Aynthem
03-31-2006, 03:11 PM
I've been wrestling with my CDing now for some time. I've dressed since I was a kid, borrowing mom's stuff and the like.
When I was engaged I told my fiance. She accepted my dressing. But since it was a sexual thing back then she started to get freaked out by it, and asked me to stop. As I was usually pretty guilty about my CDing, I did for her. And that lasted for 4 years of aour marriage.
But now I've started again. I am going ot have to tell her but I want to get comfortable with myself, since I never was comfortable in the first place.
Anyway, with that background out of the way I wanted to say, that I went shopping, for the first time in years.
I went in drab although I had panties and hose on undernieth. I went to a local Lane Bryant. Found a knee length denim skirt and a black top, and a bra. I really was only going for the bra, but once there I felt like I needed more.
There was a woman there with a small child shopping so I milled around like I was waiting for someone in the change rooms. Once she left with the child then I asked if I could use the change rooms. My heart was in my throat. My exact words were you wouldn't be freaked out if I asked to try these on would you? She didnt bat an eye.
I hurried because I was still REALLY uncomfortable. But once done I paid for my stuff and hightailed it home to dress.
It was great I had the day off I spent it dressed and in heels. I had the heels from before I purged my clothes. I could never part with them as much as I thought about it. Anyway, I was more comfortable in those heels than I was in the past. Now I just need to learn make up and wig and Ill be all set.
Whew. Glad I got that all out. haha
Ayn
When I was engaged I told my fiance. She accepted my dressing. But since it was a sexual thing back then she started to get freaked out by it, and asked me to stop. As I was usually pretty guilty about my CDing, I did for her. And that lasted for 4 years of aour marriage.
But now I've started again. I am going ot have to tell her but I want to get comfortable with myself, since I never was comfortable in the first place.
Anyway, with that background out of the way I wanted to say, that I went shopping, for the first time in years.
I went in drab although I had panties and hose on undernieth. I went to a local Lane Bryant. Found a knee length denim skirt and a black top, and a bra. I really was only going for the bra, but once there I felt like I needed more.
There was a woman there with a small child shopping so I milled around like I was waiting for someone in the change rooms. Once she left with the child then I asked if I could use the change rooms. My heart was in my throat. My exact words were you wouldn't be freaked out if I asked to try these on would you? She didnt bat an eye.
I hurried because I was still REALLY uncomfortable. But once done I paid for my stuff and hightailed it home to dress.
It was great I had the day off I spent it dressed and in heels. I had the heels from before I purged my clothes. I could never part with them as much as I thought about it. Anyway, I was more comfortable in those heels than I was in the past. Now I just need to learn make up and wig and Ill be all set.
Whew. Glad I got that all out. haha
Ayn