Rikkicn
09-27-2006, 01:22 PM
It was one week ago that my sweetie and I packed the van and left for the rural hills of California. We had planned, shopped for, and invited 85 people for a two and a half day event. Our wedding was to be a coming together of my beloved's family, our straight friends and our Radical Faery queer family.
My sweetie and I and several friends arrived two days early to set up tents, set up the kitchen and get ready for arriving guests. We wanted to make this a community happening so everyone, including guests had small tasks to do to get ready for the final celebration and dinner. This was a great way to make sure that all the diverse groups could meet one another and it worked beautifully.
This was the first time I was to meet most of my beloved's family looking and feeling very much a woman. I wore flirty and feminine skirts, tops and shoes. My hair looked really wonderful and I received many, many compliments. It felt so wonderful to be seen, embraced and loved by everyone as a woman. It has significantly deepened my perception of myself as a woman and all of those at the wedding. I was called "Auntie" by my new nieces and nephews and referred to as "she" by most of the older family members.
For the first time I wore mostly pink in front of the family. Up until then I had been femme but somewhat conservative. Now, the fact that I swaddled my self in pink and lace is known to all. What an amazing feeling of acceptance and freedom to finally be who you want to be. It seems to me that the more I show my true self the better my life gets.
I was in a 27 year sexless, loveless and barely tolerating marriage for way too long. I made the very hard, long and difficult decision to leave and build a new life. When I left I wasn't sure what the future would bring. I was scared, anxious and ecstatic all at once. Tears of pain and sorrow had been shed. Hopes and dreams were awakened.
I had been learning to trust in the Universe and that if I loved well enough only wonderful things would come my way.
It worked!
Love to all,
Rikki
My sweetie and I and several friends arrived two days early to set up tents, set up the kitchen and get ready for arriving guests. We wanted to make this a community happening so everyone, including guests had small tasks to do to get ready for the final celebration and dinner. This was a great way to make sure that all the diverse groups could meet one another and it worked beautifully.
This was the first time I was to meet most of my beloved's family looking and feeling very much a woman. I wore flirty and feminine skirts, tops and shoes. My hair looked really wonderful and I received many, many compliments. It felt so wonderful to be seen, embraced and loved by everyone as a woman. It has significantly deepened my perception of myself as a woman and all of those at the wedding. I was called "Auntie" by my new nieces and nephews and referred to as "she" by most of the older family members.
For the first time I wore mostly pink in front of the family. Up until then I had been femme but somewhat conservative. Now, the fact that I swaddled my self in pink and lace is known to all. What an amazing feeling of acceptance and freedom to finally be who you want to be. It seems to me that the more I show my true self the better my life gets.
I was in a 27 year sexless, loveless and barely tolerating marriage for way too long. I made the very hard, long and difficult decision to leave and build a new life. When I left I wasn't sure what the future would bring. I was scared, anxious and ecstatic all at once. Tears of pain and sorrow had been shed. Hopes and dreams were awakened.
I had been learning to trust in the Universe and that if I loved well enough only wonderful things would come my way.
It worked!
Love to all,
Rikki