Well this could get interesting

[bi_weird]

I've started dating this wonderful boy. He's smart and funny and all those things. He also has the strangest effect on me. While I've spent the last few months slowly allowing myself to act more guyish around most people, dressing and acting more mascline, that doesn't happen around my boyfriend. In fact, the opposite happens. I've worn a skirt for him...twice.
It's good. It feels good to be a girl for him, and since we've gotten together I've been able to breathe and have been a lot less stressed.
I still feel like a guy though, when he's not around. I'm still working on getting more guys clothes (on a college budget) and I'm still the man of the house when my (female) housemates need something fixed. I stopped reading this site for a bit after we started dating, thinking that maybe I wouldn't find it necessary since I felt like a girl for him, but found that I still want to be here. It's so strange: if he's around then I'm giggly and girly, but then he leaves and it's back to my usual gender randomness, with the random "I hate my breasts and want to be a guy!" days and all that. It's making life feel rather schizo, I do have to say. Right now I'm fine with it, though I don't know if this'll last. At some point I'm going to have to talk to him about my gender issues...but that'll be interesting. That's just not something a boyfriend wants to hear.
Anyway yes that's my life. Clap on clap off gender based of if my boyfriend is around. So nice and simple and easy to understand...ugh.

[CaptLex]

Anyway yes that's my life. Clap on clap off gender based of if my boyfriend is around.
I'm guessing that some people would love to be able to turn it on and off at will - so maybe you're lucky. It sounds like you can play in both playgrounds and you have the playmates for each side too. Nothing wrong with that. Whatever makes you happy, hon. Maybe your boyfriend will take it well, and even be into it. Enjoy being you - whatever that includes. ;)

[Shadowls]

your not a lone on the light switch thing. my guys/girls met me in full tomboy mood, they have also triggered my female moods also. i think it's how we react to how people treat us. most of the time, it can feel like the world is out to use our female side and no one questions out male side, but when some one comes along and treats our female side truely lovingly, at lest i can't help but melt into the gooy emotional female high on pharamons

[Kate Simmons]

your not a lone on the light switch thing. my guys/girls met me in full tomboy mood, they have also triggered my female moods also. i think it's how we react to how people treat us. most of the time, it can feel like the world is out to use our female side and no one questions out male side, but when some one comes along and treats our female side truely lovingly, at lest i can't help but melt into the gooy emotional female high on pharamonsIf it were me, you would only have to be yourself, Hon. I would expect no more or no less.:happy: Ericka

[Jasmine Ellis]

enjoy being you no matter what anyone else says good luck

[Billijo49504]

Gee, that's the way it's for most of us guy, who want to dress gurl. I hope you two get to the point where you have to have the talk, us guys know about this. And I truely hope this guy can understand your situation. And be understanding and supporting of you and your life style. Hell, he may like the idea of having a girlfriend to do guy things with. but at bed time you are still a soft caring person as he is...All the best to both of you..:hugs: .BJ

[Kimberley]

Just be yourself and dont sacrifice anything for anyone. That is what will make you happy. On again off again, so what?

We all need someone in our lives but we also need that person to be perfectly understanding and accepting and this applies universally. The M2F forums are littered with shattered people because of this very issue and there is not a single one of us who would not have come out early had we known then what we know now.

You have the advantage here of the wisdom and support of thousands who know and have lived all the joys and heartaches. Consider the stories and be true to you.

The clothing is expression. What you feel is what counts, and most importantly ....

Read the signature.

:hugs:
Kimberley

[JenniferMint]

I've started dating this wonderful boy. He's smart and funny and all those things. He also has the strangest effect on me. While I've spent the last few months slowly allowing myself to act more guyish around most people, dressing and acting more mascline, that doesn't happen around my boyfriend. In fact, the opposite happens. I've worn a skirt for him...twice.

If I end up dating a nice girl who happens to be heterosexual and prefers me to not get SRS, then I'd remain non-op for her sake. Perhaps I'd even grow to enjoy sex with my non-op anatomy (I'm a virgin right now).

I'd even be willing to be a guy for her some of the time.

But, I'd want her to respect my female side, to not mind being affectionate with me in public (and looking like a lesbian), etc. And no taking away my estrogen pills. I need them!

[Charleen]

As Karren on the M2F puts it, the best of both worlds. I agree.
Love and xxxx, Lily

[myMichelle]

Please take this as a compliment:

If not for the fact that you posted this on the FTM forum, I'd have thought it was posted by a male! As somebody already mentioned, you have definitely expressed the feelings of most (if not all) of the MTF crossdressers...Maybe you're more like a guy than you think, lol. Also, for whatever it's worth, the next time you find yourself in the middle of one of those clap on, clap off kinda days, remember that I (and probably all males here) would gladly trade bodies with you for a day if such things were possible. Hang in there and good luck in your journey