What triggered your CDing?

[ChantelleCD]

Hi everyone. Im new here by the way this being my 1st post.

I just have a quick question for everybody after reading one of the other threads. I dont know if this has been raised before in past posts but i wonder what for everyone was the point were they 1st relised they where different and what they think triggered there CDing? Im very interested in what you guys have to say. Because for me. i really can't remember, It seems like its been with me all my life!

thanks guys x x x

[Kath]

I have no idea what triggered it but I wish I knew. One day when I was young 10+/- I tried one of my mom's girdles on. I've been a CDer since that day that is easily 50+ years.

Kath

[Nicola46]

I remember i was about 8 and my cousin sue used to visit very regular, i dont know how things started but we used to swap clothes. she is the same age as me and as 8 year olds, we were the same size too. We also used to watch each other doing things (as young kids do). from that early age ive\had the desire...38 years ago!!

[ChantelleCD]

The earliest memory i have was when i was about 5 years old. I was at my friends house, she went down stairs to get her tea and left me alone in her room for some time. I remember trying on a few of her clothes and things, i had the most amazing rush.

i dont think this was the catalyst though which has made me the way i am today. Im sure its something much deeper into my conscience as to why i am.

[Siobhan Marie]

I can't honestly say what triggered my crossdressing, I think it started when I tried on a pair of Mum's panties with one of her skirts and it went from there.

:hugs: Anna x

[Julogden]

Hi everyone. Im new here by the way this being my 1st post.

I just have a quick question for everybody after reading one of the other threads. I dont know if this has been raised before in past posts but i wonder what for everyone was the point were they 1st relised they where different and what they think triggered there CDing? Im very interested in what you guys have to say. Because for me. i really can't remember, It seems like its been with me all my life!

thanks guys x x x
While I don't have the foggiest as to what triggered my crossdressing, I can remember dressing up in my mom's clothes and putting on lipstick when I was probably 3 or 4, which are among my earliest memories.

I remember opening my mother's closet and working my way in between the dresses hanging in there and thinking that some day, I would have beautiful clothes like that. I had to be maybe 3 or 4 when I did that the first time too.

My mom would occasionally dress me up or put nail polish or lipstick on me when I was a kid, as well as helping me dress as a girl for Halloween at least a couple times. I wonder if her occasional participation contributed to me being transgendered, but I also feel that it is not the cause. She was just encouraging (probably unwittingly) something that was already present in me.

I also remember playing dress-up with the older girl from across the street when she was my babysitter too, as well as some dress-up sessions with girls closer to my age when I was 4 or 5, so I've been dressing for over 50 years now.

I also recall my delight when I reached the point when I wore the same size shoes as my mom, as well as the bitter disappointment when I passed the point of being able to fit in her clothes too.

Carol

[Janelle Young]

I don't think it really matters what triggered my dressing. The earliest remembrance I have is at about age three dressing in my sisters panties, so I guess that would be my trigger. If it had not been that it would have been me dressing in her clothes later, perhaps a month, perhaps a year or more, who knows. I am the way that I am, I am not sure why I am the way that I am but I am comfortable with me the way that I am.

[EjayeCD]

I grew up & played with girls exclusively when I was little. Of course we played girls games & dressup. I got HOOKED when I was 7.

[Calliope]

Hi ChantelleCD (amazing avatar, btw),

I recall longing to line up with the girls during some function at school (first grade). During that same time period (age 6), I invited a girl from my classroom (who lived across the street) to play at my (parents') place and I enjoyed playing with her (drawing birds) better than I ever did with my boy pals (playing army). That was a spark, but I cannot at all imagine what triggered my first time dressing (age 11) but, presto mystery, one afternoon the parents were gone and I got into my mother's stuff...

[lisa33tv]

playing hairdressers with my nan.having her put rollers in my hair and headscarf.that i think triggered it for me.

[maid phylis]

i was around five years old and i was in my parents bed and i tried on a pair of my mothers stockings .that was it...:love:

[DonnaT]

I was 6 or 7 when, one day while playing army with some of the guys, saw a girl in my class dress up her brother. They were in the basement of their house, and I was outside the window hiding from the guys. I was immediately fascinated and wished it was me she's was dressing up.

I didn't have any sisters, but saw her in class everyday in a nice dress, which kept reminding me of that day. For some reason, maybe the style, maybe the age, but I didn't even think about my mother's clothes.

One day, when I was around 10, I think, I was cleaning an area of our basement so my dad could build us boys an exercise/weight room. I came across some things my mom had stored, and these were from her youngerr days. One was a nightie and there was also a white peasant blouse and black skirt.

Maybe it was the thought of dressing enfemme many years before that remained in my memory, maybe it was something else, but all I know is I liked the feel of the nightie and put it on. What a rush that was. The next day I tried the blouse and skirt on. Perfect fit and feel.

I took the items from the box and hid them in my room, and the rest, as they say, is history.

http://crossdressers.com/forums/showthread.php?t=21829

[dann]

I was about 6 years old. My 4 sisters all use to store their winter clothes and stuff they didn't wear anymore in bags in my bedroom closet. One day, I just started trying things on. It snowballed from there. I don't know what possessed me to do it. I think I was born that way.

dann

[Robertacd]

In fourth grade a couple of the girls started wearing training bras. I remember I just felt like *I* should be wearing one too. I tried my mom's (of course) bra on around the same time. It just felt so natural and the rest is history.

[eleventhdr]

This goes back as far and as young as i can remeber somewhere around four or five

And seeing girls in a nusury school class that a Church did have for us Back In tTexas in those day the early 50's i think it was something like that.

Anyway my thinking was upon seeing them like this at that very young age before we were all changed and messed up as life does to you later on.

They were mostly so very nice some were kind of a little starange and this intrigued me all the more.

IN those days girls wore such nice cloths mostly dresses 50's style that i wondered even then as to why i was not one off them it made sense to me to be one as it seemed natural to me and i wondered why or what fate had made me male yet again.

Oh Oh!

But then later it was drummed into me that i was male and had to be so.

And it was not until much latr that i did realize that there was female in me just as well

And that i was still suppose to be so

So this did lead finally to my dressing and wanting to be female

After much soul seaching and anger rage ete.

I did finally realize that i was and stil am femlae at least inside if not out

I would still change given the real chance to do so

In the very next life and inbetwwen i will be female yet once again as it should be!.

Jay Suzy!:

[jo_ann]

I was just pondering this today. A bunch of things crossed my mind:

1. being told in health class that we all start out as female and then choose to be male or female.. I think for many, this warps our minds, some more than others. After being told that, my mind immediately raced into "what if scenarios" like "what would it be like if I WAS born a girl, what clothes would I wear.. what if suddenly I turned into a girl right now, what would my classmates say? what would I look like?"

2. Lack of guidance from parents.. I don't even remember my parents explaining the birds and the bees. I think lack of information can be really bad because our minds start making up answers and start assuming, perhaps even believing in our own answers. Our minds are very impressionable at early ages, and allowing us to answer our own questions can't be a good thing

3. access to media.. although more prevalant today, even as a kid I was exposed to transgender from "current affair" and "donahue", which I think helped warp my mind as well.

4. porn.. that's right, I said it. Having a 4 year old brother, I remember watching my first pr0n (granted secretely from my dad) at about 12 years old. Perhaps seeing images of beautiful women (and their birthday suits) made me somehow desire to be like them? (note how many crossdressers in here have the tendancy to dress a little bit on the ****ty side), makes you wonder.

[michelle-h]

I think it started for me about 1st grade. This may even sound a little wierd. My mom and another student's mother were going to do a face painting booth at the school fall festival. So the two of us got used as test subjects. The other student was a girl, so I guess it was no big deal to her. But for me it started a love of make-up. At first, I would try to do the clown faces like they were doing for the booth, but over time it evolved to trying to imitate what I saw my mother and sister do with their make-up. I actually did not try on any clothing for several years, but I never stopped loving the way make-up felt and looked. As a result, I am a little backwards in my progression. I know a lot of girls start with the clothes, and work their way up to make-up. I am actually much better at using make-up than I am at picking out and matching clothes. Even my wife tells me that I do my make-up almost perfectly. I guess thats what you get with 25 years of practice.

Michelle-H

[Jazmine Star]

I grew up with a couple of sisters. I had an older brother, but he pretty much lived a life apart from me, and would only say mean deragotory things to me for several years. He would always call me stupid and retarded, and he did some pretty awful things to me for the amusement of him and his friends. So I was pretty much bonded to my sisters during childhood. We would often share clothes and play with makeup. I guess that may have added some femininity to my personality. Don't know.

[MelindaC]

I have no idea what triggered it but I wish I knew. One day when I was young 10+/- I tried one of my mom's girdles on. I've been a CDer since that day that is easily 50+ years.

Kath

My story is just about identical with yours, Kath. At age 11, I had the need one day to try on one of mom's girdles and a pair of nylons. Once I had the girdle on and the stockings hooked up to the garters on the girdle, I was hooked forever. As time went on & I could buy my own clothes, I then started wearing bras, slips, heels, dresses, etc. and it just grew from there. But the initial trigger was the girdle. For some reason, I had a fascination with girdles for many years before that day --- so the day I wore my first girdle was the culmination of years being fascinated by them. And, like Kath, that day was easily 50 years ago.

