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Maria 60
02-19-2022, 10:37 AM
With some restrictions being lifted my mother asked me if I could go and visit a cousin who was in a rebilation place. Her father died when she was young, she never married and her mother is in a retirement home and my cousin is suffering from a bone disease and is alone. To Europeans everyone is your Aunte, Uncle and Cousin growing up untill you get old enough to figure out there's no relation, I call her my cousin but she really isn't.
I went there and wheeled her into a visiting room, I haven't seen her in ten years but have talked to her on social media now and then. When we got past the how's you family,etc,etc, there was nothing to talk about and it went quit, so we started talking about our youth. Our parents called us the son and daughter of the devil when we got together. We started talking about when we shop lifted from the mall and stolen cigarettes and alcohol from our parents and go to the park and drink and smoke. I told her I was no saint but her being a spoiled only child she was notorious. She said she was bad but at least she wasn't a freak like me, I instantly asked what she was talking about. She told me she respected that I went to visit her but let's leave some past in the past and not dig out old graves. . I told her we had nothing else to talk about and if she wanted me to stay longer she better start talking.
She said she was always getting in trouble and accused of taking her mothers pantyhose, for the longest time she couldn't figure out where her mothers and her pantyhose would disappear to. Untill one day we were playing and I was bend over and she seen pantyhose sticking out of the back of my pants and my shirt was tucked into them. My head and eyes instantly hit the ground and she said this was not what she wanted to embarrass me. I told her to keep going but I remembered when I would go to her house and find pantyhose in the laundry basket or hanging and I couldn't just put them in my pocket because they made a big lump in my pants, instead I would put them on.
She said she wanted to say something that day but didn't want to embarrass me but most of all she didn't want our parents to see them because she remembered my father was a very disciplined man I would have gotten a beating for sure.
She asked if I wanted to hear more, I answered "why not"
She said one night she was sleeping in our spare room and it was so hot in there and she went to sleep on the living room couch. All at once she heard a noise and she seen a person walk in wearing all white, she thought it was a ghost and she was so scared she couldn't even scream. She laid there quit and then noticed it was me wearing a long silk dress and I opened the curtains almost like I wanted to be seen and she then said she didn't want to explain what I did with myself.
WOW! I remembered that night. My closet in my room was everyone's over load closet, everyone's stuff ended up in that closet including my sisters wedding dress underlay. It wasn't a slip, it was silky like one but it was what was worn under a wedding dress back then. I remember it was long and it felt so amazing and what my cousin described I only did twice, I would put on pantyhose and that underlay at about 2 in the morning and I walk in the living room and open the curtains and lift it up exposing my pantyhosed legs.
She said she watched me finish what I was doing that night and I went back to my room, she told me she had and still has me like a brother and best friend and swore that night to herself she would have my back as she did before when she saved me from a beating and kept it quit.
I thanked her for the loyalty and that I have had so much of my past brought back to me in the last while and told her she's was right I was a freak. We both laughed and then she told me she thought it was a young phase I was going though but had to ask as the old saying goes "do old habits die hard"?.
I didn't answer her but I'm sure with the smirk on my face she knew the answer and if I had more courage I should have lifted my pant hem to show I was wearing pantyhose.
Wow, so much stuff in the past I didn't remember or I didn't want to remember and maybe psychologically locking them in a memory vault and threw away the key.
I really did some stupid and crazy things when I was young and believe I was a freak. I have a feeling if I come out to everyone, nobody's going to be very surprised

Robbiegirl
02-19-2022, 11:18 AM
Wow ! So intersting ! I am actually surprised she wasn't more curious about what other things you might have tried on in your youth and if you ever tried on any of her dresses or underwear

Stephanie47
02-19-2022, 11:36 AM
I enjoy your posts. One thing that is evident is the probability almost all of us have exposed our secrets at one time or another. It's just that someone has not called us on it. My mother knew I was dabbling in her lingerie draw, but she did not have the guts to call me on it. She tried to catch me in the act, but, never did catch me. I shared a bedroom with my slightly older brother. Did he see me at night squirming into my mother's nylon nightgown under the covers? If he did, he never said a word.

kimdl93
02-19-2022, 12:06 PM
I know I did some foolish, risky things at that age as well. Even today, the recollections make me shudder a bit when I imagine what might have happened had I been caught. Its remarkable to have someone like your cousin has kept your secret all these years, and you know, its likely that she is not alone in guarding that secret. In my own family, I think its more or less known, but not spoken about out of politeness.

alwayshave
02-19-2022, 03:35 PM
Maria, I'm glad your cousin kept your secret all those years. Makes me wonder how many people in my family knew of my hobby.

JulieC
02-19-2022, 11:00 PM
Maria, as fiercely as she has defended your privacy in the past, I doubt letting her know the whole truth would be any risk to you. I'd recommend completely coming clean with her. You'll have a more complete friend with her than ever before.

Wonderful post! Yeah I did some stupid things while crossdressing as a kid. This ultimately let to my mom discovering my stash, and me getting a serious lecture.

bridget thronton
02-20-2022, 02:49 AM
Thanks for sharing - looks like we all should be aware that more people know our secrets than we think