Monica55cd
04-02-2006, 01:48 PM
Well last night I finally went out as Monica...had a makeover...pedicure shaved legs...nail tips and polished....I even bought a purse to go with my outfit....buy the time they got done with me at the salon it was after 8pm and the places I wanted to go to dressed were closed.... So I drove to LA/Hollwood hoping to find a place to get out with other people (hopfully a few more CD/TG people??)well drove all thru hollywood and back didnt find a place at all but I did have a little scare on Sunset boulavard Ihad 2 cop cars next to me then behind me and in front of me I was so worried that they were going to do something but I guess if they did read me they didn't care and went on their way...whewww breathing better now.....
well I got home and was still looking good wanting to be seen a little so I was chatting on line talked to a couple of CDs and a cd admirer IM'd me we talked he saw my pics and said I looked nice ....anyway...I met him ... not to have sex.....I guess I just wanted to be admired try that experience.....well he looked at me when we met and he was quite attracted to me...I just let my self go a little to experience this as a woman....I let him put his arms around me and kiss me......I have come to the realization that I am not gay at all ( I have had bisexual fantiseys before) because it did nothing for me...I was actually creeped out by it and said goodbye to him....The problem is I dont know if I was wrong for experienceing this or should I look at it as a learning and growing experience for me and Monica and what direction I should be going with my life....I realize this post is probaly more revieling about myself than most of my other posts but I guess I'm looking for advice.. thanks
well I got home and was still looking good wanting to be seen a little so I was chatting on line talked to a couple of CDs and a cd admirer IM'd me we talked he saw my pics and said I looked nice ....anyway...I met him ... not to have sex.....I guess I just wanted to be admired try that experience.....well he looked at me when we met and he was quite attracted to me...I just let my self go a little to experience this as a woman....I let him put his arms around me and kiss me......I have come to the realization that I am not gay at all ( I have had bisexual fantiseys before) because it did nothing for me...I was actually creeped out by it and said goodbye to him....The problem is I dont know if I was wrong for experienceing this or should I look at it as a learning and growing experience for me and Monica and what direction I should be going with my life....I realize this post is probaly more revieling about myself than most of my other posts but I guess I'm looking for advice.. thanks