[Charleen]

Hi Girls, Like all, I started with the curiosity and trying on my Mom's stuff and then it was off to the races ever since. Be that as it may, I read one of Karren's post on another thread and it fits here. She said that she thinks it's because we are hard wired this way. I agree., But I've been thinking that maybe it also has to hormone levels. Don't know if this has been studied, but maybe that's one reason-we have a little more estrogen than other males. Just a thought. Jo Ann hit on something as well when she said in biology class they were told we all start out female. Hell we all have nips don't we? So that might tie a few things together. Tell you what, for me, I don't really care. I am who I am and enjoying, and relishing in the fact! Love and xxx, Lily

[Jeanine]

I grew up in a small house with my Mom and three older sisters, so all of my youthful influences were of a feminine nature ... I also have a hormonal imbalance called Gynecomastia that caused me to start developing feminine breasts at age 11 ... I was called ugly names and constantly humiliated by the other kids at school because of my breasts ... I couldn't go swimming or be seen without a shirt ... Even my sisters made fun of me if they saw me without a shirt at home ... I started "dressing" at 13 when I decided to "try on" my sisters' bras ... When I saw myself in a mirror wearing my sister Patti's 36B bra, I was hooked, and I just added panties, stockings, skirts, blouses, dresses, and high heel shoes as time went on.
Jeanine

[KateW]

Mine started at the age of 3 or 4, trying on my mums tights out of curiousity. This soon progressed to skirts and makeup (very badly might I add) too. The desire to dress increased throughout my childhood, and I explored it more fully in my teenage years. Now in my 20's I am still hooked.

[Helen MC]

Trying on a pair of my big sister's panties when I was 12. The rest is history.

[ChantelleCD]

Hi ChantelleCD (amazing avatar, btw),



why thank you!

thanks for everybodys comments on this probably already bored subject.

Just thinking about it I can also remember in my 1st years of school playing dress up, i always wonted to dress as a girl. i think i new at the time it was "wrong" but being young I could get away with it. I also remember using the same im to young to know better trick when going to the book shop and getting my mother to buy me my little pony books instead of boring boys books.

For me i only wish i knew why when I 1st put on female clothing my brain went?? (WOW THIS IS GREAT).

[Bernadina]

Don't really know either.

But I was informed once that I was an Egyptian Priestess in a prior life. Maybe that had something to do with it. Or maybe it was that fact that I married a Yorkshire lass.

[vcutenyc]

a Dare...

I was about twelve. My friend's mom had picked us up after school. She had to run a couple errands before dropping me off, one at a ladies shoe store. While she talked to the clerk about something, my friend and I were screwing around in the back of the store. My friend dared me to try on a beautiful red patent high heel pump which I did. ZING!!! Unbelievable excitement and euphoria. I've been hooked ever since with shoes being my favorite article of clothing by far. I sometimes wonder if this hadnt happened at this particular moment if I would still be a CDer. Probably would ;)

[Dee 1062]

I was born that way...I think it was the Pink blanket they wrap me in when, coming home from the hosiptal...

[Elizabeth Anne]

I was 7-8 years old, my great-grandmother watched me when I was out of school because the rest of the family worked. I went into her closet & got out some of her clothes & put them on. She didn't say anything & we "played dress up" all the time after that. As others have said, the rest is history.

Beth

[jesse]

For me and i'm sure alot of people, it was the lingere section of the Sears catalog.

[laurie_f_ca]

I am not really sure, except that I remember being dressed as a girl when I was three of four by a cousin.
Later tho when I was 11, I was dressed by my mother as Cinderella for a School Haloween party. That was a pivotal event for me. It was then that I realized that I so much wanted to be a girl.
The rest of the day had it's share of emotional ups and downs at school, but from that time on, I knew..
If that was the trigger, so be it.

[connie rotten]

As far back as I can remember I wanted to dress like the big girls, and I did every chance I got.

[Emma England]

When I was 11, my mum gave me these white baggy y-fronts. My god, they are the most disgusting clothing designed for men.

Two years of not knowing what to do (had no money to buy my own), I then decided to try my mums French knickers on. That felt good, orgasmic. So wore more of them - even plain cotton full-cut ones were sexy to me.

Then slowly added more items from my mothers drawers when they were out. Bras, tights, teddies. It felt naughty but felt right too.

Also seen the home mail order catalogues from about age 7. Beautiful ladies wearing beautiful lingerie. I had thoughts of why can't I wear something pretty too?

[jami]

Trying on a beautiful full length fur coat and feeling the rest of femme should be included

[Karren H]

I think two things....my mother telling me she always wanted a girl and the birth of my sister. My crossdressing started right after she was born!!

Love Karren

[Carroll]

I grow up with three sisters nuf said..well actually I have always had a "thing" for silky stuff. I had a blanky with silky edging, But Like you heather, I spent the night at my grandma's and had forgotten my blanky. I guess I couldn't sleep so she gave me one of her slips to sleep with. I believe that was the beginning for me

[Rachel Morley]

This is absolutely true and I remember it very vividly. I don't know if it was the trigger but it sure seems like it now.

When I was about 6 years old my best friend Rebecca and I were hiding together in my parents garage during a game of hide and seek. I can't remember why or how it happened but she insisted on taking her cardigan off and dressing me in it. Now you have to understand that she was my best friend and I would have done anything for her, so I didn't protest.

I remember to this day an intense feeling of excitement and fear all rolled into one. I knew that wearing pretty cardigans were for girls only and I shouldn't be doing it, yet I liked it, also we could have been discovered at any moment so that added to the fear. Since that time I have always had a fondness for feminine sweaters, cardigans in particular, and being dressed in girly clothes was something that I would often think about. I guess I started trying on my Mom's clothes in secret from about 8 years old and onwards.

[LynnDrew]

.. well maybe a bit more that 2 cents... here is my short story

I was probably about 10 when I first tried on my moms stockings and bra. But what I really remember was when I was 12 when a few of the neighborhood guys somehow decided that it would be cool to dress enfem. We were dared to raid our moms lingerie draws and make up kits. About 4 of us took the dare and got stockings, bras, panties, girdles, lipstick, eyeliner and took our stash to a friend’s garage. I remember that we had a lot of stuff. We ranged in age from 12 to 14, I was the youngest. We all took off our boy clothes and put on the female clothes. The makeup was disgusting. We pranced around a bit and acted like girls. We kept our clothes in a safe place in the garage and at least once a week that summer we all got together and got naked and put our girl clothes on. This all ended when the oldest friend who was reaching puberty masturbated into a slip. The rest of us were totally amazed at what we saw. He became the center of attention that September and the dressing stopped.

I continued to put on stocking and some make up on my own and that continued when I was well into puberty. But I had no inkling of any transgender desires or even knew what that was. I was in my 20’s when I went into and adult book store in Detroit. I watched a movie about transsexuals and transvestites and I realized that was me. It was one of those “hit me on the head” experiences that shook me to my core. I absolutely knew that there was a girl hiding within me that had to come out … and the rest is history.

[AmyH]

I was about 8 or 9; my sister is 2.5 years the older. She was just started dance class and had a dance outfit. She wanted me to try it on (we were the same size) and as one poster has said.... "the rest is history."

We remained the same size to until I was about 12, then my growth spurt kicked in.

[mollytyler]

combination of Mother (divorced and father out of picture early in life) and sister 2 years older- also small framed and femme looking to begin with. Born in 1970 at an era of freedom I always had long hair. I guess it was the dominance of a very feminine home environment...though I believe environment was not the issue as I had always been on the "soft" side of life since I can rememebr. Paid for it in school at various levels...but beginning of HS I think they just got tired of harassing me and wore out the words 'faggot' 'queer' 'sissyboy' where it became terms that had no meaning after awhile and they turned to other targets for their own inadequacies. My sister was a subtle encourager early in life and when I came out to her (Ha Ha when she caught me wearing her clothes) she was supportive to the max....took Mom a little longer but she came around and enbraced who I wanted to be. The big plan is my next HS reunion in 2 years when Molly will be attending- that shold be a hoot!!!!! Embrace yourself and enjoy life!!!

[janedresser]

There are several little incidents that either caused me to develop CD tendancies or just brought CDing to light for me...

I remember being forced to wear a pair of panties when I made a mess in mine at age of 4 yrs or less.

A fascination with nail polish. A boy a couple yrs older than me occasionaly had his nails polished by his mom in a shiny translucent pink. This was when I was somewhere around 5 to 7.

When I was an early teen there was another event that occured that I'm convinced 'imprinted' in my mind the desire to dress with being aroused. And I have been able to shake it after 40+ years!!

[megan163]

I don't remember "event" or specific trigger. I just know I've been dressing to varying degrees since about 8 or 9. I recall sneaking my mom's pantyhose, girdles, then going on to wear my sister's stuff, which got really fun because she had padded bra, hot pants, and funky stuff. Then I do remember one time right a puberty where I got too excited...if you know what I mean. That was really confusing.

I've wondered on ocassion if I could "go back to the first time" via help of hypnosis. Anyone else who can't recall details ever think about regression hynosis or some other therapy? Anyone do it and what were results?

[MarinaTwelve200]

When 1 was 12, and alone at home one day, I saw my mother's red lipstick in the bathroom and BRAVELY put it on, having a compulsion based on "seeing what I would look like as a girl"--not knowing if i coukl get it off or not. (it came off easily when I decided to remove it--for joy!)

I remembering having a "Fear" of red lipstick and women who wore it since I was 8 --for some reason. But never acted on that fear till age twelve.----After that I did it as often as I dared--and had the oppourtunity.---By age 14 i had 'evolved" to full blown dressing in my moms clothes.

[cutieamy06]

I have very vague memories of just goofing around with my mom's clothes for a laugh. then it became more habitual. Over the years i kept doing it and when I was 14 I realized and accpeted that I was different. And just listened to my heart.

[fionasboots]

I probably fall into the starting as a teenager category; just general curiosity led to to try on my Mum's knickers, tights etc. Felt pretty ashamed at the time, thought there was something wrong with me.

