crossed the line joining this forum

[DeniseNJ]

I always thought that I had my desires to dress as a woman under control and now this. Reading all the threads and seeing the pretty pictures of all the ladies in here have ignited a fire that burns deep. It is scary but thrilling ,thinking about the next steps that I wish to take. Am I nervous but at the same time a erie calm about me has taken over my body. When you have always felt this way for most of your life and wish you were born a girl you look at the world differently. I hope I don't do anything crazy like just come out and tell all my friends Hi my name is Denise and I am a crossdreser. This forum got me scared..:eek:

[QZ2]

Hey Denise, I'm right with you. I am closer to coming out of the closet than ever before in my life. It is scary! But at the same time, because of this forum and all the lovely ladies with their wisdom, I am way more at peace with my dressing and myself than ever before.

This forum, my newfound friends, the new insights and hints have gone a long way to making me realize what I am, where I fit in this world. So the scare is coupled with a new sense of confidence that whatever the consequences, I can handle it.

Boo!

Love, Susie

[tekla west]

The only line is the one in your head, the only bars on the prison are the ones you put there.

[judyw9]

Yeah, I feel the same way about finding this forum. Really excited but a little scared as well. I need to be careful not to move too quickly. Kind of like drving down the highway at 140 miles per hour, exilirating but if you lose control and have an accident......

[Charleen]

Hi Denise, There's on old saying - easy does it. Take your time. It is thrilling finding this site. You realise you ain't alone ouy there. I think everyone, and I do mean everyone on this site is at a different level in some ways. In the closet, peeking out , putting a foot out, all the way out and in your face out, and everthing in between. All in their own time do things happen. Read the posts, explore and understand who you are and you'll be alright. Don't be afraid to ask questions either. We're all here for you sister. Love and xxxx, Lily

[Luciana Vitale]

:happy: The same feeling to me, reading all this post and feeling them so mine.First time that a put a picture in the web(not the best, but starting with some)

:happy:

Luciana

[melisa6]

i feel the same way

[Karren H]

So what are you waiting around here for....go get pretty!! NOW!! hehehe

Love Karren

[DeniseNJ]

It feels good not to be alone, I remember one time about 4 years ago that I dressed fully for halloween as a girl and my wife came out with me to a party. I shaved my legs, and had bought a skirt suit from Fashion bug. My friend's wife , a nail tech put glue on nails on me , lent me her breast enhansments to use that gave me a full B cup and I was in 2 1/2" Blk patent pumps with Hane suntan silk reflections hose. full make-up {That I done myself and a wig...A few of us decided to hit the Atlantic City Casinos . I remember walking through the Casino floor feeling so at ease. It was hard to believe how comfortable I felt as Denise. I played some roulette and seeing my nails, long and polished as I played with the chips was so erotic. The girls loved me and I even stopped female dealers in mid play as they commented how good I looked. One stated that I looked better than most of the drag Queens in town. That night I spend more time as a girl than I did a boy and it felt soooooooo right. After the long night out my wife told me to take off the nails but I got emontial and never wanted the night to end. It felt so good being a girl but the only reason why I did it was Halloween. I want to feel like that again but on a regular day with a couple girl friends in tow. I can't wait to shave my legs again, summer is almost over :heehee: I think I will go put on some lipstick...

[Barb Valentine]

Welcome to the family
:hugs:
Barb

[Donnadcd]

I feel exactly the way you do - yet the more i visit here and see the other girls, a calm overtakes me and tells me I belong here with my sisters.

[Melissa A.]

welcome, and have fun.

Hugs,

Melissa:happy:

[ranma 1/2]

I'm glad I joined too. Its great to be able to open up like I've never been able to before. I would of never of thought of shaving my legs but this winter I am going too.

Good luck girl

[older not wiser]

Hi Denise, Isn't it a wonderful feeling when ones inner most desires can come out???? Haloween is always a good excuse to get girly but waiting for a whole year can drive someone nuts. I personally dress whenever I can and underdress everyday(pantyhose, panties and in much cooler weather a bra), this helps me alot until I can fully become the female deep inside me.
Don't do anything rash, just move slowly and with conviction.

Love; BonnieAnne :GE:

[sparks]

Just close your eyes and repeat whilst clicking your slippers. "There's no place like home!"
Now Run Dorthy! Run! Get dolled up and have fun.

[Kate Simmons]

Hi Denise, don't forget, I'm not too far from you (The Poconos) if you ever need a friend to talk to or hang out with.:happy: Ericka

[Kristen Kelly]

The only line is the one in your head, the only bars on the prison are the ones you put there.

WOW... I like that, so true, I've said it before, the time spent here has been more productive than the time I spent with the shrink. Since joining I have one foot "coming out," have told my GF about Kristen, have meet and gone out often with the girls here. I also love going to Atlantic City enfem, maybe we can do the town one night.

[bobbijo]

I feel the same way. Before joining this forum I dressed fully about twice a month, now I dress almost everyday and I find I don't really care if other people know or not.

[randi32869]

I know what you mean - this was my own private fetish for 40 years and now I find that there is a whole world like me. That is such a relief to not be as weird as you had thought you were.

[Lilith Moon]

This forum goes the other way, too. If ya ain't up for dressing - at home, or out - you can dress just by logging in. No one sees your stubble here. Mellow.

:iagree:

I'm going through a dressing drought right now and this forum has kept the depression at bay somewhat by allowing me to cyber-dress whenever I want.

