How alone are you ? in the Crossdressing World ?

[Debs]

I've looked at the number of peeps I can count on 1 finger , I can acually say exist , who know I Dress ?., One is my Wife obviously, but I have 2 close friends who know, but I do do out a lot dressed so I meet a lot of peeps. So how many close friends actually know you dress Hmm ?

Debs

[Christina89]

About 6. 2 of them are ones I?m sure close with and call my sisters. I decided to tell them both recently. The others are ones I talk to daily, but don?t have the super close relationship due to work schedules

[docrobbysherry]

Like u, Debs, I'm a closet dresser. Only my immediate family and ONE close friend knows I dress.:straightface:

However, I've met 1000's of T's and vanillas out dressed. Just NOT near where I live!:)

[Helen_Highwater]

While the official count is restricted to 1, my SO, the unofficial count count be much higher. Allow me to explain.

I've been seen by my neighbours, fleetingly I might add but one of them couldn't keep it to themselves and gossiped to friends, people I also share time with playing badminton. It's the little quips that sometime get made, nothing direct, but it's a case of I know they know. Certainly not the full extent. It's unlikely they have put two and two together and realised I go out and about when chance arises.

I'm not prepared to bring it out into the open with this group. I don't want it to define me with them. I doubt many of them would be entirely comfortable or truly accepting if I were to turn up at one of our social gatherings enfemme so I'll let sleeping dogs lie and leave it as it is.

Considering the friends I have, I can't thik of one i'd like to come out to. I like the dynamics of those relationships as they are.

I've engaged with many from outside our community, strangers whom haven't batted an eye at our encounter and as long as I can do that from time to time I'll go with that.

[Sabine7]

As a closet crossdresser I am a very alone lady. That's why I appreciate this forum so much.

[AmyJordan]

Hi Debs

I'm very much a home cat and despite my wifes wishes still pretty much keeping the extent of our lifestyle private.

Other than obviously my SO, her sister and her girlfriend there was the flower delivery lady, the sales assistant helping my wife pick out outfits for me in a ladies wear shop, the two women in the photo processing shop and the recent security lady on holiday.

None of my previous friends as I am to embaressed to meet them anymore and certainly not my family.

Amy x

[Lacey New]

I am totally alone and in the closet. The only people who know are perhaps some store sales associates who have seen an anonymous older man purchase women’s underwear with cash and the folks here online. And, like most of us here, I use a pseudonym.

[Kris Burton]

I go out and about frequently, but her than my supportive wife, no one knows both sides. I guess it could be said that I'm in the closet, and she is in there with me.

[SophiaRose]

Other than my wife and therapist, I told my wife I didn't mind who she confided in to help process her thoughts. She told her older cousin, who I know very well but have never talked to about it. That'll be a fun conversation when it comes up...

[SaraLin]

There's my wife, who regularly sees me partly, but never FULLY dressed. She has flatly rejected that idea.

There's one male friend who openly accepts both versions of me. Because of wife's rules, that's a very rare event.

I have another male friend who knows, but has never seen me en-femme. We've fallen out of contact over the years.

I have a GG friend who knows and I think has seen me, but I haven't seen or spoken to her in 20+ years. Does she still count?

I told my sister and she said she "always wanted a sister", but the occasion has never come up where she met my Sara side (we live 1000+ miles apart).

So yes, I'd say I'm pretty much alone in the "real" world.
Thank goodness for the ladies in here!

[JocelynJames]

LET ME PREFACE THIS BY SAYING, if you want a CD friend to talk to, I’m open . Many here have taken time to chat with me via the forums message system. I’ll respond to those that need a one on one .As I mentioned in a recent post, my barber/hair stylist knows as I ?fessed up as I asked if he would work some magic on a wig. Also my wife..an X friend of hers knows, and maybe a mutual friend of theirs, I?ve never heard confirmation on that. I did go to a few get togethers recently, but those people have seen Joss , but not my male side. Absolutely zero family members know. I say it would be so great for everyone to know and I pile dress as I please, but would that make it less special to me ? I don?t know. It?s a dilemma I consider often. I recently expressed to another member here how I?d love to go out more, I just fear being clocked. Things could be so much easier if I could just choose . It?s so in my head at times

[BLUE ORCHID]

Hi Debs :hugs:, Only my:love:Wife who Tollerates it, >Orchid**O:daydreaming:O**

[Jillcder]

Im very alone with my Crossdressing Im sure my wife suspects other than my wife I have no desire to tell any family members or friends the only people that know I dress are the people I interact with when Im out dressed in public.