Since I've generally been a late-developer it took me a long time to really get going and I had to suffer many, many cycles of denial before I can really say I really knew what I was doing ... well, okay I don't claim to be a competant CDer (still can't get that make-up right yet :lol: ) but at least I know that I am a CDer :D

In hindsight though I think there were some fairly early signs, e.g. I remember thinking I wanted to *be* (look like etc) the models on page3 as opposed to the normal thoughts that a teenage boy should be having about them.

Also can anyone remember a cartoon called "He-man"? All the boys wanted the "He-man" toys because they all really *wanted* to be "He-man"? Nah, not me, I wanted to be "She-ra" instead :lol:

I was obviously doomed to be a CDer from an early age ... if only I'd realised it sooner!

[Barb Valentine]

All I can remember is trying on one of my mothers slips
And oh how great it felt

[kathyjojo]

I was 6 when my older sister had dance class and she let me wear her leotards and tights . there also was the good old sears catlog there I would see what girls wore and wishing I did. 0.02

[Melinda Lou]

When I was 4 or 5 I was visiting my aunt's house with my parents, and playing with my girl cousin who was about a year older (still is, of course :P). Somehow I got messy enough that I had to be changed from head to toe (I don't think I wet/messed in my pants, because I can't imagine having to change ALL my clothes for that). I had no extra clothes with me, my cousin was about the same size, so needless to say, I wound up wearing her clothes. My mom and aunt weren't trying, in their minds, to delberately humiliate me, because I didn't end up in a dress...but I did wind up wearing a pair of her girly, white cotton full-brief panties, and knew right away that they were for girls, and that I enjoyed wearing them. I wore them home under the otherwise fairly unisex clothes I had borrowed, and I remember wondering why, after they'd gone in the laundry with the other clothes, they didn't come back to my top drawer for me to wear again!

I won't say that that single event triggered my CD'ing, and that nothing else would have, but when I hit puberty and started to become interested in CD'ing again, that was the event that I remembered fondly and tried to relive, even going back to my cousins' panty drawers for my first "acquisitions". And although I have worn many different styles of panties, I still prefer those full-cut briefs and will even buy panties in the largest girls' sizes when I can...

[Serena]

I think what triggered it was a certain article of clothing my sister had. It was a sweater that looked really tiny but streched once she put it on without wearing it out. I wanted to see how it worked, so I snuck into her room one day and tried it on over my boy's clothes. That didn't work, so I tried it on with nothing else, which encouraged me to try on her other stuff. I'd always wondered what it felt like to wear a skirt actually, but now I had the courage to do it

[Helen MC]

Melinda Lou, those white panties, cotton full briefs, sound like the type my big sister and other girls wore when I was a kid and I borrowed and wore secretly from the age of 12. Over here you can still buy them and I do and wear them though a few sizes bigger these days. Did the panties you wore have elastic through the leg bands as mine (my sister's) did?

[Melinda Lou]

Melinda Lou, those white panties, cotton full briefs, sound like the type my big sister and other girls wore when I was a kid and I borrowed and wore secretly from the age of 12. Over here you can still buy them and I do and wear them though a few sizes bigger these days. Did the panties you wore have elastic through the leg bands as mine (my sister's) did?

Yep...when they still made them and I could still fit in them, Carter's "Spanky Pants" with ruffles on the leg elastic and a double seat (back) panel were my favorites...reminded me of that first experience. (Someone else here has to have a fond memory of Spanky Pants, right?)

I've never been able to try the "school knickers" available in the UK, for some reason underwear isn't imported nearly as often as some other commodities! (There are some adorable Japanese panties I'd love to get my, er, hands on as well...)

[Tiana]

I remember wearing odd items of clothing up to the age of around 14 like skirts and lingerie, usually they were being sent back to my mums catalogue because they were wrong size. I remember often looking through my mums catalogue only at the womens section off course. I would regularly wear my mums nylon slips (or petticoats as they were called then).
But then my sister in law bought her wedding dress over for my mum to try and sell via an advert in the local shop. I could not wait for mum to go to work on the Monday(it was school holidays) so I could try it on and I was so excited that I tried to put it on by putting it over my head then I discovered the zip. The feeling I had when the dress was on was incredible and I knew I had to have this feeling for the rest of my life. love Tiana x

[alesha_cd]

Only my second post, but I've discussed this topic with my wife several times. My earliest memory of anything related to CDing was when I was very young -- maybe around 5. I remember watching a cop show on TV where a guy dressed up like a woman. I just remember being intrigued by it even at that age. It wasnt until I was 10 that my mom bought my brother and I some Halloween makeup. You know, those little "crayon" things. The colors were bright and I remember locking myself in the bathroom to try out the blue on my eyelids! :D

I was hooked from that point on. I used to sneak my cousins' makeup since it was "real". When my parents would go out for the night, I would dress and I remember having the urge to go outside (at night). When I turned 16 and could drive, I used to leave the house while dressed when my parents were at work. I got up the courage to go into department stores at age 16. It was such a rush. I had my share of purges too.

When I graduated from college and got a good job, I bought new makeup, clothes, wigs, etc. I used to rent a hotel room for a day and transform myself then make my way around town visiting different places. While dating my girlfriend (now wife), I was too scared to tell her. Eventually we did the Halloween thing. That kind of gave me a feeling of how she would react to me dressed. I even taught her how to apply her makeup. She was about 16 when we started dating. I used the excuse that I was "artistic" to cover the fact that I knew how to apply her makeup.

Eventually I told her that I enjoyed dressing besides just on Halloween. I think she had a hard time with it at first. To make this post a little shorter, I'll fast forward to today. Now my wife lets me "practice" whenever I want. We sometimes go out shopping together as girls (way out of town of course). I would say I pass 95% of the time. I have had my times when everything seems to go perfect and times when it doesnt. I cannot speak while dressed because my voice is nothing near being feminine.

So in a nutshell, I'm out to my wife, she is totally accepting, and we go out together sometimes. Sticking with the topic, I don't know what triggered my CDing, but I know about when it started. I remember liking makeup at a young age but I didnt act upon it until I was about 10.

Sorry for the long post.

[kayla_cd_va]

I've had the desire since I was 13. Would put on my moms stockings. I knew then that being fem did something special for me. Like a dummy I fought it for years. Then about a year ago I decided I was going to learn to dress and be fem.

[ranma 1/2]

My very first memory must of been watching my mom put on lipstick and begging her to put some on me. I remember really getting a kick out of it.

The first article of clothing I remember wearing was my moms pantyhose. I had planned it all ahead too. I read the instructions a few days before hand so id be sure to do it right. Then one night I snuck them out of her hamper. I was so excited when i was putting them on that I couldnt stop shaking. I wore my sweats and socks over them and went to their bedroom and watched tv with them until it was time to go to bed. It was funny sitting there with them. They had no idea what I was wearing underneath my clothes.

[CheriTV2006]

Though I had previous yearnings to be fem since 5, 1970's glam rock triggered me to cross the line to put on makeup and female clothing at age 14. . CheriTV2006.

[Melissa A.]

Like I'm supposed to remember stuff that happened when I was 4???

Soon after that, i was raiding my sister's dresser.

What triggered it? I dunno. The x's Y's got a bit mixed up in the womb, I imagine.

Hugs,

Melissa:happy:

[Donnadcd]

All I know is the first time I even heard about a guys dressing as a girl, it intrigued me. I knew it was for me. I had to be about 5 and haven't stopped thinking about it for what is now 41 years since then.

[Helena Constantini]

A natural instinct of course after 13 yr old

[keeley]

Not sure what actually triggered the cross dressing. My mum had a pair of silky red knickers which I remeber felt different to the extent I wanted to try them on. This brought on excitement, not surprisingly being my early teens. But why I tried on other items I don't really remember. I guess it was the desire to know what I would have looked like as a girl, bodywise even if not facially.

The stange thing is in the early years, after the initial excitement I was probably more comfortable in women's clothing than I am now, whereas now it's more of a sexual thing.

[Lisa Golightly]

Oh... I've just always been a bit of a girl really.

Doesn't really bother me all the how and when... I just am.

[Janailene]

My female cousin and I were born a month apart. Our Moms lived together as the Dads were in WW II. Though I do not remember, pictures say we shared everything. At 5 years old I wore Mom's pink long leg panty girdle with nylons. It was like being hit by a lightening bolt. I had a constant dream about passing through a door and being a girl on the other side. By 10 I was completely dressing when possible and almost got caught several times. Dad died when I was 12, and Mom had a tough time. She was out a lot which let me dress regularly, work on make-up and hair styles. If Mom went away for a week-end, "Jan" was there Friday to Sunday walking the dog, going to the grocery store, etc.

[Lilith Moon]

I remember standing up in my high-sided cot so that I could see myself in a bedroom mirror. I would take off my pajamas and use the bed sheets as an improvised dress or cloak. Then I would do little twirls while admiring myself. Under the bed sheets was a rubbery sheet and wrapping that around myself was a terrific thrill. There is still a strong fetishistic element to my dressing, even now.

As soon as I was able, I was raiding my mothers clothes whenever I got chance and here I am 60+ years later, still at it.

What interests and puzzles me is that these first childhood memories show that I was *already* fascinated by dressing as a girl. Also, I *already* had a set of well developed "kinky" fetishes so the trigger, if this is triggered, must have been even earlier.

[fiona_libby]

For me I can remember a story I read when I was about 10 years old about a young boy tricked into wearing a school girls uniform and then from then on it has been a very natural feeling / desire of mine, that has only been satisfied with the unknown assistance of my mum and a close friend of hers. But at times I sometimes think they are well aware of my activities or maybe it is just wishful thinking

love to all

Fiona

[randi32869]

Wow - I thought I started young as a teenager - maybe I am a slow-learner in everything I do! I was always fastinated with breasts and when I realized what they were I found it easier to create my own than find a GG who would let me enjoy hers. Toward that objective I borrowed a bra from my Mom and started finding things to stuff it in. That is exactly when it started for me.

