Sally24
07-03-2006, 08:56 PM
Well I just got back from a 4 day weekend to Boston with my wife. Spent 3 out of the 4 days en femme! (I was just too tired on day 3 with only 4 hours sleep).
On the first day I went into a public pool en femme in a one piece bathing suit. see http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=33686 Was by myself but I walked thru the entire wing of the hotel with just a bathing suit and a black skirt over it. I think, from some angles that the bathing suit actually made me look better.
We went to a number of places around Boston with no problems at all. Went to the Museum of Fine Arts and the restaurant inside. Took the trolly tour of the city and walked in the area of Fenway Park. But the crowning moment of the whole trip was my first meeting with other CDs. I went to GNO Boston http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Gurlsniteoutclub_Boston_Ma/. I had been very nervous, and almost didn't go. Up until now, I have never actually talked with another CD about dressing and myself. I was nervous at first but got to talking with the other gurls and got to relaxing a bit. They started talking about going into Boston itself and going to a club. Well I haven't seen the inside of a Bar/Club since the late 70's so I was not too sure that I could handle this, but I decided to go along.
We ended up going to Avalon, a straight night club in Boston. I kind of held back at first and stayed surrounded by the group of 7 gurls that we had there. Later, after getting accustomed to the club, I walked freely thru the whole place without any problems or strange looks. One of the strange, but wonderful things about this trip was that we were not making any pretense as to who we were. There were 5 large girls among us, most wearing high heels. Their heights with heels were 6'6", 6'5", 6'4", 6'2", and 6'1" (me the short one, what a change). We stayed together on the dance floor usually, but moved where ever we wanted and used the ladies room with no problems at all.
Dancing out in front of everyone, as a T-Girl was not a feeling that I was prepared for. After the first bit of nervousness, I started getting into a different frame of mind. It didn't matter that everyone there knew I wasn't a GG. I was a CD/TG, and to some that made me exotic. I began to feel both exotic, rare, and desirable......not something that I had anticipated! Any number of dancers, both male and female, danced their way over to us and danced with us for 2-6 minutes each. Apparently, to at least some of the population, we're cool!
I have always loved to dance, but don't get that much opportunity anymore. Dancing to the electronic type club music they had, along with the lighting and the feeling from the crowd was almost hypnotic. I don't think I've danced that hard since maybe 1976, didn't even know I had that much left in me anymore. I impressed the 20 and 30 somethings I was with and that made me feel good. We danced until the club closed down at 2am. We made our way as a group down the whole length of Landsdown street and strutted as proudly as any group of runway models. It was a surreal moment that I will remember forever!
What I learned was that it's not just about passing as a woman, something that I spend an inordinate amount of thought and time on. Sometimes it's about accepting the whole package of who you are, not the male, not the female, but everything. That one evening, I was able to just be a CD to all the people around me, and that was hundreds of people! At the peak of the evening it was an intoxicating feeling of joy and power. Ashley, the group leader says it well when she says it's all about attitude, "Every man here wants us!". That attitude and a confident smile can make changes in you and those around you. If you can, find one of the GNO groups, or one of the other social or support groups and see what they can do to help you.
I went into this vacation, hoping to have a little fun and pick up a little helpful info maybe. What I got was so much more than that. I have trouble putting it into words and even now I am tearing-up a little. I found feelings and a power that I didn't know existed inside me. And best of all, I found a friend or two..........
On the first day I went into a public pool en femme in a one piece bathing suit. see http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=33686 Was by myself but I walked thru the entire wing of the hotel with just a bathing suit and a black skirt over it. I think, from some angles that the bathing suit actually made me look better.
We went to a number of places around Boston with no problems at all. Went to the Museum of Fine Arts and the restaurant inside. Took the trolly tour of the city and walked in the area of Fenway Park. But the crowning moment of the whole trip was my first meeting with other CDs. I went to GNO Boston http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Gurlsniteoutclub_Boston_Ma/. I had been very nervous, and almost didn't go. Up until now, I have never actually talked with another CD about dressing and myself. I was nervous at first but got to talking with the other gurls and got to relaxing a bit. They started talking about going into Boston itself and going to a club. Well I haven't seen the inside of a Bar/Club since the late 70's so I was not too sure that I could handle this, but I decided to go along.
We ended up going to Avalon, a straight night club in Boston. I kind of held back at first and stayed surrounded by the group of 7 gurls that we had there. Later, after getting accustomed to the club, I walked freely thru the whole place without any problems or strange looks. One of the strange, but wonderful things about this trip was that we were not making any pretense as to who we were. There were 5 large girls among us, most wearing high heels. Their heights with heels were 6'6", 6'5", 6'4", 6'2", and 6'1" (me the short one, what a change). We stayed together on the dance floor usually, but moved where ever we wanted and used the ladies room with no problems at all.
Dancing out in front of everyone, as a T-Girl was not a feeling that I was prepared for. After the first bit of nervousness, I started getting into a different frame of mind. It didn't matter that everyone there knew I wasn't a GG. I was a CD/TG, and to some that made me exotic. I began to feel both exotic, rare, and desirable......not something that I had anticipated! Any number of dancers, both male and female, danced their way over to us and danced with us for 2-6 minutes each. Apparently, to at least some of the population, we're cool!
I have always loved to dance, but don't get that much opportunity anymore. Dancing to the electronic type club music they had, along with the lighting and the feeling from the crowd was almost hypnotic. I don't think I've danced that hard since maybe 1976, didn't even know I had that much left in me anymore. I impressed the 20 and 30 somethings I was with and that made me feel good. We danced until the club closed down at 2am. We made our way as a group down the whole length of Landsdown street and strutted as proudly as any group of runway models. It was a surreal moment that I will remember forever!
What I learned was that it's not just about passing as a woman, something that I spend an inordinate amount of thought and time on. Sometimes it's about accepting the whole package of who you are, not the male, not the female, but everything. That one evening, I was able to just be a CD to all the people around me, and that was hundreds of people! At the peak of the evening it was an intoxicating feeling of joy and power. Ashley, the group leader says it well when she says it's all about attitude, "Every man here wants us!". That attitude and a confident smile can make changes in you and those around you. If you can, find one of the GNO groups, or one of the other social or support groups and see what they can do to help you.
I went into this vacation, hoping to have a little fun and pick up a little helpful info maybe. What I got was so much more than that. I have trouble putting it into words and even now I am tearing-up a little. I found feelings and a power that I didn't know existed inside me. And best of all, I found a friend or two..........