[Sandi Beech]

For the most part I have tried not to involve family, friends, and neighbors. Everyone else is fair game. Maybe to some degree, that may be why I come here. I do not have anyone close to me I can talk to about my adventures in CD land.

I have done plenty of very high risk things in the past as far as getting caught by neighbors, but most would likely not say anything about it if they did see me. As far as I know I have not been spotted by any neighbors.

Sandi

[Michaela Jane]

I'm one of the alone brigade too. My late wife knew I liked womens clothes, but wasn't happy about me wearing anything but panties under my normal drab. I think my step kids know that I like womens clothes like jeans, and tops that still retain the "male" look when I have them on. I don't think anybody outside of my crossdressing groups know the extent of my dressing.

[Cheryl T]

Close friend/relatives?
My wife of course. Beyond that, when we were in Jersey we had a lot in our groups. Now we're in the desert of NE Pa and there's nothing, no one, nada, nyet. Relatives, no way, they are all phobic so to keep the peace I'm invisible to them.
I'd love to have a friend or two in the vicinity. Maybe lunch once a week, a bit of shopping or a movie night on the weekend. Still looking, still hoping.

[Stephanie47]

My not-so-on-board-with-it wife knows. It's a don't ask, don't tell. Decades ago when we still were having some conversations about it she may have told her female cousin. One of the issues my wife pointed out was that both of us ended up in the closet for different reasons. She really has nobody to talk to about it, although now over the decades, she seems to have become more accepting of the fact there are no other undisclosed kinks.

[Jenn A116]

I never really counted but I'd say at least two dozen. Partially that's because I belong to a local CD group and thus all the members and their SOs know. In addition a few GGs know.

But it's interesting that this question was asked. On Monday (Aug 11) Femulate.org published a story about support that I think relates to this question. Basically it says that everybody needs support for something. As CDs we are in a slightly difficult situation in that to get personal, face to face, support we need to take a huge step. But fortunately there are other sources of support like this site.

[Harriet14]

My wife and one friend who also dresses. I would have to know and trust someone very much before I could let them know.

[JesseVF]

Only my wife and even only for the past 4 years for her. Never really considered telling any friends. Looking back I wished I had told my much older brother - when he told me he was gay would have been a good time but so long ago I was still very much in denial myself. Considered telling one of my sisters but unfortunately I have found people are not really very good at keeping secrets. Recently met another cd at my church and we are slowly developing a friendship but that will be femme appearance only so I don?t think that counts. Oh yeah my therapists.
This forum greatly alleviates this isolating lifestyle - or whatever you call it.

[CarlaWestin]

Wife, BFF, email friends from here, daughter, a couple of female friends up in Vegas. When my ex (dead) weaponized my CD'ing for her divorce, I'm sure she told everyone she could.
One neighbor but, no immediate family.

[Joanie CD]

I had actually been making a list of people I was out to. Other than my wife, and my daughter and her family, I'm not out to any other family members. However, I am out to about 30 friends, and about 20 various tradespeople (services, restaurants, shops, etc) who I see regularly. All of the above have seen both Joanie and my male self. Absolutely everyone has been positive and accepting, which makes my heart swell. I interact with many, many more people on a daily basis -- I pretty much go out anywhere and any time I want. Today at lunch I went to Michael's to buy some upholstery pins, and through the drive-through at Chick-Fil-A. I don't even think about being dressed a lot of the time. I'm just me. I know I'm a very very lucky crossdresser and only wish I had come out to my wife much sooner. I feel terrible for those of you forced to stay in the closet, or even the house -- I hope someday you can break through the barrier. Until 6 years ago or so I was 100% closeted. Not even my wife had any inkling. Things do change.

[DAVIDA]

My parents and brother knew before they passed.
Both sisters, and grandsons and their SOs.
My daughter told others years ago when she was mad at my wife and me.
Pretty much most of my family and friends know, along with people who were members of Tri Ess in Atlanta back in '07 when my wife and I were members.
Also people who I have come into contact with while getting wigs, nails done, female glasses and waxing.
As long as my wife and family are OK with it, I don't care who else knows.
We have had friends over for dinner while I was dressed.
As far as I know, none have had any problems, other than my daughter's ex, and I don't care what that sub-human thinks about anything.

[JohnH]

EVERYBODY knows I wear dresses all the time. In fact, the last time I wore pants was 2024 late September to my mother's funeral. That includes church where I doll myself when I go shopping, interact with my local amateur radio club, etc.

