illusion, attitude and laughs

[Shadowls]

i've all ways been a tom boy, wearing guys clothies. I have never understude why no one gave me greaf over it. many times in my life i've been seen as one of the guys, played foot ball with them and such. they guys thought nothing of me being a girl. my attitude has and will most likely always be that of a guy. the best feeling is to know you've tricked your friends. to know that you don't have to try at the illusion.

once in a while, i will have an emotional need to be the beautiful, charming, dazaling woman that i know i can be. so i get all gussied up, hair, make up, dress the whole nine yard of being a girl.

i step out, knowing that i'm turning heads and making my buds drool. i soak up the cat calls and wistles. some times i step out with some one close to me, who knows it's me.

the next day i'm one of the guys again the the goddess is tucked back away. my buds tell me all about the goddess that they saw yesterday and how good she looked. hearing the vugar words they use to explain how stunning i was.

i laugh and shake my head, when they ask " so your a chick, how could i get with some one like that" i have to burst the illusion and let them see the goddess is one of the guys. they don't know what to say, they don't know how to act.

they are stuck between talking to their bud, trying to appalogize to a beautiful girl, feeling bad because they didn't see the person behind the goddess, and just plain confusion on why i don't dress like the goddess more offten.

i explain to them that the reson i don't dress up as a girl is because of what they where saying about the goddess when they didn't know she was me. i always wanted to be disired for who i am not what i look like. i'm better then a peice of meat to be drooled over.

some women like being treated like meat
some women hate it
some women come off as a bitches to put guys in thier place about being treated like meat

i do what i do best, i fade in to the background as one of the shadows.

how can one of the guys be a piece of meat? it's funner, easyer and makes a bigger impact to show truth behind the illusion

[CaptLex]

Welcome to the forum, Shadow! :welcom: Sounds like you've got the best of both worlds. :thumbsup:

[Shadowls]

thanks, i've just never figured out why every one is so up tight about who wears what, who loves who, ect. there is so many other things to worry about. i grew up in a singel parent enviroment, so having a place to live and food on the table was more importent then me being what socity thought i should be

[Julie York]

Being admired is frightening. Some folk get off on it, some don't. Nice to have a choice when you want to turn it on or off.

[Sarah Rabbit]

i've just never figured out why every one is so up tight about who wears what,Not all of us have the ability to be able to turn ON/OFF our alternate selves. You are perfectly accepted as a'Tomboy' or the 'Goddess' female in the wider community. If I were to step out as my female persona, I would not be so redily accepted.:D That said, Welcome to the Forum. I did enjoy your Post, it was insightful

Sarah R. :bunny:

[sparks]

I'm with Bunnykins. I wish I could step out all femmie and be greeted as such but I look pretty ..... scary! Anyway I think you'll fit in with the rest of us kooks.

[Kate Simmons]

How can a guy be a piece of meat? Some women would surprise you, Hon. I've heard "normal" woman talk about guys in words that make even MY head spin. Anyway, I think you are cool. You seem to be your own person and that's what I'm about as well. I can be a charming guy but prefer to be a girl. Sounds like we may be opposite sides of the same coin. As Ericka though, I don't let them get away with thinking I'm a piece of "meat". If they get out of line, they find out that this particular piece of "meat" bites back.:happy: Take care, Ericka

[Shadowls]

Ericka Richards: I have hear how both sexes talk about the other and i find it sad and funny. most of the guys i hung out with would get and ego boost from knowing how chicks talked about "boy toys, beef cake and ect." but a girl hears how guys talk talk about them, there is no ego boost there, just a lot of pain.

[CaptLex]

how can one of the guys be a piece of meat?
Does this mean you've never been to a gay bar? :devil:

What I really want to know is how you manage your relationships with two girls? :eek: Hold on, let me get my note pad . . .

[Kieron Andrew]

Does this mean you've never been to a gay bar? :devil:
exactly what i was thinking.....me thinks you and i need to go for a beer lol

[Kate Simmons]

Ericka Richards: I have hear how both sexes talk about the other and i find it sad and funny. most of the guys i hung out with would get and ego boost from knowing how chicks talked about "boy toys, beef cake and ect." but a girl hears how guys talk talk about them, there is no ego boost there, just a lot of pain.I see your point, Hon. Typical, right? Ericka

[CaptLex]

exactly what i was thinking.....me thinks you and i need to go for a beer lol
I'm buyin', K! :tongueout

[Charleen]

