Gurly
10-30-2006, 10:09 AM
This is a weird one but I felt that I had to post to get it off my chest. I'll try to keep it brief, so as not to bore you.
I am 45, married and a father to an eight-year old daughter, for whom I would jump in front of a train if it were necessary. My wife has no clue about my dressing.......or does she? To keep this brief, I came home the other day after work and my wife nonchalantly asked if there was anything on the computer that I wanted to keep secret, to which I replied "of course not". Apparently there was (oops). I had stored an article about crossdressing (with pics) on my computer in a long-forgotten folder and apparently she found it. Holy s--t, Batman!! Well, what could I do at that point? She first asked if I was attracted to cd'ers. I took a very calming deep breath and said that I WAS a cd'er and that I'd been doing it since I was five. Well, you can guess which question came next: Are you gay? Umm...no...I just like the appearance of looking (or trying to look like a female). Typical of my wife, she starting giggling uncontrollably and then bolted out the door. She came back a few minutes later and wanted to know the truth. I had to say that it was true, otherwise why the info about it on the computer? By nature I am VERY non-confrontational, so I was surprised by my calm demeanor. I still felt like vomiting, however. I felt hopeful because she didn't threaten to leave me or tell anybody else (even though I know she would). She just keep giggling about it, which in turn got me to laughing about it. Here is where the story steps into the Twilight Zone. She thinks I made the whole thing up as a practical joke just to make her laugh. I was both relieved and VERY disappointed. Not really sure what to do at this point. For those of you who say "For crying out loud, come out already!", it's not easy when you have a child. I have to consider the impact on my daughter first. I am less concerned about how it will affect the marriage because it's a mess anyway, as it has many, many problems (for starters, she had an affair). Since then, she has made a joke or two about it but basically has dropped it, although her attitude at one point led me to believe she would be repulsed by the idea.
Again, if she believed that I really am a cd'er she would tell the WHOLE WORLD (and any other potential life forms out there). Not really sure why I posted this....just wanted to vent I guess. Thanks for listening.
I am 45, married and a father to an eight-year old daughter, for whom I would jump in front of a train if it were necessary. My wife has no clue about my dressing.......or does she? To keep this brief, I came home the other day after work and my wife nonchalantly asked if there was anything on the computer that I wanted to keep secret, to which I replied "of course not". Apparently there was (oops). I had stored an article about crossdressing (with pics) on my computer in a long-forgotten folder and apparently she found it. Holy s--t, Batman!! Well, what could I do at that point? She first asked if I was attracted to cd'ers. I took a very calming deep breath and said that I WAS a cd'er and that I'd been doing it since I was five. Well, you can guess which question came next: Are you gay? Umm...no...I just like the appearance of looking (or trying to look like a female). Typical of my wife, she starting giggling uncontrollably and then bolted out the door. She came back a few minutes later and wanted to know the truth. I had to say that it was true, otherwise why the info about it on the computer? By nature I am VERY non-confrontational, so I was surprised by my calm demeanor. I still felt like vomiting, however. I felt hopeful because she didn't threaten to leave me or tell anybody else (even though I know she would). She just keep giggling about it, which in turn got me to laughing about it. Here is where the story steps into the Twilight Zone. She thinks I made the whole thing up as a practical joke just to make her laugh. I was both relieved and VERY disappointed. Not really sure what to do at this point. For those of you who say "For crying out loud, come out already!", it's not easy when you have a child. I have to consider the impact on my daughter first. I am less concerned about how it will affect the marriage because it's a mess anyway, as it has many, many problems (for starters, she had an affair). Since then, she has made a joke or two about it but basically has dropped it, although her attitude at one point led me to believe she would be repulsed by the idea.
Again, if she believed that I really am a cd'er she would tell the WHOLE WORLD (and any other potential life forms out there). Not really sure why I posted this....just wanted to vent I guess. Thanks for listening.