John

[NancySue]

To our knowledge, only my supportive dear wife. We?ve discussed sharing with the children, but decided not.

[Kayy]

Only two people have seen me dressed as Kayy, my wife and one of her friends. I don’t see the need to tell anyone else right now, but that could change.

[Fiona_44]

I live full time as a woman and everyone I know has met Fiona.

[Charlotte Sparkle]

My Wife knows and is supportive to a point. She does not wish to see me dressed as she said it would mess with her head. That is fine as I would struggle with that too. My youngest daughter knows and I have shown her a couple of photos of me dressed. She doesn’t seem too bothered and we enjoy browsing shops together looking at clothes, heels, makeup, perfumes and anything else girly.

My sister knows and is coming with me when I go for my first makeover. My Dad knew too but he’s passed away now. He was old school and was a bit worried about his mates finding out but generally he was understanding.

There are three other people that know, my sister-in-law, and two friends in my old place of work. I’m kind of sorry I told these three but none of them have reacted negatively towards me and I believe I was well and truly in the pink fog around that time. I do suspect one of my work friends may have blabbed to another colleague though. I could kind of tell by the way this colleague behaved when i was around. He would always bring the subject of cross dressing up using the derogatory term for the pastime.

[Jasmine23]

No one knows and I don't really see that changing, although I do hope to go for a makeover at some stage, so that would obviously involve someone seeing me. I'd love to have other crossdressing friends or even female friends to share this with, have girly nights out with etc., but, I can't see that happening. There's no way I'd tell any family or friends as they wouldn't understand. I actually thought about telling some female friends I worked with about 20 years ago, but, glad I didn't as they turned out not to be too trustworthy and haven't seen them in years!

[kayegirl]

It would be easier to say amongst my family, friends and acquaintances, who doesn't know. My older brother, my wife's sister, and probablyher oldest son who lives in California. Other than them, my wife, son, daughter and step daughter and theirvresoective partners, most of my neighbours, several trades connections, ie hairdresser, optician etc., and many other friends in my fraternal society. Not forgetting the friends/members of my support group.

[alwayshave]

Besides you lovely ladies and the girls in my meetup group, there is my wife. My mother, god rest her soul, also knew.

[ilisa]

My wife knows. She thinks my mom knows, but neither of us is certain of that. My sister did see me wearing my mom's half slip once when I was perhaps 9 or 10, and that would have made her 6 or 7. That is it. My friends would never understand, and so I'll just stay mum about it to them.

[April Rose]

I posted on this somewhere on this site last year or so; I sat down and wrote out who of my closest friends knew about my gender issues. I was quite surprised to realize that 23 of the 25 people closest to me knew about me. Now, I understand that once you get to 25 they are really not all that close. Since then add my wife's family and a few of her friends.

You would think that would mean that mean that I am fully out, but no, not in my mind at least. Only one of my neighbors knows(at least as far as I know) and I am not out around town, (except for my wife's friends) or in the organizations that I participate in, but I guess my closet door is open fairly wide.

I really don't mind if people know I'm in the transgender spectrum, I just hate telling them.

I will say this; my sense of isolation or aloneness has greatly diminished.

[Rileyaz]

Sadly, nobody that I know, knows. I wish it were different.

[Mary Loo]

A lot of replies in a short period of time! Interesting thread.

Though my previous posts have already stated more than once, I will repeat again here, that I am fully closeted. People who know are my wife, a therapist, a wig shop owner and her two assistants, and those from this site, so really just my wife. We are a little bit past a DADT state, but she still struggles to process and deal with it all.

[TheHiddenMe]

Let me start counting.

Besides my wife, there's her best friend (my phone outed me, but she has agreed not to tell my wife she knows, and she's cool with it), and the wife of a long time friend (they have a trans child; she knows and is very supportive, he doesn't).

Two former girlfriends, one who I exchange texts with all the time and I'm going to see her next month, and I'll be dressed with her.

My friend Michelle, and her two daughters. One of Michelle's clients is a high school classmate and she knows. Several of Michelle's chair renters know me, as I've been at her salon dressed and as boy me, and boy me mows the lawn regularly. Also three or four of Michelle's ex boyfriends. Also, a number of her friends have met me and several are Facebook friends of the boy me.

I've made friends of three sales agents and they've seen both sides of me. My wig sales woman was the mom of a kid I coached (I didn't know until she told me).

I belong to a transgender group but they usually see me dressed.

If I was guessing in round numbers,I'd probably say about 50 people, give or take.

[Lacey New]

Years ago, I worked with a woman and her slip was showing, I glanced at it and it started a conversation about nice silky lingerie and she asked if I liked lingerie and if I ever wondered what it would feel like wearing it. I got red faced, denied everything and cut off the conversation pretty quickly. Sometimes I look back and simply wonder what if I had been more receptive.

[Monique65]

My accepting wife is the only other person on the planet who knows I dress and I plan on keeping it that way.

[BiancaEstrella]

Prior to transitioning, at which point the flood gates basically burst open, a few dozen friends knew of my crossdressing. Some were local and willing to help with my looks, some were distant but appreciated knowing something about me that everybody didn't know.

[JulieC]

My wife knows and has known since we'd been dating for a short while. She is supportive.

Very much like Dee (TheHiddenMe above), I have former girlfriends who know. Two of them I'm connected to and could reach if I had to, but I'm really not in contact with anymore. One of those two almost certainly told a mutual friend, but I have no proof. A third I communicate with all the time. She knows, and has a bit of a time processing it. She doesn't think it would have caused us to break up had she learned of it when we were dating, but it would have required some delicate work to reach an equitable balance. I've never dressed around her, and she knows if she wants to see me dressed she can, but that I won't otherwise push it on her. That's our now-balance.

I attended a CD support group once ~20 years ago, and met with the organizer of the group outside of that. But, I'm not in touch with any of them now. An old friend who was a friend of a girlfriend (this one didn't know) knew, but we're not in touch anymore.

There's been a few random people in public who have seen me, but I don't know any of them. They are NPCs (non-player characters), two-dimensional to me and don't really exist in any sense that matters.

I'm otherwise completely closeted. My kids don't know, and don't currently have a need to know. That may change in the near future. My friends don't know. My job and coworkers don't know. But, when I retire in a few years I'm planning on having a coming-out meeting in my last week that I'm going to do as a DEI meeting to educate them about crossdressing, and how the organization I work for can interface with the world better to prevent ostracization of our community.

I've considered openly confronting my brother, as he absolutely despises our community and transgender individuals in general. He has said some very hateful things over the years. If I do confront him, I just might do it while crossdressed. I don't want to lose the connection that I have to him, but my tolerance for his hatred is low.

[kimdl93]

Closeness is a bit subjective, especially since I have mostly retired and moved away from the majority. I would say maybe a dozen fairly close friends know and support me.

[Marketa]

From my drab friends and family - nobody knows and most likely never will.

But as Marketa I'm building a new network of people and I'm already getting few friends, even though I can count them on one hand too. But it's progress :)

[Kelli_cd]

Before the lockdown, I had shared with Natalie, my favorite SA at Soma, that I was interested in more than just underdressing. She indulged me a few times and let me try on some of the limited fashions Soma had in her store. She even offered to go shopping with me. Sadly, the store was closed for months and she had to find employment elsewhere. I lost touch with her after that.
My wife knows about my panties and isn't at all happy about that. I haven't told her about my bras and I don't plan on ever doing so. She may or may not have noticed. Nothing has been said.

[Raven Skyy]

OMG After thinking about it. I have to say I have about 20+ people that know and have seen photos of me in full Raven Mode. Maybe 7 have actually been here present at the house when We've had dinner and drinks, or as my Significant other calls them Girls Gala. None of my family knows That I know of, I'm sure some have their suspicions.

[KrissyTN]

My ex wife knows...and I'm pretty sure she has told our kids but don't know due to estrangement issues. Anyway, I would love to find a local friend to dress up with and have gurly conversations. Current wife doesn't know and I'm ok with keeping it that way.

[Traci H]

Pretty much in the closet here. My wife knows and is not supportive. Just tolerates it a bit. There have been three therapists over the many years that I have seen, so they of course know. Beyond that, no one that I can be sure of. I wonder if my kids suspect as tiny clues may have been noticed. Who knows. Then of course you gals here, the only ones I talk to about this.

[Sasha_inside]

My wife and her mom, my doctor and her nurses, various SA's at stores, an old girlfriend, 1 friend from high school.

[Andrea Renea]

My wife hnows. She pretty much
knows everything about me.

The people i come in contact with while Im out shopping but they dont know me personally. They would see me as a crossdresser or a transgender and probably assume Im gay.

