Rhonda Jean
12-30-2022, 10:12 AM
A week or so ago I said I'd definitely wear nail polish around some family at Christmas. Didn't happen. I didn't chicken out, things just didn't work out for a number of reasons.
GF and I are using up the rest of our vacation and then some, so we're headed out of town this evening through some time next week. Mani pedis tomorrow and I'm not taking my polish off till I go back to work. I'll have red nails for whatever we do and wherever we go. No family, and presumably won't see anybody we know. We're planning at least one night with me fully en femme. Maybe NYE, maybe not. I'm packing my wig (shocker!!). If I go through with it, and I think I will, it'll be my first time fully done (depending on what you call fully done) in, well, a long time. I feel kind of blah about it, really. My how things have changed! Except for one outfit, the rest of my clothes will be the inbetween (leggings, etc.) that I've become comfortable with. I find it kind of funny thinking about how my one totally male outfit (untucked dress shirt, jeans, cowboy boots) will look with my red nails, but that's the way it's going to be. I already know when/where I'm wearing that. Not sure I'll carry my purse that night. That'll be a game time decision. What's playing in my head is what we hear on the forum so frequently, "Give her her MAN for at least one of those nights". Welll, hmmm. The leggings and sweaters don't really disqualify me as the "man", but the nails probably swing it decidedly away from it. Adding the purse probably swings it too far, even though it's a long way from fem. I think implied in the "give her her man" thing is masculine. I'm not even sure how I resolve the masculine thing with the jeans, boots, and red nail polish. I think I resolve it by knowing that she doesn't have a problem with my nail polish, and if it doesn't look masculine enough for whatever strangers we encounter, so what.
Anyway, I've spent a couple hundred dollars on makeup in the past couple of months and haven't worn it at all that I recall. 'Bout time. Hoping I can pull off a modestly low cut top and cleavage. Seems like ancient history since I've done that. What I'm really looking forward to is getting totally away for several days, reconnecting, and letting our hair down (what I have left!). There hasn't been a lot of fun on the agenda since COVID. I'm definitely excited about that!
GF and I are using up the rest of our vacation and then some, so we're headed out of town this evening through some time next week. Mani pedis tomorrow and I'm not taking my polish off till I go back to work. I'll have red nails for whatever we do and wherever we go. No family, and presumably won't see anybody we know. We're planning at least one night with me fully en femme. Maybe NYE, maybe not. I'm packing my wig (shocker!!). If I go through with it, and I think I will, it'll be my first time fully done (depending on what you call fully done) in, well, a long time. I feel kind of blah about it, really. My how things have changed! Except for one outfit, the rest of my clothes will be the inbetween (leggings, etc.) that I've become comfortable with. I find it kind of funny thinking about how my one totally male outfit (untucked dress shirt, jeans, cowboy boots) will look with my red nails, but that's the way it's going to be. I already know when/where I'm wearing that. Not sure I'll carry my purse that night. That'll be a game time decision. What's playing in my head is what we hear on the forum so frequently, "Give her her MAN for at least one of those nights". Welll, hmmm. The leggings and sweaters don't really disqualify me as the "man", but the nails probably swing it decidedly away from it. Adding the purse probably swings it too far, even though it's a long way from fem. I think implied in the "give her her man" thing is masculine. I'm not even sure how I resolve the masculine thing with the jeans, boots, and red nail polish. I think I resolve it by knowing that she doesn't have a problem with my nail polish, and if it doesn't look masculine enough for whatever strangers we encounter, so what.
Anyway, I've spent a couple hundred dollars on makeup in the past couple of months and haven't worn it at all that I recall. 'Bout time. Hoping I can pull off a modestly low cut top and cleavage. Seems like ancient history since I've done that. What I'm really looking forward to is getting totally away for several days, reconnecting, and letting our hair down (what I have left!). There hasn't been a lot of fun on the agenda since COVID. I'm definitely excited about that!