I knew I was the only one doing such a thing so thanks SO MUCH for this website!

It is nice not to be alone anymore.

randki32869

[Miss_D]

seeing the women, outfits and shoes in the sears catalog, years ago when they used to be delivered in the mail.

'D':2c:

[ellieparsons]

I started dressing when i was about 8, i used to wear my mothers pantyhose under my pajama's then it went to clothing, and i have been dressing ever sense then.

[cindyPT]

Not sure if my interest in Batman and tights in the mid 1960s counts - when I was about nine? I somehow got a pair of nice heavy tan tights (presumably from my older sister) and somehow got question marks written all over them - like the Riddler.

Then I would chime in with those who got into Mother's panty drawer around my early teens - when Mom's clothes would still be a little too big. I loved the panty girdles - still do - and tried a few dresses and shoes. Later I borrowed pantyhose and my big sister's silky red panties. After a long time off I decided to investigate a dancewear store I passed on the way home from work, eventually ballet tights and male dancewear, and then in my 30 started taking ballet. Long story already a too long that kinda got me here.

[medias35]

I remember when I was four years old, like it was yesterday. I would crawl under the table when my mom's friends would come over and chat for hours. I would feel on all of their legs, it was the seventies and pantyhose were in. None of the women ever said anything. The first chance I had I tried a pair of pantyhose and the rest was history. P.S. If anyone wants the whole story, send me a message.

[sparks]

I was four and playing Spy. I pretended I was captured by enemy agents and forced to wear my granny's Bra.
So I guess the Catalyst thought was punishment.
But did it fit the crime?

[WINDDANCERS]

Well''was About 10 Are So''not Sure Why' But It Work's For Me'' O'yaaaaaaa..:

[Petra1]

Wow - I thought I started young as a teenager - maybe I am a slow-learner in everything I do! I was always fastinated with breasts and when I realized what they were I found it easier to create my own than find a GG who would let me enjoy hers. Toward that objective I borrowed a bra from my Mom and started finding things to stuff it in. That is exactly when it started for me.

I knew I was the only one doing such a thing so thanks SO MUCH for this website!

It is nice not to be alone anymore.

randki32869


Pretty much the same story for me. My stepfather used to show me pictures of naked women to get me aroused. (Different support group) I got to the point where I started wondering what it would be like to be a woman especially one with breasts. By seventh or eight grade, I was wearing mom's stuff while left home alone.

And imagine my thrill when I visited my aunt one summer, and was left alone for eight hours a day.

To this day, I still want to know what it's like to have breasts and do normal everyday things.

[L.E.J.]

I became interested in womens fashions when I was 4. First, I liked wearing purses, then when I was 8 I experimented with make up. I tried on my first dress when I was 11. I had to stop dressing for a long time because my mom freaked out, but I would occasionally wear purses around the house when she was at work. Once I got older and moved out on my own I would buy a few purses to wear around the house. Now, at 29 I decided that it was time to start dressing full time. I only have womens socks, panties, womens jeans and tennis shoes (and a few purses of course) at the moment. But, going full time late is certainly better than never.

[Jasmine Ellis]

i just don't know

[Gail Stauffer]

same here, I'm not sure either, it just kinda happened, and now just look at my pictures!!

[pepsi]

I was raised by my granmother she had never had a son of her own and looking back she raised me a little too girlish.She had 3 daughters who had grown up and left home but she had kept all there clothes(most of which she had made) from when they were young until mid teens.This included school gear,party dresses,casual clothes etc which she kept in the loft.At the age of about 7-8 I started to try some on.The school uniform was my first try on,but once I had put the bridesmaid dress on in pretty pink with a white sash and loads of petticoates I was hooked on girly clothes for life!:happy:

[Ranee Daze]

I don';t think that there is black and white, male and female. I think that there is a thread and we all have different hormone levels which place us in different loci along that thread. We are probably close to the middle of that thread, as are our sisters gg's who dress as male.
It did start with my mom's lipstick and blowdryi9ng my hair into curls after swimming.

[carolinewalker_2000]

Gosh; can't remember a specific trigger; it feels like this need has always been with me.

I do remember trying on some of Mum's things when I was about 10 and having real difficulty explaining why I was hiding under the bed dressed in a skirt and stockings when, as was inevitable, I was caught out!

Since then I have always wanted to dress but circumstances have forced me to supress those desires for most of the time. It is only during the last few years that I have become more comfortable with myself and have been able to recognise that "Caroline" is entitled to at least some part of my life.

[KatieZ]

Birth!

[Randy]

I've been giving this a lot of thought lately, and there are a couple early memories that come to mind. First was seeing lingerie modeled in a JC Penney catalog, and then finding my mother's "things" in the laundry while doing the laundry. It (for some reason) seemed only natural to try them on. I was (everyone's used this pun too many times) hooked on the bra right away. It just felt so natural to put it on, hook it up in back and feel it embrace me. That was about 30-35 years ago and I still wear the bras (new ones of course).

[chrissycox99]

I was about twelve. My older sister worked at the local Goodwill store. They had bags of stuff that they didn't think would sell, so they would just toss it. She wanted to make sure there wasn't anything cool in the bags, so she would snag a few everytime the tossed some. She would bring them home, and spread them out, and go through them. Most of it ended up getting re-bagged, and tossed, but I distinctly remember a pair of white vinyl high heeled knee high boots(with the hideous 1970's cork heel!!), that I adopted. That was the first step. My mom caught me with those, and threw them away at least 5 times! I had them until I outgrew them, and the collection just grew from there.
The urge has come and gone through 2 marriages(one seven yrs long!), and uncounted relationships...but it has never gone away.
It is stronger now than it has ever been, and seems to be growing by the day.
Who knows where that tacky pair of vinyl boots may lead me!

[Amber_8281]

The only thing that startes it was. My sisiter dared me to put on one of her dresses. And I did. And it felt natural, I was about 5 or so when I did. And I now do it on a regular bases. I was dare once after that. Because I made fun of some cheerleders and well I ended up in a cheerleading uniiform. And at first is was kinda weird. But after about an hour or so. It was normal. And I still have the uniform.

[Elon]

For me it was my Aunt, she stayed with us for a couple of months. I tryed on her clothes because she was staying in my room. I just loved them, I was about 13 years old. I 40 now and don't plan to stop.

[Shawna25]

I guess for me it was Halloween 1998....my girlfriend at the time dressed me up just because she wanted to....I don't quite remember what I wore but little did she know that one time would get me hooked

[Kimberly]

What triggered your CDing?

Me. :D

[leotards]

batman of the 60s it was all tights from that point on i was 6

[lipstickcd]

I too started with makeup and got hooked right away after wearing my mothers red lipstick.

[But for me it started a love of make-up. At first, I would try to do the clown faces like they were doing for the booth, but over time it evolved to trying to imitate what I saw my mother and sister do with their make-up. I actually did not try on any clothing for several years, but I never stopped loving the way make-up felt and looked. As a result, I am a little backwards in my progression. I know a lot of girls start with the clothes, and work their way up to make-up. I am actually much better at using make-up than I am at picking out and matching clothes. Even my wife tells me that I do my make-up almost perfectly. I guess thats what you get with 25 years of practice.

Michelle-H[/QUOTE]

[cdwales]

i was about 11 or 12 and whenever i went into my moms bedroom there was a gypsy style dress there and i kept wanting to try it on in the end it got to much and i did! could nt stop from there

[Corinne]

I think the idea in my head was always there. But I think the thing that triggered it was I was at a baseball game with my aunt's family and her next door neighbor. Needless to say, she was a hot MILF. I was about 10 or 11 or so, around the 6th grade I think. Anyways, I had on a short slleve shirt and shorts and it got cold at night and the MILF gave me her pink coat to put around me to stay warm. It was filled with her perfume and just turned me on!
Well, I was allowed to go into their house, when they weren't home and all. I played on their computer a lot. Well, needless to say, I went rummaging through the MILFs drawer and tried on her clothes regularly. She was so beautiful! And I think that triggered it all!

[KateLongman27]

Hi everyone. Im new here by the way this being my 1st post.

I just have a quick question for everybody after reading one of the other threads. I dont know if this has been raised before in past posts but i wonder what for everyone was the point were they 1st relised they where different and what they think triggered there CDing? Im very interested in what you guys have to say. Because for me. i really can't remember, It seems like its been with me all my life!

thanks guys x x x

I was probably set on this course by school experiences and having to wear a dress for a school project because none of the lads wanted to actually do it, so I was left with the task of dressing up as a women.

Then later on past puberty, I volunteered to dress as a women for a charity event. I didn't realise what an effect that would have on me but I don't feel as if I'm different from everyone else. It's just a matter of wearing womens clothes, lingerie etc. makes me happy and lets my alter ego out. The person who appreciates women's design, the feel and just relaxing not being a male for several hours. When I get a pad of my own, I'll be able to dress for a day or even get a warddrobe specially for women's clothes.

It's the people who are around us that makes us feel different because either they been brought up to say that men shouldn't dress up in women's clothes etc. because it's not masculine on top of this societies view of men dressing as women. For us to be accepted we need to change societies view and how we view other peoples activities, sexualities.

I would love to live Thailand, then I could happily dress as a women all day because (Correct me if I'm wrong) Thailand has probably the most accepting culture along with holland for males who wish to be females.

To me this isn't something thats going to go away, I can bury or I can face it and explore the inner me.