[Elizabeth G]

My wife, both of my brothers, my son, daughter and son in law,my sister in law and nieces, my therapist, three co-workers and numerous SA's. One particular group of SA's have actually become friends of mine and we have occasional GNO's!

I would greatly expand the list but my wife prefers that i not do so.

[HollyGreene]

None really. My wife knows I wear panties, but not about everything else.
An ex-girlfriend from many years ago knows, but we aren't in touch with each other any longer.

[VS Fan]

So alone… my wife knows, of course. She is accepting but not enthusiastic lol. I have two friends that know but they live far away and have only seen me once - they also have plenty of their own problems to want to get deeply involved in mine. I had several estheticians and hair stylist friends about 6 or so years ago but I moved away and I find it a little creepy messaging them on social media … more my own shame and guilt I suppose than anything. But it was more of a “client that became a friend” situation than a real friend situation.

[Natalie5004]

My wife knows. I have been around her dolled up. I sent a photo to my sister, she does not want to know any more about it. I have been to my local wig shop dolled up. She know for sure. I have done some shopping in Macy's too. I had to wait in line with a bunch of women a few times for checkout. That's about it

My other sisters expect something but I am known as a "Wack Job"

[Heather76]

My wife knows as well as 2 other people. One of the others is a step-nephew. He thought I would hate him when he told me he was bi. I thought I could /should let him know all of us have things in our lives others might find odd/strange, so I came out to him as a CD. I wanted him to know that when I said his being bi was not an issue for me, he would truly understand I was being truthful. He is in his mid-50s and I've seen him maybe 3 times in the past 10 years. The other person is a lady who works where I volunteer. She saw me buying my first dress and asked if I often buy dresses for my wife. I have a major fault - I cannot lie. I told her I CD. She has become a wonderful, close, supportive friend and has actually met Heather on one occasion.

Edit: After reading thru many of the responses, I realized I left "someone" out. When we moved almost 4 years ago (to a different state), I started going to a different VA facility. I was hoping to get into a support group so asked my PCP about it. She directed me to the mental health department psychiatrist who dealt with LGBTQ+ issues. She (psychiatrist) actually asked me what name I preferred. Anyway, both of them have left the area to work at other VA facilities, but I know my VA records definitely show I am a crossdresser.

[Geena75]

For me there are two groups. One knows me as my drab self and nothing else. The other knows me primarily as Geena, most of whom have seen my drab self as well, but think of me as Geena. There is no intersection between the two groups.

[OrdinaryAverageGuy]

I'd love to have a friend I could talk to about it, or better yet wear a skirt and bra around (ideally because he did too), but I don't see that happening.

[2B Natasha]

Those who need to know, know. My wife of course. I don't think she cares too much one way or the other. She says I'm the same no matter what clothes I'm wearing. All my close friends and group I regularly go out with. We've had several GNO's together. So like 20-30 people. My family, as afar as I know do not know. Except my mother. I have only told her about it. We live right next door to each other and it just makes life easy that way. I don't know how they would react really. I don't tell them because it's a boring subject and I don't want to answer questions from them and I have no intention of being around them dressed that way.

[Mari]

To my knowledge, nobody in real life knows that I dress. It can be a pretty lonely existence indeed. I do wish that I could find some like-minded individuals to share this side of me with, or at the very least, friends who would tolerate it.

[Steph_CD_62]

I am basically a closeted crossdresser.

My wife knows and is supportive of me, but I also know she would be happier if I quit. But she has never said anything bad about me crossdressing and has even suggested a few things for me to wear. She goes shopping with me once or twice a year. I can freely dress in front of her as long as it isn't more than half the time.

My kids and her kids know, but it isn't discussed. I think her mom knows, but not 100% sure.

My parents knew before they passed away, but again never discussed it with each other.

My ex-wife knew, but she has also passed away. I know my ex-wife told people, but not sure who or how many.

[Violetgray]

As of a few weeks ago I am now Violet full time at work, so I guess pretty much most of the time in general. My mom knows and all my friends know. I also do standup comedy semi-professionally and the whole comedy scene knows.

My bestie Rachel says that I've basically socially transitioned and she's not using my male name anymore.

[JenninSC]

I have a handful of people who know. My wife obviously. She tolerates it but wants nothing to do with it. I also have 4 female acquiantances who know and assist with things like shopping, advice, encouragement, etc. These women are a huge help and I'm forever grateful for them all.

