Up and down the emotional rollercoaster...

[Emma_Forbes]

Hi Girls,

Last weekend, cloud 9, this weekend, cloud 0. Why-o-why does my life seem like a rollercoaster - and not a particularly good one at that? I am so emotionally fragile, the slightest knock and I'm down in the dumps. And I get irritable because of it and feel ignored and get sensitive. And then I overcompensate and try to elicit reaction from anyone about anything!

Bugger! If I could solve it as easily as recognise it, life would be so much simpler!

Em :sad:

[sparks]

Maybe you're refering to Happy pills! Side affects can be horrible! I'm going to blame mine on all the lack of sleep I'm getting these days! Afternoon shift sucks for that!
Just try to keep marching! The rest of the squad needs you to keep up!

Are we there yet Papa Smurf!

[Bev06 GG]

Emm,
We all get like that from time to time. Money, work, kids, partners, they all work against us at times and we feel like we are drowning in responsibility. I know that for Cross Dressers they have an added disadvantage, specially if theyre in the closet and feel very lonely. I'd hate to think of either of my sons ending up with a desire to dress and no one to share it with. (Dont know what your situation is by the way), but it must be a very depressing lonely existance and would surely make anyone feel down one minute and up the next.
When Im feeling down I get in the bath, have a good soak, get some nice satin underwear on, a nice outfit and go to town on my makeup. I know its a woman thing but it really works. When I look good and make the effort, I do feel better, and its alot less expensive than going shopping, which is another of my favs for lifting myself up abit.
Take care Emm and be positive.
Love BEVxxxx

[GypsyKaren]

You just gotta learn how to balance it all out and find balance. Life is always highs and lows, just try to keep moving through them with your head up. Takes a lot of practice and effort, but it isn't impossible to do.

Karen

[Michellemartyn]

You just gotta learn how to balance it all out and find balance. Life is always highs and lows, just try to keep moving through them with your head up. Takes a lot of practice and effort, but it isn't impossible to do.

Karen
Hi Karen

After all these years of trying to get my head round this lot you just put it in a nut shell .The highs are right up there which makes the low,s a hell of a fall but I would,nt like to do with out Michelle now I feel alive when she,s out and about:D

[ReginaK]

Just be glad your rollercoaster moves. Mine's been stuck at the station for the past decade or so.

[Joy Carter]

Bev is right and I have some real lows so I can atest to it as well. The problem is I have never found the one thing that will bring me out of it. I have spent alot on hobbies and other things but I get no thrill out of any of it. Disapointed in life I guess have not found that one thing that makes me happy, family SO and work I'm good with just me personaly.:gh:

[Emma_Forbes]

Thanks all,

Wish I could treat myself to the bath etc like Bev suggests only dressing is on hold while family are visiting and that's frustrating. I just have to content myself with dreaming about it. And I am on my own in this - that doesn't help either.

I also feel somewhat unbalanced at the moment. I just want to dress more and experience more but feel I should curtail it - not sure why exactly. I have always maintained that I am not a woman trapped in a man's body and I still believe that but I think I'm afraid that I might start to feel that way if I dress too much. I want to be able to be more feminine and less masculine even though I wouldn't want to be feminine all the time - I think!!!??? I guess that all sounds silly.

Em the confused

[Julie Avery]

Hang in there, Em. (Do they say that in the UK?)

This too shall pass.

[Emma_Forbes]

Yes they say that in the UK. Thanks for your comments all.

Still hanging - but barely to be honest.

Em

[steffie39]

Hi Em,

I never have considereed myself as a woman trapped in a man's body. As I started to dress a little more before, my feelings stayed the same (to my relief). Deep own I know that I am a man but it's nice to take a "vacation" from that for a while when I'm Steffie. Plus those experiences make being a man more fun and enjoyable too. My desires to dress go in cycles and when I don't have the desire, I don't dress but when I do, I try and ride the wave.

Maybe you can find a secret place to change and sneak out for a while en-femme and then return home male? My 0.02.

I hope you feel better soon!

Steffie