[Lisa Maren]

Some of my earliest memories are of playing around with (meaning putting on) mom's pantyhose and this was when I was 3 or 4. I don't know if any one of those early memories was the first time or not. I think I was born this way. It took a while to evolve much from there because I attended an all male grade school and junior high was all male other than faculty daughters, who were allowed to attend. At that school, they dressed up the boys as girls -- pantyhose, makeup and all -- in the school plays and that sure as h*ll had an effect on me. :D I wished I could do that but I knew I would be made fun of if I ever got a female part in the school play (I was made fun of for being "spacy" as it was -- courtesy of my ADHD). Anyway, I resolved that I was going to a co-ed high school for sure!

Then, of course, everyone in my family's social circles was rather traditional as are my parents. Other than the school plays in jr high (which were done out of necessity, not approval) up until high school, at the very earliest, all of the gender input I received was that males were males and females were females and never the twain shall meet! lol

I think I learned early on to suppress my femininity (being the smart cookie I was). I know that I was hiding myself from them as early as age 6 because I remember wearing a pair of mom's pantyhose under my pajamas. The footsie had a hole in it and I was discovered by my mom who told me to take them off and the kids would make fun of me if they ever knew. Thanks, mom! :D

I'm not a fan of the "nature vs. nurture" concept because part of the nurture comes from the self (due to one's own nature :D) and so nature and nurture can be one and the same.

Instead, I prefer to express it as part endowment, part development. I was endowed with femininity (I don't doubt that at all) and the development of the femininity is why it is where it is now (I don't doubt that either). The main thing is that I was endowed with "indelible" femininity and ultimately that endowment is why I'm a crossdresser and possibly TG/TS. The pantyhose only got me started; the rest is gravy -- or should I say makeup?

Hugs,
Lisa

[Maija]

I remember a satin robe I got from my sister - we didn't have a lot of money so it was ahand me down sort of thing.
I loved it.

Also I remember trying on a white silk dress of my moms.

Maija

[eli]

My first time was when I was about 11. Later it came to me that when I was 4 or 5 my mother made me to wear my elder sister's school uniform to show the rest of the family how it looked though I didn't like it at all. Maybe that and the fact that I had two sisters and my father spent hole days in his work and my rampaging hormones made me to start dressing later. I also remember that as a kid I preffered playing with dolls rather than cars.

[annekathleen]

Probably when I was a teen and the first time I'd seen a pair of girls panties.
I was jealous that they had so many different styles and colors to wear, and we got stuck with white briefs.
What increased my curiousity to dress was being married and having dressers and closets full of my wives ( plural ) clothing to check out and try on.
And being divorced and having access to E-Bay has really made it easier to
buy the types of underwear, clothes and accessories that I want and desire without anyone questioning all the different packages coming here from all over the country.

[officegirlcd]

i got hooked on crossdressing when iwas 10 when isaw my mates mum getting dressed putting her stockings on . so i want to try and one thing led to another.

emma

[Angie G]

I don't knowit just always felt right when I put something fem. on
Angie G.

[kristyD]

I'm not sure how or why I started. I guess the thought had always crossed my mind. I knew I was hooked when I ordered and recieved that first VS dress and it fit perfectly. From that point on I've aquired a large collection of dresses and outfits.

[NighttimeGirl]

I remember as a little kid having to go in my mums room early mornings as we had no stair gate and everyone else was at work and school, I used to watch her get dressed every morning, I was fascinated by her putting her bra on and then her make up and I always remember I wanted to be like mummy back then, I think I may have told her I cant remember specific things that I said but I must have said I wanted to wear that to her at one time or another or it is pretty , I dont know.
Then one day I went in my sisters room and discovered her wardrobe aged about 6 and the rest is history :heehee:

wouldnt want it any other way!! :hugs:

:love:

[Monica Elena]

When I was about 5 or 6 my two cousins of (12 and 14) dressed me as a girl and took me with them to one of their friends home. There were another 4 girls and we spent all that afternoon trying makeup, heels and so on.

I enjoyed it a lot!

[mecloset]

Hi everyone. Im new here by the way this being my 1st post.

I just have a quick question for everybody after reading one of the other threads. I dont know if this has been raised before in past posts but i wonder what for everyone was the point were they 1st relised they where different and what they think triggered there CDing? Im very interested in what you guys have to say. Because for me. i really can't remember, It seems like its been with me all my life!

thanks guys x x x

Well lets see, the earliest I can remember dressing although I had no real knowledge as I do today was somewhere around 5 or 6. I picked up some of my moms clothing in the laundry room, which by the way was in the basement, and I started experimenting. Got caught a couple of times, they even tried counciling but nothing seemed to work. So I think they just resigned to accepting it because during my 10th grade year she went out and bought me some panties and hose and some other tid bits and said it was to keep me out of her stuff, I felt wonderful. And I have been dressing ever since, but very few people know about it, if you check my other post you will see I live in a small town and well I am not the most comfortable around other being dressed, I have gone out a few times and I would like to do it more but what I would like is a mentor to do it with and assist with.

[Layla]

My Grandmother Told Me One Day When I Was About 6 Years Old, That My Mother Always Wanted A Daughter. When I Was Born, She Di Not Even Have A Boys Name Picked Out, She Thought Sure I Would Be A Girl. My Grandmother Also Told Me That My Mother Did Not Have Any Clothes For A Boy, So She Used To Dress Me As A Girl, My Father Was Never Home And Did Not Know About How She Was Dressing Me. My Grandmother Would Scold My Mother For Dressing Me As A Girl, But It Continued Until I Went To School. I Really Did Not Know The Difference At The Time. I Do Know That When I Started Dressing As A Girl Intentionally, That It Felt Very Natural And Normal. I Remember At Halloween Times, My Mother Would Dress Me Up And Do My Make-up, Put A Wig On Me And Sent Me Out With The Other Kids....just Before My Mother Died, She Finally Told Me That She Wished I Would Have Been Her Daughter.... So That Is What I Want To Be 24/7.....layla

[Bobbie14]

For me it started about age 13 or 14 ... I was fascinated with a pair of Mom's panties in the laundry basket she left in the bathtub. At first I used them just to masturbate, but it was a very natural progression to try them on. They were way too big for me ... but they felt so nice, and I felt so good wearing them! I didn't dare buy my own things back then ... but in college I started cruising laundry rooms late at night, looking for discarded panties, and was frequently rewarded with other items, too -- often finding things that fit me well, and that I loved wearing. I didn't start buying my own things until after I was married, over 30 years ago, but was long hooked before that! However I didn't have a good understanding of all this or how widespread the practice was (I thought I was the only one for many, many years) until the Internet and sites like this came along.

Bobbie

[Jennaie]

Chantelle, I am with you, really don't know what single event may have triggered my dressing. What I do know is that as long as I can remember, I wanted to be able to wear the girls clothes. My first memory of wearing girls clothing goes back to about age 5. I can remember wanting to wear them a little earlier than that but I can only remember back to age 4, everything else is a blank.

[Sejd]

it seems like, if it is a part of our sexual template to dress up, it doesn't need a tricker! You just have to do it. Isn't that wonderful?

[Sienna_cd]

earlist I can rember is about 9 or 10 dressing in my sisters panties and bras. I've been dressing on and off ever since then. Started doing more research the last couple of months and have found the cd community is much, much larger than I'd thought.

Sexy

[JenniferMint]

What triggered your CDing?

I hated the effects of testosterone on my body for years. Finally, at age 24, I had them removed on an elective basis (search for my posts about Dr. Kimmel for more information how I managed that).

Then my friend suggested I explore my female side more considering I wasn't physically a real man anymore, and here I am.

[sissymelinda]

My earliest memories are trying on my mother's nighties.I was about 11yo at the time.From then on I couldn't stop.
Melinda

[lucy]

when i was about 12 i started to wear my moms corset and panties and it just felt natural. like we all have done it developed more and more and it feels good :love:

[Mistybtm]

I was about 11 when I used to go in my mom’s room and try on here bras, wig’s and panty hose also used to hide a pair of her panties and hose under my mattress to wear when ever I wanted. Also found out i was also bi and fantasized about it when dressed and still do. Why I started unclear but I know I love it and will never stop.
:heehee:
Mistybtm

[Raychel]

I have no idea what triggered it but I wish I knew. One day when I was young 10+/- I tried one of my mom's girdles on. I've been a CDer since that day that is easily 50+ years.

Kath

My thoughts exactly, Well maybe not 50 years. Only 37 for me. :heehee:

[SallyBowles]

I never had a trigger to CD. I always knew I was “different” in many ways from the other boys. I gave up early on that I was ever going to be normal. Like others that have posted, I always felt more comfortable in the company of adult women as a child. I desperately wanted the companionship of girls my age never having the “eewh, kooties” stage but was so shy.

But, it was early on for playing with clothing. I was lucky that for my young adulthood there was a decent Goth/Punk subculture where blurred gender appearance and personality was more readily accepted. That doesn’t mean I felt that I fit in.

[paularg36]

I guess i'm a late bloomer. I was in my mid-twenties and married the first time I tried anything on. I was putting the laundry away, one day and wondered what I would look like in my wife's panties so i tried a few on. Not only did I like the way they looked, I loved the way they felt. Eventually, I started to try on more of her clothes (when she wasn't around, of course) and found that the more I dressed the more I liked it. After the divorce which had nothing to do with my hobby, I started buying my own clothing and dressing around the house. I still do this and am glad to report that wife #2 and I have fun with this from time to time. In fact, when she is late for work and in a hurry to dress, she borrows my panties. So, have fun.

[isabelle2]

I don't really know what started it but it has been going on for ever.Kept hoping it would go away but it only got worse.

[sissymelinda]

I can't stop dressing......nor do I want to.All my life I have never been happier than when I am wearing all my satin.

[ReallyDana]

My mother's giant bras when I was 5 or 6. Some girdles, panty hose when available through the years. Did not wear anything for about a decade, then while goofing, drinking and skinnydipping with my girlfriend and two other couples I jokingly put on my girlfriend's bikini. What a mistake that was!! I could not get out of the water for a little while after that :heehee: .

