suzannecarr
08-14-2006, 01:21 AM
hey girls.  do you ever feel as though  the enfemme character  you portray while dressed , might be who you really are and  the male character you portray  is just a total everyday acting job,  and  its getting harder and harder to act like a male when you feel like the roles are reversing  and youve become the character , that you werent born as but wish so strongly you were, i often have the thoughts  sometimes dreams, that i wake up as a female , i think of this sometimes late at night before sleep and imagine what i would look like  had i been born  a female, what color hair, length, my sisters have nice bodies, (cant help but see it)have often noticed and became jealous of them! have any other girls felt these feelings, i have these thoughts often, i think of what my wife would say, how i would wake up to here screaming at me, i would say something like what are you talking about, hear my own feminine voice, look at our dressers  mirror, see my hair (shoulder length auburn) while she passed out or whatever, i would probably cry big crocodile tears of joy, ask her to borrow  some clothes, and if she wanted to go to  the mall and help me find my shade of base, and something cute to wear that fit me good, maybe some shoes too, ask her if i could borrow some mascara(even though i have a stash) she would be definitely passed out by this time or questioning  why i wasnt upset, id be curling my hair and borrowing shadow and lipstick,  freaking out about how cool it is to put on a bra and actually have a legitimate reason to( lift and separate) honestly id probably want to go out somewhere  just to get hit on by a guy or something, sue me but the longer i go in life the more i think about men, have been involuntarily checking them out(discreetly of course) i like the everyday little things about being  femme, and id really enjoy that sort of thing, anyway i should have been  female, cuz im a ditzy babbling nonsense making chick,    at least on the inside, but i currently  am  acting in the production called ~~
the girl in a mans body, the life story of me!~~ i should win an oscar or something, suzanne:love:
the girl in a mans body, the life story of me!~~ i should win an oscar or something, suzanne:love: