Jenna1561
07-05-2006, 07:38 AM
Hi Everyone,
I finally opened up and told my wife about Jenna.
A little background first. I've been married 20 years and have 4 children and like most have dressed since before puberty. I am deeply in love with my wife and would do nothing to jeopardize our relationship. I have always been fearful of my secret getting out and her leaving and of her possible rejection. So, I have kept it a secret. But I vowed to myself to tell her this summer.
But as I age, Jenna is becoming a bigger part of me. She struggles to shine through everyday and over the past 2 years has made quite an emergence and expresses her side of me daily.
I almost always have my toenails polished and wear clear polish on my fingernails. I wear anklets much of the time, a lady's watch, various ladies rings which are unisex in appearance, necklaces, and various bracelets as the mood dictates.
I wear panties exclusively, ladies trouser socks, ladies running shoes and sandals, women's shorts, tanks and casual tees. I also wear women's jeans and pants.
Of course at work, it's toned down quite abit, men's slacks, shirt (over a wide strap cami), and shoes; but still wear the jewelry.
I have let my hair grow out, and though thin is just about down to my shoulders.
So, lots of clues - right? And my wife is no dummy, she's working on her masters degeree. But she has never mentioned or brought any of it up. We had a big family vaction planned for June and I didn't want to bring it up before that. So I settled on July 4th, Independence Day. A day of announcements and pronouncements. A day I would tell her about my crossdressing.
That was yesterday. Two of my children were working at their jobs and the other 2 in their room playing video games. I brought her to our bedroom so we could talk. And soon the talk turned to us and I asked what she would change about me or want me to change about myself. She jokingly answered that she didn't like my current anklet, a string of purple (my favorite color) gemstones with a silver heart clasp. I joked back and reminded her that it was my favorite color.
Then I asked her why she never commented or questioned why I was wearing women's clothing so much of late. She said she didn't think she wanted to know the answer so she never asked. I told her how I liked wearing them because I liked the way they felt, the way they looked and the way they made me feel - happy. She was quiet. Then she asked how long I have liked wearing women's clothes. I told her since I was 10 or 11 and that I regretted never telling her before now and that the worst part was decieving her for 20+ years and the fear of losing her.
There were tears and hugs and I reminded her that I love her and that she was the only one I loved, the only one I love, and that I will always love her. She said she loved me. And I made the following statements about me.
I am not seeking sexual experimentation.
I am not homosexual.
I am not seeking a sex change.
I like dressing in women's clothes.
I don't plan on coming out to the rest of our family or community.
I want to keep it our secret for now.
I don't plan on wearing a skirt to work.
At this point she looked at me, dressed in my white women's, navy tank top, white and purple New Balance Ladies Crosstrainers, silver bracelet, necklace and purple anklet, and she asked "You wear a skirt around here?" I said yes I do. She sat quietly for a moment, and I asked, "What do you think of me wearing a skirt?" She replied "It's just a piece of clothing." But, she was a bit pensive and quiet. Once again I said that I loved her and she said she loved me. I asked her if she had any questions; she said no.
I asked if she wanted some time alone to digest the information and she said she did. So I took the 2 boys who were home to the movies.
When I returned, she was a little reserved but acted as though nothing was different. I think I'll give her some time before we talk again.
She said she'd had suspicions but didn't want to confront them. While I have told her about crossdressing, I haven't told her about fully dressing, wearing make up and a wig, going out enfemme, or that I have chosen a woman's name for myself. I also haven't told her about my photos.
One step at a time. Though she had suspicions, now it's in the open. She's taking it well at the moment, but there's more to tell and I certainly don't want to lose her.
Thanks for your thoughts and concerns, please keep thinking of and praying for me.
Jenna
I finally opened up and told my wife about Jenna.
A little background first. I've been married 20 years and have 4 children and like most have dressed since before puberty. I am deeply in love with my wife and would do nothing to jeopardize our relationship. I have always been fearful of my secret getting out and her leaving and of her possible rejection. So, I have kept it a secret. But I vowed to myself to tell her this summer.
But as I age, Jenna is becoming a bigger part of me. She struggles to shine through everyday and over the past 2 years has made quite an emergence and expresses her side of me daily.
I almost always have my toenails polished and wear clear polish on my fingernails. I wear anklets much of the time, a lady's watch, various ladies rings which are unisex in appearance, necklaces, and various bracelets as the mood dictates.
I wear panties exclusively, ladies trouser socks, ladies running shoes and sandals, women's shorts, tanks and casual tees. I also wear women's jeans and pants.
Of course at work, it's toned down quite abit, men's slacks, shirt (over a wide strap cami), and shoes; but still wear the jewelry.
I have let my hair grow out, and though thin is just about down to my shoulders.
So, lots of clues - right? And my wife is no dummy, she's working on her masters degeree. But she has never mentioned or brought any of it up. We had a big family vaction planned for June and I didn't want to bring it up before that. So I settled on July 4th, Independence Day. A day of announcements and pronouncements. A day I would tell her about my crossdressing.
That was yesterday. Two of my children were working at their jobs and the other 2 in their room playing video games. I brought her to our bedroom so we could talk. And soon the talk turned to us and I asked what she would change about me or want me to change about myself. She jokingly answered that she didn't like my current anklet, a string of purple (my favorite color) gemstones with a silver heart clasp. I joked back and reminded her that it was my favorite color.
Then I asked her why she never commented or questioned why I was wearing women's clothing so much of late. She said she didn't think she wanted to know the answer so she never asked. I told her how I liked wearing them because I liked the way they felt, the way they looked and the way they made me feel - happy. She was quiet. Then she asked how long I have liked wearing women's clothes. I told her since I was 10 or 11 and that I regretted never telling her before now and that the worst part was decieving her for 20+ years and the fear of losing her.
There were tears and hugs and I reminded her that I love her and that she was the only one I loved, the only one I love, and that I will always love her. She said she loved me. And I made the following statements about me.
I am not seeking sexual experimentation.
I am not homosexual.
I am not seeking a sex change.
I like dressing in women's clothes.
I don't plan on coming out to the rest of our family or community.
I want to keep it our secret for now.
I don't plan on wearing a skirt to work.
At this point she looked at me, dressed in my white women's, navy tank top, white and purple New Balance Ladies Crosstrainers, silver bracelet, necklace and purple anklet, and she asked "You wear a skirt around here?" I said yes I do. She sat quietly for a moment, and I asked, "What do you think of me wearing a skirt?" She replied "It's just a piece of clothing." But, she was a bit pensive and quiet. Once again I said that I loved her and she said she loved me. I asked her if she had any questions; she said no.
I asked if she wanted some time alone to digest the information and she said she did. So I took the 2 boys who were home to the movies.
When I returned, she was a little reserved but acted as though nothing was different. I think I'll give her some time before we talk again.
She said she'd had suspicions but didn't want to confront them. While I have told her about crossdressing, I haven't told her about fully dressing, wearing make up and a wig, going out enfemme, or that I have chosen a woman's name for myself. I also haven't told her about my photos.
One step at a time. Though she had suspicions, now it's in the open. She's taking it well at the moment, but there's more to tell and I certainly don't want to lose her.
Thanks for your thoughts and concerns, please keep thinking of and praying for me.
Jenna