That event really reawakened the softer side, and the stress, denial, and heartache that was part of it for me. I am now much more at ease with myself and my loving wife's support is a large part of that. Funny thing is that my wife was the wife in one of the other couples and she still has a picture of that time skinnydipping.

[Jaydee]

My story is like so many of the others. I think my triggering event was in 4th grade, about age 10. A school group offered ski lessons on the weekend. My mom obtained a pair of black tights from the daughter of some friends, for me to use as long underwear. I was horrified at first, but... I soon looked forward to the lessons for more than the skiing. When the lessons were over, so were the tights. A few years later, I found some of my mother's used pantyhose in among old clothes. I tried them on and it was like lightning. Soon I was borrowing her discarded girtles. My CD'ing hasss been on and off (more purges than I care to remember:sad: ) again since then, but the feeling has never gone away.

Jaydee

[sissymelinda]

Iguess I will never know what the trigger was.I don't care.This is me and I enjoy being a "girl"....hmmm good title for a song.The only pity is that I have to hide this side of me from everyone.Still I live on my own and now I can dress all the time and meet others if I so wish.

[Deborah]

I always wanted to play with the girls and do girly things. My parents wouldn't have it though so i was persuaded to play with the boys.
Not a lot you can do when you're that age to do what you want.

[KarenSusan]

There was a closet off the bathroom in the house we lived in where my mother and grandmother would store their old clothes. When I was about 8
or 9 I spotted a skirt and tried it on over my pants, then took my pants off
and tried it on. I was hooked.
Later on in high school, if no one was home when I got home, I would dress
completely head to toe and start doing my homework imagining that I was
a woman office worker.

[Georgina]

In the late fifties, in our small country school, we had one teacher for every class including outdoor activities. She was young and wore the circle skirts of the period with petticoats underneath. On windy days outside her skirt would lift to reveal the delights below. This didn't seem to bother her too much probably as we were all prepubescent children. I was fascinated by the petticoats and knew they were for me. I began searching my mother's dressers looking for petticoats but she didn't have any. I discovered her stockings, OBG and nylon slips and I was hooked. I am sure those early images triggered my crossdressing and they are still vivid today. Georgina.

[Lil Miss Bekkah]

Curiosity got me started. I was staying over at a friend of the family's house one weekend, and stayed in their daughter's old room. She had left a bunch of stuff in her closet when she went to college, and that night I just had to try something on. I barely slept that night, because at that point I had to try everything! I was hooked.

[jjuliette]

I was 6 or7 yrs. old and in the mid 50's and there were 2 silky party dresses that were stored in my bedroom closet because of a lack of space. Everyday when I would get something out I would brush against these dresses. I thought the silky material felt kinda nice, then I started standing up under them. On day I when I was standing under the blue on , it had a petticoat with it , I reached up and let it come off the hanger. It fit right over me without unzipping it becauser I was much smaller at the time. I was hooked, it felt great with all that silky stuff and petticoat swishing around me . From there I started trying all kinds of other girl clothes that were stored in boxes around the house. Been hooked ever since.

[alison]

I've always wanted to be a girl. I remember as young as 3 or 4 trying to figure out how I could become one (I even recall asking my parent if I could cut "it" off and become a girl). The older I got the more I longed to be one of them. Unfortunately I was raised in a very conservative and religious community and I was brought up to think those feelings were wrong. Eventually the pot boiled over (as it always will) and I started secretly dressing in my sister's and mom's clothes in my early teens. Now, thanks to the internet (including this forum) and a couple very supportive people in my life, I am a happy guy who is spending more and more time as a happy girl.

--Alison

[marcielegs]

I was around 7 years old when I started wearing my mothers old stockings. They were full fashioned seamed stockings, beige in color. I used to take them from her sewing drawer and try them on in the bathroom. It made me so excited I would masturbate with them on in the bathroom. That's where it started for me. She caught me once taking them from the drawer but didn't stop me. After that she would give them to me after she was done with them. They usually had a run or two in them. Stockings have always done it for me since then.

[ArleneRaquel]

When I was about eight or nine I started wearing my mothers stockings and long arm length gloves. I continued to do so for the next fiftenn years or thereabouts and then I got married and the mini cross dressing come to a end,except for an ocasional foray into her things (pantyhose,bra,panties) when she was out of town.About two years after her death I started dressing enfemme to bed, and gradually it escalated into being Katrina Maureen 24/7.That phase began at the time that I retired in June "05, now I do not want to live any other way.

I have a picture of myself at age two or three struggling with my two older female cousins as they try to apply lipstick to my lips for a Halloween outing. Back then I hated lipstick, now I do not leave the house without an amply application and a big supply of reserves in my purse. :love:

[MsJanessa]

two things----the feel of silk when I was a child and watching all those sword and sandal movies at the same age---you know the ones that feature a hero and heroine struggling against a powerful, beautiful but cruel Queen with a great wardrobe, dramantic make up, big hair and an army of slaves to do Her bidding-----you guessed it---I always fantasied myself as the Queen.:dom:

[Sherry Ann Evans]

I grew up with a couple of sisters. I had an older brother, but he pretty much lived a life apart from me, and would only say mean deragotory things to me for several years. He would always call me stupid and retarded, and he did some pretty awful things to me for the amusement of him and his friends.

Unfortunately I had the same experience -- but it included my father taunting me too. Plus I was always smaller and weaker than the other kids at school, and on top of that, I was a math and science nerd. My dad and my brother were more naturally masculine. So I got a LOT of teasing as a kid. I very consciously remember being maybe 6 or 7 years old, and whenever my father was angry at me (usually for just misbehaving), he'd always scare the crap out of me by getting right in my face and screaming "Quit being a little girl!" :sad: ...In my dad's defense though there was never any physical abuse, but still... it's not a happy memory. I always saw how relatively happy and bright-looking girls seemed at school, while around the boys I always felt inferior and always felt like I had to look over my shoulder because one of them might be teasing me.

Once or twice during childhood or my teen years I'd sneak a pair of my mother's panties or try on her dress or whatever... most of the time I was too scared of being caught to even attempt it. LOL plus her fashion style was always appropriate for a middle-aged conservative woman; there were never any cute or sexy clothes that I * wanted * to try on.

I remember looking through the Sears catalogs, etc., in the Sunday newspapers. I guess my parents and especially my father and brother just assumed I was checking out the underwear models in lieu of having access to porn. In fact, I was usually checking out their outfits and wishing I could look that pretty.

I never had a chance to DO anything about those feelings until I lived on my own for the first time at age 23.

I don't know if all of those early incidents CAUSED my cd feelings or simply accelerated them into becoming clear to me. And yet, even if I (or anyone else here) has got that personal causes figured out, then why do we still dress? Why isn't realizing the cause also a sort of "cure"...? (Yes, I loathe saying that, since it implies there's something wrong with us, which is NOT the case. But I hope you girls can see my point regardless of how poorly I explained it.)

Wow, this reply has gone WAY beyond the "what was your earliest CD feelings" question. Sorry.

[ArleneRaquel]

When I was a teenager I loved to look at the lingerie section of the Sears catalog, but it was the girls that I was mainly interested in :love:

[Sweet Jane]

My earliest memory of being dressed was when I was about 7 or 8 and my mother locking me outside the front door dressed only in a frilly pair of my older sisters panties. I know that it took ages for me to get the courage to make that dash to the back door to get back inside the house and to get back into boys underwear.

The next memories I have are when I am about 12, and sneaking into my sisters drawer and wearing her underwear on my paper route. I remember finding her training bras in a chest in the garage and I wore that on mant occasions. Then I found an entire bag of Mums' discarded lingerie...beautiful panties, bras and slips and I wore those as often as I could.....until the day Mum caught me. She didn't say too much, but the lingerie disappeared (damn!) and I had to revert to sneaking my sisters stuff again.

So, I dunno if thats "why I dress", I feel maybe I have just always been like this.....

[Cathleen]

My parents divorced when I was not much more than an infant, and my mother and I lived in her parents’ home. When I was 9, mom died of breast cancer, and my grandparents continued to bring me up. By then, I was probably already "hooked": On numerous occasions when I was little I observed mom in not much more than her foundation garments. I loved to see her roll on her hose and fasten them to her garters. I suspect that these observations, magazine ads from the early 1950's, and perhaps an unconcious desire to be "just like mom" were the long repressed triggering events.

Around age 4 or 5, mom discovered me trying on her bathing suit; and not too long after that she found me wearing her stockings held up by her pink Playtex girdle, which kept sliding down over my tiny skinny hips. On neither occasion did she give me more than a gentle admonishment not to wear her clothes. I paid scant attention. When I was 7 (confirmed in a picture) she dressed me for Halloween as a gypsy girl, complete with dress, lipstick and screw-on hoop earrings.

After mother’s death, my grandmother gave away most of her clothes. Yet, there remained a couple of skirts, a blouse, a slip, some stockings, a bra, and two open girdles These became mine, and gradually I grew into (and eventually out of) them, with my tiny wardrobe becoming smaller as garments tore, or as my grandmother discovered items in my room, and disposed of them forever.

By age 11 or 12, I was occasionally borrowing my grandmother’s girdles and a long-line bra. From the trash I rescued her old girdles and stockings with runs. Often, when I left my house, an OBG, bra, stockings and even a slip would be hidden beneath my drab clothes. My pattern of taking and using her undergarments continued through high school. While I have very few opportunities these days to dress fully, I remain a confirmed girdle and stockings gal – well over 50 years since it all began.

Cathy

[Jessica S]

first was a knee high when I was little then it was Halloween custome to cement it.

