Crossroads

[brun123]

I havent posted much or in a long time but I have come to a crossroad. I have been drissing for a little while and have enjoyed it very much. Untill now I have considered myself a crossdresser. Lately I have been questioning who I really am. Am a a man with a femminine side or am i truly female. I guess what I am saying is that I dont know who I truly am and do not know where to go from here. This is all getting very confusing and I don't know what to do. I don't know how to start my journeyof self discovery, and I am scared of the results.

I thought I would just post this as I needed to get it off my chest and any responses or advice would be greatly appreciated.

[Priss]

I believe that you are already on the journey my dear.

The journey is not necessarily like going off to a high mountain top and meditating for clarity. It's being willing to be open minded and flexible in your beliefs about yourself. If you can do that, then one day you'll just know. That day may not be tomorrow or next year, but it will come.

I've been on a journey all my life. I don't know if it'll ever end. For myself and atleast some others, I always knew that I was female inside. But it hit me like a ton of bricks one night, that I wanted to set my foot on this path. I was also scared, but all I could do was have the courage to make my life my own and nobody elses.

All the advice I can give, is have the courage to listen to yourself. We are all here for just a fleeting moment and then it's over. Live for that moment as who and what you are, whatever that may be.

[CaptLex]

This is all getting very confusing and I don't know what to do. I don't know how to start my journeyof self discovery, and I am scared of the results. I thought I would just post this as I needed to get it off my chest and any responses or advice would be greatly appreciated.
I know therapy is not for everyone, but have you considered it? I only got so far on my own personal journey of self-discovery and then I too reached a crossroads. Gender therapy has helped me get much further (and sooner) than I could on my own. Just my 0.02

[Shelly Preston]

Dont Panic

Thats the first thing we all go through this point of wondering who we are.
Take things slowly dont make any rush decisions. at some point you may need professional advice. Consider how you life would be, and how you will feel as both a male and a female. It may help ?

[jamie_44]

Hello Brun123, I know what you are going through, I am there myself. I start therapy this Saturday. I thought that I could handle it alone, but I need help. I picked a therapist that has experience with transgendered people like us, so I'll let you know how it goes.

[Sarahgurl371]

No advice that hasn't already been given. I would recommend talking to someone who specializes in gender identity / TS issues. It seems to help a bit. I also try to read as much objective information as I can. And a great deal of self introspection as well. Good luck to you.

[Stephenie S]

I agree with CaptLex and others above.

Gender therapy has helped me more than any (with exception of my wife's acceptance) other single thing in my journey. I did not need a lot. I actually only went for three months, but having a professional direct my thoughts and feelings was more helpful than I can descibe.

Please go for it. Just make sure you are in sync with the therapist. You really do not want to waste any time at all with someone who thinks of themseves as a "gatekeeper". These people can be really destructive. If you don't like your therapist just leave and find another. Remember you are paying them for help. If they are not helping, why bother?

Good luck.

Lovies,
Stephenie

[Scotty]

I went through this recently, it's a big shock, huge.

When you decide, then your life will be such a relief and you will have a lot more enjoyment. It all came out to myself, 15 or 20, maybe 25 years and it all came together - things I did at age 12 and 14 now make sense.

I walk around my yard in female clothes (Shorts, tanks, etc) the neighbors have seen me with short shirts (To cover my developing breasts) and they've seen my belly button ring. They've seen my shaved legs and I'm OK with that!

I'm a guy but inside is my woman, under the clothes etc. And in Winter I'll dress up. I sleep in womens clothes, and from the time I come home I'm in womens clothes of one sort or another......

And I have real breasts that I enjoy. But I still love women - that much I've concluded......

It's all about self - confidence really, having the confidence to decide what you want, if you want it all then go for it - it's a long long road, enjoy it and dont' rush it!!

Therapy would have been a huge help for me, might have speeded the process up, but in my own mind I've resolved everything, or almost everything, that needs to be resolved for me......

[Siobhan Marie]

There's always been a definate feminine side to me. I've tried to ignore it over the years but it hasn't worked to the point now where I've realised what and who I am. I am transgendered but I don't wish to transition. I realised this after doing some reading on Wikipedia and finding that what I was reading related to me. I am still very much in the closet as regards telling my parents. I have told other people whom I work with and they've been great about it and I don't deny it either. I dress as and when I can. I underdress all the time and sleep in nighties. Like many others I present as a man but am a woman on the inside, one that could really do with losing some weight!! The only thing I can't wear is my heels as my feet have swollen up for the summer. I do shave where a lady should including downstairs. To be totally honest I wouldn't change me for the world. :happy: I know that I've started a long journey, one that will last for the rest of my life.

:hugs: Anna x

[drew44]

Confusion is the precursor to the right decision. So stay confused until you are sure.