Easy Access

[Mercedes]

For those of us without the fully supportive spouses, having access to our underwear is usually a pain in the butt. For years I have kept these items in a backpack in the closet that was always annoying to get to every day, especially now since I have been wearing panties everyday for the past 9 months.

However, we recently bought some new bedroom furniture and my dresser space is now significantly enhanced! So out of the closet and into the drawers they went. I now have immediate access to my panties, bra's, nylons and other items for Mercedes. I just have to open the drawer and there they are, and it brings a smile to my face to just be able to see them. I do not have the massive selection that some of you ladies have so they are nicely tucked in with the drab clothes.

Fortunately my spouse does not have any issue, mind you, if she did, she probably would not mention it as she prefers to not discuss crossdressing.

It is funny how such a little thing can feel like a significant step in Mercedes being a larger part of who I am.

Mercedes XOXOXO

[JulieC]

Like you had in your prior situation, my "easy" (not so easy) access things are in a backpack tucked away in a closet in the garage. Every day (since I always sleep crossdressed now...more on that in a sec) I have to go into the garage and retrieve the bag, make use of it over night, then put it back in the morning after I de-dress (is that a word? :)). I have to do this because we have two (grown) kids at home who do not know, and I don't want them to know.

Ok so a year ago, I had 4 months where we had no kids at home, and none coming over. Freedom! Woohoo! :) It was really the first time in my life that I could have all my femme clothes out and in places where they were easily accessible, without worry. My wife is accepting and supportive, so she was fine with it. I was crossdressed near 100% of the time when we were home for the first many weeks, then slowly abated to about 75% of the time.

This was an interesting time, from a psychological perspective. "Julie" suddenly had a seat at the table, just the same as my male self. I do NOT like to think of myself as having two personalities; I'm one person. But this was really apparent that suddenly the prison no longer existed, and Julie was completely out. Thing is, when it came time to put all of it away, and go back to secrecy...Julie did NOT want to go back into the cell. It used to be that I could go months without crossdressing and be fine. Well, mostly fine sometimes :) I thankfully do not struggle with mental health issues (my heart goes out to those that do), but I did feel some pressure from time to time when I couldn't crossdress for long periods. Now, I just won't go long periods. I don't want to go long periods. I refuse to go long periods. I crossdress every night now for bed, with pantyhose, nightgowns, bra, and forms. I feel much better and whole than ever before. Julie will not accept long periods anymore. It's just not going to happen.

So, I get it. I get why Mercedes has become a larger part of you. The same has happened with me.

[Jenn A116]

Access issues can be so difficult. I'm fortunate that my wife knows and I've dedicated a couple of my dresser draws to my girl lingerie lives plus there is a good half closet in the "office" where my girl outer clothing lives. Even at that, I wish I had more space.

[JesseVF]

Now it’s been a couple years evolution after coming out to my wife, and our new house has us sharing a large walk in. All my stuff out in sight except wigs and forms. I agree Mercedes what a comfortable feeling to open your drawers to see everything right there. Gets the day off to a great start.

[Debs]

My wife is fully on board, I've converted the back bedroom into my girl cave, full wardrobes and sets of drawers, and everythink pink, from the wallpaper to the bedding, life is good.

[docrobbysherry]

U had me going for a moment, Mercedes. I thot u were referring to bathroom issues when tucked!:o

[Marketa]

I'm glad you've got good access to your clothes, Mercedes :)
Now you can enjoy them more as you removed the hustle of getting to them.

And I am on the same wave about the "just seeing them makes me happier" as you are. I've got my clothes in my half of our wardrobe (living single) and sometimes when leaving for work in drab, I just open my female part of the wardrobe and look at the clothes for few seconds and that makes the start of my day a bit nicer.

[Maria 60]

I'm glad your enjoying that feel good feeling of starting to see your fem self with articles in full view. For me it was when my mother in law was throwing out a huge dresser and my wife wanted it. I didn't want to get that big heavy thing and I asked my wife why she even wanted it. She wanted to put it in our spare bedroom and instead of having all my fem stuff all over the place I could put in all together in that huge armour and have everything in reaching distance and in one place. Hearing that I literally broke out crying and once my wife helped me set it up I was and still am in disbelief that I have a room dedicated for my fem self.

[bridget thronton]

After a while the quantity on clothing we own is impossible to hide. I am glad your wife is accepting.

[Stephanie47]

I am able to keep a decent selection of panties and nightgowns and slips in two drawers of my armoire. I also have two boxes of lingerie in my nightstand. As my wife and I sleep apart for medical reasons/comfort I am able to sleep in a bra, panty, full slip and nightgown every night.

[Traci H]

OMG yes. Having the clothes is one thing, but better access elevates the joy. As several have already expressed, there is a visual aspect to gazing at your garments, seeing their fabrics and colors and knowing they are yours. A drawer jammed with brightly colored panties is something I look forward to every day. My second drawer has male socks, but also many bras and pantyhose. Makes wearing a bra in the winter much easier. Half my closet pole is filled with slinky colorful rayon/spandex tops that I wear I under another top.

My wife is not a fan, but has sort of backed off on her negative comments of all of this. Life goes on and easy access makes it sweeter for sure.

[alwayshave]

Mercedes, congratulation on taking your panties "out of the closet".

[TrishaLake]

That us awesome, I have a small closet in our bedroom which is a huge thing for my wife to do for me.

[Lacey New]

Access is not so easy for me. Stuff hidden in a locked box u der the stairs behind other boxes. Only comes out when I know I have plenty of private time.

[Sandi Beech]

I tried keeping my womens boy short undies in my dresser drawer one time. That resulted in having them thrown at me. So I can forget having that as an option. Count your blessing as you are lucky to be able to keep them handy.

Sandi

[Raychel]

I feel so bad for those that have to hide their things. I have been there, there is such a risk in hiding.
and very often if the hidden items are found there is a huge discussion over it.
Trust me, I know. I was there at one point in time.

I told my wife about my desire to dress, and it took a while. But I was one of the lucky ones.
She accepted and my things came out of hiding.
Now divorced, (No relation to the crossdressing)
and everyone I care about knows about my other side.
All my clothes are out in the open at my house. Clothes hanging neatly in the closet.
and a full dresser of Raychel's Undergarments

That is a HUGE step towards freedom Mercedes.
Congratulations :) :) :)

[Mercedes]

Thank you for all your comments everyone. I do feel quite fortunate that I have the easy access now and really empathize with those that do not. It would be a wonderful world when the only time we had to spend in the closet, was trying to pick the perfect dress (for the party we all get to attend).

Mercedes XOXOXO

[Angie G]

I had the same problem up till 19 years ago now my thing over out as I am and loving it.

[Jillcder]

Sorry Sandi, but I just visualized my wife finding my panties and throwing them at me made me smile this morning.

[Angie G]

I have closet space and love it way better then hiding it. Like before she knew.
Angie G