[susancheerleader]

WHen I was 12-13 years old I kept stealing my sisters leotards. I wore them under my clothes and in bed. But I kept getting caught by my sisters or my mother. They saw no humor in it and made me feel horrible but I did it again and again. Finaly I just stoped doing it and mever, ever thought of it again. Until last year. (I am now 41)
I work in a restaurnet in the kitchen. It is always hot, and the waitresses kept comming to work in thier skirts.
One day I was joking arround with the dinning room manger and joked "If I wear a skirt, can I wait on tables?" Her reply was that "If you wear a skirt you can do anything you want to do."
Off I went and bought a skirt. I brought it to work in a bag and went about doing my stuff in the kitchen.
When the waitress and dining room manger arrived later in the moring, I went into the bathroom and changed into the skirt and came out.
When I did that, everyone that was in the dinning room setting up, stopoed dead in thier tracks and didn't know what to say. I never got a negitive reply, but the dinning room manager was shoked too. I reminded her that she said "if you wear a skirt you can do anything you want to do."
In which she replied "Yea but I didn't expect you to accualy do it."
After some fun and a few pictures, I changed back into my kitchen clothes and went back to work in the kitchen.

That rush and feeling never left. I quickly ended up buying all kinds of stuff that I now wear (alone) in my house.

I wish I could go in public... not as a joke.

[Holly O'Niell]

I think I've posted this earlier, for me it was my elder sisters communion dress.
I can still remember how struck I was when I first seen it (I would be about 6 or 7 years old), and of course how everyone that seen her in it thinking she looked beautiful. So, every opportunity I had I would sneak back into the house to try it on. I done that dozens of times and to this day I can't believe I was never caught. I had that whole outfit on more times than my sister ever did and spent more time in it. A while ago, I was thrilled to find my sister had a photo of her with the whole outfit on.
I can't remember dressing much after that till I was about 12 or 13. My sister would be about 15 and wearing all the latest fashions (mid-60's), I just adored all her mini-dresses, tights, shoes, coats etc. I just loved trying on everything. Can't believe this now, but my first time out was at this age when everyone at home would be sleeping, I would get dressed and go out for a walk for half an hour - imagine that - a 13 year old 'girl' wandering about the streets at around midnight. Again, I still cannot believe I was never caught.
Holly.

[princessmichelle]

Hi,

It's a change of tone from the other posts, but it's true and I want to tell you: when I was a kid I had a seriously upsetting thing happen (i'm not goign to say what it was).

Soon after that I became less upset when I was assigned to sort the laundry and discovered a bra....

Of course I can also relate to a lot of what others of you have said.

princessmichelle

[Lanore]

Nothing triggered CDing that I can think of. I've always had a female living inside.

Lanore

[barbaralynn]

I was maybe 7 when I went in to take a bath and mom had bathed earlier but left her panties and bra and a white slip in the bath. when i got undressed i picked up her panties, which were to big but i tried all of her things on and from then on every chance I got I would find her things and spend as much time in them as I could. I never was caught while in viet nam I wrote mom and told her about my enjoying wearing womens clothes. she said she knew that one of her boys wore her things but didn't know which one. She didn't blow a gasket or anything. when i came home from the war she would leave some of her things in my room but i never dressed up for her. Now it is to late. I have a wife that is ok with my dressing and i have been doing it for about 50 years now. I told my sweetee about me before we were married and i have never regreted it.

[Helen MC]

Holly, I always wanted to wear a Communion dress but as a "Prod" family my sister didn't have one. The closest I came to that was a second hand wedding dress I bought in a Charity Shop many years ago. I got too plump for it and gave it away to another Charity shop with some other female clothing I had outgrown as these were clean and I thought that some other CD could get pleasure from them. I did find a really nice Bridesmaid's Dress secondhand made for a chubby woman of my build and I wear that at home sometimes.

[Lois Page]

I can't say for sure if this was my trigger, but 10 years ago (I was 49), I entered the fen-phen weight loss program under my Doctor's supervision. This stuff worked great and, combined with an active health club routine) I lost about 70 lbs in less than a year. Unfortunately, the fen-phen combination is no longer available because of heart-related side effects.
Anyway, my self esteen shot up quite a bit as a result of my weight loss. One day, while grocery shopping, I noticed an offer from Special K cereal: receive a free pair of Leggs pantyhose when you send in three boxtops of Special K. Needless to say the urge to act on this offer became overwhelming, since I had always wondered what it felt like to wear nylon hosiery of any kind and this seemed like a safe way to get a pair. So after sending in the boxtops (and finally finishing the cereal), I received my pantyhose. The first time I tried them on- Flashdance: "What a feeling"! I wore them every chance I could. Of course, I finally had to start buying them from Walmart and Penny's,
since I couldn't continue buying three boxes of Special K whenever I needed a pair. I eventually added panties to my routine and , within a year, started shaving my legs and all other areas (except forearms). I experienced another "Flashdance feeling" the first time I wore pantyhose on shaven legs.
Love and kisses,
Lois

[Sasha Anne Meadows]

I have been a CD all my life but didn't go the whole nine yards until about ten years ago. My wife encouraged me after figuring out my needs. She taught be makeup and helped me purchase wigs and clothes. There has been no turning back ever since.

[lahr]

As far back as I can remember ive had a thing for female legs and feet in nylons. At first it was a visual thing. It seemed like all of the women in Boston wore hose and stilettos everywhere. Lotsa women would slip their feet in and out their pumps while standing or dangle a high heel from their toes while sitting. I could hear the hissing sound of nyloned legs as the the ladies walked around. One day at age 13 I was home alone and dresed in Moms rht stockings, Black patent 4" stilettos, and a garter belt. I paraded thru the house from room to room hearing the heels clicking on the floor and the swishing of the nylons . The excitment was incredibly erotic and one look in the full length mirror and WOW. I still wear some type of stockings almost every day usually with stilettos. Whether in drab or full dress.

[delanas]

It was pantyhose for me a month ago.I would buy pantyhose and put them on once in a while.It was bras and panties after that

[sharon2]

for me when i was young i used to watch my mother dress and do her
makeup and i was fascinated by her lovely silky underwear,she used to let
me fasten her bra,and i loved to walk around with it draped over my shoulders.after awhile my sister who was two years older and her friend
started to dress me up and i loved it.as my sister and i shared the same
room i often wore one of her nighties to bed.when i was 10 mum bought a
pretty little blue dress to wear to a birthday party it was lovely.after that
i dressed as often as possible,sometimes going out with my sister as a girl.
that unfortunatly was a long time ago now i have to dressup in secret as
my wife does not approve.

[Tina]

As a teenager is tried on my mom's stockings and I think that was the start.

Tina

[immike]

I'm quite fortunate,I can still fit into mothers clothes,and I still go in her closet
and pull out a short mini skirt,one of her good V-neck tops&a pair of her black
heels.I order my own frilly underwear and several shades of pantyhose,which
I wear under my clothes,until I get over to mothers house,of which I keep a
key,at her insistence.I just spend about 2 hours,trying on her different outfits
and heels

[eleyna]

Babysitter when I was 12. She was the first women I'd encountered who didn't seem downtrodden; she had a worldview totally outside of my experience, and she was radiant. I'd doted on her; when she sat my sister, the sitter and I would hang out more like a family than with my family. But as puberty started she'd look at me a little sadly, and the hanging out began to dissapear. When one day I tried to join them in a game of monopoly, they were akwardly talking about something, and I tried to listen in, finally she looked at me and said "How about I take you upstairs and dress you properly for girly talk?" I said no automatically, she looked dissapointed and gave me a moment to change my mind but I was in blissful shock. She'd already espoused certain views (that kinksters might call Female Superiority) and given me a healthy admiration for the feminine, and this was just too wonderful.

After the moments passed she looked truly saddened, but said "No? Pity. Your loss" and returned her attention to my sister. After that I started trying things on in risky ways hoping to get caught by her and be taken pity on. Instead I got caught by my *elder* sister who was outraged at me and reaffirmed my "doubts" that I was being very "evil". Story resumes years later, but I'll spare you ;)

[loki_uk]

I can honestly blame my teachers at my first school, I suffered from bullying terribly and had a terrible habit of wetting myself.

I doubt it was deliberate, but I often got sent home wearing those big blue school knickers, and they just felt more comfy than wearing those y-fronts that were so popular in the 70's

Then it was the inevitable cycle of trying on my mums clothes, trying to stop myself and doing the same when I had girlfriends.

I still haven't admitted it to my wife, although she has caught me enough times to know

[Erica007]

.:hello: I was the youngest in my family and had three older sisters. After my two oldest sisters left home and my other sister started working, (I was about 10 at the time ) on school holidays I would sometimes be home by myself when mum went shopping or visiting friends down the road. (Dad had pased away when I was 9 ) I had always looked at my sisters panties hanging on the washing line and thought they looked nice, so one day when I was home by my self I found myself in my sisters room going through her pantie draw checking out and trying on all her pretty panties. It felt good to wear them and I liked the way I looked in them in front of the mirror. After that I was hooked, I pinched a couple of pairs of my sisters panties and hid them in my room and would wear them to school some days. I would put them in the washing basket after a couple of days with the rest of her clothes and when I got a chance pinch a couple more. The rest as they say is history,now I am 50 and have a large collection of my own lingerie to wear, and do so all the time. :cheer: :rose2:

[Sarah Bayen]

My first memory of anything 'dressy' comes from when I was about 5 or 6 at school. We were getting changed after gym, and the teacher told one of the other boys off for staring at the girls getting dressed, and said that if he was so interested in tights, she'd get him some to wear.

Just a throw away remark, but I then had a recuring dream about being suspended over a pair of thick red ribbed tights, and being slowly lowered into them by an unknown force.

I think it just triggered something that was already there but there you go!

