steffie39
08-05-2006, 08:14 PM
Hi girls,
I was just reflecting today:
It's hard to believe but it's been one year now since I've first gone out in the real world as Steffie. I remember, the first time I ever went out was to a Renaissance meeting (which meets the first Saturday of every month). My first meeting was in August, 2005. I remember going to a motel and changing. I then snuck to the car to go to the meeting. I remember worrying whether people would see me in the car dressed. I was so nervous. I wore a pink dress with 4 inch pumps and pantyhose. At first I just went to meetings. Then I worked my way up to going to a far-away mall shopping en-femme. Then earlier this year it was dinner and a movie (with some other CD's). Then I got the courage to go to night clubs in NY and NJ wit other GG's. One time I even rode the train into NY and the subway as Steffie. I then recently even went out of state to places like Las Vegas and DC, walking the streets and even seeing historical sights as Steffie. Plus now I have learned to dress more mainstream (unlike that first time when I wore 4 inch heels and pantyhose that last summer lol).
I never would have ever believed that I could have gotten to this point in only a year. I'm not sure quite how I did it but I know now that it has gotten a lot easier and I am at peace with myself. I used to resist the Steffie inside me but now I let her come out more. The important thing, though, is I'm also happy with my male self (which should be comforting to my wife) and I've tried to keep a balance between the two. The ironic thing is today I didn't even dress for my anniversary. lol Hopefully in the coming year Steffie will continue to explore new things and go to new places. Reading about other people on the forum venturing out has given me courage though. So I want to thank all you girls for your support as without you, Steffie may still be in the closet. :happy: :happy:
Steffie
I was just reflecting today:
It's hard to believe but it's been one year now since I've first gone out in the real world as Steffie. I remember, the first time I ever went out was to a Renaissance meeting (which meets the first Saturday of every month). My first meeting was in August, 2005. I remember going to a motel and changing. I then snuck to the car to go to the meeting. I remember worrying whether people would see me in the car dressed. I was so nervous. I wore a pink dress with 4 inch pumps and pantyhose. At first I just went to meetings. Then I worked my way up to going to a far-away mall shopping en-femme. Then earlier this year it was dinner and a movie (with some other CD's). Then I got the courage to go to night clubs in NY and NJ wit other GG's. One time I even rode the train into NY and the subway as Steffie. I then recently even went out of state to places like Las Vegas and DC, walking the streets and even seeing historical sights as Steffie. Plus now I have learned to dress more mainstream (unlike that first time when I wore 4 inch heels and pantyhose that last summer lol).
I never would have ever believed that I could have gotten to this point in only a year. I'm not sure quite how I did it but I know now that it has gotten a lot easier and I am at peace with myself. I used to resist the Steffie inside me but now I let her come out more. The important thing, though, is I'm also happy with my male self (which should be comforting to my wife) and I've tried to keep a balance between the two. The ironic thing is today I didn't even dress for my anniversary. lol Hopefully in the coming year Steffie will continue to explore new things and go to new places. Reading about other people on the forum venturing out has given me courage though. So I want to thank all you girls for your support as without you, Steffie may still be in the closet. :happy: :happy:
Steffie