[Rhonda Darling]

Violet, congratulations on your social TRANSition at work. If you've done that, then no reason to not go 100%, right? I'm really happy for you. I

[CarynPB]

In nice round numbers. (as far as I know)..0. Only my on-line friends know. Have been widowed over 12 years now...wife never knew..though my dressing really took off when I found myself living alone. Have only been out in public a few times but never with anyone outside this world.

[JCDScottish]

No-one knows its been 20 years and dont think I'll ever be able to tell anyone i know

[tiffyjo]

My ex-wife is the only one for sure. A couple of neighbors have seen me in a female top a time or 2, but they are a bit older than me and may not have known they were female tops. I honestly wish there were more that did.

[Mercedes]

For people who know and are still in my life, two, probably three. My spouse who is polite, and I told my male best friend about 10-11 years ago. He has lived outside the country but we have always kept in touch and is moving back sometime this year. And I am pretty sure he would have told his spouse, also a life long friend and happy that she would know. They would both be very accepting and in fact he offered for me to visit them and I could dress while there. Never happened though. There was one other person I told but they moved away and I have not been in touch for many many years.

And this is why I am thankful to this community, I can share Mercedes and it feels really good.

[Celine 9]

I am by myself in the Crossdressing world. Most recently, I have been doing selfies of myself crossdressed when I have time for myself.

[Rosemaryjane]

My therapist from last century. Spouse saw once before major purge. Never again. Coworker went out to dinner. Attended support group in drab.Attended out of town support group en femme. Couple of SA?s at Avenue & Dress Barn But now nothing.

[AllieBellema]

I got friends that know I crossdress and they support me for it. Other than that... yeah, I'm pretty much on my own when it comes to dressing up.

[Gail_veiled]

To date I?ve been 100% alone in this saga? that closet door is firmly shut, locked, and guarded for now.

[Philippa Jane]

In the beginning only my wife and 2 close friends.
A number of neighbours must have seen me in the last three years and as I am fully out I don't care who sees me.
The other day I had been out to an appointment and my next door neighbour was cleaning her car.
I took the opportunity to walk over to her and say "HI Sam, would you recognise me if we passed in the street"? Now she would have been talking to other neighbours so the only surprise for her was (in her words) "wow you look stunning".
I rarely walk outside of my garage fully made up as I jump in the car and leave.

[chrissy111]

Everyone that I know has seen Chris as she has been around in one way or another since forever. My best friend growing up shared my love of dressing up, so in a way I have never been alone. We are still best friends and he still dresses.

[BrendaPDX]

Friends, zero. My wife knows but would prefer not to talk about it.

[Petals]

I am all alone in the CD world! There are no support groups or CD meetings in my area! But there must be others near me, but how do I find them! Well when I say alone, I do have female friends and guy friends and they all know I Crossdress, but cross dress friends? NO

[Victoria1]

Aside from this forum I am very much alone in this journey. My wife is the only one that knows and even she doesn't know the full extent of my crossdressing. We never talk about it. It would be so nice to have a friend that I could talk to, face to face, that shares my interest. There used to be a couple of SAs at the local Jockey outlet that knew that I crossdressed. They would always point out anything new in the store and encourage me to try on anything that I was interested in. It was always the highlight of my week when I would stop in. Sadly, we moved away and I no longer have that connection with anyone.

[NatashaHexx]

My Partner knows. She's supportive, but doesn't want to be involved.

I got out in public sometimes. But honestly I really online talk to people online. I haven't been able to make any local connections here in Oregon since I moved here.

My fem life is pretty lonely.

[Staci]

My wife knows and has since we were dating. I guess a girl in the store where I tried on my first pair of high heel boots. That is it. I don?t feel lonely as my wife still finds a way to make it fun.

[Beano980]

My x knows, but no one else that I am aware of knows. That's one of the deep struggles for me, no one to actually SEE me and accept this part of me. It can feel very isolating, and for me, that's never a good thing. I need to be around people.

[Snide_lobster]

The total (meaningful either post or present) people that know are my ex, my two prior therapists, my best male friend, and as of yesterday my dad.

Honestly I didn?t want to reveal the size 8-12 skeletons hanging in my closet, but there had been a nagging thought to do so the past few weeks. Circumstances eventually made it unavoidable to keep it inside any longer.

He was as supportive as I think anyone could want which is really all I can ask for. Reading between the lines he seemed slightly uncomfortable, but tbh I?m not even sure I wouldn?t be upon learning my (hypothetical) son plays dress up in mini skirts and heels.