Welcome first off! Tomboys rarely have gotten grief. Most say, Oh how cute, she'll grow out of it. My Mom was a tomboy in the 30's growing up, and she said she had a ball. Didn't have to wear the frillys her sisters did, was allowed to get dirty, ride the Cyclone in Coney Island by herself, ect.
On the other hand, let a boy try to play house, or with dolls, or wear something the least femme looking, then all hell breaks loose. Being who I am, I got lucky growing up as there were very few boys to play with, so my playmates were all girls. Also I now believe that my Mom wanted a girl, so she was indulgent with me.
I've seen both sides of the meat rack, and it just ain't pretty either side. But boys will be boys and girls, girls, no, that aint right either huh?
Love and xxxx, Lily

[Shadowls]

What I really want to know is how you manage your relationships with two girls? Hold on, let me get my note pad . . .

buy a good beer and i'll tell you ~evil grin~

1. they know about each other, NO LIEING, or hiding things from them
2. let them be them selves. if my guys want to be my girls for the weekend, i don't stop them. i enjoy the ride.
3. know who is who and when who is out. Ray and Desaray are compleatly different people sharing the same body. Des is very submissive and very eager to please. Ray is kind, caring and will try with out thinking to eat his foot to the knee cap. David and Rabecha are more of the same person, the same soul if you would. Becha is more submissive then David is and David is sentered on self then Becha is. Some times I have to check to see who is out.
4. love and respect. always respect and love one an other.

things that make my life easyer with having two wonderful people in my life.
1. we are all bi. (sorry about this, but....) like the typical guy i love lesben porn (would my "girls" be concitered lesben or gay cd porn ~shrugs~) and if it's live so much the better.
2. i end up having two guys i can call on to do "guy" things. two subs to fetch and carry for me. two wonderful women to cuddle and pamper.

all in all it's a house full of personalitys and only three physical bodys. can we say mental orgie? ~laugh~

it works out wonderfully, because we don't have to hide who we are or fear rejection from some one we care about. one day i see us being confortable enuph with who and what we are to go out as our virous forms and not care what others think.

[cutbait]

I must say being one of her 'girls', that honesty is the key. Nothing goes on in the house with out any one else knowing about it. Some would ask the question of privacy, and I will say that that is not an issue. We have our moments where one of s would not want to be touched, or even social… this is fine in the house. We are given our space, and enjoy each other even more for it. Just this past weekend, my two angles managed to get me to go shopping for ‘Dess’ as my male self.
In short, we all look out for each other and help each other reach for new and healthy goals. Once this is set, we all reach for that one goal together. Granted there are things that we have to do for our self’s, like going out ‘enfem to breakfast. (That by the way was a blast!!) That was all me. Only I could make the choice, and I got to have one of the freest moments in my life.

Ack,, I’m ranting again… someone gag m when I do that…

[CaptLex]

Thanks for sharing that, Dess. I'll admit I was curious about how one of the other parties feels about it since we were only getting part of the story. I believe there is no right and wrong, and people should do whatever works for them. This seems to be working for you guys. Very cool! :thumbsup:

[cutbait]

thank you for your support capt! from you, that some how means a lot. not to many give indepth, or insightfull postings (my self included)

any how from what i know, our third has yet to show intrest in this site other to read over our shoulders when she is mentioned in a posting. (not to fear, i will not give up)

the only way that i can suggest that this type of household would be able to be reporduced is that a firm ground work be laid. it's either all in or not. advoide starting out as roomates, that never works. if your going to share your life with some one, start out on the right foot.

[Shadowls]

:hugs: this is the second poly relationship i've tryed. the first one didn't work because the 3rd was only in it for them selves and wouldn't open up and talk. her mother even addmitted having a hard time getting to her to talk about any thing. with out good and open comunication a relationship like the one cutbait, i and david are in WILL fail. it take all partys to be mature and adult about the relationship. a relationship like this takes twice the work, love and understanding and can have twice the problems.

Dear Cutbait, you where by far the second choice for a relationship like this, remember we (you, me and david) talked about this before i moved back to VA, before your life changed and we lost contact. i knew that when you where ready, you'd come back to me. and we can talk about my last point as far as why you where not second on the phone.

[cutbait]

with out good and open comunication a relationship like the one cutbait, i and david are in WILL fail. it take all partys to be mature and adult about the relationship. a relationship like this takes twice the work, love and understanding and can have twice the problems.

Dear Cutbait, we can talk on the phone.


i do agree with your point. in fact, you can say that i live by it.


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