[Claire]

here are a lot of us here Denise who have had the same feelings for years. It is great to have friends to share with. Just feel comfortable with yourself.:hugs:

[Deenise60]

Do what makes you happy. Life is to short so enjoy. If dressing does that than by all means dress.

[fiona_libby]

No pun intended but I also crossed the line in order to tackle the thoughts / desires to embrace femininity but I am like many users of this forum remaining very much in the closet about this dream. Although I have been tempted on many ocassions to take a big step on my journey towards femininity and share my thoughts with GG's that I know, but I could not handle a negative reaction so I remain stuck in my current situation. I remain relatively positive as to my ability to resolve my predicament

lots of love

Fiona

[Jasmine Ellis]

go and have fun the rest will come

[eleventhdr]

I do feel this wa as well also.

it can go for sometimes very long times when i dod not dress much at all but hen the urge never really goes away it is always there .

it is just that most of the time it is very difficult to dress and be yourself.

But then when i can and do i feel so finaly free wearing the clothing that suits me best.

And becoming who and what i really am.

To deny it is utter rubbish.

You can not it will always catch you up and reveal itself just when you think you can finally escape it you never really can it will always catch you up and reveal itself so just go with it and see.

It is how and what who we all are right!

Jay Suzy!

[Kandi]

As a new member I too have been over run with feelings concerning cding.
My wife of 18 yrs is showing huge signs of acceptance where she is asking why i dont come out. That scares the hell out of me. As they say be careful what you wish for.

[Robin Leigh]

As a new member I too have been over run with feelings concerning cding.
My wife of 18 yrs is showing huge signs of acceptance where she is asking why i dont come out. That scares the hell out of me. As they say be careful what you wish for.

A wife who accepts her husband CDing can be scary, especially if you've always been very secretive in the past. It will take you time to get used to this new perspective on your dressing.

What is 'coming out', really? I think the trick lies in working out what parts of your fantasy you really want to share with the rest of the world & become reality. Some things are best kept in the closet. :)

This site is great, not simply for the sense of community we get here, but because through this community we can begin to understand aspects of our own transgenderedness that are difficult to understand without some form of social interaction with other transgendered people.

Of course, there's also all the good practical information on shopping, dressing, makeup, depilation, etc and excellent articles on transgender theory. This site would have to be the best TG resource on the planet, with the collective experience & wisdom we have here. And some of us don't look half bad, either. :)

Humans are social creatures, and our sense of self-identity is affected by those we socialize with. Having this place to socialize with our TG peers like we never have before is bound to have a big impact on the psyche.

Robin

[jerseycarla]

I'm with you. In the last year I have been out about 12 times. The thing about it is that, I don't care if I pass or not.

[carolinewalker_2000]

This is a great forum and, as so many others have said, it does open your eyes to just how many of us there are out there. I think it is great that you feel nearer to coming out in public. I would only caution; remember that it is easy, when amongst friends on a forum like this, to forget just how prejudiced and unforgiving the big wide world can be. Don't get swept away; take your time and I am sure you will come to the solution that is right for you.

Good luck.

hugs,


Caroline

[juliek]

This forum has been very helpful for me, but I find I spend an awful lot of time here reading the stories and looking for Karren's next adventure.:p

[Kimberley]

Hi Denise,

A few have already said it so let me repeat it again. Go slow and be sure. The ramifications can be horrendous or they can be empowering. A lot of it will depend on those closest to you and the amount of support they are willing to give or alternatively your willingness to accept negative consequences as a trade off.

More than a couple of us have just jumped out of the closet prematurely and been met with some life altering results. This kind of response can fuel a host of other more severe problems starting with shattering any self esteem and ending with depression bordering on suicidal ideation.

Please, take your time and carefully test the waters. It is better to be in the closet than in a psych ward. I hate to see any of my sisters suffer.

:hugs:
Kimberley

[Robin Leigh]

This forum has been very helpful for me, but I find I spend an awful lot of time here reading the stories and looking for Karren's next adventure.:p

Yes, this place can be addictive, which is partly why I didn't register for half a year. It just takes a little bit of self-control. :)

But don't be too hard on yourself for spending a bit of time here, Julie. We've got a few years of missed education to catch up on. We were taught how to be cis-gendered when growing up, now's our chance to go to Tranny School. It's much more fun than Sunday School. :heehee:

Robin

[cdwales]

its all a bit scary i thought id be ok but since joining i come on most nights and im running out of lingerie

[CheriTV2006]

I'm in awe of and really appreciate in what this site proves in numbers. At one time, as kids, we had no conception that cd'ing was going to be this universal! Ain't life grande! Hey, I think were all alright! Cheri.

[Audrey34]

This forum is a mixed bag for me. Sometimes I feel a bit encouraged by what I read and other times I end up feeling worse. Right now I have several issues dealing with crossdressing and I'm not even sure if anyone here can even help.
-Audrey

[FROCKYHORROR]

I know what you mean,its like this place is giving you a license to go on the cd'ing rampage,but like others have said just go at a pace thats comfortable for you,i too have that fear of turning up at my parents house "erm Mum Dad theres something i've got to tell you..." sends shivers down my spine,but at the same time i'm so glad theres a place like this where you can vent off your feminine desires with like minded people that understand where you're coming from etc.

[sherell]

Be carefull if you wan't to keep all of your friends.

[janiecdbbw]

Over the years,I have had to learn to be careful as to who I share this with and who I don't. Sometimes I have been backstabbed by those that I thought for sure would be cool, and also have been pleasantly suprised by a few too..as stated in an earlier post " slow and easy". Luck to you !
Janie