Devi SM
09-15-2020, 03:59 PM
I want to thanks to all the beautiful ladies that had left beautiful greetibgs and messages, I don't know how to respond them so here is a thread.
Today is my birthday. I'm 61 years older now.
I'm not posting to receive greetings but they will be greatly appreciated.
11 years ago in my birthday I kind of panicked.* I saw the past 50 years passing fly as nothing. I had so many things to do yet and nobody would warranty me life in the future.
How many more years could I live? 20, 30? My dad is now 93 years old but how many years I could have left would be less than 50 and would fly on the se way or faster.
Today I have 11 years of life less than that day but I'm in peace. For people that's* no trans, that must be hard to understand what meant to live a life in the closet and was hard even for me to try to understand it. To live lying,* hiding your feelings, feelings of shame, guilty, fear, embarrassment just of thinking if the family, the world could know what is in my mind, but at the same time happiness of just to dream, to dress in private, to go out in femme expecting nobody could recognize me.
It was worse than to be in jail. There was no hope of release and the only solution dancing around my mine was to end this life.
Fortunately, think I had been a resilient person because I always keep myself busy doing things, whatever that could it be, sports, all kind of jobs, hobbies, etc
There was.
no hope of release and the only
solution dancing around my mine was
to end this life.
I think I had been a resilient person
bevsuse always keep myself busy
doing things, whatever that could
ditract.me of my inner monster,.so
some.people think that this is just one
more of my "hobbies".
I reach a point of being tired of to live
pleasing others so I decide to please
myself, first accepting myself. Then I
found that I wasn't so ugly, that there's
good people in the world, that we're
so many, that I'm not alone and my family
hasn't deserted me. In the process many here had been fundamental, I think i ready told to several dire try soni won't mention anybody specific now because there were stories, anecdotes, experiences that i read and helped me to open my mind to learn more about myself.
I keep happily marri2d living together with the woman of more than 41 years.
Today is my birthday and I'm happy
Just to exist as I meant to be.
I attached just some pics from today and ask sunday with my wife...
Thanks all you...
Today is my birthday. I'm 61 years older now.
I'm not posting to receive greetings but they will be greatly appreciated.
11 years ago in my birthday I kind of panicked.* I saw the past 50 years passing fly as nothing. I had so many things to do yet and nobody would warranty me life in the future.
How many more years could I live? 20, 30? My dad is now 93 years old but how many years I could have left would be less than 50 and would fly on the se way or faster.
Today I have 11 years of life less than that day but I'm in peace. For people that's* no trans, that must be hard to understand what meant to live a life in the closet and was hard even for me to try to understand it. To live lying,* hiding your feelings, feelings of shame, guilty, fear, embarrassment just of thinking if the family, the world could know what is in my mind, but at the same time happiness of just to dream, to dress in private, to go out in femme expecting nobody could recognize me.
It was worse than to be in jail. There was no hope of release and the only solution dancing around my mine was to end this life.
Fortunately, think I had been a resilient person because I always keep myself busy doing things, whatever that could it be, sports, all kind of jobs, hobbies, etc
There was.
no hope of release and the only
solution dancing around my mine was
to end this life.
I think I had been a resilient person
bevsuse always keep myself busy
doing things, whatever that could
ditract.me of my inner monster,.so
some.people think that this is just one
more of my "hobbies".
I reach a point of being tired of to live
pleasing others so I decide to please
myself, first accepting myself. Then I
found that I wasn't so ugly, that there's
good people in the world, that we're
so many, that I'm not alone and my family
hasn't deserted me. In the process many here had been fundamental, I think i ready told to several dire try soni won't mention anybody specific now because there were stories, anecdotes, experiences that i read and helped me to open my mind to learn more about myself.
I keep happily marri2d living together with the woman of more than 41 years.
Today is my birthday and I'm happy
Just to exist as I meant to be.
I attached just some pics from today and ask sunday with my wife...
Thanks all you...