books, suggested counseling, and eventually went to counseling with her. And like I said, acceptance is a spectrum. I don?t think you ever wake up one day and say ?Eureka! We have achieved acceptance and all is well now!?

21) Would you date a GG for the sole reason they are accepting?
- Not really, but it seems that most GGs would refuse to knowingly date a CD. So along those lines if I was in the dating scene (I?m not), finding a GG who accepts CDs would definitely open the door to at least going out on a date.

22) What does "feeling feminine" mean to you? Describe how you feel when you feel feminine.
- Pink fog. Feeling pretty. Looking in the mirror and enjoying the face looking back at me. Not worrying about male social norms. Being myself. Relaxing. Feeling sexy and desirable.