Its been 2 years

[Wendy James]

It has been 2 years since I visited this site. The last time I wrote one post ( https://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?279462-A-new-chapter-in-my-life) about my wife filing for divorce and then logged out. What a roller coaster. I cannot believe what happened next, but after I moved out I stopped dressing cold turkey and purged all of my clothing. I do not know why, I was free to do as I wanted, but something inside tld me to stop. Before that event, I thought this would always be part of my life. I went from underdressing every day completely with panties, bra, hoisery, forms and slip and fully dressing at home every night and any time I could find to nothing.

That was September 2022, then suddenly last week I found myself on Amazon rebuilding my wardrobe, and it is been not stop. I have been feeling the remorse of purging everything I had and decided it was time to rebuild a wardrobe. I am 100% not out and intend to stay that way, but I work from home often and just enjoy the feeling of getting dressed. I could never pass and really just want to enjoy it myself, good thing I am introvert. While I have no issues wearing panties out as it is easier than changing, I am not sure about underdressing, the world is such a crazy place.

I also have had an incredible burst of energy since I started dressing, I am sure it will not last - but it definitely feels like a new awakening.

I am glad to be back visiting the forum and reading everything.

[SaraLin]

Welcome back Wendy.

Purging is a bit of a rite of passage, I think. Most of us here have gone through it at least once on the road to self acceptance.
Eventually we realize that dressing is part of who we are, and get on with living our best lives.

[alwayshave]

Wendy, My opinion, for what it is worth, is that you stopped from the shock of your divorce. When that was over, the need returned. Welcome back.

[kimdl93]

Divorce can be a catastrophic emotional experience. If crossdressing was part of the reasons for a breakup, its also common to purge, as if it may some way help the situation. Of course, it doesn?t. Some people, like myself, go through a period of depression and even simple pleasures can be difficult to enjoy depressed. It took me something like 18 months to recover from divorce, rebuild my wardrobe and begin enjoying this aspect of my life again.

[BLUE ORCHID]

Rule #1, Never ever PURGE !!!

Rule #2, If you feel that you must PURGE, See Rule @1 Again ,

[bridget thronton]

Welcome back Wendy. Hoping things go well as you rebuild your life.

[Genifer Teal]

Rule #1, Never ever PURGE !!!

Rule #2, If you feel that you must PURGE, See Rule @1 Again ,

Yep! Glad I found the internet early on. So many stories of regret. I've closed the closet for for a while but never got rid of anything.

[SuzyZahn]

Welcome back! I too have been in your description of `life`. Its almost scary how much the same. Anyways, as they say `when one door closes another opens`, as has happened in my case.

[Brynna M]

Wendy, I am sorry about your marriage. I'm glad you came back to CDing when you felt like it and I hope it brings you happiness. None of us are just one thing. Sounds like you needed to focus on some other part of your self for a while.

[Crissy 107]

Welcome back Wendy, good you are rebuilding your wardrobe.
I am sure that feels so very good as this part of our lives is definitely here to stay.

[BLUE ORCHID]

Welcome back! I too have been in your description of `life`. Its almost scary how much the same. Anyways, as they say `when one door closes another opens`, as has happened in my case.


When one door Closes and another door Opens , You are probably in Prison,

[EmilyShy]

Welcome back Wendy

Emily xx

[MonikaCD]

Rule #1, Never ever PURGE !!!

Rule #2, If you feel that you must PURGE, See Rule @1 Again ,

Those are not rules, that you can learn from others, unfortunately.

[Staci]

Welcome back to the sisterhood. Purging is probably the most expensive part of Crossdressing. I still will get the thought to purge once ina while but my wardrobe of beautiful clothes is too large to think of having to buy it back.

[Meg]

Welcome Wendy. As has been said, the paths we took to get here are not all that different. Sometimes you have to go back to the beginning to get to where you are going. Looking forward to sharing that path. Hugs, Meg

[Nikkilovesdresses]

I don't find it surprising that the shock and re-set of divorce caused you to opt for the simplest life possible. You may have felt a feeling of failure, or guilt- why else would you purge?

But it surprises me even less that, once she felt safe, Wendy bobbed back to the surface.

The energy sounds wonderful- enjoy!

[Jean O]

Although I was not divorced my wife of 42 years died suddenly from a heart attack. In addition to grief I had to purge all of her clothes. She did not know dressed and some part of me felt guilty so I purged my gurl clothes. It's been two years and Jean is has started to dress again. This time is different I am working much harder at how I look and choosing the best path to being acceptable in public.
I have lost 30# and want to loose 20 more. I plan to go to Ultra and get makeup and have them show me how to apply. After that a wig that fits and helps me feel and look more feminine.
I have bought breast forms and love wearing them at home in a bra that a Lane Bryant rep helped find.
Sorry for droning on but this is the only outlet I have to talk about this.
Hugs and Kisses 💋
Jean O