[ArleneRaquel]

As a teen not only would I wear my mother's stockings, but at night I would dream about living my adult life as a woman. Dreams do come true ! :love: from Katrina to all forum readers,

[eleyna]

Just a throw away remark, but I then had a recuring dream about being suspended over a pair of thick red ribbed tights, and being slowly lowered into them by an unknown force.

Lady who got me intrigued sealed the deal when my parents were away for a month; had to take us shopping to buy my younger sister some replacement clothing - knickers, vests etc. She was supposed to be buying some for me too, when I realized she was heading to the checkout having only been thru the women's section. "Hey what about mine?". She lifted a pair of those "neutral" briefs that could go either way, "I've already got them". I didn't know about unisex then. I kicked up a fuss and she flat out refused to go to the "other" section to pick anything up for me. We exchanged back and forth on it for a bit, I pressed it hoping she wouldn't take no for an answer.

[CDtv]

i had an Aunt (rip) who had a most spectacular high heel collection. i fell in love with a 4 inch pair of open-toed ruby red pumps when i was eight and She caught me in them.

She somehow understood and encouraged my new found interest. in the times i did spend at Her house She indulged my fetish and i just progressed from there. Nothing untoward or sexual just a bit of encouraged feminization (perhaps Her fetish)

[sami1952]

When i was in school i used to play baseball with the girls.it seems like i was one of them and from then on i started dressing up in women's clothes

[melisa6]

I used to day dream about dressing up when i was at school. And one day i saw the tv show "The Kids in the Hall" and the rest is history!:D

[TrannyJenny]

I was about 12 years old and i found some of my sister´s underwear inside the laundry basket of the bathroom i decided to wear the panties and i felt sooo excited that I went for more. Sneaking to ANY woman drawer I could (aunts, friends, even my parents friends daughters) I start my colection that was growing day by day, The risks were worthfull because the best in this world is to feel that silky sensation in your skin and to watch in the mirror that you can look femenine too

[fun4metoo2004]

My mother was a dance teacher, and naturally, I was expected to be involved with any shows that she did. From about the age of 6 or so I had to wear tights, leotard, occasionally ballet shoes.

Around the age of 13 I looked at mom's asundry of stockings, garters, pantyhose, girdle, you name it. My mom by then was working two jobs. Teaching dance and then working as a waitress in the evening. This left me many hours to experiment. I tried my hand at makeup and was not very successful, it never looked very good. Lipstick was about the best I could do.

I would at some point in my life have a TV makeover and have pictures taken after just for my entertainment and the completion of a fantasy. Since I retired from the Military I have worn Panties, and Hold-ups daily.

I also learned recently that I was on a T-blocker and did not know it. I had a heart problem last year and my cardiologist put me on spironolactone and over the time I was on it I noticed what I consider a considerable growth of breast tissue. I never realized that this was a side effect of the drug. I am not bothered by the growth of breast tissue. I like the fact that I now have almost a solid B cup because of it. It just makes crossdressing easier and more fun.

The other side effect I was not aware of is supposed to reduce body hair growth. I have blond hair that is very light all over my body with the exeption of my face and chest. I have been shaving my Underarms, and Legs for 8 years now.

Is it me or has anyone else noticed that male body odor almost went away after I started to shave my underarms.

I have just celebrated my 46th birthday and really feel good about myself for the first time in many years. I had a bad marrige, worse divorce, had to move my mother in with me until she died, so now with a 16yo son, and no wife, I can do a little more.

My son would never understand my crossdressing, so I do not expose him to it. It would be nice if I could find a nice woman that does not mind what I do and I could fall in love again. Just isn't happening.

:tongueout

[Diana West]

Hypnosis. It was brought on by some hypnotic feminization files I downloaded.

After a couple of weeks of listening to those files, my mannerisms took on a distinctively feminine flair. Soon, I was wearing a bra and panties to work every day.
And I can also say, I don't regret it. I embrace it.

[crusadergirl]

I would say it started when i was about 14 i first tryed on my moms skirt and some panties. After that then no one was home i would try on new stuff. When i was 15 was the last time i crossdressed until i was 25. It all started again when my g/f was always making my dress up in her clothes. But thought nothin of it. So one day i was online went in a chatroom and someone was talking about a crossdressing site. Then i found this place and relized i was just like most of you. Only thing was i didn't want to be one at that time so i took what most of said as a joke.

[Bethanygirl]

I notice that most of you knew very early on, for me I never noticed any urges or interest until I lived with a girl who had a landlady that wouldn't understand her having a male roomie. She was trying to help me out of a tight spot, as I was fifteen and homeless, so she presented me as her female roommate and looked after me for about six months. We got to be good girlfreinds, (nothing sexual) and she never acted as anything but a freind. After we parted, I tried to go back to my male self, and after about a year of self-destructive behavior, I returned to being Bethany, and never looked back.

[Penny]

When I was 11, I was playing over a one of my friends and he got a couple of his sisters panties, longling bras and girdles and we put them on. Of course it wasn't his first time. I have not doubt he is a CD to this day.

[MJ]

well for me i started dressing at around 7 my sister cloths or mums stockings but what triggered it i have no idea. i think it was something for some reason i had to do like instinct .. i just do it.. hugs mj

[Sierra Evon]

I was an only child , my mom divorced when I was 5 yrs. old, she was gone to work alot and most all the time I spent alone , or with some other kids at playing , my mom worked for a bank soo she always each morning we shared a small bathroom, I got ready for school , while she applied make-up, and hairspray , to go to work , and we both left around the same time in the morning, but I always got home from school hours before shed return from working , soo I recall going threw her closet stuff in her room and , just for HA,HA'ss, tried on various skirt suits , then BANG, then I knew I was in love with CDing , and wanting to become a women , all this took place around age 10-11, now I got my own stuff, and my mom never knew I did this.....

[hotbobbie]

That is just it LIFE. It shows that we do not come out of the same mold and that life has not set everyone to dance to the same tune.

[matti]

I can remember really being curious about girls clothing when I was around 9 because they made such a fuss about the look, the feel, they would twirl around in there new dresses. I had no sisters but had three girl cousins who lived near by. One of my cousins went to a catholic school so she always wore a dress and either tights or knee socks everyday and sometimes my mother would pick her up from her school after she picked me up from public school. Anyway one day my cousins mother picked us both up and took us to a home she was buying to do some work. My cousin saw other kids in the new neighborhood out playing and she ask if she could go out and play with them. Her mother told her no because she had her uniform on and she didn't want to get it messed up or torn etc. He other clothes were back at her other home so she was stuck, or so she thought. She complained and whined and then blurted out I wish I could switch clothes with me. Her mother said I don't care as long as he doesn't get them messed up. My cousin ask me if I wanted to play, I said no, then ask me please please please could we switch clothes then. Thought for one second and said ok. So within 5 minutes I had on a white shirt, blue tights, blue skirt and her black shoes. Her mother told me I look cute and my cousin went out to play and I helped my aunt for almost 3 hours of total happiness. I told my aunt I liked this and she frowned a bit but said nothing. My cousin and I did this for a few more years at different times and by age 12 she decieded it wasn't right. We have never talked about it again. I'll never forget the feeling, the fun, the happiness. I was hooked forever

[Kelsy]

These are all such incredible storys, all different but all the same! There must be a genetic predisposition to this and it seems the imprinting for the most part is pre pubesent. I started at 10 my sister had a suit case of doll clothes and in it were two pair of panties one with light blue flowers and one with pink flowers. I remember they were lollipop brand. Well they became mine and I would wear them when ever I could. I hid them in the cellar up in the crawl space. They may still be up there !! I loved those panties and the way they made me feel. I have been CDing ever since. The memories of those times are as if it was yesterday!!!

Jennifer:happy:

[janet p]

You know for the longest time I wondered the same thing myself until I was talking to my mother and she mentioned that my best friend (David) and his wife had been writen up in the local newspaper for their part in a play. Then I thought back to when we were kids and one of the games we would play was to put our heads in the dryer (not running) and pertend it would change us into girls so we could (after putting some of his moms old silk dresses) sneak into the girls camp and spy on them.:love: PS. The dress would arouse me and that started it all.

[Cynthia_0101]

I can remember being about 7 and finding some old eye make up of my moms and I just had to try it, It was hideous colors like plant green but I had to try it anyways. I ended up looking like a clown but it got me hooked.

Cynthia

[Angela E.]

I can`t recall any one specific trigger,I felt I was a girl long before I started dressing like one(age 4 or 5).After my mother caught me she encouraged it,and I became mommy`s little girl.It was beautiful.Of course we had to keep it from my father,but he eventually found out anyway and thats a topic I`ve covered on another thread.Love-Angela:hugs: :doll:

[Lanore]

Birth

[sherib]

( was hidding in my mothers large closet and tried on her nylons a high heels, THAT WAS IT.

[Alysin CD]

I started in my early teens. There was no "trigger". I believe it is a natural thing for me.

Alysin

[Jenfrso]

I don't think of it as a trigger, but the first time was when I was in an elementary school Christmas play around the age of 11 or 12. I was one of Santa's elves and we had to wear a leotart top and leotart tights and I was the only boy elf the rest were girls, I remember the teacher needed another elf and they ran out of girls and they picked me because I looked the most like a girl out of all the boys, so they picked me. It felt completely normal to be wearing the outfit, and to be with all the girls, I think there were twelve of us. It felt like a whole lot of preassure was taken off my shoulders, like I was walking on air, aloud to be myself. I remember hoping I could keep wearing the outfit after the play. Didn't happen, I had to turn it in after the play. The rest is history.

Jen

[dancingdan485]

Over 40 years ago as a teenager trying on a pair of my mothers pantyhose. I have always had a ladies foot and leg fetish and was hooked from there. For most of that time only wore pantyhose and heels but last couple of years the desire to fully dress. Danielle